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(A/N Meredith, nice review, but I'm going to take your word I that…fresh gagh and leola root. I'll pass. I'm going to finish everyone don't worry! This chapter isn't so great…sorry! Btw seven more REVIEWS UNTIL FIFTY!! YEAH!!! THAT IS SOOO KEWL!!! Fifth year is ending! I'm finishing quick cause I'm lacking inspiration at the moment, and I've been lacking some interesting fan fiction so if you got any good stories please says so in your review.)
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CHAPTER 18
Lily was still hiding from James in her dorm; all day it had been the same. If she saw James and took cover behind her friends or in one case a very hefty Hufflepuff boy.
Lily kept her door shut and was careful when people came in because she knew he had an invisibility cloak.
"SIERRA SHUT THE DOOR!" Lily yelped when Sierra carelessly left it open.
"Sorry, didn't know you were so-."
"I'm afraid James is going to get me back, and he can sneak in with his invisibility cloak!" Lily said urgently, hiding behind her bed hangings.
"Lily stop being paranoid." Jimena said from her bed. "I can't sleep when you're paranoid."
"That's not my fault now is it?" Lily said smoothly and lied down to sleep, well she was pretending to sleep. She kept herself awake just in case James tried to prank her during the night for revenge.
For the first hour of fake sleeping, Lily jumped at every sound and kept an eye on the crack in her hangings. All though Lily tried to stay awake, the sandman came and visited and she fells asleep. (A/N sandman…that's a creepy thought, a man coming into your room to put you to sleep…God I'll never sleep again!)
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Lily found herself in a dream, not even her own for that matter.
There was James holding onto Lily's hand trying to keep her from falling off her broom stick; they were younger looking. Lily saw herself getting hit several times by a bludger; then Lily knew where she was and who was dreaming. It was James having a nightmare about the Quidditch Accident.
Lily looked at her dream self and then found her 'real' self on a broomstick; she flew over to James and thought of something to say; but instead she just gave him some help. She helped pull her dream self on to James' broom, and he smiled gratefully, and they found themselves somewhere else. The dream Lily was gone and it was just her and James.
"Thanks Lils." James said distantly.
"You're welcome, couldn't let myself fall you know." Lily said with a grin, James returned it.
"This is a REAL dream isn't it?" James asked touching Lily to make sure she was real.
"Yeah, I think so." Lily answered, flinching at his touch. "Uh, while we're here I hope you don't mind if I ask you not to take revenge on me or anything…for earlier."
"Can't say that I won't." James said sadly.
Then the dream ended and they went back to 'normal' sleeping.
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Lily awoke to her two best friends' voices talking quietly to each other. "Those to belong together! Sirius and Remus said to meet them in the common room tonight, and then we'll go off and plan." Jimena informed Sierra.
"Oh great!" Sierra said enthusiastically. "I hope they have a good plan in mind, because I haven't thought of anything yet."
"I have SOME ideas, but not many. I'm sure Remus has something in mind already though, let's wake Lily up."
Lily pretended to be asleep and her best friends 'woke her up'. Then the three of them headed down to breakfast. James and Lily continued to not talk: James was mad at Lily for the Lucius thing, and Lily was mad at James for flirting with all those girls when he KNEW she liked him, she used to think that he liked her too, but that was definitely not true.
As March came and went James became…as some girls would say "A flirting animal!" Which only made Lily angrier at him; he never retaliated on the 'Lucius incident' as everyone had started to call it. Most everyone in the school knew about "James and Lily" and how they liked each other, but were mad at each other for something that nobody knew about; not even their best friends.
Lily began to study until the early morning hours every night trying to be ready for their Owls, James studied enough, but always in a different place then Lily, and since Lily was mostly in the Common Room he ended up in the Library.
One day while Lily was in the common room, as small first year approached her.
"Are you Lily Evans, the prefect?" She said in a high pitched voide.
"Yeah, what's it to you?" Lily snapped annoyed that someone had interrupted her while she was studying.
"I was wondering if you like James Potter or not, because me and my friends were wonder-."
Lily cut her off "I don't like James, never have never will! Now will EVERYONE LEAVE ME ALONE!?" Lily screeched enough for the entire common room to hear.
The first year yelped and ran to her friends who were giggling like made hyenas.
Lily scowled and continued to study; lying wasn't any fun.
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Sierra and Jimena were talking to Lily about Quidditch or something, but Lily wasn't listening she was thinking about a certain dark haired, fellow chaser who was making her very pissed by snogging some sixth year Hufflepuff.
Jimena sighed, "Lily, you need to get over him. You chose this fate so get used to it."
"Are you sure Jimena? Lily might still have a chance he might just be doing this in retaliation to her rejecting him." Sierra said thoughtfully.
"I don't think so guys, and I am over him but he just frustrates me so much!" Lily grumbled, and went up to the common room not wanting to eat anymore.
Jimena turned to Sierra "I hope this plan works, I know Sirius has good intentions and all but we could end up making them HATE each other, the exact opposite of what we want."
"Yeah, I know but Sirius knows James better then anyone, and if he thinks it might work, we're going to have to try." Sierra said with a sigh, the two girls hated seeing their friend so upset and angry ALL THE TIME.
"I'm going to meet up with Remus, he wanted to talk to me about something…"Jimena said blushing a bit.
"Jimena? Do you like Remus?" Sierra asked grinning.
