DISCLAIMER: All LOTR shaznack owned by Tolkien, not me. Rated 'R' for suicide/rape plot devices and angsty stuffs. Language is.. tempered, don't worry about this. `` means elvish, --- signals a song or something, [words] mean thinking. Read and REVIEW. Thanks... and don't forget to Enjoy.
A/N: Chapter is long due to many conversations. Don't freak out and give up on reading. The song used is "In Limbo" by Radiohead. Poetic License: I changed some of it/ added onto the song.
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Aragorn and Legolas fought back and forth for possession of one another and control, and Aragorn now quit the battle and let Legolas win. Legolas worked himself into Aragorn who twitched and moaned as he did so. The beautiful elf laid his chest flat against Aragorn's back that was warm and slightly moist from sweating and whispered soft elvish to his friend. Then, he began a slow rhythmic motion, which Aragorn fell into, and sent the man into pure ecstasy, causing him to spill his seed and moan in pleasure. With a final thrust Legolas released and slid out of him. Aragorn lay panting heavilly, and Legolas knelt doing so. Tracing the mans back with two fingers, Legolas applied pressure to a point that caused Aragorn to fall into a deep sleep. Feeling fufilled physically, Legolas got dressed and left him there.
He began to walk down the hall, enjoying the fact that he relieved his emotional frustration; almost greedily so. Unbeknownst to him, though, Elesen had been following him since his parting from Aragorn. Legolas turned a corner and Elesen rushed up behind him. They were in a large hallway, now dim due to the time of night, and the only light was provided by the heavens above. Moonlight flooded into the room from a skylight high above them, and cast light shadows on the floor.
"Legolas, I need to speak with you," said a stern Elesen.
**Torrent's POV**
My song drew to an end, and I had enjoyed it. 'Tis very lovely, and even though unpleasantness was had with me in long grasses before, does not mean I cannot sing of it and hope that one day I will share a proper feeling. I begin to head back to the 'palace' as Pippin and I call it, for I wish to sleep. Normally, I'd sleep underneath the stars out here, but I am unfamilliar with this place, and what may be lurking here. Walking brings me to a hall, and I hear voices. Ducking behind a wall close to the voices, I peer off a side of it, and listen in.
"Legolas, I need to speak with you."
"What is it, Elesen?" Why did Legolas speak so flatly? Wait. He dislikes Elesen; that is why.
"Were you doing what I think you were...?"
"What, preytell, would that be, Elesen?"
"Look, I heard you two." What on Middle Earth...?
"Who? Elesen, I do believe I am unaware of what you speak of."
"Do not lie, Legolas! I heard you and Aragorn! I had come to find him, Gimli told me he was in his room last he saw him, so I went there. Then, as I come up, I hear you two pleasuring yourselves! I knew it was not he and Torrent, for she is still about the fields and has been for quite some time now. Then, I saw you leave the room a short while after. Have you no shame? Do you not care whom you hurt?" What... Elesen.
He is lying. "Eii... eii.. Damatte-yo," I speak softly to myself.
"Does it matter, Elesen? Really and truly, does it? Elves are promiscuous! I cannot help it if I wish to fill a void in my life."
"That is sick. I was right to follow you here."
"No, you are sick Elesen. Stay out of my affairs." As he speaks those cruelly kind words, I walk out into the open towards them. I only had to go about 10-11 feet at the least to be right next to them, so I arrived just as Legolas finished. I know what he and Aragorn did now. His face tells me, moreso, his eyes do. And his thought are still lingering on what happened. 'Tis sick. I walk right between them, and keep walking, even when both call out my name. Then, I begin to run. Not wishing to hear this, I again hope I can run from my problems.
\\ I'm sorry, Torrent. \\
[You can't help it Bliss.]
\\ I didn't know he was capable of doing that. \\
[Neither did I...]
\\ I am sorry I am not there. \\
[If you were, though, do you think I would have gotten mixed up in any of this?]
\\ ... No. I do not think you would. \\
[I'll be fine, Bliss. I just need to... rest.] I run into my current room, and lock the door behind me. Throwing myself upon the soft bed, I lay and cry myself to sleep. " 'Filling a useless void,' said he. Maybe I am but a pawn, too, in his game." The last thing I see before I sleep is the moon in my window, and an image of BLiss in my mind.
