COPYRIGHTS: NONE OF THOSE CHARACTERS ARE MINE! Apart from 'Mr. Eddie' and
'Ma'am Helene'. I do want to give copyrights to Eddie Lo, because I took
his name for a character. But he's not like Mr. Eddie though!
Author: Lily_Black
Tittle: The fury for fights…
Author Note: In the last Chapter, Squall learned how to fight with a sword and got back to the orphanage. His arm was hurting, so he took it off…Seifer came and slammed him on the wall.
b The fury for fights…b
I fought the feeling of yelling out of pain and kneel him in the stomach. It made him loosen his grip, so, taking the chance, I pushed him off with my good arm.
"You seen nothing of me!"
"Sure I did! Squall, you're really scary, I'm going to run off for Matwin!"
"Yeah, you're the kind!"
That was enough to start a fight, with Seifer it was easily started… He untied his leather belt and hit my face with it. I covered my head with my arms to protect myself as the belt hit me again. Making red lines on my body…
"Oh? What's that?"
He saw the scar on my arm… At first he was curious, but then he smirked and I understood….His face showed that he had triumphed over me… I understood what he was thinking…He would tell on me. I didn't wanted Matwin to know… She'd be worried for nothing. It was just a nasty scratch… He would make her worry, No…Not if I couldn't do something against him…
Seifer opened his big trap but before a sound could get out of it, I was already on him, my hand on his mouth and my fist high over his head.
"Tell a word of this to Matwin… And I wont give much for your life…"
He mumbled something under his breath and kicked me off him…I tried to stand, unfortunately, for the both of us, I lost balance and fell backwards. I felt my head crack open on the hard stone.
"Ouch!!!" I did what I could not to cry but a tear was forming in my eyes. Seifer stood proudly before me. My hair where turning red and Seifer had won over me… I was about to jump on his again when the door opened revealing Matwin. I try to hide my arm, but it was to late…Her eyes widen at my scars and her face turned white. She came closer to us and looked at the 2 of us sweetly.
"Can't you stay together without getting into fights?"
She looked at Seifer's bruise on the cheek and then at the marks Seifer had did with his belt on my face and arms.
"Seifer, go take your bath and go to bed after, take your time to think it all over…How many times have I told you not to hurt anyone…" She took his arm and pushed him softly out.
"Squall, go on your bed, I'll talk to you…Wait for me ok?"
"Yes Matwin."
Few faces popped next to Matwin to see what was happening, but when they saw our faces, they understood and all at the same time said "They fought again!". When Matwin got out of sight, Zell, Selphie, Quistis and Irvine came in.
"Hewoo Squall! We all missed you!" Said Sephie jumping closer to me.
"Me to…"
"We got in trouble because we set off fireworks." Said Irvine with a childish voice.
"Matwin told me…"
"It's nice havin ye back Squall! Like that I won't be the only one being bugged out by Seifer!" Said Zell with an enthusiasm voice.
"Thanks…"
"How was it in that new house Squall?" Asked Quistis.
"…" I felt my eyes fill with tears. i "I then understand now… I should have said more then simply goodbye…I'll miss you mister Eddie… Ma'am Helen…" i
All of them looked at me with sad eyes.
"We'd better leave him alone gals." Said Zell.
"Let's play war!!!" Said Selphie running out.
So the troops had finally gone… I heard them talk of my wound… It didn't seam to please them to see that I was hurt… But I had to be strong…Or else I wont see Sis…Matwin came back and Talked with me… She asked me how I did that scar I didn't answer but hugged her. She was surprised to see me hug her…For that I had never asked for help, never hugged someone or express my feelings without having someone that pushed me to it…
"Squall…I want to know who did this to you…"
"…"
"Is it Seifer…?"
"…"
"You don't have to fight with him. You have nothing to prove me Squall…"
"I have to be strong…" My eyes filled with tears. "Or else I won't be able to see sis!"
"Squall, You will see Ellone even if you don't…She will never leave you down."
"Why is she gone then?"
Matwin was speechless so she gently passed her hand in my hair like she use doing to make us feel better.
My hands slipped in my pocket and held something in it…A piece of paper…
The one she had gave me at the entrance of that castle. The castle where I was almost feeling at my place with the people there… The people that had let me go because of their old pain…
Broken heart resulted to hurt me again…All that because of useless feelings…
"Matwin..?"
"Yes Squall?"