"Shh, maybe a little, but don't say anything to Lily she- Hey you don't think THAT'S why she won't get together with him, do you?"
"It might be, but I think if she likes him enough she would just go out with him anyways, it won't lead to anything right?" Sierra said with worry in her voice.
"I hope not because then I would feel terrible making her go through with that, it's bad enough going through with this stupid rule myself-."
"JIMENA! You don't like this rule either?!" Sierra hissed.
"No I hate it! DO you think we could-."
"Call it off? Who cares? We can date all we want we're teenagers we can do whatever we want, and I'm going to go snog Sirius!" Sierra declared and covered her mouth immediately.
Jimena burst out laughing, but recovered long enough to say. "So you admit you like him, so I guess this has been going on since last week right?"
Sierra blushed redder. "Yeah." She mumbled. "I- I was going to tell you guys it- it was just the rule…and stuff, so what about you and Remus?"
Jimena blushed again "I was just going to meet him as I said, so later!" Jimena jumped out of her seat and ran off to meet Remus somewhere.
Sierra was whispering to herself something like this, "Teenagers and our hormones finally took over."
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That night Lily found herself getting pulled away from her books, by Jimena and Sierra.
"Lily come on! We found this AWESOME passage way and we want to show you right NOW!" Sierra said pulling Lily through the portrait hole before she could object.
"Guys, sorry to tell you this but my homework is WAY more important then one of the MILLIONS of passage ways in the castle…unless it's a secret one."
"Yeah, yeah that's what I meant…a secret passage way, it's so cool!" Sierra said happily.
"Please hurry!" Jimena pleaded since Lily kept trying to walk slowly.
"Okay, I'm hurrying!" The three girls took off at a run, and soon made it to a statue of a one eyed witch.
"Dissendium!" Sierra said taping her wand on it. The statue moved so there was a space big enough to crawl through.
"Wow." Lily breathed before finding herself pushed inside it. They were in a dark passage way and she heard Sierra say "Lumos!" Then it was a bit brighter but still dark, she heard her two best friends whisper things inaudibly she only caught one word "Sirius". 'What are they planning!?' Lily wondered to herself, but started walking down the passage way.
Lily was getting bored and was about to say something, when she saw the passage way opening open, 'Did someone come in?' then she saw three people leave, and she had a distinct feeling that someone was in there with her.
"Um, Jimena? Sierra? Where'd you go?" Lily called softly into the dark.
"They left." A voice said harshly making Lily jump, then she recognized the voice. (A/N Oh this is weird I just had Déjà vu! Dunno why!)
"What are YOU doing here? Lumos!" Lily said emphasizing the word you a lot.
"I have every right to be here as you do, plus it was me and my friends who found this palce in the first place." James said fiercely.
"Well, for your information I didn't want to be here in the first place! I was tricked into coming here! So if you don't mind I'm LEAVING." Lily said and tried to push past him, but found it was a bit too small a space to do so. "Move over!" Lily said, giving him a push in the chest. They ended up pressed together facing each other tightly.
"Uh…This is uncomfortable." James said after a moment of trying to fight their way through it. "I feel like I'm glued to the wall!" James muttered trying to escape.
"Me…too." Lily grunted trying to set herself free. "Oh I bet we are!"
"Are what?"
"Glued to the wall!" Lily yelped; it was very uncomfortable to say the least. "Uh, know I spell to get us free? I bet this was their stupid "plan"." Lily grumbled angrily. James was breathing heavily, and Lily was having trouble concentrating on concentrating on getting out of there. It seemed much more to stay there with him… 'Lily what are you thinking!?' Lily scolded herself.
James grunted, and tried to back away from her, but couldn't. Two fifteen year olds in a small tunnel is easy to get trapped in when there's glue involved.
"So James do you have any ideas?" Lily asked again.
Still no answer. "Um, James we can't stay here all night you know." James grunted something and it sounded like "why not?" but Lily ignored it, she was starting to feel dizzy, or tired or light headed and happy, it was weird, it probably had something to do with James being so close to her.
"Lils, do you still like me?" James said speaking finally, but his voice sounded strained, as if he were trying to control something.
"James, you probably know the answer to that." Lily said, her voice sounded similar to his, except in came from a girl.
"Well, actually no, and since I don't know I think I'm going to choose your answer." James said, and she felt him leaning closer, and Lily of course couldn't escape.
"James-." Lily immediately forgot what she was about to say, because she was stopped by James kissing her gently. Lily was shocked. "James, you know we can't, we've been through this before."
"So who cares? I don't, why do you care so much? Right now all I can think about is you. I want you so badly I haven't known what to do with myself for months…That's why I've been with all those girls, I had to get the feelings out some how…But it didn't help and I find myself dreaming about you all the time! Lily you have to give me just this one try!" James pleaded; the intensity in his voice was frightening.
"James…I just don't know…I don't want to risk it." Lily said her eyes betrayed what she really thought, she tried to look away but it was too late James had seen it.
"Liar." James whispered, and drew her closer to him, and kissed her and it soon turned into a crazy snogging session. They came up for air a while later.
"James, it won't work why do we jeopardize our friendship? I don't think we should."
James looked frustrated, normally his kisses got whatever he wanted out of a girl, but this girl was making it difficult.
"Lily, I don't give a shit about our friendship at this direct moment, so would you please stop thinking so far ahead and be spontaneous for a moment!?" James begged.
