Young red rivers are dripping down my arm. They begin quickly and narrow , then pool together into an old gentle river. It's dripping onto the floor , making more rivers along my bedroom floor.It's been a few months since Lantis died , and I still cry about it.Lantis , why did you leave me all alone?Don't you know that when you died , I died too?How could you leave us? The red rivers run along my floor , as I stare into the silver blade at my wrists.Why am I doing this? Because this blood is my life , and I'm watching it to make sure it's still there.Old rivers leave marks on my arms , so I wear long sleeves now.The others don't know.They're finally happy so I let them be. The red rivers on my floor are pretty.I'm kneeling to get a better look now.They are beautiful. And they look so real and alive.But this is not my blood , not my life.Why?Because I can't see Lantis in here.He's not there.My life isn't there then.Too bad.I guess I'll have to look somewhere else.I had been getting used to this too.Oh well , I see all of my anger running into those tiny rivers.Red rivers on my arm , everything is getting fuzzy now.I wonder why?Perhaps it's not my life but my energy and anger and sorrow running into those rivers.A phone is ringing.Maybe if I don't answer , they'll go away.No.It keep s ringing.I'm angry.Can't think straight. Everything....going black....must control myself.I've been in a battle before , losing more than this much blood , must stay concious....

"What are you doing?!" Clef said , opening her door. He ran inside , taking the blade away from me.

"Stop....that.....damn......phone....annoying....ringing," I said forcedly.

"Howdid this happen?!" Clef said , lifting my arm.

"I....can't...hold...on.....let...go!" Isaid , standing up unsurely. I ran away , taking myblade with me, leaving myprecious rivers trailing behind her on the floor.I ran into a man and continued to push herself forward although her feet had become clumsy now.I'm going to trip....must stay....concious!Everything is starting to go so...fuzzy.....I'm....so...tired....

"Get back here!" the man yelled , running after her. It doesn't sound like Clef.Then...who?

"I have..to get..to...the..oof!"I said , finally blacking out. Everything is black. Where am I? Lantis?Is that you? Is it you I see over there? Come back! I'm running to him , but he turns around and it's not him.It's someone else. I can't focus....who are you?

"She'll be fine , did she tell you what was wrong before she passed out?" says a drifting voice.Clef.

"No , she said she had to go somewhere , she didn't finish saying where," says the other voice.

"Where..am...I?" I ask , opening my eyes. The vision of two men appear before me.

"The hospital wing of the castle.You've lost a lot of blood , you should rest now,"Clef says.

"No...I..didn't make it...did I?" I'm saying , tears running down my face.

"Didn't make it where?" asks the man. I only cry. Hot tears burn my face.My life is in my tears.I can see Lantis in them. I finally found them.But alas , that is only half of what I must do. My red rivers are not enough. But who is this man? Why did he stop me? I can't think much longer....I'm starting to fall....somewhere close to sleep.....where am I truly?

(a/n)~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~`

*bwahahahaha*!Who is telling this story?You'll just have to wait until I feel inspired enough to write the next chapter! I have a habit of killing people in my fics , but hey!It adds a little more , doesn' it?Will I kill our precious little character? Maybe I won't , just to keep you on your toes!Now review , review , review!

I don't own any characters in MKR , so no court scene!