"You'll be there for me, right?" I felt a tear fall on my cheek. "You won't leave me! Right Matwin!"
A bit surprised she smiled and looked and my eyes.
"Yes Squall. I will always…"
But something in the way her eyes where shining told me she was lying…
Something told me that she would leave us sooner or later…Something was wrong…I felt it…
She smiled some more and gently took my arm.
"We are going to help you with that Squall…It won't hurt you."
Few spells later, the wound of mister eddy's slash had vanished. There was still a little scar but it was almost invisible. We continued talking about ma'am Helen and Mister Eddie.
I did all I could to evade her questions when it came somewhere close to fighting, wounds and crying…
But I think she got the truth anyway…Matwin knows how to read in people…
When my head started rolling and my eyes close themselves without my consent, Matwin took me in her arms and led me to my bed. The others where all fast asleep… She gently put me under the sheets and pulled them up my neck, kissed my forehead murmuring goodnight and walked out. By the time she closed the door, I was already in a dream…
I was dreaming of a small bar…A woman was standing behind the counter. She was wearing maternity clothes and looked pregnant of few months. She was apparently cooking something for the supper. Next to her, there was a little girl crawling around the grown up on her knees. Picking up all what was in her range and putting it in her mouth to taste it. She was savoring a little rock she had found near the counter.
"Elle! No, that's not good! Not to eat!"
iElle?….sis?i
The little girl looked up with teary eyes. "Elle bad?"
"No, Elle good! But don't put that in your mouth, it's dirty! Eww! "
"Eww!" She smiled and let go of the rock to wander with her toys.
i "Sis…"i
The door opened only to reveal a tall man with soft green eyes and long black hair.
"Hello Raine!"
"Laguna!" Raine smiled at him and offered him a beer at the counter.
"Thanks! Where's my favorite little girl?"
"'Guna!!!" she giggled.
Ellone happily rolled over to " 'cle 'guna" and hugged his leg.
"Hey Elle!"
"Was Elle a good girl?"
"Yes she was." Answered Raine putting a cake in the over.
"Smells good already!"
"It's a chocolate cake. Elle's favorite!"
"Yay! Elle vorite!!!" Said the 2 year old.
"Yeah!" Laguna laugh happily and put Ellone down as she asked him to. Ellone quickly disappeared behind a door and sing one of the kid songs with a soft voice. Raine smiled and went back to peal her carrots. Laguna came behind her and put his hands on her tummy and started kissing her neck.
"Laguna! Not now, I'm busy!"
"Yes ma'am!" He said playfully.
i "…What is this dream…This is a happy family…What I will never get…"i
"How is he doing Raine?" Asked the man to his beloved lady.
"Fine, a bit tiring me…"
"Then take a seat, I'll Finnish this for you."
"Ok…"
Raine left a kiss to Laguna before walking to a nearby chair.
"I was wondering…What name will we give him?"
"Hmm…"
i "…Why can't I have a family like that…? I wish I was the baby…I wish I could be…"i
"What about Alex?"
"No, The son of the neighbors is called Alex, It would only be confusing! Beside it doesn't go with your family name."
"We could give him yours."
"What?"
"Yeah! Give him your name! Leonhart is a cute family name."
i "…What…?" i
She smiled and started to draw circles on her belly. "Loire is cute also!"
iA long silence took place and I wondered if it could be possible that they where my parents…i
"What about Squall?"
That's when I woke up…I was unable to fall back asleep even if it was late in the night…
I needed to forget it all…It was getting my heart, awaking my emotions!
I didn't wanted to be like that… I wanted to be strong… And…I wanted to fight…
Fight to get my mind take over my heart, forget all emotions and sadness. If no one wants of me…
I will stay here and be happy with Elle…
"Sis… Why is she gone…"
I slowly get up, being careful not to wake up the others and walked to the window.
Staring at the stars high in the sky. Cursing them to shine so brightly over our heads…
But then I remembered what sis used saying when I asked her if she would be off for long…
i"Look at the stars and think of me, Squall!"
"Why sis?"
"Because I will be looking at them also. And when we will both look at them at the same time, they will shine brightly and fill our heart with hope and happiness!"i
"They are shinning sis…But they doesn't fill me with hope and happiness…"
A voice echoed in my head as it rose: "Cry baby…"
It was Seifer…
"I'm not! I'm a grown up!"
"Yeah, but you act like a baby! Why don't you act like me?"