Lily was quiet for a moment, "One month at the most."
"Excuse me?" James asked a bit confused.
"If we go out it can only be for a month, and then we stop. That way we can't get too attached or anything."
"All right, that's a deal then Miss Evans." James said, and the snogging continued for quite a while, until they were rudely interrupted by four nosy people. "Grr, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Sierra and Jimena please leave me and Lily alone for a while; we're busy."
Lily giggled and so did her friends. "Could you get us unstuck please? We've been like this for…Like an hour." The rest of them burst out laughing, but came and helped them out, but James kept mumbling something about 'finally I get some and THEY have to show up.'
They went back to the common room, all having a special someone except for poor Peter of course.
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(A/N I didn't expect to do that…but I couldn't help putting it in…I dunno how small that passage way is…but it's quite a small space now? Okay?! Thank you!)
Lily and James for a month were inseparable, they studied together (because of Lily's protests) but their 'study sessions' always turned into snogging sessions, and every class was much more enjoyable now that they were talking.
James' invisibility cloak came in handy a lot when they wanted to hide from their friends. Sierra and Sirius were now open about their relationship, as were Jimena and Remus. The rule had been dropped, but they had set a limit on relationships to one month at a time. (A/N quite sad really, they just torture themselves.)
While Sirius, Sierra, Remus and Jimena had to say goodbye when they went to sleep Lily and James had a very good benefit. They could sometimes say 'hello' in their dreams…which normally meant dream snogging… a lot. Lily's nightmares were almost gone. They were very rare and she was always smiling and in a good mood, then the end of the month came and EVERYONE was in a bad mood knowing their relationships were going to be over very soon.
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(A/N Err this might be a bit depressing, but I'm not exactly sure yet. Also it's around the end of April early May time wise.)
Jimena, Sierra and Lily were talking late at night in the common room alone.
"I don't want to do this, I don't I can't do it, I caaaan't!" Lily whined loudly, she was devastated, tomorrow was THE day.
"I don't want to do it either!" Jimena complained.
"Why'd we all have to get together on the SAME day, that was so…"
"It was probably for the best if you think about it, that way they can suffer together." Jimena said, all three girls were holding back tears, they felt terrible.
"Guys, why don't you just keep going out with Sirius and Remus? It's no big deal right? We're only fifteen it won't become something huge or anything." Lily suggested. "Yeah that's what you guys should do it's for the best, but I still have to… break it off with James."
"Lily why? If you're still breaking up with James I'm still breaking up with Sirius!" Sierra informed her.
"NO your not, keep going out with him your happy and I don't want you guys to ruin that okay? The dreams have basically stopped for you guys anyways; it must mean that whoever they are is safe!" Lily interjected.
"Lily, stay with James-." Jimena started.
"I CAN'T there's some things I haven't told you that…well….I can't tell you, but you're going to have to believe me that I HAVE to do this, or else James and me will be in danger, one month was no biggie, anything more then that…" Lily's voice trailed off and her friends just stared at her.
"It's that curse isn't it?!" Sierra said jumping up.
"Yeah…it's ruining my life." Lily muttered.
"Lily fight it, why won't you tell us anyway? We're your best friends your suppose to tell us these things!" Jimena yelled.
"I CAN'T I told you…All I can say is that if me and James are together…it could kill us both, I can't go into details, but that's the truth, that's why I have to do it." Lily said the tears finally falling down her cheeks. Her two friends gave her hugs, finally understanding. They talked for a while about how unfair it was, and went up to bed, dreadfully tired. Lily tried to sleep, but decided now was the best time to tell James the bad news, it was after midnight so it was already their one month anniversary for most people this is a good thing, for Lily and James it was awful.
Lily crept into the boys' dorm, and went to James' bed. She tapped him quietly on the cheek trying to wake him up. Then she remembered another time she tried to wake him up and smiled, as sad smile. She fought the tears that came to her eyes, and sat next to James, and held his hand.
All of sudden James started moaning in his sleep, Lily smiled a bit more then he shocked her greatly, by saying something she didn't exactly like him saying while he was moaning. "Lily." He mumbled and Lily started laughing not wanting to know what he was dreaming about.
"James honey, wake up." Lily said shaking him. She was getting fed up with him, and crawled on top of him and gave him a kiss; That woke him up quickly.
James rubbed his eyes, and his eyes bulged, when he put on his glasses and saw Lily.
"Don't worry James, you didn't get lucky." Lily said laughing slightly, then she pulled James out of bed and took him into the common room; she sat down on a seat opposite of James, and noticed just how upset he looked.
"I know what you're going to say Lils, and I wish you wouldn't." He said, she noticed for the first time his eyes were shining; like hem might cry.
"James I told you about this almost everyday; I reminded you, you knew it was coming. I wish we could be together…but we can't." Lily felt more hot tears filling her eyes, and her throat was burning. (A/N this is making me depressed. I'm listening to Destiny's Child song: Emotions and that song with out any help can make me cry!)
"Please Lily, I know I'm being selfish, but I really want to stay with you…just for a bit longer…"
"No James, we can't it will only make things worse." Lily said as firmly as she could, but her voice was still shaky.
"Thanks for waking me up, for a moment I thought I was going to get one last snog, but I guess I was wrong." James said and laughed coldly. Then he half smiled at her and asked. "How about it?"
"What?" Lily asked dumbly.
