Prologue
Never in her right mind would she ever understand the mind of guys. They were just so weird or they were missing something in their brain cells. They didn't make sense, they didn't care and they certainly were rude. They didn't care who they were, what they threw away and as long as their needs were met they could careless how many broken hearts they left in their wake.
Serena Tsukino ranted and raged silently in her head. Serena was a petite blond with sky blue eyes and a curvy but right now she was a blond you didn't want to get close to. Serena picked up a picture of a couple, tore it up and threw it in the trash. Everything she ever got from that deadbeat guy was thrown into the garbage or flung outside her door. As it happened her ex-boyfriend broke up with her because she wasn't pretty enough for him anymore which last month he referred her as the most beautiful being on this earth. Guys change girls as they change their underwear. What was the point of getting involved with a bunch of monkeys when everyone knew they jumped trees when a beautiful girl with big boobs gave them a wink or something, Serena wondered to herself.
Serena looked at herself in the mirror and suddenly stopped what she was doing. Serena looked at her reflection and cringed. This was not her, the maniac with wild hair, red eyes, runny nose and basically breathing like a donkey that just ran a marathon. Serena let the item slip threw her fingers and sat on the floor. Serena let the tears fall and curled up on the floor to let her self get a good cry.
Serena woke up a few hours later to find herself a little calmer. Serena made a pact with herself that she was never going to let a guy get the best of her again. Love was for the weak because it never lasted and always a guarantee to get yourself hurt. Serena was going to be strong and never be a gullible reject again.
Serena picked everything up in her room and straightened up. Serena went to her desk in the corner and took out her journal and a pen. She stared at the page of her most private journal where everything and anything she ever felt was written down. She picked up her pen and quickly stroked her elegant handwriting down on paper. Serena stared down at what she wrote and gave a cynical smile.
Feb.6, 2002
Dear Journal,
Today I turned 17 and received a huge gift from someone I loved. He told me I wasn't pretty enough for his taste. I'm not someone perfect he wanted to show off and then he told me I would never find anyone that could love me for me. You see this is a good thing because I finally found myself. Today is the day I died and was reborn into someone that I was fated to be. Ice, no heart, no emotions and best of all no love. Love is weak and I'm not weak. No more childish dreams about love and ever after, now it's all about surviving what so many people fall in to. I will survive.
Serena closed her journal and ended her childish dreams that day.
5 years later
Serena scooped a piece of chocolate ice cream in her mouth and chewed slowly. Serena looked out the window of the restaurant she was in. She heard the doorbell chime but didn't pay attention to who came in until a figure sat in the chair next to her. Serena looked at the person and gave the guy a hard stare. He leaned over and gave her a deep kiss before pulling back.
" I'm sorry I'm late, I was tied up." He started out.
" You mean you were banging your wife. You don't have to worry I'm not going to freak at you because you slept with your wife. I could care less who you shack up with." Serena told him bluntly.
" I know I don't have to explain but I wanted to. Hey lets get out of here and find a private place." He asked.
Serena could tell he was getting a hard on just by talking about finding a stop. Guys were all the same, they thought about shoving their prick into any hole and nothing else. Her recent married conquest was a man named Ted. He's been married for the last 5 years and was 28. He was handsome with blond hair, blue eyes and a nice build. Obviously he didn't care about cheating on his wife. Serena only dated and slept with married guys or guys that had girlfriend because it proved all guys were the same. Serena got up and left the restaurant, letting him pay for her meal. She got into his car and waited for him to drive her wherever he wanted to go. Probably a cheap motel that he could rent by the hour, Serena snickered to herself. He got into the car without a word and drove off. Serena stared out the window, lost in thought when they came to a stop. Serena looked at him questionably and waited for him to explain.
" We've never screwed out in the open and I wanted to. No one will find us or anything." Ted told her. Serena rolled her eyes and got out of the car. She looked over at him and gave an inward laugh at the blanket he carried. Yeah like he was going to last long enough to put that in use, Serena told herself. Serena followed him and stopped when he stopped. He unfolded the blanket and laid it on the ground. After he finished laying it down, he grabbed Serena and started tossing off her clothes, all the while Serena didn't say a word. He moved on top, grunting like a gorilla while Serena stared up at the sky and let a tear slip out of the corner of her eye.
Serena couldn't understand why she did this to herself but the more she did it, the less she thought of herself. Serena stopped caring a long time ago and she wasn't about to start now. Serena faked her moan and just waited for him to get it over with. They always used protection so Serena didn't have worry about getting pregnant with anyone.
After they were done, he got up and got dressed but when Serena started to dress, he grabbed her clothes from her. Serena stared at him until he gave her a disgusting grin.
