~Saying something stupid~
Disclaimer:
Hi, I'm here again!
Here's a new chapter from this weird story. But you guys really seem to like it!
I'm listening to Lifehouse at the moment. Great band! Luckily you don't here me sing. * g *
I'm German so please excuse all my faults!!!
WARNING: maybe NC-17 stuff in this chapter!!!! Just read it if you can handle it. Otherwise wait for the next chapter because I'm gonna write what happened in this one. But not as detailed as in this chapter…
On with chapter 5
I can't promise that this story is going to turn out "nice".
Please read and review!
~Saying something stupid~
~Matt's POV~
"Do you want to sleep with me?", Tai asked.
He asked me what? I couldn't believe it. I was stunned for several moments.
"Matt? Did I say something wrong?", Tai asked me worriedly.
Oh Tai, if you knew it sooner.
"In some way, yes.", I responded. I was afraid. Very afraid. Not of him, actually. I was afraid of the whole situation. I remembered everything clearly now…
"But Matt… it was just a normal question. Okay, not normal nut I don't know what was so wrong about it." Man, he was very confused. I thought I had to explain everything to him. This was going to be embarrassing.
"A normal question? A normal question would have been: Matt, how are you? But it's okay. You couldn't have known this." You have to know that such questions make me angry. Really angry. But he really couldn't have known this. I had to tell him. I just had to.
"Matt, what's bothering you? You can tell me if you wanna.", Tai offered.
I took a deep breath and went with my right hand through my long blond hair.
I had to find a good start.
"Tai, life's not as easy as some people think it is. Life can be fun but it doesn't have to. Can you follow me?" Tai nodded. I went on.
"I mean it's nice from you that you asked me. But first, it's to early. And second…" I had to sigh, "I've been sexually abused by my father's brother."
Tai was shocked. His normally smiling eyes showed fear, rage and unsureness. I could tell that he didn't know what he could say.
"Matt, I'm sorry. I didn't know. I didn't want to offend you. You have to believe me." Tai was on the brink of tears.
"It's okay, Tai. And I know you long enough to believe you.", I gulped.
"But… why didn't you tell me about it. I… I mean… when did it happen?" One could guess that Tai was curious but I knew it better. He really cared for me. And if we wanted an intact relationship I had to trust him fully and tell him about my fears and sorrows.
I broke into tears. It was too much for me. I sobbed and cried uncontrollably.
Tai put his arms around me and tried to comfort me in every possible way. I was so lucky to had a so understanding boyfriend. Every other guy wouldn't want me anymore after I'd tell them I had been sexually abused by my uncle.
Okay, Tai could have broke up our relationship after he comforted me but I was sure that he wouldn't do this.
"Matt, everything's okay. I'm here. You can tell me everything if you want to. I'm your boyfriend. And I won't leave you. Promise."
Could he read my mind or what? After he told me that he wouldn't break up with me, I could tell him everything with a clear conscience.
"Okay. I trust you. But you have to promise that you won't tell anyone. Can I trust you, Yagami Taichi?", I asked him.
He kissed my now wet right cheek and told me that he would keep this secret. I stopped sobbing and now started really.
"I've been fourteen years old as it started. It was shortly after we visited the digital world the last time. I had to sleep at his' for two weeks 'cause my father had to go to Canada 'cause of his work. You know this already. I mean, that I've been at my uncle's apartment for this time." I made a pause. I can tell you that I shivered. Tai recognised this and embraced me harder. I took another deep breath and went straight on.