**Normal POV**
{Morning.}
"Please wake up, Torrent."
"What's the point?"
"Come now, please wake. The morning is so beautiful today."
"No. Leave me be."
"I cannot have you sit here all day and wallow in your room, locked-up like this..."
"Sure you can, by leaving me be. My door is locked, can't you see? Now please, go."
"Torrent, I..." Elesen gave up. He couldn't do anything. He had realized quite quickly she knew of the conversation last night as she began to run from them. Talking to her through her door surely would get him no where. He would have to confront her later. Anger burned with a passion for Legolas from Elesen. [He probably does not even care about how she feels now,] thought Elesen. [That Elf makes me sick.] Elesen went down to the fields, and began to look for bright wildflowers to give to Torrent, in hopes to cheer her up. [She left us early to try to relieve herself of fears, worries, and depression.. yet.. now she has another issue. Why shouldn't I at least help?] After scouting for a bit, Elesen could only decide on plucking a tall, bright Black-Eyed Susan.
Returning to her room, he found the door unlocked an ajar. She was not in her bed; it was made. She was not even in the terrace of her room. He placed the flower atop her pillow, and left it to bask in the sunlight of the early noon. Aragorn now walked the halls in search for Legolas, who would not be found. Torrent was atop a distant watch-tower alone, wishing to have solitude forever. Merry and Pippin worried so for the mental health of their friends, who had said naught to them. They only spoke to Elesen, who seemed quite worried, which made them feel distraught, too.
{Watch-tower.}
A light breeze blew and picked up Torrent's hair, caressing it and playing with it in the wind. Pushing a random wisp of hair behind her right ear, she still stood and faced wistfully to the West. She called to him.
[You do realize I could end it all again, Bliss... That I could merely sail West, and be with you.]
\\ ... \\
[Or, I could merely die in the war; let a rogue arrow pierce my heart, as it has been so many times before by others.]
\\ ... \\
[I could resort to what I did in the tower...]
Torrent began to cry.
\\ ... \\
[Or.. or.. I could sit here and slowly die inside while others torment me to death by me letting them use me...]
\\ Please, do not ache me so, Torrent. It is not your time. You cannot sail West. You deserve to live. All those years in the tower have taught to strength and many lessons. You are stonger than that. Please, Torrent: think of the good times.\\
[What good times?] The wind rippled her shirt, and entwined bits of her hair, as if her friend was there with her stroking her hair in a gentle fashion; trying to calm her as he did when her parents died.
\\ Such as we used to share. Such as you use to have alone.. Or with.. Him.\\
[Yes, but what we shared was from friendship. And what he gave me was meaningless to him. I was just 'filling a void.']
\\ Torrent, if you believe people are truly using you, you will end up succumbing to anyone and letting them. Do not grow weak. You are not a pawn, and you are not a useless void. \\
[I'm worse, I'm a whore.]
\\ Stop putting yourself down. It tempers me to see you so.. Dejected. \\
"Useless whore.." the wind silenced her by blowing harder, and floating her words into nothingness, not allowing anyone to hear them. Torrent sat and again stared into the West, coveting her own distruction.
{Fields.}
"Legolas! There you are."
"Oh, hello Aragorn."
"Why are you all the way out here?"
(Flashback)
"Torrent why are you out here so late?"
"No reason, really.."
"Tell me, or I will have to force it out of you."
{Fields.}
"Legolas?" Aragorn puts his arms around Legolas' waist. "Why are you out here: really?"
"No reason. Just... thinking of something that's missing." Legolas stands till with his arms hanging loosely at his sides, and Aragorns arms wrapped about his waist. [Something isn't right. Funny: I know exactly what.] thinks the elf. Legolas removes Aragorn's hands from about him, and turns to leave. "I'm sorry Aragorn. I need to be alone." He walks off into the windy fields alone.
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Lundy, Fastnet, in the Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read
Being the first in the open Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read
Why do these hints only hamper me?
