You Always Hurt The Ones You Love Chapter 1: C h a p t e r O n e, a dark angel fanfic

Author: Michelle D.R.A.K.E gypsychic04@c4.com

Author's Note: Here it is . . . my latest (well not really because it has been sitting on my computer for about seven months!) creation. This is sorta' a sequel to The Love Of Your Life but is more or less in chronological order (so reading The Love Of Your Life isn't mandatory- but read anyway!) . . . I might be bringing back Julie (from TLOYL) for a scene or two- I'm not sure yet, I haven't quite finished it yet (don't throw anything at me . . . I know waiting seven months to finish something is ridiculous, but I don't get paid to write and time to write seems to always get cut in my busy life- anyway . . . Here it is. I have seven or eight chapters written, with more to come, so REVIEW if you want to see them quicklier (is that a word? If it isn't it should be!), and maybe I'll even finish! I also have a sequel (an ACTUAL sequel) written for this (yes- I write the sequel before I finish- isn't that sad?)! This story starts out slow . . . but it will get good . . . it always takes a while to develop all the characters, and such. Also- out of all my stories, this isn't exactly my favorite because- well, I dunno why I don't like it . . . but read anyway, maybe someone else will like it . . . REVIEW if I should continue! Luv you all! Especially those of you who had an overwhelming response to The Love Of Your Life (if you haven't read that yet- please do!)- maybe you'll like this one too- who knows? Okay . . . enough of my babbling . . . on with the story . . .

Spoilers: None

Rating: PG-13

Feedback: PLEASE, Please, please review, remember, flames are always good, and honesty is REQUIRED! Please tell me what you think!!!! I know this story could be fixed A LOT, so please review and tell me if you think I should change something. I am open to ANY suggestions! Every ten to fifteen or so reviews I'll post a new chapter . . . so review, review, REVIEW!!!! Please e-mail me if you have a question about my writing, want me to be your beta-reader, or anything at gypsychic04@c4.com. I LOVE to beta-read- so E-MAIL me! And remember- REVIEW! :) Also- this story was written so long ago that there are LOTS of mistakes . . . so either e-mail me if you see any major flaws and editing errors . . . or whatever! :)

Disclaimer: Dark Angel© belongs to James (Titanic) Cameron, Charles (I'll stop making fun of him for my ignorance of what else he has done) Eglee, and company. I owned them for a while, but they took them away :( and I was very sad . . . at least I can still play with the characters and get into their minds :) I do own a Logan clone and Alec is my love slave . . . so I guess I still have it pretty good! :)

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. . .Y o u A l w a y s H u r t T h e O n e s Y o u L o v e. . .
by Michelle Drake

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. . .C h a p t e r O n e. . .

"Maybe we should go out for dinner tomorrow night," said Logan washing the dishes, then adding with a chuckle, "I'm sick of cleaning up every night, how come you never wash the dishes?"

"Because you're the man of the house, and because I don't want to, she said with a smile. Maybe we can go out next weekend.

Why not tomorrow? I want all of Seattle to see the wonderful, beautiful women I am lucky enough to have, he said with a little gleam in his eye that only a person in love has, as he looked over her way as she was clearing the table.

"I actually have other plans tomorrow night. Zack is back in Seattle, and I promised him I'd have dinner with him," she said almost reluctantly. She knew that Logan didn't like Zack all that much, that was why for the past few week she had been visiting him without Logan knowing.

"Oh- Zack," he said downwardly, with an small edge in his voice. "I didn't know that he was back in town." Logan wasn't able to hide his irritation. He never liked Max spending time with him, especially because he knew that Zack card for her more than just their brother-sister relationship. "How come you never told me that he was back in town?"

"Because I didn't feel like it. You know that I don't have to tell you everything I do," she said a little upset, knowing that she was jumping into the fight she knew they were going to have a little too quickly.

"I don't think you should go," Logan almost demanded. "You know he thinks of you as more than just a sister." He knew that Max loved him, but he didn't want to end up losing her, especially to Zack. To him he was the only threat to being able to live with Max happily. He not only had to worry about him taking Max away to Canada to save her from the potential of Manticore's men, but he also had to worry about the ever present feelings that Zack had for Max that went much further then their strange brother-sister bond.

