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The microwave had been beeping for 5 minutes, but Xander still hadn't mustered the strength to go and check on it. His heart was broken into tiny microscopic pieces, yet no body seemed to care.
"G_d damn that Spike! When I get the chance, I'm going to kill him!"
He loved Anya, he really did. It wasn't like he walked out on her because he didn't love her. He just happened to get scared. Really scared. She was his first love.
Well, almost…
Cordelia wasn't someone he ever thought of marrying. Then again, he hadn't even thought much of even liking her. Oh sure, it had been fun, but it wasn't love. It was more the lines of infatuation. She had been gorgeous and popular, he the cute, funny, nerd. She had been curious, he had been curious, and their "relationship" was born. They grew to like each other a lot. But they never loved each other. If they had, they would have worked out their relationship when he cheated on her.
When he had cheated on Cordelia with Willow, he had found her sexy, but it was just a phase. They both had been curious about the relationship they could have. Would it have been based on love or infatuation, they'll never know.
He still loves her. Ever since they were kids, he loved her. More than just friends. But it wasn't a romantic, sexual love. More like a brother/sister love. Which in most cases, is stronger anyway.
And then there was Buffy. The first REAL crush he ever had. He loved her. And not just as a friend. Even now, no matter how many times he denies it, it kills him that Buffy can and will not EVER love him like that. Trapped as friends forever.
Until he met Anya…
At first, they had used each other so they wouldn't go to the senior dance dateless. After all, there's nothing worse then being left alone.
Or so he had thought.
Now, whenever he looks at Anya, all he can see is pain and betrayal. There relationship will never be the same again.
It was different when he had cheated on Cordelia. Willow is a wonderful person, with a good soul and a kind heart.
At least, that's what he keeps telling himself. The severity of cheating all depends upon who you cheat with. And Anya hadn't cheated with just any bum.
Spike. The evil, soulless, "thing."
"How could she? With the "creature" I hate the most!"
Vampires. They disgust him. When he was in love with Buffy, Angel took her away from him. Now, Spike took his Anya away from him.
"Why bother living if all life does is stab you in the back?"
He sighed and slumped back on the couch.
An hour has passed since Spike found Anya still at the Magic Box. After their second kiss, neither one of them had said a word. However, they didn't have sex either. They just sat there, leaning on each other.
Both were confused and hurt, and neither wanted to start the conversation that was inevitable.
"Where do we go from here?"
Well, neither of them said it out loud, but they thought it in their heads.
Anya sighed. Two kisses and an hour later, she still had no idea what was going on. She didn't feel miserable anymore, but she certainly wasn't happy.
More like empty. After their second kiss (when Spike came to the Magic Box for the second time), she had gently pushed him away.
["Spike, I know that this is weird. Believe me, I don't have any more of an idea what's going on between us than you do."]
["So then no more worries, love"]
[He leaned to kiss her again, but she shook her head]
["Look, I don't know if this is love or infatuation, but how do you expect us to find out by just sitting here?"]
["Because I'm not sure what I think! I don't want to hurt Xander again. Let's think this out before we go any further"]
["All right, pet"]
["Oh, and Spike?"]
["Yeah?"]
["Don't call me pet." I'm a demon, not a puppy."]
There had been no smart comment from Spike, insulting Xander or making fun of her indecisiveness. He had been understanding and gave her some time to think.
The only problem was, neither had come up with an explanation.
"Last train leaving for Sunnydale in 5 minutes. All aboard!"
The train station was almost deserted. Except for a couple of businessmen, no one in their right mind would take a train at 3:00 AM.
"Soon, I'll be able to complete phase one of my plan. Oh, won't Sunnydale be surprised when the get a load of me?"
Sorry if it was a bit confusing with the [] marks.
The microwave had been beeping for 5 minutes, but Xander still hadn't mustered the strength to go and check on it. His heart was broken into tiny microscopic pieces, yet no body seemed to care.
"G_d damn that Spike! When I get the chance, I'm going to kill him!"
He loved Anya, he really did. It wasn't like he walked out on her because he didn't love her. He just happened to get scared. Really scared. She was his first love.
Well, almost…
Cordelia wasn't someone he ever thought of marrying. Then again, he hadn't even thought much of even liking her. Oh sure, it had been fun, but it wasn't love. It was more the lines of infatuation. She had been gorgeous and popular, he the cute, funny, nerd. She had been curious, he had been curious, and their "relationship" was born. They grew to like each other a lot. But they never loved each other. If they had, they would have worked out their relationship when he cheated on her.
When he had cheated on Cordelia with Willow, he had found her sexy, but it was just a phase. They both had been curious about the relationship they could have. Would it have been based on love or infatuation, they'll never know.
He still loves her. Ever since they were kids, he loved her. More than just friends. But it wasn't a romantic, sexual love. More like a brother/sister love. Which in most cases, is stronger anyway.
And then there was Buffy. The first REAL crush he ever had. He loved her. And not just as a friend. Even now, no matter how many times he denies it, it kills him that Buffy can and will not EVER love him like that. Trapped as friends forever.
Until he met Anya…
At first, they had used each other so they wouldn't go to the senior dance dateless. After all, there's nothing worse then being left alone.
Or so he had thought.
Now, whenever he looks at Anya, all he can see is pain and betrayal. There relationship will never be the same again.
It was different when he had cheated on Cordelia. Willow is a wonderful person, with a good soul and a kind heart.
At least, that's what he keeps telling himself. The severity of cheating all depends upon who you cheat with. And Anya hadn't cheated with just any bum.
Spike. The evil, soulless, "thing."
"How could she? With the "creature" I hate the most!"
Vampires. They disgust him. When he was in love with Buffy, Angel took her away from him. Now, Spike took his Anya away from him.
"Why bother living if all life does is stab you in the back?"
He sighed and slumped back on the couch.
An hour has passed since Spike found Anya still at the Magic Box. After their second kiss, neither one of them had said a word. However, they didn't have sex either. They just sat there, leaning on each other.
Both were confused and hurt, and neither wanted to start the conversation that was inevitable.
"Where do we go from here?"
Well, neither of them said it out loud, but they thought it in their heads.
Anya sighed. Two kisses and an hour later, she still had no idea what was going on. She didn't feel miserable anymore, but she certainly wasn't happy.
More like empty. After their second kiss (when Spike came to the Magic Box for the second time), she had gently pushed him away.
["Spike, I know that this is weird. Believe me, I don't have any more of an idea what's going on between us than you do."]
["So then no more worries, love"]
[He leaned to kiss her again, but she shook her head]
["Look, I don't know if this is love or infatuation, but how do you expect us to find out by just sitting here?"]
["Because I'm not sure what I think! I don't want to hurt Xander again. Let's think this out before we go any further"]
["All right, pet"]
["Oh, and Spike?"]
["Yeah?"]
["Don't call me pet." I'm a demon, not a puppy."]
There had been no smart comment from Spike, insulting Xander or making fun of her indecisiveness. He had been understanding and gave her some time to think.
The only problem was, neither had come up with an explanation.
"Last train leaving for Sunnydale in 5 minutes. All aboard!"
The train station was almost deserted. Except for a couple of businessmen, no one in their right mind would take a train at 3:00 AM.
"Soon, I'll be able to complete phase one of my plan. Oh, won't Sunnydale be surprised when the get a load of me?"
Sorry if it was a bit confusing with the [] marks.