I'm on your side
Nowhere to hide
Trapdoors that open
I spiral down
You're living in a fantasy world
You're living in a fantasy world
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Walking. Walking. It is sunset, and the fileds are now orange. Aloft in the breeze are all her thoughts, and down in the grass are her cares and worries. She walks on faulted ground, her problems causing the ground to belt, and her selfishness causing the sky to fall. Her injury healed two days ago, a day after she arrived in Gondor, and she wished to feel the pain again. Just to feel something except guilt and sorrow, and then the blankness inside. Her foot hits something, and she then trips over it. It is the form of Legolas. Scrambling to get up and run as she realizes this, she is brought back down by him grasping onto her ankle.
"Let go! I wish to leave."
"For good?"
"If it will make you two happy."
"What does that mean, Torrent?"
"You and him. Aragorn. I will not interfere any longer Legolas. Here's a thought: How about letting me go, so I can fetch him for you? 'Tis all I need to do then I shall be off!"
"Do not try to escape me, Torrent! I need and wish to speak with you."
"Legolas, leave me be. I shall say it slowly: Leave. Me---"
"No. Let me explain--"
"Be, and no, I already know 'to fill a useless void'; would that void happen to be emotion? Yes, it would! So, let us not hamper with your ideals about filling voids and having pawns. I, a fellow pawn, shall go, so we can all be off! Off, off, and happy! Let us not forget happy---"
"Are you quite done, Siren?"
"Do not call me that, your highness." Legolas let go of her ankle, and now grabbed her wrists, pulling her towards him. He stared hard into her eyes, which she stubbornly shut promptly.
\\ Torrent. Hear him out. \\
[No.]
\\ Torrent... \\
[Bliss...]
\\ Kodoqu. Now. Just do it. \\
[Please, don't make me.]
\\ ... \\
[Fine.]
Torrent opened her emerald eyes that glinted in the setting sun, and stared intently at him. "Fine then. You may explain." He let go of her wrists and intwined his fingers with hers.
"I felt alone after you left us. When you did not talk to me and ignored me, I felt even worse, for I even longed to look upon you, and maybe even touch your skin. I did not see you for a full three days, and I realized how much that I missed your company, and the sight of you. So, when you ran from me when you were practicing, I felt as if you did not wish to see me at all, nor speak to me. Almost as if you didn't want anything to do with me. This created a void inside me, and I needed to just touch someone, or take it out on something. I sought ARagorn and asked him if in fact he was infatuated with me, which I learned he was. He kissed me, and I protested, yet succumbed thinking that you had given up on me. Everything progressed further and we ended up doing that. I had no intentions of Elesen finding out, but I did honestly intend to tell you soon, when you would speak to me."
"..."
"There. I think that is all.."
"So, you still do not love Aragorn, but used him?"
"Well, yes, you could say that. Even though I dislike the realization of it.. He was a meaningless partner. Elves are promiscuous.."
"So, am I a part of that promiscuity, Legolas? Or, do I perhaps mean something?"
"You actually mean something." Legolas leaned forward and gaved her a chaste kiss. He then pulled her close, and embraced her, hoping that she would forgive him. His guilt.. stupidity.
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Lovers in the long grass
Look above them
Only they can see
Where the clouds are going
Only to discover
Dust and sunlight
Ever make the sky so blue
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"Do you forgive me? It is quite understandable if thou dost not."
She sighed. "To ease you, yes, I do.. in part. Yet.. I will have to reconsider---"
"Reconsider? How do you figure that?"
"You betrayed me."
"He meant nothing! Do you think I enjoyed his company?"
Torrent raised a brow. "According to Elesen you did."
She sank into his arms and enjoyed the comfort for the moment being. Still wary and distrustful of him, she did forgive him... somewhat.
Neither of them could bring a smile to their faces as they walked back to the place. She felt betrayal still, and distrust. Legolas noticed her uneasy feelings and backed-off for a bit. The two parted before entering the gates, heading in different directions, to throw off suspicion. The two could share some secrets, couldn't they? Torrent immediately went to her room and found the Black-Eyed Susan from Elesen, and recognized the gesture and who it was from. The flower still glowed with health and was quite beautiful. She went to find Elesen, which was quite an easy task. He was standing on a terrace outside the dining hall, minding his own business, embracing the night. Sneaking up silently behind him, with flower in hand, she tightly hugged him in thanks. The gesture of the flower was quite nice, and she respected him for thinking of her. Surprised, he turned his head and saw it was her, and smiled in reply.
"Thank you, Elesen" she whispered in his ear.
