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I'm scared...
The truth is, I've been scared all of my life...
The most painful, and strange thing about it is.....
The one thing I'm most frightened of is.......
.....Myself.......
LIFE STORY-
MISATO KATSURAGI
When I was a small child, I was caught in the middle of a terrible crisis threatening the earth as we know it. It was known as the
Second Impact. I was the only survivor of the Katsuragis. My father, who had never done anything for me before, who I hated more
than anything, with a passion, used the last moments of his existence to give me the greatest gift I've ever recieved.....Life.
I then became mute, I couldn't say a word... Not for two years. All I could do was sit still, curled up in a ball, with a disturbed
look on my face. I couldn't even cry. Not for my loss...Not for my father's loss.....I hardly even noticed how the doctor's would
stare at me day after day. They could do nothing to help me, so in my mind they had no existence. Those two years of idolness, and
complete lonliness changed me. I didn't want to be by myself anymore.......
INSTRUMENTALITY-
MISATO KATSURAGI
[LATER IN TOKYO-2 COLLEGE.......]
I had found a man.... We spent a lot of time together. His name was Ryohji Kaji. Oddly enough, he turned out to be a lot like me.....
In one way more than others....He was lonely. Besides having that in common with me, the person he reminded me most of was...
My father. They seemed to be one-in-the-same somehow. But that made no difference to me...Or at least, that's what I told myself...
Kaji and I slept with eachother because we felt needed when we were together. We felt needed because we were in love...
BUT DID YOU REALLY LOVE HIM?
Yes..I really did love Kaji...
DID YOU?
Yes.
DID YOU?
No! Well, I-I did, but... I-I used him...
WHY DID YOU USE HIM?
Comfort.....
WHY DID YOU USE KAJI TO FIND
YOUR COMFORT?
Because I loved him!
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON?
Yes!
REALLY?
No! No...I felt so much warmth in his arms because... He was just like my father. *cries* I hated my father, I hated how Kaji was so
much like him! Yet, he made me feel so complete, so right.....
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON
YOU SLEPT WITH HIM?
That was why.....
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON?
No. I couldn't stand being the innocent little girl that I once was, I felt that I had to change... I wanted to change..! I hated being so
obidient, so damn helpless... So I slept with him not only because of who he was... Or what I saw in him...But for my own selfish
ambitions... And then...I stopped...I broke it off between us. I couldn't live with myself after what I did... After I hurt him like that.....
I scare myself...
I hate myself.....
(Maybe father shouldn't have saved me.......)
I'm scared...
The truth is, I've been scared all of my life...
The most painful, and strange thing about it is.....
The one thing I'm most frightened of is.......
.....Myself.......
LIFE STORY-
MISATO KATSURAGI
When I was a small child, I was caught in the middle of a terrible crisis threatening the earth as we know it. It was known as the
Second Impact. I was the only survivor of the Katsuragis. My father, who had never done anything for me before, who I hated more
than anything, with a passion, used the last moments of his existence to give me the greatest gift I've ever recieved.....Life.
I then became mute, I couldn't say a word... Not for two years. All I could do was sit still, curled up in a ball, with a disturbed
look on my face. I couldn't even cry. Not for my loss...Not for my father's loss.....I hardly even noticed how the doctor's would
stare at me day after day. They could do nothing to help me, so in my mind they had no existence. Those two years of idolness, and
complete lonliness changed me. I didn't want to be by myself anymore.......
INSTRUMENTALITY-
MISATO KATSURAGI
[LATER IN TOKYO-2 COLLEGE.......]
I had found a man.... We spent a lot of time together. His name was Ryohji Kaji. Oddly enough, he turned out to be a lot like me.....
In one way more than others....He was lonely. Besides having that in common with me, the person he reminded me most of was...
My father. They seemed to be one-in-the-same somehow. But that made no difference to me...Or at least, that's what I told myself...
Kaji and I slept with eachother because we felt needed when we were together. We felt needed because we were in love...
BUT DID YOU REALLY LOVE HIM?
Yes..I really did love Kaji...
DID YOU?
Yes.
DID YOU?
No! Well, I-I did, but... I-I used him...
WHY DID YOU USE HIM?
Comfort.....
WHY DID YOU USE KAJI TO FIND
YOUR COMFORT?
Because I loved him!
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON?
Yes!
REALLY?
No! No...I felt so much warmth in his arms because... He was just like my father. *cries* I hated my father, I hated how Kaji was so
much like him! Yet, he made me feel so complete, so right.....
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON
YOU SLEPT WITH HIM?
That was why.....
WAS THAT THE ONLY REASON?
No. I couldn't stand being the innocent little girl that I once was, I felt that I had to change... I wanted to change..! I hated being so
obidient, so damn helpless... So I slept with him not only because of who he was... Or what I saw in him...But for my own selfish
ambitions... And then...I stopped...I broke it off between us. I couldn't live with myself after what I did... After I hurt him like that.....
I scare myself...
I hate myself.....
(Maybe father shouldn't have saved me.......)