"Just to Love"
By: Laney Sanchez
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Phew...lotsa thank yous on the last chapter. But since I haven't posted now...there aren't any new ones. So no thanks yous for this chapter ^.^;;;
I want to stress something before you read this chapter. I'm including music in this chapter. The music is called "Someday the Dream Will End". It makes the selection I chose it for much more powerful IMHO. You can download it off Morpheus or prolly Napster or any other music sharing system. It's from Final Fantasy 10. So I suggest to find it you type in "FF10" or "FFX" as a keyword under audio. It should come up. Play the music when you see this: ***
Just a suggestion and it's just for fun. Here goes. Note at the bottom.
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Chapter 20 ~ 'I Trusted You!'
"Before yous saying ANYTING..." Spot began, pulling his top hat off. "It was just so dats no one would get suspicious. Don't yous start tinkin I's did it cause I's like yous"
There was a few minutes of silence.
Spot was a little surprised to see that Reina didn't turn around or react. "Oh geeze...please tell me she ain't over dere blushin and romanticin' bout dat one little peck. It didn't even mean anyting!" his mind seemed to complain.
He sighed. It had only been to get that moron, Vanderbelt, away from the both of them before Spot couldn't hold back and had to beat his brains out. He just hoped it hadn't resulted in leading Reina to believe something else...
His mind continued to rant. "Dats da problem wit goil-"
Reina turned around slowly.
Her expression wasn't what he had expected.
She wasn't relived, blushing or grateful.
She wore a look of pure anger, and pure hatred on her face.
Spot eyes her suspiciously. "What's dat look for?" he shot. He watched her like she was a cobra, about to strike.
Then it happened. Reina ran forward and slapped her hand across his face HARD. Spot was forced to stumble back a bit from the force of the slap. He had his head turned away but slowly looked over at her. His hand drifted to his face and gently touched it. Reina had slapped him so hard that a faint red mark had appeared.
Punching was one thing, but getting slapped was quite another. At least for Spot.
Spot looked at her with confusion and anger. "What da HELL WAS DAT FOR?!"
Reina advanced on him once more. However this time Spot noticed and backed up right away.
Reina felt her ankle give out and she slipped. An accident caused from the heels she was wearing. She didn't like them, nor was she use to them. They made walking so difficult.
She fell forward into Spot's arms.
Spot held her for a minute, eyeing her like she was a bomb.
When she didn't react or look up, Spot got a little worried. He didn't think he had ever seen Kitty THAT mad.
Suddenly she did something else he would've never thought he'd see her do.
She was trembling. ***
Trembling hard in his arms.
Spot held her as she looked up at him. Her eyes burned with pain. There were again no tears, but the pain and hurt were definitely there. However even that didn't compare to the look of betrayal that was there as well.
"Kitty-"
"My name is Reina..." she paused, for only a moment then continued with more volume. "It's REINA!" she screamed in fury, almost hatred. She stood up a bit and backed away from his embrace. Her voice trembled like it was about to break into a full on roar.
"Reina...I's-"
"Don't you even DARE say sorry!" she spat. Reina's hands were clenched into fists at her side and she was shaking still. Only now Spot was sure that she was shaking in rage. Her eyes narrowed on him. "I TRUSTED YOU!"
"What do yous mean!?" Spot yelled, suddenly pissed off and very confused.
"I KNOW you had a plan to get rid of me Spot!! I'm not dumb!! Did you HONESTLY think I didn't hear that greasy man explain it all in front of my face?!!"
Spot suddenly looked down. He actually had-
"...Or did you forget?!" her voice said, thick with venom. She had captured his thoughts in words. "Well, let me remind you Spot!"
"'Aw...what happened sonny? ...Your little plan backfire?'" Reina spat, reciting Greaseball's last words to Spot before he had whisked her off to the bordello. Reina took a step back away from Spot like his was some sort of horrid insect that she was ready to kill.
"You ... you have no right to say ANYTHING to me!!"
"I'se came here ta save yous!!!!" he bellowed, his own voice raising in anger. Spot took a step towards her, not caring if she hit him again. "I'se spent TWENTY of me savings on yous sorry ass!!"