"You are welcome, Torrent."
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Please review!! Hope you enjoyed it! =) Hey... slashes are sorta fun. Had to add some slash.
A/N: Chapter is long due to many conversations. Don't freak out and give up on reading. The song used is "In Limbo" by Radiohead. Poetic License: I changed some of it/ added onto the song.
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Aragorn and Legolas fought back and forth for possession of one another and control, and Aragorn now quit the battle and let Legolas win. Legolas worked himself into Aragorn who twitched and moaned as he did so. The beautiful elf laid his chest flat against Aragorn's back that was warm and slightly moist from sweating and whispered soft elvish to his friend. Then, he began a slow rhythmic motion, which Aragorn fell into, and sent the man into pure ecstasy, causing him to spill his seed and moan in pleasure. With a final thrust Legolas released and slid out of him. Aragorn lay panting heavilly, and Legolas knelt doing so. Tracing the mans back with two fingers, Legolas applied pressure to a point that caused Aragorn to fall into a deep sleep. Feeling fufilled physically, Legolas got dressed and left him there.
He began to walk down the hall, enjoying the fact that he relieved his emotional frustration; almost greedily so. Unbeknownst to him, though, Elesen had been following him since his parting from Aragorn. Legolas turned a corner and Elesen rushed up behind him. They were in a large hallway, now dim due to the time of night, and the only light was provided by the heavens above. Moonlight flooded into the room from a skylight high above them, and cast light shadows on the floor.
"Legolas, I need to speak with you," said a stern Elesen.
**Torrent's POV**
My song drew to an end, and I had enjoyed it. 'Tis very lovely, and even though unpleasantness was had with me in long grasses before, does not mean I cannot sing of it and hope that one day I will share a proper feeling. I begin to head back to the 'palace' as Pippin and I call it, for I wish to sleep. Normally, I'd sleep underneath the stars out here, but I am unfamilliar with this place, and what may be lurking here. Walking brings me to a hall, and I hear voices. Ducking behind a wall close to the voices, I peer off a side of it, and listen in.
"Legolas, I need to speak with you."
"What is it, Elesen?" Why did Legolas speak so flatly? Wait. He dislikes Elesen; that is why.
"Were you doing what I think you were...?"
"What, preytell, would that be, Elesen?"
"Look, I heard you two." What on Middle Earth...?
"Who? Elesen, I do believe I am unaware of what you speak of."
"Do not lie, Legolas! I heard you and Aragorn! I had come to find him, Gimli told me he was in his room last he saw him, so I went there. Then, as I come up, I hear you two pleasuring yourselves! I knew it was not he and Torrent, for she is still about the fields and has been for quite some time now. Then, I saw you leave the room a short while after. Have you no shame? Do you not care whom you hurt?" What... Elesen.
He is lying. "Eii... eii.. Damatte-yo," I speak softly to myself.
"Does it matter, Elesen? Really and truly, does it? Elves are promiscuous! I cannot help it if I wish to fill a void in my life."
"That is sick. I was right to follow you here."
"No, you are sick Elesen. Stay out of my affairs." As he speaks those cruelly kind words, I walk out into the open towards them. I only had to go about 10-11 feet at the least to be right next to them, so I arrived just as Legolas finished. I know what he and Aragorn did now. His face tells me, moreso, his eyes do. And his thought are still lingering on what happened. 'Tis sick. I walk right between them, and keep walking, even when both call out my name. Then, I begin to run. Not wishing to hear this, I again hope I can run from my problems.
\\ I'm sorry, Torrent. \\
[You can't help it Bliss.]
\\ I didn't know he was capable of doing that. \\
[Neither did I...]
\\ I am sorry I am not there. \\
[If you were, though, do you think I would have gotten mixed up in any of this?]
\\ ... No. I do not think you would. \\
[I'll be fine, Bliss. I just need to... rest.] I run into my current room, and lock the door behind me. Throwing myself upon the soft bed, I lay and cry myself to sleep. " 'Filling a useless void,' said he. Maybe I am but a pawn, too, in his game." The last thing I see before I sleep is the moon in my window, and an image of BLiss in my mind.
**Normal POV**
{Morning.}
"Please wake up, Torrent."
"What's the point?"
"Come now, please wake. The morning is so beautiful today."