"One last snog?" James said grinning as best he could.
"Why not? Might as well." Lily said and sat on James lap and continued to snog for…a very long time. Lily couldn't help but cry as they snogged, she was going to miss his kisses, and his hugs, talking to him, joking with him, 'studying' with him, she was going to miss everything, even the fights.
Finally a few hours later, the departed and Lily went up to her dorm, lay down on her bed and cried herself to sleep. 'It's for the best, it's for the best.' Lily kept repeating to herself, but she didn't believe it.
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(A/N God I sure do know how to depress myself…Well, I should warn you it doesn't get better for a while, just be happy I changed my mind about breaking Sirius/Sierra and Jimena/Remus up. I almost did, but I didn't have the heart (or the time) to do it. I want to finish this and get it posted because I got school, and stuff, I neglected my homework to write this…good thing it's not do till Wednesday…)
Lily woke up the next morning and felt miserable, she'd slept in since it was the weekend, and mopped around in her dorm until lunch. She tried her best to hide her puffy eyes, and went to lunch when Sierra and Jimena came up to get her.
"Lils are you okay?" Jimena asked softly.
"No, I don't think I'll ever be okay, I just hope James doesn't hate me for this…" Lily's voice trailed off as she saw James sitting in the common room with Sirius, Remus and Peter. They seemed to be trying to cheer him up with a game of exploding snap, but it wasn't working, when he saw Lily staring at him, they gave each other weak smiles, and looked away, not being able to bear the pain. (A/N *Sob!* and not son of a ***** either!)
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During May Lily buried herself in her studies trying to escape the pain, as did James, and they could barely look at each other, Lily would cry every time she saw him happy. Her heart had been broken, and she didn't think she would recover. OWLs weren't far off, and by then and everyone was worried and studying and the common room was a tense place to be.
During meals, Lily would be forced to sit near him, because her best friends were going out with HIS best friends, making it difficult to escape him. Lily would look away from him or talk to Peter. Peter turned out to be a very nice guy; he was just a bit misunderstood. (A/N yeah right.) Although sometimes she would get distracted from ignoring James, when she would catch him staring at her; licking his lips like he might eat her or something, she could only wonder what he was thinking about.
Sirius and Remus had started setting up James with girls all the time, trying to help him out. Lily tried to date a few times, but it ended up horrible. In the end neither of them dated at all.
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Lily, Jimena, Sierra, Vanessa and Catty were in their dorm getting ready to go down to breakfast, and Lily was moping around as usual…
"Lily, you are so depressing you need to stop with this 'James' nonsense!" Vanessa said shaking Lily's shoulders, maybe trying to get out all her thoughts about James.
"Calm down Vanessa, I'll be fine, it's just hard at first…but I'll be back to normal any day now don't worry about it." Lily said reassuringly.
Her friends were getting worried about her; it was just about the same in James' case.
~In the boys' dormitories~
"James! Wake up! We have to get to breakfast!" Remus said loudly to his friend who was still sleeping deeply. James mumbled something about Lily, and kept sleeping.
"JAMES, Lily is NOT coming to wake you up, so get over it and get OUT of bed!" Sirius said, and pulled James out of his bed.
"Okay, I'm awake; just give me a minute to get ready." James muttered looking through his trunk for some clothes.
(A/N I just had a major brain block all of a sudden…weird. This chapter is taking forever!)
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June came snuck up on Hogwarts quickly and Lily was still moping around during the day, and at night the nightmares were getting worse; she was always dreaming about death. Not very comforting.
Then Exam day came. Lily was doing some last minute studying while walking to her classes, every one was afraid to disturb her since the last person who had (the same annoying first year from earlier) had gotten cursed the color red, it became Lily's trade mark, every time some one bothered her they turned up red. Soon the hall ways were dotted with red people.
Exams were over, and everyone was feeling relieved to be FREE. Everyone ran to the outdoors, as soon as possible, enjoying their freedom for a while, soon school would be over, and they'd be going home.
Everyone was very excited as they went down to breakfast; the day they would see their results.
Sierra and Jimena did well, but Lily was at the top of the year, along with James, which didn't make Lily happy. She looked at James who was grinning happily at getting top grades. Lily glared and continued to talk to her friends.
Before long Lily found herself approaching the Hogwarts train, she'd been dreading this since she knew that she would be sitting with The Marauders, not exactly the best place you want to be when you're trying to get over one of them.
The train ride home was spent uncomfortably. Unless you happened to be Remus, Jimena, Sierra or Sirius. They were snogging half the way home.
During that time Peter tried to get a conversation started with Lily and James, but Lily was just staring out the window, and James was observing his feet which were very interesting to him all of a sudden.
The other half of the time was spent with the three girls talking about summer, and hoping to meet up at Diagon Alley.
When the train ride was finally over, Lily said a long good bye to her friends and was soon dragged away by Mindy, and taken away to the Ewing home.
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A/N that's that! Thank goodness it just kept dragging on and on…I'm having a writer's block moment…or a blonde moment, I'm not sure which, but please review!! THAT encourages me to write a lot more then staring at a blank page…If I get to fifty I think…I think I'll faint!! Short chapter huh? ZOPE (My new word for 'welp' that invented while sending an email to my sister in college.) PLEASE REVIEW!! It will truly make my day, feel free to tell me what you think…even if it's bad! ( Laters!
