PLEASURE (Part 10) by Sievert Dinar
Disclaimer - Sailormoon is owned by a lot of people, most of whom
are not me, so don't get all worked up about my using the characters
in ways they weren't meant. I'm just a common or garden fanfic
writer without a hope in this dark and cruel world. Maybe.
Warning - R Rated Fanfic
This fanfic is, essentially, a horror story, and contains scenes
that could be regarded as disturbing to people. I dare suggest that
you behave responsibly whilst reading this.
Some nasty four-letter words in this chapter as well, from one
particular character. Just fuckin' well thought you fuckin' needed
to fuckin' know. Fuckin' bloody hell, even! ;)
Yesterday.
She turned to the gently glowing figure, standing in the
doorway, smiling at her. A girl, perhaps her age, wearing rather
elaborate priestess-like robes. Rei had felt HER arrival only
seconds before SHE destroyed the beast, whatever it had been.
"My my..." SHE smiled. "We are in a spot of bother, aren't
we?"
"That depends." Rei swallowed.
"Depends on what?" SHE answered with an expression of mild
amusement. Rei glowered.
"On whether or not the bother was that beast, or..."
SHE laughed out loud. Rei had been expecting it. Whoever SHE
was, Rei could almost sense the insanity that dwelled within.
"You saved me from it. For what reason? I don't FEEL as if
your intentions towards me are benign." SHE continued to laugh, as
if the joke had been renewed. "Shutup and say something, damn you.
The evil I could feel, when that creature was hunting me. It wasn't
necessarily the creature I was feeling. It was a combination."
"Evil?" HER mirth cut short, SHE stared at Rei with a hurt
expression. "Evil? What makes you think I'm evil? I'm here to
save you."
"Save me?" Rei shook her head and stood, trying to look as
imposing as possible... Or, at the very least, match the imposing
air that SHE emanated as much as possible. Rei didn't feel like she
was winning. "You've already saved me, thankyou very much. From
what, I am not certain, but I am sure the REASON you saved me was
not out of charity."
"Oh, I haven't begun to save you yet, Sailormars." SHE smiled
as Rei's expression changed, even if it was ever so slightly. Rei
was trying to keep her emotions in check. She could feel HER trying
to manipulate those emotions within her mind. "Yes..." SHE
continued. "I know who you are. I know all about your kind. I
have been watching you for some time. Amazing how you've managed to
miss all the little hints to my presence. I've been dropping them
like ninepins but, looking at your past record, you've been
pathetically bad at dealing with mysterious events, often right up
until it is almost too late."
"Save me from what, hmm?" Rei could feel her headache
returning. The constant thump-thump-thump of her heartbeat in her
ears. Almost as if her body was trying to tell her something.
"Oh, I think you know." HER expression changed, slowly now,
to a much softer, kinder one. Rei expected as much, whatever that
meant. "I think you've known, all your life, what it is that I want
of you. Such sadness, from one as powerful as you, cannot be
overlooked."
"Sadness? I have no sadness." She paused. Of COURSE she had
sadnesses she wanted to be rid of, and she'd succeeded... No!
Thinking that way was almost playing into HER hands...
SHE shook her head. The child had to have it spelt out to
her. SHE raised a hand, closing HER eyes. As if on cue, Rei was
staring at her arms. The underside of her arms. The almost
imperceptible scars that existed there. Scars that her friends
had managed to miss, all this time, because of her best efforts to
hide them. Rei shook her head, angrily.
"That's over! That's over and done with. Don't you try and
drag that crap out of me, bitch. I'm not going to play your game!"
SHE looked shocked. The anti reaction was much stronger than
SHE had been anticipating. These sailorsenshi were obviously a
greater challenge, in comparison to even spiritually powerful
figures such as priests and psychics. Indeed, this one was a
combination of all three. SHE had had her hand forced when SHE had
detected the parasite moving in on her. It looked as if the girl
was going to need to be worn down, in body and mind, before SHE was
going to have an effect.
"I see." HER expression and voice became stern, almost angry.
Rei could even feel her holding back tears. Tears? How could a
being so utterly insane feel such sadness? SHE continued... "Then
I suppose I shall have to show you why those feelings of the past
continue in you, still..."
SHE waved her hand once more, and four figures appeared within
Rei's bedroom. Four figures that Rei recognised. She almost wanted
to scream as SHE floated back out of the doorway, slowly vanishing
into nothingness. "You can't!" Rei screamed as she tried to push
past the figures, all four holding her back. "This is not fair!"
"In life, there is no such thing as 'fair'." HER voice echoed
across the yard outside. "Why don't you ask them about what is
'fair', and what isn't. I'm sure you know what their answers will
be."
"How can they be here?" Rei managed to struggle past the
shambling foursome and step into the now-empty yard, staring around
for the source of HER voice. "How can they be here? They're all
dead! DEAD!"