Then he looked down for only a moment. His voice seemed as if it had choked off. He found it difficult to say the next part. "Kid wanted yous back anyways...and do yous tink dat if I had meant it, I would've come wid 'im?" he confessed, his voice softening a bit.
"Please Spot! Don't glorify your actions. You're not some hero or anything..."
Spot then looked back up and if looks could kill, Reina would've been dead. "Yous look..."
"No YOU look...if you were sorry and if you had ONE SHRED of humanity in your heart Spot Conlon, you wouldn't have done ANYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!" she screamed.
Spot backed off but still glared at her. "I...I...actually TRUSTED you...I don't know WHY I did...but...I did Spot..." she said, her voice calming down a little. She looked at the floor. "You were always mean to me...and ...I KNEW you didn't like me...but I would've never thought..."
She didn't finish her sentence. She only closed her eyes in pain, turning her head away.
"Well, it's too late Spot..." she said, now seeming so close, yet so far away.
"I'm staying"
Spot's eyes widened in actual horror. He then looked at her like she was insane. "Yous lost it?!" he yelled, suddenly desperate to change her mind. Spot stepped closer to her, and grasped her shoulders tightly.
"Do yous know what dey do ta goils in dis place?!"
"Yes. I DO know...and I accept that" she said suddenly, throwing his hands off her shoulders and backing up even more.
"But why?! I mean-" Spot stepped back and shot her a look of pity. "Yous is more dumber den I tought"
Reina opened her eyes and glared at him once more. The fury had returned.
"Dumb?! You're one to talk!!" she screamed.
Spot only nodded his head no. "No's Reina. I's can understand dat yous is hurt...okay fine. I's can understand dat yous hate me right now...dat too is fine. But anyone who has half a brain would know better"
"I have NO ONE SPOT!!" she yelled in pure pain. "I have no one!! Not you, not my parents, not Kid, NOT ANYONE!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!!" she screamed and ran at him. She began beating her fists against his chest. Anything to take out her pain...anything to make him feel what she was going through.
Spot stood still though and slowly put his arms around her. Reina's beating got softer and weaker until she gave up. Her voice broken. "...I ...have nothing..."
Suddenly Spot didn't feel like yelling. He just held her as she trembled. Reina didn't yell anymore either.
He thought she would have been crying for sure, but as she lifted her head and looked into his eyes, he could see torment and pain. But still no tears.
He couldn't help but feel a bit of admiration mixed with pity for her. She was so strong...
But so strong to the point that she didn't have it in her to cry.
"Reina..." he began, watching her a bit oddly. "Why don't yous cry...?"
"...No. I just can't..." she simply answered. Her voice was emotionless now.
"Why?"
"......Because. I just can't"
Both stood that way for a while. Spot didn't feel like himself. However for once he found it hard to care. He was sick and tired of not being able to enjoy life as he had before Reina had come around. He was also sick of the constant feeling of confusion that was pent up inside of him...
It was time to move on. It was also time to just take what had been handed to him. He might not have liked Reina but he wasn't going to let her stay at the bordello. He would throw her over his shoulder and walk out if he had to. Not because he had feelings for her...but because he had feelings for Moira. He had failed to save Moira from this place, and now...in this moment he could almost feel her.
She wouldn't have wanted him to make the same mistake with another soul.
"Reina...I's won't let yous stay 'ere. I let dis place destroy Moira -"
"Moira?"
Spot quickly continued. "I won't let it take anudder soul if I's can 'elp it"
He looked as if the memory itself was tearing him to shreds but also that he was determined to somehow defeat it.
Reina sighed. Her voice hurt from screaming. In fact she had a headache. She closed her eyes and drew in a deep breath. It just felt good to suddenly relax. She nodded her head and let the breath escape her lips. She was done thinking...for now.