" Serena, I have something for you that I know you will like. Since you love to screw me I gave you a surprise." Ted looked over his shoulder and nodded. Serena didn't understand what he was doing until she looked at the spot he was watching. Four guys slowly advanced with piggish smiles on their faces and stopped right in front of Serena.
Serena tried to cover herself up but Ted had grabbed her hands and roughly held them down in a bruising grip. He pulled her face close to his and whispered crudely,
" I brought some friends that know how to give a whore a good time. You're going to love this and then after they're done with you, I'm going to have you again. Oh I forgot to mention, don't bother going to the police with anything because we have evidence showing you wanted this. They won't believe you. Did I forget to mention, I had someone video tape our love scene just now?" Ted gave a laugh before saying to the other guys,
" Okay guys, have at her. She's a great screw."
If anyone listened closely enough to the activities going on, they would have heard a woman's shattered cry.
Four hours later, Serena stumbled into her apartment and ran into the bathroom but before she got there, she spied her notebook and pen. Serena stared at the page until she wrote a paragraph down and hid the notebook again. She moved the bathroom and as if it was slow motion, Serena stripped her clothes and jumped into the shower with the hottest possible water there was. Skin turned red to the point of boiling but Serena didn't notice. Serena washed her body with soap, rinsed and then washed her body again. Serena looked at her hands with soap running down them, then frantically washed her mouth with the soap while she cried. Serena couldn't take stand anymore and slowly fell to the shower floor and put her back on the wall. The hot water pelted her but Serena needed it to be hotter to wash all the hands that were on her body. Serena stared at the shower knob and slowly her hand inched forward, closer and closer to the intended target. Her hand gently moved counter clockwise slowly turning off the water that balanced the other part of the water. The cold water turned off and a scream rocked the house. Her journal lay in the bottom of the box and on the last page Serena wrote.
Feb. 6 2007
" It was my fault. I deserved what I got. It started out with just Ted and I and after he was done, I thought we were going to go but I was wrong. He had bought some of his friends to get a piece of the whore. He had us videotaped and told me not to go to the police, like I would have anyway. They used me like how I was suppose to be used, like ice. Ice you use to satisfy your needs then when you don't want it anymore you throw it away. I am the only one to blame. I am ice and I always will be ice."
Disclaimer, I do not own Sailor Moon and I am not affiliated with anyone who does so Naoko, DiC, Kodansa, and everyone else who does own Sailor Moon.
Other than all of that I hope that you enjoy my story and hope you like it.
Never in her right mind would she ever understand the mind of guys. They were just so weird or they were missing something in their brain cells. They didn't make sense, they didn't care and they certainly were rude. They didn't care who they were, what they threw away and as long as their needs were met they could careless how many broken hearts they left in their wake.
Serena Tsukino ranted and raged silently in her head. Serena was a petite blond with sky blue eyes and a curvy but right now she was a blond you didn't want to get close to. Serena picked up a picture of a couple, tore it up and threw it in the trash. Everything she ever got from that deadbeat guy was thrown into the garbage or flung outside her door. As it happened her ex-boyfriend broke up with her because she wasn't pretty enough for him anymore which last month he referred her as the most beautiful being on this earth. Guys change girls as they change their underwear. What was the point of getting involved with a bunch of monkeys when everyone knew they jumped trees when a beautiful girl with big boobs gave them a wink or something, Serena wondered to herself.
Serena looked at herself in the mirror and suddenly stopped what she was doing. Serena looked at her reflection and cringed. This was not her, the maniac with wild hair, red eyes, runny nose and basically breathing like a donkey that just ran a marathon. Serena let the item slip threw her fingers and sat on the floor. Serena let the tears fall and curled up on the floor to let her self get a good cry.
Serena woke up a few hours later to find herself a little calmer. Serena made a pact with herself that she was never going to let a guy get the best of her again. Love was for the weak because it never lasted and always a guarantee to get yourself hurt. Serena was going to be strong and never be a gullible reject again.
Serena picked everything up in her room and straightened up. Serena went to her desk in the corner and took out her journal and a pen. She stared at the page of her most private journal where everything and anything she ever felt was written down. She picked up her pen and quickly stroked her elegant handwriting down on paper. Serena stared down at what she wrote and gave a cynical smile.
Feb.6, 2002
Dear Journal,
Today I turned 17 and received a huge gift from someone I loved. He told me I wasn't pretty enough for his taste. I'm not someone perfect he wanted to show off and then he told me I would never find anyone that could love me for me. You see this is a good thing because I finally found myself. Today is the day I died and was reborn into someone that I was fated to be. Ice, no heart, no emotions and best of all no love. Love is weak and I'm not weak. No more childish dreams about love and ever after, now it's all about surviving what so many people fall in to. I will survive.
Serena closed her journal and ended her childish dreams that day.