"No. Leave me be."
"I cannot have you sit here all day and wallow in your room, locked-up like this..."
"Sure you can, by leaving me be. My door is locked, can't you see? Now please, go."
"Torrent, I..." Elesen gave up. He couldn't do anything. He had realized quite quickly she knew of the conversation last night as she began to run from them. Talking to her through her door surely would get him no where. He would have to confront her later. Anger burned with a passion for Legolas from Elesen. [He probably does not even care about how she feels now,] thought Elesen. [That Elf makes me sick.] Elesen went down to the fields, and began to look for bright wildflowers to give to Torrent, in hopes to cheer her up. [She left us early to try to relieve herself of fears, worries, and depression.. yet.. now she has another issue. Why shouldn't I at least help?] After scouting for a bit, Elesen could only decide on plucking a tall, bright Black-Eyed Susan.
Returning to her room, he found the door unlocked an ajar. She was not in her bed; it was made. She was not even in the terrace of her room. He placed the flower atop her pillow, and left it to bask in the sunlight of the early noon. Aragorn now walked the halls in search for Legolas, who would not be found. Torrent was atop a distant watch-tower alone, wishing to have solitude forever. Merry and Pippin worried so for the mental health of their friends, who had said naught to them. They only spoke to Elesen, who seemed quite worried, which made them feel distraught, too.
{Watch-tower.}
A light breeze blew and picked up Torrent's hair, caressing it and playing with it in the wind. Pushing a random wisp of hair behind her right ear, she still stood and faced wistfully to the West. She called to him.
[You do realize I could end it all again, Bliss... That I could merely sail West, and be with you.]
\\ ... \\
[Or, I could merely die in the war; let a rogue arrow pierce my heart, as it has been so many times before by others.]
\\ ... \\
[I could resort to what I did in the tower...]
Torrent began to cry.
\\ ... \\
[Or.. or.. I could sit here and slowly die inside while others torment me to death by me letting them use me...]
\\ Please, do not ache me so, Torrent. It is not your time. You cannot sail West. You deserve to live. All those years in the tower have taught to strength and many lessons. You are stonger than that. Please, Torrent: think of the good times.\\
[What good times?] The wind rippled her shirt, and entwined bits of her hair, as if her friend was there with her stroking her hair in a gentle fashion; trying to calm her as he did when her parents died.
\\ Such as we used to share. Such as you use to have alone.. Or with.. Him.\\
[Yes, but what we shared was from friendship. And what he gave me was meaningless to him. I was just 'filling a void.']
\\ Torrent, if you believe people are truly using you, you will end up succumbing to anyone and letting them. Do not grow weak. You are not a pawn, and you are not a useless void. \\
[I'm worse, I'm a whore.]
\\ Stop putting yourself down. It tempers me to see you so.. Dejected. \\
"Useless whore.." the wind silenced her by blowing harder, and floating her words into nothingness, not allowing anyone to hear them. Torrent sat and again stared into the West, coveting her own distruction.
{Fields.}
"Legolas! There you are."
"Oh, hello Aragorn."
"Why are you all the way out here?"
(Flashback)
"Torrent why are you out here so late?"
"No reason, really.."
"Tell me, or I will have to force it out of you."
{Fields.}
"Legolas?" Aragorn puts his arms around Legolas' waist. "Why are you out here: really?"
"No reason. Just... thinking of something that's missing." Legolas stands till with his arms hanging loosely at his sides, and Aragorns arms wrapped about his waist. [Something isn't right. Funny: I know exactly what.] thinks the elf. Legolas removes Aragorn's hands from about him, and turns to leave. "I'm sorry Aragorn. I need to be alone." He walks off into the windy fields alone.
-------
Lundy, Fastnet, in the Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read
Being the first in the open Sea
I got a message I can't read
Another message I can't read
Why do these hints only hamper me?
I'm on your side
Nowhere to hide
Trapdoors that open
I spiral down
You're living in a fantasy world
You're living in a fantasy world
------
Walking. Walking. It is sunset, and the fileds are now orange. Aloft in the breeze are all her thoughts, and down in the grass are her cares and worries. She walks on faulted ground, her problems causing the ground to belt, and her selfishness causing the sky to fall. Her injury healed two days ago, a day after she arrived in Gondor, and she wished to feel the pain again. Just to feel something except guilt and sorrow, and then the blankness inside. Her foot hits something, and she then trips over it. It is the form of Legolas. Scrambling to get up and run as she realizes this, she is brought back down by him grasping onto her ankle.
