Chapter 3
No matter how cold Serena was to her mother, her mother kept on persisting to be nice to her. Serena was going crazy, she didn't want to feel anything for anyone but she was slowly starting to thaw. Serena didn't like it one bit but Serena was helpless. Serena knew there was one thing she could do and she was determined to do it. Serena was going back home to the states.
Serena quickly started to pack her things while everyone was away. Serena was so frantic that she didn't realize that someone had come in the door. Serena flung things in her luggage and went in her closet to pack more of her clothes. Serena was in the closet when her mother came in to check on her and found all her packed things. Serena ran out of the closet but stopped when she saw her mother.
" Serena what are you doing?"
" I'm going home."
" You are home Serena."
" No, my home is away from you." Serena sharply told her.
" Well Serena, if you are truly unhappy here, we'll let you go back but this is your home. This will always be your home." Illene told her.
" STOP! Don't say anymore. I don't want you to say anymore." Serena screamed.
" Serena, why won't you let us love you? Tell me what happened to you. It's not going to make me love you any less." Illene pleaded.
" NO, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! GET AWAY FROM ME, I DON'T WANT TO BE LOVED BY ANY OF YOU!" Serena cried out. Her mother made a move to hug her but Serena roughly shoved her away. Serena turned away and for the first time in a long time, her heart hurt. She didn't realize that her father and Sammy were outside of her door and were about to butt in when her mother waved for them to stop. Her mother felt like something big was going to happen and she didn't want anything to interrupt her daughter. They finally were getting some emotion out of Serena and they had waited for so long.
Serena stalked to the window and looked out unseeingly before she started to say in a loud voice,
" You really want to know what happened to me mother dear, I'll tell you just don't bitch when you can't handle it. Before I left, I was happy, the happiest girl in the world but something changed that to make me see what a stupid girl I actually was. Do you remember Brett? We were going out for like five months and it was great. He called me pretty and said he loved me. It was great until the day I turned 17. That day I lost trust in everything that I once held to my heart. I thought I loved him and he wanted to give me a surprise for my birthday. It started out perfect but then he took me in his car saying he had one last present to give me. I told him okay because I trusted him when he stopped in the middle of no where and turned to me.
He told me if I loved him I would give myself to him. I did, I did it! After it happened, he got up and said " you know what Serena, I don't think we were meant to be. I mean you're not pretty enough and I asked Holly to the dance. I always wanted to go with her. Well I'll talk to you later." He dropped me off home without a goodbye and left. So you see, he taught me loved never lasted and all guys wanted from me was sex. After that day, I died mom. I was so ashamed and I didn't want you, daddy or Sammy to find out what kind of daughter and sister I turned out to be. I lost all my dreams that day, I didn't want to feel, and it hurt so much. I know I was not good enough for anyone to love because I was dirty. People in school knew what happened and everywhere I went, guys asked me to do them. I didn't do anything but the guys always told people otherwise. It got so bad where the girls were threatening the slut to keep away from their boyfriends or they were going to mess up my nasty face.
They started to leave little surprises like dead rats in a box in my locker or putting gum at the end of my hairs. I knew I had to leave I left Japan with a new resolution, I will become what everyone thought I was. After I got to the states, I was known as the ice queen because I wasn't friendly. I did terrible things mom. I did such terrible things. You want to know what your daughter has become. I made a pact with myself, a pact where I was only going to sleep with married men or men with girlfriends. It fueled what I knew about men, they all wanted one thing, someone to sleep with that they didn't love. Only someone to use, it's like ice mom. People only want ice when they feel the need for it then they throw it away to let it melt somewhere else. That's what I am mom. I am ice.
I was seeing a man named Ted before I was 22; he was married and older than I was. It was the same; we did it then he would go back to his wife. That was all I was good for. The day I turned 22, he wanted to do it and he took me to a place by the woods. We were suppose to do it then leave, after we were done he got dressed but when I started to get dress, he told me not to bother. He had another surprise for me, four of his friends came from out of the woods and I knew what he wanted me to do. I tried to tell him no but he wouldn't listen, they had me over and over again and all I could do it cry mom. That 's what your daughter turned out to be. After I got home that night, I took a shower, a hot shower to make me forget. I did something else mom, I felt I needed the shower to be hotter, I sat on the floor and raised my hand. I slowly turned off the cold water and woke up in the hospital. Do you want to see what I did?" Serena whispered.
She slowly unbuttoned her shirt and moved it off her shoulders. Her mother stared horrified at the sight her daughter showed. Serena closed her eyes and knew what her mother was seeing; she saw it every time she closed her eyes. The light scaring that graced her shoulders and every part of her body that the water hit. Serena bent her head and finally let the tears fall. She whispered,
" See I'm not good. I'm a very horrible person." Serena softly cried until she felt her mother's arms around her, hugging her closely.