"The first three days everything went well. We played guitar and he even showed me how to play drums. I thought that this was quite cool. We talked about the things we did in the past months. I hadn't seen him for about half a year. And now I think that I better shouldn't have seen him this two weeks. But who would have known what'll happen? Anyways, these three days were cool if you can say this. Then it started. I've been sleeping on the sofa in the living room. That was no problem for me. I can sleep everywhere. But that's not the thing that interests you, is it? Okay. So I slept there and suddenly I heard footsteps from which I woke up. I just thought that he was gonna go to the toilet. I didn't expect anything else. So I turned over and tried to sleep again. And then I felt his hands on my butt. I was so scared. I mean, I've been fourteen years old, he was thirty- five. Who was obviously stronger? See. It was so disgusting and humiliating. I closed my eyes and wished it would be over soon. But my wishes weren't goin' to be granted. His hands wandered over my whole body. It made me sick. Really sick. He turned me on my backside and licked at my nipples, his hands were at my sex organ. He wanted to make me come by pumping me. Luckily he didn't manage it. On the other hand he insisted that somebody had to come and so he forced me to... suck him. I did as I was told. I didn't want him to hurt me. He came after a few minutes. But even this wasn't enough for him. He took my pants off and then raped me. It hurt so much, Tai. You can't imagine such an awful pain. And this has happened every following evening. And now I don't want sex. Can you understand me?" I started to cry again. All these drove out memories came floating back in my mind.
Tai comforted me. I felt so safe in his arms. I knew that he wasn't goin' to let such a terrible thing happen to me again. I was pretty sure of it.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?", Tai asked me.
"It was humiliating and embarrassing. Dad told me not to tell anyone. Just mom, dad, TK and you know about this. And I'm glad that only you know this. It's not so easy to deal with it, you know.", I explained.
"Okay. I understand you. But it's good that you told me 'bout it. I love you!", Tai said while holding me in his strong arms.
"You really still love me?" I was afraid of his answer.
"Sure thing, little one. I still love you. I love you for about six years, I love you now and I will love you always. Believe me." Tai meant this honestly. I was pretty sure of it. He never lied when it came to such important things.
"Thanks, Tai. Love you, too!"
I went through my hair the whole time. That calmed me down. It still does today. Mommy did this when I was younger. And now Tai does it.
It was so comfortable that I fell into sleep shortly after that.
~End of chapter 5~
Author's Note:
Ohh, poor Yama-chan! Now Tai knows his secret. But will he really keep it?
Try to write the sixth chapter ASAP. What do you think.
Please, don't sue me. Something similar happened to me as I was a little child.
No one raped me but it still was a very weird experience.
Please review.
Triple P
Disclaimer:
Hi, I'm here again!
Here's a new chapter from this weird story. But you guys really seem to like it!
I'm listening to Lifehouse at the moment. Great band! Luckily you don't here me sing. * g *
I'm German so please excuse all my faults!!!
WARNING: maybe NC-17 stuff in this chapter!!!! Just read it if you can handle it. Otherwise wait for the next chapter because I'm gonna write what happened in this one. But not as detailed as in this chapter…
On with chapter 5
I can't promise that this story is going to turn out "nice".
Please read and review!
~Saying something stupid~
~Matt's POV~
"Do you want to sleep with me?", Tai asked.
He asked me what? I couldn't believe it. I was stunned for several moments.
"Matt? Did I say something wrong?", Tai asked me worriedly.
Oh Tai, if you knew it sooner.
"In some way, yes.", I responded. I was afraid. Very afraid. Not of him, actually. I was afraid of the whole situation. I remembered everything clearly now…
"But Matt… it was just a normal question. Okay, not normal nut I don't know what was so wrong about it." Man, he was very confused. I thought I had to explain everything to him. This was going to be embarrassing.
"A normal question? A normal question would have been: Matt, how are you? But it's okay. You couldn't have known this." You have to know that such questions make me angry. Really angry. But he really couldn't have known this. I had to tell him. I just had to.
"Matt, what's bothering you? You can tell me if you wanna.", Tai offered.
I took a deep breath and went with my right hand through my long blond hair.
I had to find a good start.
"Tai, life's not as easy as some people think it is. Life can be fun but it doesn't have to. Can you follow me?" Tai nodded. I went on.
"I mean it's nice from you that you asked me. But first, it's to early. And second…" I had to sigh, "I've been sexually abused by my father's brother."
Tai was shocked. His normally smiling eyes showed fear, rage and unsureness. I could tell that he didn't know what he could say.
"Matt, I'm sorry. I didn't know. I didn't want to offend you. You have to believe me." Tai was on the brink of tears.
"It's okay, Tai. And I know you long enough to believe you.", I gulped.