"So you are forbidding me to see Zack?" she snapped a little too hastily.

"No, I'd just rather you not go, that's all," he said busily scrubbing the last of the dishes.

"Don't try to control me Logan Cale," she warned, then getting angry. "I can go anywhere with whoever I want. I'm not your property! What the hell do you think is going to happen if I go to dinner with him?"

"I just don't want to lose you," he said softly.

"Cut the crap. You just don't trust me," she accused.

"What?" It was now his turn to get angry. Of course he didn't want to lose her. Losing her was his greatest fear in life, and the fact that she didn't believe cut into him painfully.

"You heard me. You don't want me to go to dinner with him because you don't trust me. Not because you don't want to lose me," she spat back.

"You believe whatever the hell you want to believe," he gave up, retreating to his study.

"Oh yeah, you go escape and hide out like you always do," she yelled to his back.

Logan turned around. "I'm going to my study to think, not to escape. I don't want to say anything that I'll regret."

"You already did, when you tried to forbid me to see him," she said grabbing her coat. "He's my family! I spent half my life searching for him. If it weren't for him I would be dead. He has saved my life more than once, and if want to go see him I can!"

"Max, don't leave, let's-"

"There you go again!" she exclaimed exasperatedly, turning around. "If you can escape to your fortress of solitude, or whatever the hell you want to call it, then I can go for a ride on my bike," she said leaving in a huff, making sure to slam the door extra hard to prove her point, causing a painting to fall of the wall.

Logan stared at the closed door, and the the painting on the floor, and sighed. He hated it when their fights ended like that.

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The next morning Logan woke up, becoming aware that the spot next to him was empty and cold. That's when he realized that she hadn't come home that night. He knew that she had been angry, but not that angry. There had been other times that they had fought, but she had never not come home before. He instantly began to worry about her; thoughts of her getting captured by Manticore, or hurt, or even killed ran through his mind. He could feel himself begin to panic, as he walked into the living room, about to dial her pager. Before he could, he heard the door open, and Max walk in.

She walked straight to the fridge, poured herself a glass of milk, and sat at the counter silently. The tension in the room almost unbearable.

"Where were you last night? You never came home- I was starting to worry," said Logan a little more demanding then he had intended, hoping that she wouldn't take it the wrong way. He had no such luck.

"There you go again!"

"That's not what I meant to say. I just wanted to let you know that I really missed you last night, and when you didn't come home I thought that something could've have happened to you," he said more quietly, rubbing his tired eyes. It was apparent that he hadn't had a good nights sleep that night, and Max could tell.

Logan sat down next to her. They both sat silently, until Logan spoke up again.

"I'm sorry," he said, "about last night. I really was- I really am afraid of losing you, and sometimes I'm afraid that maybe you'd rather be with someone who's more like you. Someone like Zack." He spoke so genuinely that Max knew that he was telling the truth.

"You are more like me than he could ever be. You understand me better than he, or anyone else ever can or will," she said giving him a small smile. "You really have nothing to worry about. You aren't ever going to lose me, especially to him."

"Maybe I overreacted," he said affectionately brushing a lock of her hair out of her face.

"Maybe?" she said teasingly, trying to lighten up the mood, knowing it was her fault too.

"You always want to win, don't you?" he joked.

"No- I don't want to win, I just always do."

"Are things between us okay? It just seems like for the past few months we haven't been getting along so well," he noted, still not sure about everything between them. Ever since she had started living with him the air seemed to be thick with tension, which seemed to be growing even more ominous throughout the weeks, like a dark rain cloud that was trying to cover up the sun.

"Things between us are going to be fine," she said, hoping that would be true, eve though she too had been noticing the strain in their relationship.

Little did they know that things between them were only beginning to get more and more difficult, and that this was only the calm before the storm.

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Author's Note: Sorry SO short! (I promise that there will be longer chapters later on!) Review if you want me to continue . . . it does start out slowly, and gets a little better throughout the story . . . so tell me what you think. I am open to ANY suggestions! Luv y'all!