"The dead are never really so. They always remain, within our
minds and hearts. Only once those who still remember are gone,
themselves, do their shades really begin to fade away. But I saved
them from that fate, just as I want to save you."
"Save me?" Rei turned to the four figures. The four
schoolgirls that Rei had known, or had been acquainted with, before
she had met Usagi, before she had become Sailormars. The four
schoolgirls who had taken their lives. "You want to save me from
life to become THAT?"
"Don't be shocked at their appearances. They are merely
homunculi. Only the feelings and emotions of their final moments
remain within them. They shall teach you the futility of life,
especially one destined to be as long and as devoid of love and
security as your own, Sailormars. Once their purpose is complete,
then I shall return for you, and save you, for all eternity. Peace
and eternal release from pain, Sailormars. Think it over."
And then SHE was gone. Rei could feel it, as the first of
the four girls, a twelve year old from Rei's elementary school named
Azusa, stumbled forward, a half-smile counterbalancing the sadness
within her eyes. "Rei-chan..." Azusa croaked. "I'm so sorry. So
sorry I did this to you. I understand the pain I put you through.
I'm ss..." Azusa seemed to stumble over her words. "Ss...ss..."
"Why did it have to be you?" Rei shook her head and stepped
back, away from the beckoning girl. "Why did she have to bring YOU
back, of all the people?"
"I guess it was my destiny." Azusa licked her dry, dead lips,
a hand moving to her throat. Rei could see the deep, circular
bruise that went right around that throat, peering out from just
under the collar of her sailor-style uniform top. NO! Rei peered
away. Don't look. Don't remind yourself...
But it was too much. Horrified fascination dragged her eyes
back to where Azusa was fingering the bruise, the girl's eyes quite
apologetic. "I'm ss... sso... ssorry, Rei-chan."
"Why?" Rei shivered, feeling her knees going weak. "Why did
you do it, Azusa-chan?" For a second, Rei wanted to run up to the
girl and throw her arms around her.
"I'm ssorry. It had nothing to do with you."
"But we were FRIENDS. Or so I had thought. Don't friends
tell each other their most private thoughts and feelings, sometimes
even more than they'd tell their own families?" A little voice in
Rei's mind was screaming out at her to not take part in this
charade, for charade it was. But... she just couldn't help herself.
It seemed to MEAN so MUCH.
"I tried to tell..." Azusa began, before she was piled back
into the others by something just short of a high-velocity medicine
ball. Rei watched as they collapsed to the ground, like semi-
autonomous puppets, their strings now broken, floundering in their
newly-found freedom. The spell was broken, and she spun to the
figure, standing to one side of the yard.
"Fuckin' Kami-shit!" The girl in the long coat with the
backpack shook her head, gobbing on the yard's otherwise sacred
grounds with a measure of contempt. "You're buying this crap,
girl?" She stared at Rei. "Pathetic little bitch, you're all the
same."
"Who..." Rei began, but wasn't given even the courtesy of
thinking about the rest of the question forming in her mind.
"Who the fuckin' shit am I and what the hell am I doin' here?
Yeah yeah yeah, thought of the fuckin' question before ya, girl.
Fuck, you're so utterly predictable."
I wish this morning had turned out to be as predictable, Rei
thought to herself.
The End of Part Ten
=^.^= niya
Sievert Anathea Dienar sievertd@start.com.au
Disclaimer - Sailormoon is owned by a lot of people, most of whom
are not me, so don't get all worked up about my using the characters
in ways they weren't meant. I'm just a common or garden fanfic
writer without a hope in this dark and cruel world. Maybe.
Warning - R Rated Fanfic
This fanfic is, essentially, a horror story, and contains scenes
that could be regarded as disturbing to people. I dare suggest that
you behave responsibly whilst reading this.
Some nasty four-letter words in this chapter as well, from one
particular character. Just fuckin' well thought you fuckin' needed
to fuckin' know. Fuckin' bloody hell, even! ;)
Yesterday.
She turned to the gently glowing figure, standing in the
doorway, smiling at her. A girl, perhaps her age, wearing rather
elaborate priestess-like robes. Rei had felt HER arrival only
seconds before SHE destroyed the beast, whatever it had been.
"My my..." SHE smiled. "We are in a spot of bother, aren't
we?"
"That depends." Rei swallowed.
"Depends on what?" SHE answered with an expression of mild
amusement. Rei glowered.
"On whether or not the bother was that beast, or..."
SHE laughed out loud. Rei had been expecting it. Whoever SHE
was, Rei could almost sense the insanity that dwelled within.
"You saved me from it. For what reason? I don't FEEL as if
your intentions towards me are benign." SHE continued to laugh, as
if the joke had been renewed. "Shutup and say something, damn you.
The evil I could feel, when that creature was hunting me. It wasn't
necessarily the creature I was feeling. It was a combination."
"Evil?" HER mirth cut short, SHE stared at Rei with a hurt
expression. "Evil? What makes you think I'm evil? I'm here to
save you."
