Authors note: Sorry if she sounds a bit mature for her age but she' s probably going to sound mature in this chapter as well, I'm not sure how a five year old would react to it! Anyway remember Yen and Jodie? Well there going to turn up in this chapter. Enjoy and review!

Chapter 12 (Rinoa's POV)

A few days' later things were going back to normal, I could finally walk again and I was going back to school today.

My dad pulled the car up to the front gates of the school. My dad planted a kiss on my head and then I stepped out of the car.

"Hi Rinoa" someone said behind me. I turned around to see it was Jasmine, Mary-Ann's daughter. She went to my school too and we were quite good friends.

"Hi Jasmine" I said cheerfully.

"Are you okay, my mom said you were a bit upset at your birthday"

"I'm fine" she probably didn't know exactly what was going on. I smiled at her and she smiled back at me.

"Would you like to come with me to our classroom?"

"Sure" I said, as we walked into the school and then down the hallway towards our classroom.

My teacher was called Miss Wray. She was quite young and she had short blond hair that came to her shoulders and she had blue eyes. A few people didn't like her but I did, she was a really nice teacher.

It was my first year in school so we didn't have hard lessons or anything, we mainly read stories and wrote about them or paint pictures.

I looked over across the room to where I saw Yen and Jodie sat at a table. They were really popular and intelligent at our school and everyone wanted to be there friend.

"Right children, I'd like you to think of someone special in your life and draw pictures that resemble the person"

Jasmine who was sat next to me looked at me and said "Who are you gonna draw about?"

There was only one person I was going to draw about.

"My mommy" she gave me a smile and said "same here"

I got a piece of paper and a pencil; I wanted to make this special so I thought for a while.

On my piece of paper I drew a piano and musical notes. Well I tried to draw, I'm okay at art but I can't draw difficult things.

Since it was her funeral next week I drew a candle and a rose. Though it upset me about it I tried to draw a gravestone with the word 'Mommy' on it.

"So Rinoa, who are you drawing about?"

I looked up to see Yen and Jodie together.

"Year Rinoa, tell us" Jodie added to Yen's question.

"My mom"

They both looked at each other with a grin on their faces then turned back to me.

"I saw something on the news the other day about Julia being in a car crash." Yen said, then Jodie finished what she was saying. "It said that she and you were in the car crash and she died"

I held my head down and nodded.

Yen spoke again " my mom said there was a reason that the car crashed"

What were they trying to get at?

"My dad said that it was because the brakes weren't working" I said as a tear came down my face, I quickly wiped it away so no one would notice.

Jodie came down and whispered in my ear " Or maybe her daughter distracted her"

She stood up and took Yen's arm and they walked away.

They think my mom died because of me?

I can't remember much of what happened in the car crash. All I can remember is leaving the garage and then going down the road. I could only just remember seeing a van coming straight in front of us.

What if I did distract her?

What if I had gone in a temper and caused her to die?

I stood up and I could feel tears falling from my eyes.

I tried to speak but I couldn't, then I screamed out at the top of my lungs " I didn't mean to " then ran out of the room crying and locked myself in the toilet.

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"Rinoa, please get out of the toilet".

My teacher had been trying to get me out of there for a while. I just ignored her and kept thinking of what Jodie had just said, tears still streaming down my face.

"Leave me alone" I said through my tears.

Did I kill my mother?

What if what Jodie said was true?

How would she know?

"Rinoa I know you may be upset but this isn't going to help"

I stood up and opened the toilet door.

"Did I kill her?"

She looked at me confused and whipped my eyes.

"What do you mean?"

"Did I kill mommy?"

She pushed my hair behind my shoulder, still looking confused.

"Of course you didn't"

"You don't know that, you wasn't there"

"I know but I heard it on the news, the brakes didn't work"

I nodded my head and walked out of the toilets and back into my classroom as my teacher followed after. I went back to my seat and started to paint my picture.

I felt upset and it didn't feel like everything was as colourful as it seemed, I felt blue inside.

Yen walked behind me with some red paint in her hand, she pretended to trip over and poured it over me.

"Oops sorry" she said sarcastically with a smile on her face. I could hear a few kids around me laughing.

"You meant to do that on purpose" I said angrily at her, she just smiled proudly and walked away, but before she could I pounced on her and we started fighting until we were dragged away by some teachers. My teacher dragged me out of the room and I heard Yen call out from behind me "You killed your mother"

Chapter 13 (Rinoa's pov)

I sat on the bed in the nurses' office; I wasn't in trouble because everyone knew I was going through a hard time. They made me sit in the nurses' office for the rest of the day. I still had to work but just not go to class. I didn't mind being in there alone and at breaks Jasmine was allowed to see me. It was quite boring in the room, as there was nothing really in it. It was just…white. White walls, white bed, white table and a grey chair. It reminded me of when I was in hospital.

I had some spare clothes on because of Yen spilling paint all over me. I don't like Jodie or Yen. They're nice to everyone else but me. They're always ganging up on me and accusing me of things, which gets me into trouble all the time. The teachers even like them and believe everything they say.

I finished my picture and looked at it. It's going to be my mom's funeral soon. I never really thought about what would happen if one of my parents died before. Since I turned five I promised myself that I would make a fresh start because the last few days haven't gone well. I still missed her and wanted her back. Sometimes I'd wake up crying in the night for her. I did that last night and I think I upset my dad a bit as well. I picked up my picture and held it in front of me. I don't know why but I just felt ready to accept that she was gone. It still hurt and upset me but I didn't want to pretend anymore.

A/n: I've decided to make Laguna turn up and some of the next chapter will be in Laguna's pov and it will also be in Wards. I will be putting it up in a few days! REVIEW! ^_^