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Well I finished chapter 21 and was going to have it posted along with 19 and 20...but guess what? Gay-OL (my term for AOL) decided to give me an error as I was saving it. So I had to restart AOL and it also decided that ...nah, that long chapter wasn't important...so it didn't save it. I'm seething right now and all I can say is that chapter 21 may not be up for awhile. In case you guys were wondering. I need to find the steam to write it all over again...which won't be fun because incidentally...chapter 21 was like my favorite and longest chapter. Sorry to complain ...^.^;;
By: Laney Sanchez
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Phew...lotsa thank yous on the last chapter. But since I haven't posted now...there aren't any new ones. So no thanks yous for this chapter ^.^;;;
I want to stress something before you read this chapter. I'm including music in this chapter. The music is called "Someday the Dream Will End". It makes the selection I chose it for much more powerful IMHO. You can download it off Morpheus or prolly Napster or any other music sharing system. It's from Final Fantasy 10. So I suggest to find it you type in "FF10" or "FFX" as a keyword under audio. It should come up. Play the music when you see this: ***
Just a suggestion and it's just for fun. Here goes. Note at the bottom.
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
Chapter 20 ~ 'I Trusted You!'
"Before yous saying ANYTING..." Spot began, pulling his top hat off. "It was just so dats no one would get suspicious. Don't yous start tinkin I's did it cause I's like yous"
There was a few minutes of silence.
Spot was a little surprised to see that Reina didn't turn around or react. "Oh geeze...please tell me she ain't over dere blushin and romanticin' bout dat one little peck. It didn't even mean anyting!" his mind seemed to complain.
He sighed. It had only been to get that moron, Vanderbelt, away from the both of them before Spot couldn't hold back and had to beat his brains out. He just hoped it hadn't resulted in leading Reina to believe something else...
His mind continued to rant. "Dats da problem wit goil-"
Reina turned around slowly.
Her expression wasn't what he had expected.
She wasn't relived, blushing or grateful.
She wore a look of pure anger, and pure hatred on her face.
Spot eyes her suspiciously. "What's dat look for?" he shot. He watched her like she was a cobra, about to strike.
Then it happened. Reina ran forward and slapped her hand across his face HARD. Spot was forced to stumble back a bit from the force of the slap. He had his head turned away but slowly looked over at her. His hand drifted to his face and gently touched it. Reina had slapped him so hard that a faint red mark had appeared.
Punching was one thing, but getting slapped was quite another. At least for Spot.
Spot looked at her with confusion and anger. "What da HELL WAS DAT FOR?!"
Reina advanced on him once more. However this time Spot noticed and backed up right away.
Reina felt her ankle give out and she slipped. An accident caused from the heels she was wearing. She didn't like them, nor was she use to them. They made walking so difficult.
She fell forward into Spot's arms.
Spot held her for a minute, eyeing her like she was a bomb.
When she didn't react or look up, Spot got a little worried. He didn't think he had ever seen Kitty THAT mad.
Suddenly she did something else he would've never thought he'd see her do.
She was trembling. ***
Trembling hard in his arms.
Spot held her as she looked up at him. Her eyes burned with pain. There were again no tears, but the pain and hurt were definitely there. However even that didn't compare to the look of betrayal that was there as well.
"Kitty-"
"My name is Reina..." she paused, for only a moment then continued with more volume. "It's REINA!" she screamed in fury, almost hatred. She stood up a bit and backed away from his embrace. Her voice trembled like it was about to break into a full on roar.
"Reina...I's-"
"Don't you even DARE say sorry!" she spat. Reina's hands were clenched into fists at her side and she was shaking still. Only now Spot was sure that she was shaking in rage. Her eyes narrowed on him. "I TRUSTED YOU!"
"What do yous mean!?" Spot yelled, suddenly pissed off and very confused.
"I KNOW you had a plan to get rid of me Spot!! I'm not dumb!! Did you HONESTLY think I didn't hear that greasy man explain it all in front of my face?!!"
Spot suddenly looked down. He actually had-
"...Or did you forget?!" her voice said, thick with venom. She had captured his thoughts in words. "Well, let me remind you Spot!"
"'Aw...what happened sonny? ...Your little plan backfire?'" Reina spat, reciting Greaseball's last words to Spot before he had whisked her off to the bordello. Reina took a step back away from Spot like his was some sort of horrid insect that she was ready to kill.
"You ... you have no right to say ANYTHING to me!!"
"I'se came here ta save yous!!!!" he bellowed, his own voice raising in anger. Spot took a step towards her, not caring if she hit him again. "I'se spent TWENTY of me savings on yous sorry ass!!"
Then he looked down for only a moment. His voice seemed as if it had choked off. He found it difficult to say the next part. "Kid wanted yous back anyways...and do yous tink dat if I had meant it, I would've come wid 'im?" he confessed, his voice softening a bit.