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(A/N Meredith, nice review, but I'm going to take your word I that…fresh gagh and leola root. I'll pass. I'm going to finish everyone don't worry! This chapter isn't so great…sorry! Btw seven more REVIEWS UNTIL FIFTY!! YEAH!!! THAT IS SOOO KEWL!!! Fifth year is ending! I'm finishing quick cause I'm lacking inspiration at the moment, and I've been lacking some interesting fan fiction so if you got any good stories please says so in your review.)
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CHAPTER 18
Lily was still hiding from James in her dorm; all day it had been the same. If she saw James and took cover behind her friends or in one case a very hefty Hufflepuff boy.
Lily kept her door shut and was careful when people came in because she knew he had an invisibility cloak.
"SIERRA SHUT THE DOOR!" Lily yelped when Sierra carelessly left it open.
"Sorry, didn't know you were so-."
"I'm afraid James is going to get me back, and he can sneak in with his invisibility cloak!" Lily said urgently, hiding behind her bed hangings.
"Lily stop being paranoid." Jimena said from her bed. "I can't sleep when you're paranoid."
"That's not my fault now is it?" Lily said smoothly and lied down to sleep, well she was pretending to sleep. She kept herself awake just in case James tried to prank her during the night for revenge.
For the first hour of fake sleeping, Lily jumped at every sound and kept an eye on the crack in her hangings. All though Lily tried to stay awake, the sandman came and visited and she fells asleep. (A/N sandman…that's a creepy thought, a man coming into your room to put you to sleep…God I'll never sleep again!)
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Lily found herself in a dream, not even her own for that matter.
There was James holding onto Lily's hand trying to keep her from falling off her broom stick; they were younger looking. Lily saw herself getting hit several times by a bludger; then Lily knew where she was and who was dreaming. It was James having a nightmare about the Quidditch Accident.
Lily looked at her dream self and then found her 'real' self on a broomstick; she flew over to James and thought of something to say; but instead she just gave him some help. She helped pull her dream self on to James' broom, and he smiled gratefully, and they found themselves somewhere else. The dream Lily was gone and it was just her and James.
"Thanks Lils." James said distantly.
"You're welcome, couldn't let myself fall you know." Lily said with a grin, James returned it.
"This is a REAL dream isn't it?" James asked touching Lily to make sure she was real.
"Yeah, I think so." Lily answered, flinching at his touch. "Uh, while we're here I hope you don't mind if I ask you not to take revenge on me or anything…for earlier."
"Can't say that I won't." James said sadly.
Then the dream ended and they went back to 'normal' sleeping.
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Lily awoke to her two best friends' voices talking quietly to each other. "Those to belong together! Sirius and Remus said to meet them in the common room tonight, and then we'll go off and plan." Jimena informed Sierra.
"Oh great!" Sierra said enthusiastically. "I hope they have a good plan in mind, because I haven't thought of anything yet."
"I have SOME ideas, but not many. I'm sure Remus has something in mind already though, let's wake Lily up."
Lily pretended to be asleep and her best friends 'woke her up'. Then the three of them headed down to breakfast. James and Lily continued to not talk: James was mad at Lily for the Lucius thing, and Lily was mad at James for flirting with all those girls when he KNEW she liked him, she used to think that he liked her too, but that was definitely not true.
As March came and went James became…as some girls would say "A flirting animal!" Which only made Lily angrier at him; he never retaliated on the 'Lucius incident' as everyone had started to call it. Most everyone in the school knew about "James and Lily" and how they liked each other, but were mad at each other for something that nobody knew about; not even their best friends.
Lily began to study until the early morning hours every night trying to be ready for their Owls, James studied enough, but always in a different place then Lily, and since Lily was mostly in the Common Room he ended up in the Library.
One day while Lily was in the common room, as small first year approached her.
"Are you Lily Evans, the prefect?" She said in a high pitched voide.
"Yeah, what's it to you?" Lily snapped annoyed that someone had interrupted her while she was studying.
"I was wondering if you like James Potter or not, because me and my friends were wonder-."
Lily cut her off "I don't like James, never have never will! Now will EVERYONE LEAVE ME ALONE!?" Lily screeched enough for the entire common room to hear.
The first year yelped and ran to her friends who were giggling like made hyenas.
Lily scowled and continued to study; lying wasn't any fun.
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Sierra and Jimena were talking to Lily about Quidditch or something, but Lily wasn't listening she was thinking about a certain dark haired, fellow chaser who was making her very pissed by snogging some sixth year Hufflepuff.
Jimena sighed, "Lily, you need to get over him. You chose this fate so get used to it."
"Are you sure Jimena? Lily might still have a chance he might just be doing this in retaliation to her rejecting him." Sierra said thoughtfully.
"I don't think so guys, and I am over him but he just frustrates me so much!" Lily grumbled, and went up to the common room not wanting to eat anymore.
Jimena turned to Sierra "I hope this plan works, I know Sirius has good intentions and all but we could end up making them HATE each other, the exact opposite of what we want."
"Yeah, I know but Sirius knows James better then anyone, and if he thinks it might work, we're going to have to try." Sierra said with a sigh, the two girls hated seeing their friend so upset and angry ALL THE TIME.
"I'm going to meet up with Remus, he wanted to talk to me about something…"Jimena said blushing a bit.
"Jimena? Do you like Remus?" Sierra asked grinning.
