Chapter 9- I Love You
Lex was gone until after midnight. He didn't know where he was going, only that he had to get away. He desperately wanted to go get drunk, but that would be living up to his Lionel's definition of him. So, he just walked. He walked for hours before he noticed that he was tired and decided to head back to the apartment. When he let himself in everyone was asleep. It was better that way. He couldn't take his friends innocent questions right now. He knew they only asked because they cared, but all he wanted to do was pretend that tonight had never happened. He took a scorching hot shower before going to bed. Walking back into his room he noticed a note from Lana, written in her flowing handwriting. He picked it up and read it:
Lex,
When your father was here you tried to keep all emotion out of your face, but I
saw all the pain. I hate how your father makes you feel left out and looked down on!
It doesn't matter if you are good enough for him. Truthfully, you will never be good
enough for him. Lionel has no right to put his burden on you. I know he makes you
scared of what you will become. Luthor is just a name, nothing more. Being a Luthor
doesn't mean that you have to become someone evil like your father. You have the
power to choose who you will become, no one else does.
I am so blessed to have you in my life, Lex. You will have a place in my heart for
all my life. I won't let you fall, Lex. I will be your strength when you are weak and your
light when you have lost your way. I have no question or doubt in my mind that you
are the one for me. You are the million reasons why there is love reflecting in my eyes.
Come what may, I will be here for you. You have my heart, my hope, my dreams, and
my love.
I wish that I could wash away all your pain. I want to be able to take your hand and
make the whole world shine for you. I can not guarantee that you will never be hurt,
or feel sad. I can guarantee that I will be here for you as long as you want me. Forever
doesn't seem long enough when it comes to us.
I love everything about you, Lex. I love the way you smile, the way you laugh, the
way you kiss, and the way you love with all you have. I know what's inside of you and
what you're capable of, and I'm not afraid. I am not afraid of what you will become
because I know that you are destined for great things. You'll never be alone, Lex,
because I will be with you. I know how lonely you are inside. You try to hide it by
staying busy, but you can't hide it from me.
I want you to know that you can trust me with anything you tell me. If you want to
scream, or if you want to cry I will be here to listen and hold your hand. There are
special things inside of you and I won't let you forget that, Lex.
I love you with all my heart, soul, and self,
Lana
Lex cried as he folded the note and put it in his safe so he wouldn't lose it. He went to Lana's room and looked at her sleeping peacefully. He walked to her and laid down beside her. Lana turned and snuggled up next to him without waking up. Lex wrapped his arms around her before falling asleep minutes later.
Lex was gone until after midnight. He didn't know where he was going, only that he had to get away. He desperately wanted to go get drunk, but that would be living up to his Lionel's definition of him. So, he just walked. He walked for hours before he noticed that he was tired and decided to head back to the apartment. When he let himself in everyone was asleep. It was better that way. He couldn't take his friends innocent questions right now. He knew they only asked because they cared, but all he wanted to do was pretend that tonight had never happened. He took a scorching hot shower before going to bed. Walking back into his room he noticed a note from Lana, written in her flowing handwriting. He picked it up and read it:
Lex,
When your father was here you tried to keep all emotion out of your face, but I
saw all the pain. I hate how your father makes you feel left out and looked down on!
It doesn't matter if you are good enough for him. Truthfully, you will never be good
enough for him. Lionel has no right to put his burden on you. I know he makes you
scared of what you will become. Luthor is just a name, nothing more. Being a Luthor
doesn't mean that you have to become someone evil like your father. You have the
power to choose who you will become, no one else does.
I am so blessed to have you in my life, Lex. You will have a place in my heart for
all my life. I won't let you fall, Lex. I will be your strength when you are weak and your
light when you have lost your way. I have no question or doubt in my mind that you
are the one for me. You are the million reasons why there is love reflecting in my eyes.
Come what may, I will be here for you. You have my heart, my hope, my dreams, and
my love.
I wish that I could wash away all your pain. I want to be able to take your hand and
make the whole world shine for you. I can not guarantee that you will never be hurt,
or feel sad. I can guarantee that I will be here for you as long as you want me. Forever
doesn't seem long enough when it comes to us.
I love everything about you, Lex. I love the way you smile, the way you laugh, the
way you kiss, and the way you love with all you have. I know what's inside of you and
what you're capable of, and I'm not afraid. I am not afraid of what you will become
because I know that you are destined for great things. You'll never be alone, Lex,
because I will be with you. I know how lonely you are inside. You try to hide it by
staying busy, but you can't hide it from me.
I want you to know that you can trust me with anything you tell me. If you want to
scream, or if you want to cry I will be here to listen and hold your hand. There are
special things inside of you and I won't let you forget that, Lex.
I love you with all my heart, soul, and self,
Lana
Lex cried as he folded the note and put it in his safe so he wouldn't lose it. He went to Lana's room and looked at her sleeping peacefully. He walked to her and laid down beside her. Lana turned and snuggled up next to him without waking up. Lex wrapped his arms around her before falling asleep minutes later.