"Let go! I wish to leave."
"For good?"
"If it will make you two happy."
"What does that mean, Torrent?"
"You and him. Aragorn. I will not interfere any longer Legolas. Here's a thought: How about letting me go, so I can fetch him for you? 'Tis all I need to do then I shall be off!"
"Do not try to escape me, Torrent! I need and wish to speak with you."
"Legolas, leave me be. I shall say it slowly: Leave. Me---"
"No. Let me explain--"
"Be, and no, I already know 'to fill a useless void'; would that void happen to be emotion? Yes, it would! So, let us not hamper with your ideals about filling voids and having pawns. I, a fellow pawn, shall go, so we can all be off! Off, off, and happy! Let us not forget happy---"
"Are you quite done, Siren?"
"Do not call me that, your highness." Legolas let go of her ankle, and now grabbed her wrists, pulling her towards him. He stared hard into her eyes, which she stubbornly shut promptly.
\\ Torrent. Hear him out. \\
[No.]
\\ Torrent... \\
[Bliss...]
\\ Kodoqu. Now. Just do it. \\
[Please, don't make me.]
\\ ... \\
[Fine.]
Torrent opened her emerald eyes that glinted in the setting sun, and stared intently at him. "Fine then. You may explain." He let go of her wrists and intwined his fingers with hers.
"I felt alone after you left us. When you did not talk to me and ignored me, I felt even worse, for I even longed to look upon you, and maybe even touch your skin. I did not see you for a full three days, and I realized how much that I missed your company, and the sight of you. So, when you ran from me when you were practicing, I felt as if you did not wish to see me at all, nor speak to me. Almost as if you didn't want anything to do with me. This created a void inside me, and I needed to just touch someone, or take it out on something. I sought ARagorn and asked him if in fact he was infatuated with me, which I learned he was. He kissed me, and I protested, yet succumbed thinking that you had given up on me. Everything progressed further and we ended up doing that. I had no intentions of Elesen finding out, but I did honestly intend to tell you soon, when you would speak to me."
"..."
"There. I think that is all.."
"So, you still do not love Aragorn, but used him?"
"Well, yes, you could say that. Even though I dislike the realization of it.. He was a meaningless partner. Elves are promiscuous.."
"So, am I a part of that promiscuity, Legolas? Or, do I perhaps mean something?"
"You actually mean something." Legolas leaned forward and gaved her a chaste kiss. He then pulled her close, and embraced her, hoping that she would forgive him. His guilt.. stupidity.
----
Lovers in the long grass
Look above them
Only they can see
Where the clouds are going
Only to discover
Dust and sunlight
Ever make the sky so blue
----
"Do you forgive me? It is quite understandable if thou dost not."
She sighed. "To ease you, yes, I do.. in part. Yet.. I will have to reconsider---"
"Reconsider? How do you figure that?"
"You betrayed me."
"He meant nothing! Do you think I enjoyed his company?"
Torrent raised a brow. "According to Elesen you did."
She sank into his arms and enjoyed the comfort for the moment being. Still wary and distrustful of him, she did forgive him... somewhat.
Neither of them could bring a smile to their faces as they walked back to the place. She felt betrayal still, and distrust. Legolas noticed her uneasy feelings and backed-off for a bit. The two parted before entering the gates, heading in different directions, to throw off suspicion. The two could share some secrets, couldn't they? Torrent immediately went to her room and found the Black-Eyed Susan from Elesen, and recognized the gesture and who it was from. The flower still glowed with health and was quite beautiful. She went to find Elesen, which was quite an easy task. He was standing on a terrace outside the dining hall, minding his own business, embracing the night. Sneaking up silently behind him, with flower in hand, she tightly hugged him in thanks. The gesture of the flower was quite nice, and she respected him for thinking of her. Surprised, he turned his head and saw it was her, and smiled in reply.
"Thank you, Elesen" she whispered in his ear.
"You are welcome, Torrent."
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Please review!! Hope you enjoyed it! =) Hey... slashes are sorta fun. Had to add some slash.