"…This is non of your business…"
"You say that only when you know I'm your superior!"
"Whatever…Seifer…"
"Sis isn't here, She's dead. This is why your heart doesn't fill with hope and happiness!"
I felt the rage grown in my heart, making my heart spin. Clenching my hands into fists.
"…Liar…"
"I saw them kill her…Esthar soldiers…They are REALLY strong and always comes around armed like tanks!"
"You're lying Seifer!" I knew he was lying, this is why my head started spinning some more, the rage and fury growling into my ears like boiling water on a hot fire. I knew he was lying, it was to much of a lie to me…He was saying it to make me mad…And it worked, the least I could do was to hide it.
"They shot her when you and Matwin where gone."
"Shut your mouth Seifer…" His face torn into a smirk seeing I was mad and trying to hide it.
"Mister Kramer was talking with a big man when the Esthar soldiers ran on the beach and shot her at LEAST 20 bullets."
"I said Shut your mouth!" I spin around and stared at him. His smirk disgusted me, he knew his game was working. This is why he was stupidly smirking in my face.
"She fell on the sandy beach, blood mixing with the sand and slat water of the sea…She was DEAD!"
Seifer's voice echoes in my head as the fury and rage got me out of control. Before I knew what I was doing, Seifer was already lying under me, a punch slammed his face down. And a little sip of blood was rolling from his mouth. He yelled and woke up the entire room. Soon, Irvine and Quisty where holding Seifer from running to me, while Zell stood next to me, yelling at Seifer and Sephie was holding my arms, even if it was useless…
I wasn't strong…Not enough…Seifer controlled me that night…He know he was……This is why he is happy…
-LB-
(Author note: Hey! Thank you for all the reviewers! It helped me write faster. ^_^ I hope you will stick with me 'till this story find an end. Thank you for your support I really appreciate it!
I remember someone wrote something about Yaoi and my little cousin was kind of mean! (Little…Not true! Daisuke is 5 months older then me! lol!) I am sorry to disappoint some of you…But I do not plan on making a Yaoi out of this. Please write to me to: Lily_Black25@hotmail.com for comments, suggestions or questions about it. I'll be glad to reply! And if you want to take this story to make one, write me! Who knows? You won't lose anything doing it. Trust me! Sheesh, I'll stop my author note, at this rate it's going to be longer then the story itself! lol!)
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Author: Lily_Black
Tittle: The fury for fights…
Author Note: In the last Chapter, Squall learned how to fight with a sword and got back to the orphanage. His arm was hurting, so he took it off…Seifer came and slammed him on the wall.
b The fury for fights…b
I fought the feeling of yelling out of pain and kneel him in the stomach. It made him loosen his grip, so, taking the chance, I pushed him off with my good arm.
"You seen nothing of me!"
"Sure I did! Squall, you're really scary, I'm going to run off for Matwin!"
"Yeah, you're the kind!"
That was enough to start a fight, with Seifer it was easily started… He untied his leather belt and hit my face with it. I covered my head with my arms to protect myself as the belt hit me again. Making red lines on my body…
"Oh? What's that?"
He saw the scar on my arm… At first he was curious, but then he smirked and I understood….His face showed that he had triumphed over me… I understood what he was thinking…He would tell on me. I didn't wanted Matwin to know… She'd be worried for nothing. It was just a nasty scratch… He would make her worry, No…Not if I couldn't do something against him…
Seifer opened his big trap but before a sound could get out of it, I was already on him, my hand on his mouth and my fist high over his head.
"Tell a word of this to Matwin… And I wont give much for your life…"
He mumbled something under his breath and kicked me off him…I tried to stand, unfortunately, for the both of us, I lost balance and fell backwards. I felt my head crack open on the hard stone.
"Ouch!!!" I did what I could not to cry but a tear was forming in my eyes. Seifer stood proudly before me. My hair where turning red and Seifer had won over me… I was about to jump on his again when the door opened revealing Matwin. I try to hide my arm, but it was to late…Her eyes widen at my scars and her face turned white. She came closer to us and looked at the 2 of us sweetly.
"Can't you stay together without getting into fights?"
She looked at Seifer's bruise on the cheek and then at the marks Seifer had did with his belt on my face and arms.
"Seifer, go take your bath and go to bed after, take your time to think it all over…How many times have I told you not to hurt anyone…" She took his arm and pushed him softly out.
"Squall, go on your bed, I'll talk to you…Wait for me ok?"