"Shh, maybe a little, but don't say anything to Lily she- Hey you don't think THAT'S why she won't get together with him, do you?"
"It might be, but I think if she likes him enough she would just go out with him anyways, it won't lead to anything right?" Sierra said with worry in her voice.
"I hope not because then I would feel terrible making her go through with that, it's bad enough going through with this stupid rule myself-."
"JIMENA! You don't like this rule either?!" Sierra hissed.
"No I hate it! DO you think we could-."
"Call it off? Who cares? We can date all we want we're teenagers we can do whatever we want, and I'm going to go snog Sirius!" Sierra declared and covered her mouth immediately.
Jimena burst out laughing, but recovered long enough to say. "So you admit you like him, so I guess this has been going on since last week right?"
Sierra blushed redder. "Yeah." She mumbled. "I- I was going to tell you guys it- it was just the rule…and stuff, so what about you and Remus?"
Jimena blushed again "I was just going to meet him as I said, so later!" Jimena jumped out of her seat and ran off to meet Remus somewhere.
Sierra was whispering to herself something like this, "Teenagers and our hormones finally took over."
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That night Lily found herself getting pulled away from her books, by Jimena and Sierra.
"Lily come on! We found this AWESOME passage way and we want to show you right NOW!" Sierra said pulling Lily through the portrait hole before she could object.
"Guys, sorry to tell you this but my homework is WAY more important then one of the MILLIONS of passage ways in the castle…unless it's a secret one."
"Yeah, yeah that's what I meant…a secret passage way, it's so cool!" Sierra said happily.
"Please hurry!" Jimena pleaded since Lily kept trying to walk slowly.
"Okay, I'm hurrying!" The three girls took off at a run, and soon made it to a statue of a one eyed witch.
"Dissendium!" Sierra said taping her wand on it. The statue moved so there was a space big enough to crawl through.
"Wow." Lily breathed before finding herself pushed inside it. They were in a dark passage way and she heard Sierra say "Lumos!" Then it was a bit brighter but still dark, she heard her two best friends whisper things inaudibly she only caught one word "Sirius". 'What are they planning!?' Lily wondered to herself, but started walking down the passage way.
Lily was getting bored and was about to say something, when she saw the passage way opening open, 'Did someone come in?' then she saw three people leave, and she had a distinct feeling that someone was in there with her.
"Um, Jimena? Sierra? Where'd you go?" Lily called softly into the dark.
"They left." A voice said harshly making Lily jump, then she recognized the voice. (A/N Oh this is weird I just had Déjà vu! Dunno why!)
"What are YOU doing here? Lumos!" Lily said emphasizing the word you a lot.
"I have every right to be here as you do, plus it was me and my friends who found this palce in the first place." James said fiercely.
"Well, for your information I didn't want to be here in the first place! I was tricked into coming here! So if you don't mind I'm LEAVING." Lily said and tried to push past him, but found it was a bit too small a space to do so. "Move over!" Lily said, giving him a push in the chest. They ended up pressed together facing each other tightly.
"Uh…This is uncomfortable." James said after a moment of trying to fight their way through it. "I feel like I'm glued to the wall!" James muttered trying to escape.
"Me…too." Lily grunted trying to set herself free. "Oh I bet we are!"
"Are what?"
"Glued to the wall!" Lily yelped; it was very uncomfortable to say the least. "Uh, know I spell to get us free? I bet this was their stupid "plan"." Lily grumbled angrily. James was breathing heavily, and Lily was having trouble concentrating on concentrating on getting out of there. It seemed much more to stay there with him… 'Lily what are you thinking!?' Lily scolded herself.
James grunted, and tried to back away from her, but couldn't. Two fifteen year olds in a small tunnel is easy to get trapped in when there's glue involved.
"So James do you have any ideas?" Lily asked again.
Still no answer. "Um, James we can't stay here all night you know." James grunted something and it sounded like "why not?" but Lily ignored it, she was starting to feel dizzy, or tired or light headed and happy, it was weird, it probably had something to do with James being so close to her.
"Lils, do you still like me?" James said speaking finally, but his voice sounded strained, as if he were trying to control something.
"James, you probably know the answer to that." Lily said, her voice sounded similar to his, except in came from a girl.
"Well, actually no, and since I don't know I think I'm going to choose your answer." James said, and she felt him leaning closer, and Lily of course couldn't escape.
"James-." Lily immediately forgot what she was about to say, because she was stopped by James kissing her gently. Lily was shocked. "James, you know we can't, we've been through this before."
"So who cares? I don't, why do you care so much? Right now all I can think about is you. I want you so badly I haven't known what to do with myself for months…That's why I've been with all those girls, I had to get the feelings out some how…But it didn't help and I find myself dreaming about you all the time! Lily you have to give me just this one try!" James pleaded; the intensity in his voice was frightening.
"James…I just don't know…I don't want to risk it." Lily said her eyes betrayed what she really thought, she tried to look away but it was too late James had seen it.
"Liar." James whispered, and drew her closer to him, and kissed her and it soon turned into a crazy snogging session. They came up for air a while later.
"James, it won't work why do we jeopardize our friendship? I don't think we should."
James looked frustrated, normally his kisses got whatever he wanted out of a girl, but this girl was making it difficult.
"Lily, I don't give a shit about our friendship at this direct moment, so would you please stop thinking so far ahead and be spontaneous for a moment!?" James begged.
