~Saying something stupid~
Disclaimer:
Thanks for the 45th review, ASHERBOB! This urges me to continue! ^_^
And also thanks to the other reviewers!
I appreciate that!
Okay, I can't kill Matt, can I? I won't kill this super cute guy.
He just has to suffer.
Man, I'm evil! And cruel! And cute…
Oh, I think this is going to o far.
Anyways, on with the fic!
~Saying something stupid~
~Matt's POV~
Where am I? It's so dark and I'm cold.
What happened?
I tried to move my arms, my legs but it was in vain.
I couldn't move.
I couldn't remember anything!
It was like I have been in a bad movie or something.
I felt so helpless, so alone.
Suddenly I heard voices. I wasn't alone.
I couldn't make out what the persons were saying. I just heard them.
And that made me afraid. Why couldn't I understand them?
I couldn't remember.
I just felt a very sharp pain. I didn't understand why I felt this sharp pain. I mean, I couldn't move? And how can I feel pain if I can't move?
Another thing was that I couldn't make out where it hurt.
I felt this sharp pain, sure. But where did it hurt?
Those voices were driving me crazy!
No real words or sentences. Jut weird sounds.
If this was heaven, I didn't want to know what hell is like.
Suddenly a short film was running in front of my inner eye. (AN: If I can say this so…)
I saw a blonde boy running across a street. He was crying. He had long blond hair. As this boy was five feet away from the kerb, a car hit him.
And this was the short film.
Who was this boy? Why did I see this film?
Suddenly it hit me.
This blonde was me! I was this boy who had been hit by the car.
Damn.
All memories came floating back.
The good ones as well as the bad ones.
Tai kissed me in the rain…
Tai asked me if I wanted to sleep with him…
I told him about my uncle…
I was crying…
Tai was comforting me…
We were in school…
He shouted this secret out…
I ran out of the building…
Some guys called ma a fag…
The car hit me…
These memories just have been scraps but these scraps were enough to understand why the car hit me.
Think Matt, think…
Where are you?
Could it be that I was in the hospital?
Sure thing. Where else could I be?
Man, I felt horrible.
But I thought that I was getting better and better every minute.
I didn't know why but it was like this.
Suddenly I could open my eyes.
The bright light hit my eyes and I had to close them because of this.
"Matt, Matt? Can you hear me?"
I heard a person say this. The best thing was that I could understand what this person asked me.
I tried to answer the question but my lungs hurt.
I opened my mouth, sure, but no words came out.
"He's awake."
Another person.
Were these doctors, or what?
"Son, can you hear me?", a very masculine voice asked.
I opened my eyes. New try, new luck, I thought.
The light wasn't as bright as before.
Maybe the persons dimmed it a bit or something.
"Daddy?", I asked. My voice was kinda lost.
"Oh Matt. We thought we'd lost you!", my dad said and put his arms around me.
I hissed. My back hurt.
"Oh, sorry.", my dad excused himself and sat down on a chair next to my white bed.
"How are you, Matt?"
"Mom?"
I couldn't believe it. My mom was there, too.
"Yeah. I'm here."
She took my left hand in her hands. She was sitting on the left side of my bed.
"Thanks to God that you're alive!", my father said and I could see small tears flowing down his cheeks.
I could tell that he and mom have cried before. Their eyes were red from it and they had dark circles under their eyes.
How long have I been unconscious?
I mean, if they had dark circles under their eyes, they didn't sleep.
"How long..?" I had to cough. I could taste blood.
"Have you been unconscious? That's the question you wanted to ask, isn't it?", my dad asked and looked worried. Like mom.
I nodded my head.
"For about two days. That car got you very bad.", my mom said.
Oh man. I felt guilty. They suffered because of me.
"Matt, Takeru said me that you ran cross that street 'cause Tai said something."
Damn, why did TK tell them?
I nodded my head and expected a lecture like 'Matt, why did you tell him about my brother?', 'Matt, why are you gay?' and stuff.
"I have to go now. Have got a meeting with my boss.", my mom said suddenly.
She gave me a kiss on my bandaged forehead.
Then she left the room.
"Matt, I know that Tai hurt your feelings. That was indeed very stupid. But I know that you love him. So, forgive him."
"Did Tai ask you to tell me that?", I asked.
I hated it when people tried to force me to do something.
"No, he didn't. But I know that you love him."
"That's not the point. But he broke a promise. I can't understand why you defend him."
"I don't defend him but I know that you love him. And I think that no one will punish you 'cause you aren't straight.", my father said.
I couldn't understand why he was so positive.
I mean, he told me not to tell anyone that his brother, my uncle, raped me.
"Daddy. You don't know what these students called me! They said that I like it hard and stuff. You know how much that hurts?", I said on the brink of tears.
My father looked shocked.
"I didn't know that they called you that. Don't hear it. These are stupid human beings."
"You say this so easily. You weren't there.", I said. A few tears came pouring outta my eyes.
"I haven't been there, sure."
"See. You don't know how negative the people are. I can't forgive Tai. Not now, never!"
My father looked hurt.
I knew that he liked Tai. He wanted me to be happy.
And so he said that I should forgive him.
But my heart broke into thousand pieces when Tai said it.
Normally I don't bear grudges but this time it was too much.
Tai really hurt my feelings.
I didn't know why my father could forgive him.
I really didn't understand.
Then somebody knocked on the door.
My voice was lost once more, so my father answered.
"Come in, the door's open."
The white piece of plastic opened and I saw a brunette young man enter the room.
Tai.
I gasped.
~End of chapter ten~
Author's Note:
Another cliffhanger…
I know that this chapter is very weird but I didn't know how to go on.
The next chapter is hopefully going to be better.
Please review.
I just continue if I get more than 5 reviews.
