Oi minna! I finally updated something, ne? As it is, this chapter's pretty
short, as well as the next chapter, but I really wanted to get this out as
soon as possible. I hope none of you are mad at me. Things are going to get
a little hairy from now on. And I don't mean that literally, ok?
Heh, anyways, I don't own SM or GW, sadly. If I did, I'd put this stuff on TV or on tape, because it would be sooo much better to watch than read. At least in my little world.
On with the show!!!!!!!!!
I punched him. I remember seeing his face mirror what I felt. Shock. We were both shocked with what I had done. He stared at me. I stared back. Then his shock slowly turned to anger. I flinched.
I've seen many different sides of Duo. The bouncy, loud Duo, the crazed maniac Duo, even the barely suppressed depressed side. Never in all the years I'd known him, had I witnessed an angry Duo. Sure, there's rage, but that something completely different.
His anger was all I could see, and then he turned around and left. He left me there alone in shock. He left me alone with my thoughts. So many thoughts ran though my head. I punched him. I punched him without meaning or wanting to. I hurt the one person that meant the world to me.
It just didn't make any sense. I couldn't handle the emotional turmoil that this was causing. I just wasn't used to is. I couldn't believe it, couldn't deal with it. So I came up with a simple solution. Erase it.
I erased the whole event. Whatever had happened was blocked out of my mind. Duo's shock, anger, hurt; my shock, bewilderment, and all the other emotional problems I was having were blocked out of my mind. All of it never happened.
When Duo came home the next day, I saw the bruise on his cheek. I was worried. Had Duo gotten into another fight? Had he been stabbed again? Should I take him to the hospital? I asked him all those questions.
"Heero. What's wrong?" He asked me.
"What do you mean? I should be asking you that. Where did you get that bruise?"
Duo just stared at me. Maybe he was trying to figure out if I was joking or not. But I honestly didn't know what had happened. Maybe then he realized that I didn't joke.
"You really don't know, do you Heero?" He asked me, resigned.
"Know what?"
Duo shook his head. He mumbled under his breath. I only caught a little of it. I heard 'blocked' and 'lucky bastard'. I looked at him questionably.
"Nothing Heero, Nevermind."
After that, things got worse. Everyday, Duo and I had the same fight over and over again, but I never remembered the previous fight. So I never understood why Duo always seemed to be mad at me. I never understood why he couldn't just listen to me and leave that odango atama baka alone. I never understood why Duo came home with bruises. I never understood why he spent less and less time at home with me.
Most of my days were spent being alone. Before, it wouldn't have been a problem. I would have just kept myself busy on my laptop. But almost losing Duo had made me rethink and change my 'program'. I wasn't sure exactly how to cope without the loud, braided boy. And because of that, things just got worse.
Heh, anyways, I don't own SM or GW, sadly. If I did, I'd put this stuff on TV or on tape, because it would be sooo much better to watch than read. At least in my little world.
On with the show!!!!!!!!!
I punched him. I remember seeing his face mirror what I felt. Shock. We were both shocked with what I had done. He stared at me. I stared back. Then his shock slowly turned to anger. I flinched.
I've seen many different sides of Duo. The bouncy, loud Duo, the crazed maniac Duo, even the barely suppressed depressed side. Never in all the years I'd known him, had I witnessed an angry Duo. Sure, there's rage, but that something completely different.
His anger was all I could see, and then he turned around and left. He left me there alone in shock. He left me alone with my thoughts. So many thoughts ran though my head. I punched him. I punched him without meaning or wanting to. I hurt the one person that meant the world to me.
It just didn't make any sense. I couldn't handle the emotional turmoil that this was causing. I just wasn't used to is. I couldn't believe it, couldn't deal with it. So I came up with a simple solution. Erase it.
I erased the whole event. Whatever had happened was blocked out of my mind. Duo's shock, anger, hurt; my shock, bewilderment, and all the other emotional problems I was having were blocked out of my mind. All of it never happened.
When Duo came home the next day, I saw the bruise on his cheek. I was worried. Had Duo gotten into another fight? Had he been stabbed again? Should I take him to the hospital? I asked him all those questions.
"Heero. What's wrong?" He asked me.
"What do you mean? I should be asking you that. Where did you get that bruise?"
Duo just stared at me. Maybe he was trying to figure out if I was joking or not. But I honestly didn't know what had happened. Maybe then he realized that I didn't joke.
"You really don't know, do you Heero?" He asked me, resigned.
"Know what?"
Duo shook his head. He mumbled under his breath. I only caught a little of it. I heard 'blocked' and 'lucky bastard'. I looked at him questionably.
"Nothing Heero, Nevermind."
After that, things got worse. Everyday, Duo and I had the same fight over and over again, but I never remembered the previous fight. So I never understood why Duo always seemed to be mad at me. I never understood why he couldn't just listen to me and leave that odango atama baka alone. I never understood why Duo came home with bruises. I never understood why he spent less and less time at home with me.
Most of my days were spent being alone. Before, it wouldn't have been a problem. I would have just kept myself busy on my laptop. But almost losing Duo had made me rethink and change my 'program'. I wasn't sure exactly how to cope without the loud, braided boy. And because of that, things just got worse.