Lily was quiet for a moment, "One month at the most."
"Excuse me?" James asked a bit confused.
"If we go out it can only be for a month, and then we stop. That way we can't get too attached or anything."
"All right, that's a deal then Miss Evans." James said, and the snogging continued for quite a while, until they were rudely interrupted by four nosy people. "Grr, Sirius, Remus, Peter, Sierra and Jimena please leave me and Lily alone for a while; we're busy."
Lily giggled and so did her friends. "Could you get us unstuck please? We've been like this for…Like an hour." The rest of them burst out laughing, but came and helped them out, but James kept mumbling something about 'finally I get some and THEY have to show up.'
They went back to the common room, all having a special someone except for poor Peter of course.
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(A/N I didn't expect to do that…but I couldn't help putting it in…I dunno how small that passage way is…but it's quite a small space now? Okay?! Thank you!)
Lily and James for a month were inseparable, they studied together (because of Lily's protests) but their 'study sessions' always turned into snogging sessions, and every class was much more enjoyable now that they were talking.
James' invisibility cloak came in handy a lot when they wanted to hide from their friends. Sierra and Sirius were now open about their relationship, as were Jimena and Remus. The rule had been dropped, but they had set a limit on relationships to one month at a time. (A/N quite sad really, they just torture themselves.)
While Sirius, Sierra, Remus and Jimena had to say goodbye when they went to sleep Lily and James had a very good benefit. They could sometimes say 'hello' in their dreams…which normally meant dream snogging… a lot. Lily's nightmares were almost gone. They were very rare and she was always smiling and in a good mood, then the end of the month came and EVERYONE was in a bad mood knowing their relationships were going to be over very soon.
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(A/N Err this might be a bit depressing, but I'm not exactly sure yet. Also it's around the end of April early May time wise.)
Jimena, Sierra and Lily were talking late at night in the common room alone.
"I don't want to do this, I don't I can't do it, I caaaan't!" Lily whined loudly, she was devastated, tomorrow was THE day.
"I don't want to do it either!" Jimena complained.
"Why'd we all have to get together on the SAME day, that was so…"
"It was probably for the best if you think about it, that way they can suffer together." Jimena said, all three girls were holding back tears, they felt terrible.
"Guys, why don't you just keep going out with Sirius and Remus? It's no big deal right? We're only fifteen it won't become something huge or anything." Lily suggested. "Yeah that's what you guys should do it's for the best, but I still have to… break it off with James."
"Lily why? If you're still breaking up with James I'm still breaking up with Sirius!" Sierra informed her.
"NO your not, keep going out with him your happy and I don't want you guys to ruin that okay? The dreams have basically stopped for you guys anyways; it must mean that whoever they are is safe!" Lily interjected.
"Lily, stay with James-." Jimena started.
"I CAN'T there's some things I haven't told you that…well….I can't tell you, but you're going to have to believe me that I HAVE to do this, or else James and me will be in danger, one month was no biggie, anything more then that…" Lily's voice trailed off and her friends just stared at her.
"It's that curse isn't it?!" Sierra said jumping up.
"Yeah…it's ruining my life." Lily muttered.
"Lily fight it, why won't you tell us anyway? We're your best friends your suppose to tell us these things!" Jimena yelled.
"I CAN'T I told you…All I can say is that if me and James are together…it could kill us both, I can't go into details, but that's the truth, that's why I have to do it." Lily said the tears finally falling down her cheeks. Her two friends gave her hugs, finally understanding. They talked for a while about how unfair it was, and went up to bed, dreadfully tired. Lily tried to sleep, but decided now was the best time to tell James the bad news, it was after midnight so it was already their one month anniversary for most people this is a good thing, for Lily and James it was awful.
Lily crept into the boys' dorm, and went to James' bed. She tapped him quietly on the cheek trying to wake him up. Then she remembered another time she tried to wake him up and smiled, as sad smile. She fought the tears that came to her eyes, and sat next to James, and held his hand.
All of sudden James started moaning in his sleep, Lily smiled a bit more then he shocked her greatly, by saying something she didn't exactly like him saying while he was moaning. "Lily." He mumbled and Lily started laughing not wanting to know what he was dreaming about.
"James honey, wake up." Lily said shaking him. She was getting fed up with him, and crawled on top of him and gave him a kiss; That woke him up quickly.
James rubbed his eyes, and his eyes bulged, when he put on his glasses and saw Lily.
"Don't worry James, you didn't get lucky." Lily said laughing slightly, then she pulled James out of bed and took him into the common room; she sat down on a seat opposite of James, and noticed just how upset he looked.
"I know what you're going to say Lils, and I wish you wouldn't." He said, she noticed for the first time his eyes were shining; like hem might cry.
"James I told you about this almost everyday; I reminded you, you knew it was coming. I wish we could be together…but we can't." Lily felt more hot tears filling her eyes, and her throat was burning. (A/N this is making me depressed. I'm listening to Destiny's Child song: Emotions and that song with out any help can make me cry!)
"Please Lily, I know I'm being selfish, but I really want to stay with you…just for a bit longer…"
"No James, we can't it will only make things worse." Lily said as firmly as she could, but her voice was still shaky.
"Thanks for waking me up, for a moment I thought I was going to get one last snog, but I guess I was wrong." James said and laughed coldly. Then he half smiled at her and asked. "How about it?"
"What?" Lily asked dumbly.