"Yes Matwin."
Few faces popped next to Matwin to see what was happening, but when they saw our faces, they understood and all at the same time said "They fought again!". When Matwin got out of sight, Zell, Selphie, Quistis and Irvine came in.
"Hewoo Squall! We all missed you!" Said Sephie jumping closer to me.
"Me to…"
"We got in trouble because we set off fireworks." Said Irvine with a childish voice.
"Matwin told me…"
"It's nice havin ye back Squall! Like that I won't be the only one being bugged out by Seifer!" Said Zell with an enthusiasm voice.
"Thanks…"
"How was it in that new house Squall?" Asked Quistis.
"…" I felt my eyes fill with tears. i "I then understand now… I should have said more then simply goodbye…I'll miss you mister Eddie… Ma'am Helen…" i
All of them looked at me with sad eyes.
"We'd better leave him alone gals." Said Zell.
"Let's play war!!!" Said Selphie running out.
So the troops had finally gone… I heard them talk of my wound… It didn't seam to please them to see that I was hurt… But I had to be strong…Or else I wont see Sis…Matwin came back and Talked with me… She asked me how I did that scar I didn't answer but hugged her. She was surprised to see me hug her…For that I had never asked for help, never hugged someone or express my feelings without having someone that pushed me to it…
"Squall…I want to know who did this to you…"
"…"
"Is it Seifer…?"
"…"
"You don't have to fight with him. You have nothing to prove me Squall…"
"I have to be strong…" My eyes filled with tears. "Or else I won't be able to see sis!"
"Squall, You will see Ellone even if you don't…She will never leave you down."
"Why is she gone then?"
Matwin was speechless so she gently passed her hand in my hair like she use doing to make us feel better.
My hands slipped in my pocket and held something in it…A piece of paper…
The one she had gave me at the entrance of that castle. The castle where I was almost feeling at my place with the people there… The people that had let me go because of their old pain…
Broken heart resulted to hurt me again…All that because of useless feelings…
"Matwin..?"
"Yes Squall?"
"You'll be there for me, right?" I felt a tear fall on my cheek. "You won't leave me! Right Matwin!"
A bit surprised she smiled and looked and my eyes.
"Yes Squall. I will always…"
But something in the way her eyes where shining told me she was lying…
Something told me that she would leave us sooner or later…Something was wrong…I felt it…
She smiled some more and gently took my arm.
"We are going to help you with that Squall…It won't hurt you."
Few spells later, the wound of mister eddy's slash had vanished. There was still a little scar but it was almost invisible. We continued talking about ma'am Helen and Mister Eddie.
I did all I could to evade her questions when it came somewhere close to fighting, wounds and crying…
But I think she got the truth anyway…Matwin knows how to read in people…
When my head started rolling and my eyes close themselves without my consent, Matwin took me in her arms and led me to my bed. The others where all fast asleep… She gently put me under the sheets and pulled them up my neck, kissed my forehead murmuring goodnight and walked out. By the time she closed the door, I was already in a dream…
I was dreaming of a small bar…A woman was standing behind the counter. She was wearing maternity clothes and looked pregnant of few months. She was apparently cooking something for the supper. Next to her, there was a little girl crawling around the grown up on her knees. Picking up all what was in her range and putting it in her mouth to taste it. She was savoring a little rock she had found near the counter.
"Elle! No, that's not good! Not to eat!"
iElle?….sis?i
The little girl looked up with teary eyes. "Elle bad?"
"No, Elle good! But don't put that in your mouth, it's dirty! Eww! "
"Eww!" She smiled and let go of the rock to wander with her toys.
i "Sis…"i
The door opened only to reveal a tall man with soft green eyes and long black hair.
"Hello Raine!"
"Laguna!" Raine smiled at him and offered him a beer at the counter.
"Thanks! Where's my favorite little girl?"
"'Guna!!!" she giggled.
Ellone happily rolled over to " 'cle 'guna" and hugged his leg.
"Hey Elle!"
"Was Elle a good girl?"
"Yes she was." Answered Raine putting a cake in the over.
"Smells good already!"
"It's a chocolate cake. Elle's favorite!"
"Yay! Elle vorite!!!" Said the 2 year old.
"Yeah!" Laguna laugh happily and put Ellone down as she asked him to. Ellone quickly disappeared behind a door and sing one of the kid songs with a soft voice. Raine smiled and went back to peal her carrots. Laguna came behind her and put his hands on her tummy and started kissing her neck.