" Serena, you will always be our daughter, we will always love you and you are not a horrible person. You are our sweet girl that we know and you will always be our sweet girl. Nothing can ever change that and I'm proud that you told me. I'm sorry you had to go through that Serena, you will never have to go through with that as long as we are alive." Her mother whispered.
Serena cried and choked out,
" What happens when daddy and Sammy find out? They won't love me when they find out all the horrible things I have done."
" I don't think you have to worry about that Serena. I think it's going to be okay." Her mother gently told her.
" How can you be for certain?" Serena asked.
" Look behind you Serena."
Serena looked back and widened her eyes. Serena shook her head no; she didn't want her dad and Sammy to find out so soon. They're going to be so disappointed. Serena looked at her father with a sense of uncertain feelings until her father gave her a smile and held out his arms. Serena looked at him before crying out,
" Daddy! I'm so sorry. I didn't want to be bad but I am." Serena sobbed. She ran into her father's arms and knew she missed feeling protected. It's been so long.
" Shh it's okay baby. We're here and we're not letting you go. It's going to be okay. Your mother's right, we love you and nothing is ever going to change that. We're going to protect you." Her father hugged her close until Serena looked over at her brother. She wasn't sure how Sammy was going to take hearing that her sister was a whore. She looked at him and waited for him to make the first move.
Sammy looked at her and knew he could never hold anything against her. He smiled and told her,
" Hey Serena, I always knew you were never normal. Now I know I have a unique sister."
Serena smiled at him before giving him a hug. He whispered in her ear,
" Serena, I'm sorry for making fun of you when Brett broke up with you, I didn't know."
Serena looked at him and smiled before saying,
" I'll forgive you as long as you do my laundry."
" Not on your life."
Serena looked at everyone before saying,
" There's something else. This one is the worst sins I have done in my life."
" What honey?" Her mother asked.
Serena looked at them with tears in her eyes and shook her head before choking out,
" When I left home, I was pregnant."
Serena looked up with hurt filled eyes at all the stunned people around her. Her mother gaped at her and softly asked Serena,
" Serena, did you get an abortion?"
Disclaimer, I do not own Sailor Moon and I am not affiliated with anyone who does so Naoko, DiC, Kodansa, and everyone else who does own Sailor Moon.
Other than all of that I hope that you enjoy my story and hope you like it. Next chapter gets better so thanks for being so patient!
Moonstar998
No matter how cold Serena was to her mother, her mother kept on persisting to be nice to her. Serena was going crazy, she didn't want to feel anything for anyone but she was slowly starting to thaw. Serena didn't like it one bit but Serena was helpless. Serena knew there was one thing she could do and she was determined to do it. Serena was going back home to the states.
Serena quickly started to pack her things while everyone was away. Serena was so frantic that she didn't realize that someone had come in the door. Serena flung things in her luggage and went in her closet to pack more of her clothes. Serena was in the closet when her mother came in to check on her and found all her packed things. Serena ran out of the closet but stopped when she saw her mother.
" Serena what are you doing?"
" I'm going home."
" You are home Serena."
" No, my home is away from you." Serena sharply told her.
" Well Serena, if you are truly unhappy here, we'll let you go back but this is your home. This will always be your home." Illene told her.
" STOP! Don't say anymore. I don't want you to say anymore." Serena screamed.
" Serena, why won't you let us love you? Tell me what happened to you. It's not going to make me love you any less." Illene pleaded.
" NO, JUST LEAVE ME ALONE! GET AWAY FROM ME, I DON'T WANT TO BE LOVED BY ANY OF YOU!" Serena cried out. Her mother made a move to hug her but Serena roughly shoved her away. Serena turned away and for the first time in a long time, her heart hurt. She didn't realize that her father and Sammy were outside of her door and were about to butt in when her mother waved for them to stop. Her mother felt like something big was going to happen and she didn't want anything to interrupt her daughter. They finally were getting some emotion out of Serena and they had waited for so long.
Serena stalked to the window and looked out unseeingly before she started to say in a loud voice,
" You really want to know what happened to me mother dear, I'll tell you just don't bitch when you can't handle it. Before I left, I was happy, the happiest girl in the world but something changed that to make me see what a stupid girl I actually was. Do you remember Brett? We were going out for like five months and it was great. He called me pretty and said he loved me. It was great until the day I turned 17. That day I lost trust in everything that I once held to my heart. I thought I loved him and he wanted to give me a surprise for my birthday. It started out perfect but then he took me in his car saying he had one last present to give me. I told him okay because I trusted him when he stopped in the middle of no where and turned to me.