"One last snog?" James said grinning as best he could.
"Why not? Might as well." Lily said and sat on James lap and continued to snog for…a very long time. Lily couldn't help but cry as they snogged, she was going to miss his kisses, and his hugs, talking to him, joking with him, 'studying' with him, she was going to miss everything, even the fights.
Finally a few hours later, the departed and Lily went up to her dorm, lay down on her bed and cried herself to sleep. 'It's for the best, it's for the best.' Lily kept repeating to herself, but she didn't believe it.
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(A/N God I sure do know how to depress myself…Well, I should warn you it doesn't get better for a while, just be happy I changed my mind about breaking Sirius/Sierra and Jimena/Remus up. I almost did, but I didn't have the heart (or the time) to do it. I want to finish this and get it posted because I got school, and stuff, I neglected my homework to write this…good thing it's not do till Wednesday…)
Lily woke up the next morning and felt miserable, she'd slept in since it was the weekend, and mopped around in her dorm until lunch. She tried her best to hide her puffy eyes, and went to lunch when Sierra and Jimena came up to get her.
"Lils are you okay?" Jimena asked softly.
"No, I don't think I'll ever be okay, I just hope James doesn't hate me for this…" Lily's voice trailed off as she saw James sitting in the common room with Sirius, Remus and Peter. They seemed to be trying to cheer him up with a game of exploding snap, but it wasn't working, when he saw Lily staring at him, they gave each other weak smiles, and looked away, not being able to bear the pain. (A/N *Sob!* and not son of a ***** either!)
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During May Lily buried herself in her studies trying to escape the pain, as did James, and they could barely look at each other, Lily would cry every time she saw him happy. Her heart had been broken, and she didn't think she would recover. OWLs weren't far off, and by then and everyone was worried and studying and the common room was a tense place to be.
During meals, Lily would be forced to sit near him, because her best friends were going out with HIS best friends, making it difficult to escape him. Lily would look away from him or talk to Peter. Peter turned out to be a very nice guy; he was just a bit misunderstood. (A/N yeah right.) Although sometimes she would get distracted from ignoring James, when she would catch him staring at her; licking his lips like he might eat her or something, she could only wonder what he was thinking about.
Sirius and Remus had started setting up James with girls all the time, trying to help him out. Lily tried to date a few times, but it ended up horrible. In the end neither of them dated at all.
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Lily, Jimena, Sierra, Vanessa and Catty were in their dorm getting ready to go down to breakfast, and Lily was moping around as usual…
"Lily, you are so depressing you need to stop with this 'James' nonsense!" Vanessa said shaking Lily's shoulders, maybe trying to get out all her thoughts about James.
"Calm down Vanessa, I'll be fine, it's just hard at first…but I'll be back to normal any day now don't worry about it." Lily said reassuringly.
Her friends were getting worried about her; it was just about the same in James' case.
~In the boys' dormitories~
"James! Wake up! We have to get to breakfast!" Remus said loudly to his friend who was still sleeping deeply. James mumbled something about Lily, and kept sleeping.
"JAMES, Lily is NOT coming to wake you up, so get over it and get OUT of bed!" Sirius said, and pulled James out of his bed.
"Okay, I'm awake; just give me a minute to get ready." James muttered looking through his trunk for some clothes.
(A/N I just had a major brain block all of a sudden…weird. This chapter is taking forever!)
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June came snuck up on Hogwarts quickly and Lily was still moping around during the day, and at night the nightmares were getting worse; she was always dreaming about death. Not very comforting.
Then Exam day came. Lily was doing some last minute studying while walking to her classes, every one was afraid to disturb her since the last person who had (the same annoying first year from earlier) had gotten cursed the color red, it became Lily's trade mark, every time some one bothered her they turned up red. Soon the hall ways were dotted with red people.
Exams were over, and everyone was feeling relieved to be FREE. Everyone ran to the outdoors, as soon as possible, enjoying their freedom for a while, soon school would be over, and they'd be going home.
Everyone was very excited as they went down to breakfast; the day they would see their results.
Sierra and Jimena did well, but Lily was at the top of the year, along with James, which didn't make Lily happy. She looked at James who was grinning happily at getting top grades. Lily glared and continued to talk to her friends.
Before long Lily found herself approaching the Hogwarts train, she'd been dreading this since she knew that she would be sitting with The Marauders, not exactly the best place you want to be when you're trying to get over one of them.
The train ride home was spent uncomfortably. Unless you happened to be Remus, Jimena, Sierra or Sirius. They were snogging half the way home.
During that time Peter tried to get a conversation started with Lily and James, but Lily was just staring out the window, and James was observing his feet which were very interesting to him all of a sudden.
The other half of the time was spent with the three girls talking about summer, and hoping to meet up at Diagon Alley.
When the train ride was finally over, Lily said a long good bye to her friends and was soon dragged away by Mindy, and taken away to the Ewing home.
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A/N that's that! Thank goodness it just kept dragging on and on…I'm having a writer's block moment…or a blonde moment, I'm not sure which, but please review!! THAT encourages me to write a lot more then staring at a blank page…If I get to fifty I think…I think I'll faint!! Short chapter huh? ZOPE (My new word for 'welp' that invented while sending an email to my sister in college.) PLEASE REVIEW!! It will truly make my day, feel free to tell me what you think…even if it's bad! ( Laters!
*~Sierra~*