So, please review 'cause I WANT to continue…
Disclaimer:
Thanks for the 45th review, ASHERBOB! This urges me to continue! ^_^
And also thanks to the other reviewers!
I appreciate that!
Okay, I can't kill Matt, can I? I won't kill this super cute guy.
He just has to suffer.
Man, I'm evil! And cruel! And cute…
Oh, I think this is going to o far.
Anyways, on with the fic!
~Saying something stupid~
~Matt's POV~
Where am I? It's so dark and I'm cold.
What happened?
I tried to move my arms, my legs but it was in vain.
I couldn't move.
I couldn't remember anything!
It was like I have been in a bad movie or something.
I felt so helpless, so alone.
Suddenly I heard voices. I wasn't alone.
I couldn't make out what the persons were saying. I just heard them.
And that made me afraid. Why couldn't I understand them?
I couldn't remember.
I just felt a very sharp pain. I didn't understand why I felt this sharp pain. I mean, I couldn't move? And how can I feel pain if I can't move?
Another thing was that I couldn't make out where it hurt.
I felt this sharp pain, sure. But where did it hurt?
Those voices were driving me crazy!
No real words or sentences. Jut weird sounds.
If this was heaven, I didn't want to know what hell is like.
Suddenly a short film was running in front of my inner eye. (AN: If I can say this so…)
I saw a blonde boy running across a street. He was crying. He had long blond hair. As this boy was five feet away from the kerb, a car hit him.
And this was the short film.
Who was this boy? Why did I see this film?
Suddenly it hit me.
This blonde was me! I was this boy who had been hit by the car.
Damn.
All memories came floating back.
The good ones as well as the bad ones.
Tai kissed me in the rain…
Tai asked me if I wanted to sleep with him…
I told him about my uncle…
I was crying…
Tai was comforting me…
We were in school…
He shouted this secret out…
I ran out of the building…
Some guys called ma a fag…
The car hit me…
These memories just have been scraps but these scraps were enough to understand why the car hit me.
Think Matt, think…
Where are you?
Could it be that I was in the hospital?
Sure thing. Where else could I be?
Man, I felt horrible.
But I thought that I was getting better and better every minute.
I didn't know why but it was like this.
Suddenly I could open my eyes.
The bright light hit my eyes and I had to close them because of this.
"Matt, Matt? Can you hear me?"
I heard a person say this. The best thing was that I could understand what this person asked me.
I tried to answer the question but my lungs hurt.
I opened my mouth, sure, but no words came out.
"He's awake."
Another person.
Were these doctors, or what?
"Son, can you hear me?", a very masculine voice asked.
I opened my eyes. New try, new luck, I thought.
The light wasn't as bright as before.
Maybe the persons dimmed it a bit or something.
"Daddy?", I asked. My voice was kinda lost.
"Oh Matt. We thought we'd lost you!", my dad said and put his arms around me.
I hissed. My back hurt.
"Oh, sorry.", my dad excused himself and sat down on a chair next to my white bed.
"How are you, Matt?"
"Mom?"
I couldn't believe it. My mom was there, too.
"Yeah. I'm here."
She took my left hand in her hands. She was sitting on the left side of my bed.
"Thanks to God that you're alive!", my father said and I could see small tears flowing down his cheeks.
I could tell that he and mom have cried before. Their eyes were red from it and they had dark circles under their eyes.
How long have I been unconscious?
I mean, if they had dark circles under their eyes, they didn't sleep.
"How long..?" I had to cough. I could taste blood.
"Have you been unconscious? That's the question you wanted to ask, isn't it?", my dad asked and looked worried. Like mom.
I nodded my head.
"For about two days. That car got you very bad.", my mom said.
Oh man. I felt guilty. They suffered because of me.
"Matt, Takeru said me that you ran cross that street 'cause Tai said something."
Damn, why did TK tell them?
I nodded my head and expected a lecture like 'Matt, why did you tell him about my brother?', 'Matt, why are you gay?' and stuff.
"I have to go now. Have got a meeting with my boss.", my mom said suddenly.
She gave me a kiss on my bandaged forehead.
Then she left the room.
"Matt, I know that Tai hurt your feelings. That was indeed very stupid. But I know that you love him. So, forgive him."
"Did Tai ask you to tell me that?", I asked.
I hated it when people tried to force me to do something.
"No, he didn't. But I know that you love him."
"That's not the point. But he broke a promise. I can't understand why you defend him."
"I don't defend him but I know that you love him. And I think that no one will punish you 'cause you aren't straight.", my father said.
I couldn't understand why he was so positive.
I mean, he told me not to tell anyone that his brother, my uncle, raped me.
"Daddy. You don't know what these students called me! They said that I like it hard and stuff. You know how much that hurts?", I said on the brink of tears.
My father looked shocked.
"I didn't know that they called you that. Don't hear it. These are stupid human beings."
"You say this so easily. You weren't there.", I said. A few tears came pouring outta my eyes.
"I haven't been there, sure."
"See. You don't know how negative the people are. I can't forgive Tai. Not now, never!"
My father looked hurt.
I knew that he liked Tai. He wanted me to be happy.
And so he said that I should forgive him.
But my heart broke into thousand pieces when Tai said it.
Normally I don't bear grudges but this time it was too much.
Tai really hurt my feelings.
I didn't know why my father could forgive him.
I really didn't understand.
Then somebody knocked on the door.
My voice was lost once more, so my father answered.
"Come in, the door's open."
The white piece of plastic opened and I saw a brunette young man enter the room.
Tai.
I gasped.
~End of chapter ten~
Author's Note:
Another cliffhanger…
I know that this chapter is very weird but I didn't know how to go on.
The next chapter is hopefully going to be better.
Please review.
I just continue if I get more than 5 reviews.
So, please review 'cause I WANT to continue…