He told me if I loved him I would give myself to him. I did, I did it! After it happened, he got up and said " you know what Serena, I don't think we were meant to be. I mean you're not pretty enough and I asked Holly to the dance. I always wanted to go with her. Well I'll talk to you later." He dropped me off home without a goodbye and left. So you see, he taught me loved never lasted and all guys wanted from me was sex. After that day, I died mom. I was so ashamed and I didn't want you, daddy or Sammy to find out what kind of daughter and sister I turned out to be. I lost all my dreams that day, I didn't want to feel, and it hurt so much. I know I was not good enough for anyone to love because I was dirty. People in school knew what happened and everywhere I went, guys asked me to do them. I didn't do anything but the guys always told people otherwise. It got so bad where the girls were threatening the slut to keep away from their boyfriends or they were going to mess up my nasty face.
They started to leave little surprises like dead rats in a box in my locker or putting gum at the end of my hairs. I knew I had to leave I left Japan with a new resolution, I will become what everyone thought I was. After I got to the states, I was known as the ice queen because I wasn't friendly. I did terrible things mom. I did such terrible things. You want to know what your daughter has become. I made a pact with myself, a pact where I was only going to sleep with married men or men with girlfriends. It fueled what I knew about men, they all wanted one thing, someone to sleep with that they didn't love. Only someone to use, it's like ice mom. People only want ice when they feel the need for it then they throw it away to let it melt somewhere else. That's what I am mom. I am ice.
I was seeing a man named Ted before I was 22; he was married and older than I was. It was the same; we did it then he would go back to his wife. That was all I was good for. The day I turned 22, he wanted to do it and he took me to a place by the woods. We were suppose to do it then leave, after we were done he got dressed but when I started to get dress, he told me not to bother. He had another surprise for me, four of his friends came from out of the woods and I knew what he wanted me to do. I tried to tell him no but he wouldn't listen, they had me over and over again and all I could do it cry mom. That 's what your daughter turned out to be. After I got home that night, I took a shower, a hot shower to make me forget. I did something else mom, I felt I needed the shower to be hotter, I sat on the floor and raised my hand. I slowly turned off the cold water and woke up in the hospital. Do you want to see what I did?" Serena whispered.
She slowly unbuttoned her shirt and moved it off her shoulders. Her mother stared horrified at the sight her daughter showed. Serena closed her eyes and knew what her mother was seeing; she saw it every time she closed her eyes. The light scaring that graced her shoulders and every part of her body that the water hit. Serena bent her head and finally let the tears fall. She whispered,
" See I'm not good. I'm a very horrible person." Serena softly cried until she felt her mother's arms around her, hugging her closely.
" Serena, you will always be our daughter, we will always love you and you are not a horrible person. You are our sweet girl that we know and you will always be our sweet girl. Nothing can ever change that and I'm proud that you told me. I'm sorry you had to go through that Serena, you will never have to go through with that as long as we are alive." Her mother whispered.
Serena cried and choked out,
" What happens when daddy and Sammy find out? They won't love me when they find out all the horrible things I have done."
" I don't think you have to worry about that Serena. I think it's going to be okay." Her mother gently told her.
" How can you be for certain?" Serena asked.
" Look behind you Serena."
Serena looked back and widened her eyes. Serena shook her head no; she didn't want her dad and Sammy to find out so soon. They're going to be so disappointed. Serena looked at her father with a sense of uncertain feelings until her father gave her a smile and held out his arms. Serena looked at him before crying out,
" Daddy! I'm so sorry. I didn't want to be bad but I am." Serena sobbed. She ran into her father's arms and knew she missed feeling protected. It's been so long.
" Shh it's okay baby. We're here and we're not letting you go. It's going to be okay. Your mother's right, we love you and nothing is ever going to change that. We're going to protect you." Her father hugged her close until Serena looked over at her brother. She wasn't sure how Sammy was going to take hearing that her sister was a whore. She looked at him and waited for him to make the first move.
Sammy looked at her and knew he could never hold anything against her. He smiled and told her,
" Hey Serena, I always knew you were never normal. Now I know I have a unique sister."
Serena smiled at him before giving him a hug. He whispered in her ear,
" Serena, I'm sorry for making fun of you when Brett broke up with you, I didn't know."
Serena looked at him and smiled before saying,
" I'll forgive you as long as you do my laundry."
" Not on your life."
Serena looked at everyone before saying,
" There's something else. This one is the worst sins I have done in my life."
" What honey?" Her mother asked.
Serena looked at them with tears in her eyes and shook her head before choking out,
" When I left home, I was pregnant."
Serena looked up with hurt filled eyes at all the stunned people around her. Her mother gaped at her and softly asked Serena,
" Serena, did you get an abortion?"
Disclaimer, I do not own Sailor Moon and I am not affiliated with anyone who does so Naoko, DiC, Kodansa, and everyone else who does own Sailor Moon.
Other than all of that I hope that you enjoy my story and hope you like it. Next chapter gets better so thanks for being so patient!
Moonstar998