"But… why didn't you tell me about it. I… I mean… when did it happen?" One could guess that Tai was curious but I knew it better. He really cared for me. And if we wanted an intact relationship I had to trust him fully and tell him about my fears and sorrows.
I broke into tears. It was too much for me. I sobbed and cried uncontrollably.
Tai put his arms around me and tried to comfort me in every possible way. I was so lucky to had a so understanding boyfriend. Every other guy wouldn't want me anymore after I'd tell them I had been sexually abused by my uncle.
Okay, Tai could have broke up our relationship after he comforted me but I was sure that he wouldn't do this.
"Matt, everything's okay. I'm here. You can tell me everything if you want to. I'm your boyfriend. And I won't leave you. Promise."
Could he read my mind or what? After he told me that he wouldn't break up with me, I could tell him everything with a clear conscience.
"Okay. I trust you. But you have to promise that you won't tell anyone. Can I trust you, Yagami Taichi?", I asked him.
He kissed my now wet right cheek and told me that he would keep this secret. I stopped sobbing and now started really.
"I've been fourteen years old as it started. It was shortly after we visited the digital world the last time. I had to sleep at his' for two weeks 'cause my father had to go to Canada 'cause of his work. You know this already. I mean, that I've been at my uncle's apartment for this time." I made a pause. I can tell you that I shivered. Tai recognised this and embraced me harder. I took another deep breath and went straight on.
"The first three days everything went well. We played guitar and he even showed me how to play drums. I thought that this was quite cool. We talked about the things we did in the past months. I hadn't seen him for about half a year. And now I think that I better shouldn't have seen him this two weeks. But who would have known what'll happen? Anyways, these three days were cool if you can say this. Then it started. I've been sleeping on the sofa in the living room. That was no problem for me. I can sleep everywhere. But that's not the thing that interests you, is it? Okay. So I slept there and suddenly I heard footsteps from which I woke up. I just thought that he was gonna go to the toilet. I didn't expect anything else. So I turned over and tried to sleep again. And then I felt his hands on my butt. I was so scared. I mean, I've been fourteen years old, he was thirty- five. Who was obviously stronger? See. It was so disgusting and humiliating. I closed my eyes and wished it would be over soon. But my wishes weren't goin' to be granted. His hands wandered over my whole body. It made me sick. Really sick. He turned me on my backside and licked at my nipples, his hands were at my sex organ. He wanted to make me come by pumping me. Luckily he didn't manage it. On the other hand he insisted that somebody had to come and so he forced me to... suck him. I did as I was told. I didn't want him to hurt me. He came after a few minutes. But even this wasn't enough for him. He took my pants off and then raped me. It hurt so much, Tai. You can't imagine such an awful pain. And this has happened every following evening. And now I don't want sex. Can you understand me?" I started to cry again. All these drove out memories came floating back in my mind.
Tai comforted me. I felt so safe in his arms. I knew that he wasn't goin' to let such a terrible thing happen to me again. I was pretty sure of it.
"Why didn't you tell me earlier?", Tai asked me.
"It was humiliating and embarrassing. Dad told me not to tell anyone. Just mom, dad, TK and you know about this. And I'm glad that only you know this. It's not so easy to deal with it, you know.", I explained.
"Okay. I understand you. But it's good that you told me 'bout it. I love you!", Tai said while holding me in his strong arms.
"You really still love me?" I was afraid of his answer.
"Sure thing, little one. I still love you. I love you for about six years, I love you now and I will love you always. Believe me." Tai meant this honestly. I was pretty sure of it. He never lied when it came to such important things.
"Thanks, Tai. Love you, too!"
I went through my hair the whole time. That calmed me down. It still does today. Mommy did this when I was younger. And now Tai does it.
It was so comfortable that I fell into sleep shortly after that.
~End of chapter 5~
Author's Note:
Ohh, poor Yama-chan! Now Tai knows his secret. But will he really keep it?
Try to write the sixth chapter ASAP. What do you think.
Please, don't sue me. Something similar happened to me as I was a little child.
No one raped me but it still was a very weird experience.
Please review.
Triple P