"Laguna! Not now, I'm busy!"
"Yes ma'am!" He said playfully.
i "…What is this dream…This is a happy family…What I will never get…"i
"How is he doing Raine?" Asked the man to his beloved lady.
"Fine, a bit tiring me…"
"Then take a seat, I'll Finnish this for you."
"Ok…"
Raine left a kiss to Laguna before walking to a nearby chair.
"I was wondering…What name will we give him?"
"Hmm…"
i "…Why can't I have a family like that…? I wish I was the baby…I wish I could be…"i
"What about Alex?"
"No, The son of the neighbors is called Alex, It would only be confusing! Beside it doesn't go with your family name."
"We could give him yours."
"What?"
"Yeah! Give him your name! Leonhart is a cute family name."
i "…What…?" i
She smiled and started to draw circles on her belly. "Loire is cute also!"
iA long silence took place and I wondered if it could be possible that they where my parents…i
"What about Squall?"
That's when I woke up…I was unable to fall back asleep even if it was late in the night…
I needed to forget it all…It was getting my heart, awaking my emotions!
I didn't wanted to be like that… I wanted to be strong… And…I wanted to fight…
Fight to get my mind take over my heart, forget all emotions and sadness. If no one wants of me…
I will stay here and be happy with Elle…
"Sis… Why is she gone…"
I slowly get up, being careful not to wake up the others and walked to the window.
Staring at the stars high in the sky. Cursing them to shine so brightly over our heads…
But then I remembered what sis used saying when I asked her if she would be off for long…
i"Look at the stars and think of me, Squall!"
"Why sis?"
"Because I will be looking at them also. And when we will both look at them at the same time, they will shine brightly and fill our heart with hope and happiness!"i
"They are shinning sis…But they doesn't fill me with hope and happiness…"
A voice echoed in my head as it rose: "Cry baby…"
It was Seifer…
"I'm not! I'm a grown up!"
"Yeah, but you act like a baby! Why don't you act like me?"
"…This is non of your business…"
"You say that only when you know I'm your superior!"
"Whatever…Seifer…"
"Sis isn't here, She's dead. This is why your heart doesn't fill with hope and happiness!"
I felt the rage grown in my heart, making my heart spin. Clenching my hands into fists.
"…Liar…"
"I saw them kill her…Esthar soldiers…They are REALLY strong and always comes around armed like tanks!"
"You're lying Seifer!" I knew he was lying, this is why my head started spinning some more, the rage and fury growling into my ears like boiling water on a hot fire. I knew he was lying, it was to much of a lie to me…He was saying it to make me mad…And it worked, the least I could do was to hide it.
"They shot her when you and Matwin where gone."
"Shut your mouth Seifer…" His face torn into a smirk seeing I was mad and trying to hide it.
"Mister Kramer was talking with a big man when the Esthar soldiers ran on the beach and shot her at LEAST 20 bullets."
"I said Shut your mouth!" I spin around and stared at him. His smirk disgusted me, he knew his game was working. This is why he was stupidly smirking in my face.
"She fell on the sandy beach, blood mixing with the sand and slat water of the sea…She was DEAD!"
Seifer's voice echoes in my head as the fury and rage got me out of control. Before I knew what I was doing, Seifer was already lying under me, a punch slammed his face down. And a little sip of blood was rolling from his mouth. He yelled and woke up the entire room. Soon, Irvine and Quisty where holding Seifer from running to me, while Zell stood next to me, yelling at Seifer and Sephie was holding my arms, even if it was useless…
I wasn't strong…Not enough…Seifer controlled me that night…He know he was……This is why he is happy…
-LB-
(Author note: Hey! Thank you for all the reviewers! It helped me write faster. ^_^ I hope you will stick with me 'till this story find an end. Thank you for your support I really appreciate it!
I remember someone wrote something about Yaoi and my little cousin was kind of mean! (Little…Not true! Daisuke is 5 months older then me! lol!) I am sorry to disappoint some of you…But I do not plan on making a Yaoi out of this. Please write to me to: Lily_Black25@hotmail.com for comments, suggestions or questions about it. I'll be glad to reply! And if you want to take this story to make one, write me! Who knows? You won't lose anything doing it. Trust me! Sheesh, I'll stop my author note, at this rate it's going to be longer then the story itself! lol!)
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