5 years later
Serena scooped a piece of chocolate ice cream in her mouth and chewed slowly. Serena looked out the window of the restaurant she was in. She heard the doorbell chime but didn't pay attention to who came in until a figure sat in the chair next to her. Serena looked at the person and gave the guy a hard stare. He leaned over and gave her a deep kiss before pulling back.
" I'm sorry I'm late, I was tied up." He started out.
" You mean you were banging your wife. You don't have to worry I'm not going to freak at you because you slept with your wife. I could care less who you shack up with." Serena told him bluntly.
" I know I don't have to explain but I wanted to. Hey lets get out of here and find a private place." He asked.
Serena could tell he was getting a hard on just by talking about finding a stop. Guys were all the same, they thought about shoving their prick into any hole and nothing else. Her recent married conquest was a man named Ted. He's been married for the last 5 years and was 28. He was handsome with blond hair, blue eyes and a nice build. Obviously he didn't care about cheating on his wife. Serena only dated and slept with married guys or guys that had girlfriend because it proved all guys were the same. Serena got up and left the restaurant, letting him pay for her meal. She got into his car and waited for him to drive her wherever he wanted to go. Probably a cheap motel that he could rent by the hour, Serena snickered to herself. He got into the car without a word and drove off. Serena stared out the window, lost in thought when they came to a stop. Serena looked at him questionably and waited for him to explain.
" We've never screwed out in the open and I wanted to. No one will find us or anything." Ted told her. Serena rolled her eyes and got out of the car. She looked over at him and gave an inward laugh at the blanket he carried. Yeah like he was going to last long enough to put that in use, Serena told herself. Serena followed him and stopped when he stopped. He unfolded the blanket and laid it on the ground. After he finished laying it down, he grabbed Serena and started tossing off her clothes, all the while Serena didn't say a word. He moved on top, grunting like a gorilla while Serena stared up at the sky and let a tear slip out of the corner of her eye.
Serena couldn't understand why she did this to herself but the more she did it, the less she thought of herself. Serena stopped caring a long time ago and she wasn't about to start now. Serena faked her moan and just waited for him to get it over with. They always used protection so Serena didn't have worry about getting pregnant with anyone.
After they were done, he got up and got dressed but when Serena started to dress, he grabbed her clothes from her. Serena stared at him until he gave her a disgusting grin.
" Serena, I have something for you that I know you will like. Since you love to screw me I gave you a surprise." Ted looked over his shoulder and nodded. Serena didn't understand what he was doing until she looked at the spot he was watching. Four guys slowly advanced with piggish smiles on their faces and stopped right in front of Serena.
Serena tried to cover herself up but Ted had grabbed her hands and roughly held them down in a bruising grip. He pulled her face close to his and whispered crudely,
" I brought some friends that know how to give a whore a good time. You're going to love this and then after they're done with you, I'm going to have you again. Oh I forgot to mention, don't bother going to the police with anything because we have evidence showing you wanted this. They won't believe you. Did I forget to mention, I had someone video tape our love scene just now?" Ted gave a laugh before saying to the other guys,
" Okay guys, have at her. She's a great screw."
If anyone listened closely enough to the activities going on, they would have heard a woman's shattered cry.
Four hours later, Serena stumbled into her apartment and ran into the bathroom but before she got there, she spied her notebook and pen. Serena stared at the page until she wrote a paragraph down and hid the notebook again. She moved the bathroom and as if it was slow motion, Serena stripped her clothes and jumped into the shower with the hottest possible water there was. Skin turned red to the point of boiling but Serena didn't notice. Serena washed her body with soap, rinsed and then washed her body again. Serena looked at her hands with soap running down them, then frantically washed her mouth with the soap while she cried. Serena couldn't take stand anymore and slowly fell to the shower floor and put her back on the wall. The hot water pelted her but Serena needed it to be hotter to wash all the hands that were on her body. Serena stared at the shower knob and slowly her hand inched forward, closer and closer to the intended target. Her hand gently moved counter clockwise slowly turning off the water that balanced the other part of the water. The cold water turned off and a scream rocked the house. Her journal lay in the bottom of the box and on the last page Serena wrote.
Feb. 6 2007
" It was my fault. I deserved what I got. It started out with just Ted and I and after he was done, I thought we were going to go but I was wrong. He had bought some of his friends to get a piece of the whore. He had us videotaped and told me not to go to the police, like I would have anyway. They used me like how I was suppose to be used, like ice. Ice you use to satisfy your needs then when you don't want it anymore you throw it away. I am the only one to blame. I am ice and I always will be ice."
Disclaimer, I do not own Sailor Moon and I am not affiliated with anyone who does so Naoko, DiC, Kodansa, and everyone else who does own Sailor Moon.
Other than all of that I hope that you enjoy my story and hope you like it.