"Please Spot! Don't glorify your actions. You're not some hero or anything..."
Spot then looked back up and if looks could kill, Reina would've been dead. "Yous look..."
"No YOU look...if you were sorry and if you had ONE SHRED of humanity in your heart Spot Conlon, you wouldn't have done ANYTHING IN THE FIRST PLACE!!" she screamed.
Spot backed off but still glared at her. "I...I...actually TRUSTED you...I don't know WHY I did...but...I did Spot..." she said, her voice calming down a little. She looked at the floor. "You were always mean to me...and ...I KNEW you didn't like me...but I would've never thought..."
She didn't finish her sentence. She only closed her eyes in pain, turning her head away.
"Well, it's too late Spot..." she said, now seeming so close, yet so far away.
"I'm staying"
Spot's eyes widened in actual horror. He then looked at her like she was insane. "Yous lost it?!" he yelled, suddenly desperate to change her mind. Spot stepped closer to her, and grasped her shoulders tightly.
"Do yous know what dey do ta goils in dis place?!"
"Yes. I DO know...and I accept that" she said suddenly, throwing his hands off her shoulders and backing up even more.
"But why?! I mean-" Spot stepped back and shot her a look of pity. "Yous is more dumber den I tought"
Reina opened her eyes and glared at him once more. The fury had returned.
"Dumb?! You're one to talk!!" she screamed.
Spot only nodded his head no. "No's Reina. I's can understand dat yous is hurt...okay fine. I's can understand dat yous hate me right now...dat too is fine. But anyone who has half a brain would know better"
"I have NO ONE SPOT!!" she yelled in pure pain. "I have no one!! Not you, not my parents, not Kid, NOT ANYONE!! DO YOU UNDERSTAND?!!" she screamed and ran at him. She began beating her fists against his chest. Anything to take out her pain...anything to make him feel what she was going through.
Spot stood still though and slowly put his arms around her. Reina's beating got softer and weaker until she gave up. Her voice broken. "...I ...have nothing..."
Suddenly Spot didn't feel like yelling. He just held her as she trembled. Reina didn't yell anymore either.
He thought she would have been crying for sure, but as she lifted her head and looked into his eyes, he could see torment and pain. But still no tears.
He couldn't help but feel a bit of admiration mixed with pity for her. She was so strong...
But so strong to the point that she didn't have it in her to cry.
"Reina..." he began, watching her a bit oddly. "Why don't yous cry...?"
"...No. I just can't..." she simply answered. Her voice was emotionless now.
"Why?"
"......Because. I just can't"
Both stood that way for a while. Spot didn't feel like himself. However for once he found it hard to care. He was sick and tired of not being able to enjoy life as he had before Reina had come around. He was also sick of the constant feeling of confusion that was pent up inside of him...
It was time to move on. It was also time to just take what had been handed to him. He might not have liked Reina but he wasn't going to let her stay at the bordello. He would throw her over his shoulder and walk out if he had to. Not because he had feelings for her...but because he had feelings for Moira. He had failed to save Moira from this place, and now...in this moment he could almost feel her.
She wouldn't have wanted him to make the same mistake with another soul.
"Reina...I's won't let yous stay 'ere. I let dis place destroy Moira -"
"Moira?"
Spot quickly continued. "I won't let it take anudder soul if I's can 'elp it"
He looked as if the memory itself was tearing him to shreds but also that he was determined to somehow defeat it.
Reina sighed. Her voice hurt from screaming. In fact she had a headache. She closed her eyes and drew in a deep breath. It just felt good to suddenly relax. She nodded her head and let the breath escape her lips. She was done thinking...for now.
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Well I finished chapter 21 and was going to have it posted along with 19 and 20...but guess what? Gay-OL (my term for AOL) decided to give me an error as I was saving it. So I had to restart AOL and it also decided that ...nah, that long chapter wasn't important...so it didn't save it. I'm seething right now and all I can say is that chapter 21 may not be up for awhile. In case you guys were wondering. I need to find the steam to write it all over again...which won't be fun because incidentally...chapter 21 was like my favorite and longest chapter. Sorry to complain ...^.^;;