"Save me?" Rei shook her head and stood, trying to look as
imposing as possible... Or, at the very least, match the imposing
air that SHE emanated as much as possible. Rei didn't feel like she
was winning. "You've already saved me, thankyou very much. From
what, I am not certain, but I am sure the REASON you saved me was
not out of charity."
"Oh, I haven't begun to save you yet, Sailormars." SHE smiled
as Rei's expression changed, even if it was ever so slightly. Rei
was trying to keep her emotions in check. She could feel HER trying
to manipulate those emotions within her mind. "Yes..." SHE
continued. "I know who you are. I know all about your kind. I
have been watching you for some time. Amazing how you've managed to
miss all the little hints to my presence. I've been dropping them
like ninepins but, looking at your past record, you've been
pathetically bad at dealing with mysterious events, often right up
until it is almost too late."
"Save me from what, hmm?" Rei could feel her headache
returning. The constant thump-thump-thump of her heartbeat in her
ears. Almost as if her body was trying to tell her something.
"Oh, I think you know." HER expression changed, slowly now,
to a much softer, kinder one. Rei expected as much, whatever that
meant. "I think you've known, all your life, what it is that I want
of you. Such sadness, from one as powerful as you, cannot be
overlooked."
"Sadness? I have no sadness." She paused. Of COURSE she had
sadnesses she wanted to be rid of, and she'd succeeded... No!
Thinking that way was almost playing into HER hands...
SHE shook her head. The child had to have it spelt out to
her. SHE raised a hand, closing HER eyes. As if on cue, Rei was
staring at her arms. The underside of her arms. The almost
imperceptible scars that existed there. Scars that her friends
had managed to miss, all this time, because of her best efforts to
hide them. Rei shook her head, angrily.
"That's over! That's over and done with. Don't you try and
drag that crap out of me, bitch. I'm not going to play your game!"
SHE looked shocked. The anti reaction was much stronger than
SHE had been anticipating. These sailorsenshi were obviously a
greater challenge, in comparison to even spiritually powerful
figures such as priests and psychics. Indeed, this one was a
combination of all three. SHE had had her hand forced when SHE had
detected the parasite moving in on her. It looked as if the girl
was going to need to be worn down, in body and mind, before SHE was
going to have an effect.
"I see." HER expression and voice became stern, almost angry.
Rei could even feel her holding back tears. Tears? How could a
being so utterly insane feel such sadness? SHE continued... "Then
I suppose I shall have to show you why those feelings of the past
continue in you, still..."
SHE waved her hand once more, and four figures appeared within
Rei's bedroom. Four figures that Rei recognised. She almost wanted
to scream as SHE floated back out of the doorway, slowly vanishing
into nothingness. "You can't!" Rei screamed as she tried to push
past the figures, all four holding her back. "This is not fair!"
"In life, there is no such thing as 'fair'." HER voice echoed
across the yard outside. "Why don't you ask them about what is
'fair', and what isn't. I'm sure you know what their answers will
be."
"How can they be here?" Rei managed to struggle past the
shambling foursome and step into the now-empty yard, staring around
for the source of HER voice. "How can they be here? They're all
dead! DEAD!"
"The dead are never really so. They always remain, within our
minds and hearts. Only once those who still remember are gone,
themselves, do their shades really begin to fade away. But I saved
them from that fate, just as I want to save you."
"Save me?" Rei turned to the four figures. The four
schoolgirls that Rei had known, or had been acquainted with, before
she had met Usagi, before she had become Sailormars. The four
schoolgirls who had taken their lives. "You want to save me from
life to become THAT?"
"Don't be shocked at their appearances. They are merely
homunculi. Only the feelings and emotions of their final moments
remain within them. They shall teach you the futility of life,
especially one destined to be as long and as devoid of love and
security as your own, Sailormars. Once their purpose is complete,
then I shall return for you, and save you, for all eternity. Peace
and eternal release from pain, Sailormars. Think it over."
And then SHE was gone. Rei could feel it, as the first of
the four girls, a twelve year old from Rei's elementary school named
Azusa, stumbled forward, a half-smile counterbalancing the sadness
within her eyes. "Rei-chan..." Azusa croaked. "I'm so sorry. So
sorry I did this to you. I understand the pain I put you through.
I'm ss..." Azusa seemed to stumble over her words. "Ss...ss..."
"Why did it have to be you?" Rei shook her head and stepped
back, away from the beckoning girl. "Why did she have to bring YOU
back, of all the people?"
"I guess it was my destiny." Azusa licked her dry, dead lips,
a hand moving to her throat. Rei could see the deep, circular
bruise that went right around that throat, peering out from just
under the collar of her sailor-style uniform top. NO! Rei peered
away. Don't look. Don't remind yourself...
But it was too much. Horrified fascination dragged her eyes
back to where Azusa was fingering the bruise, the girl's eyes quite
apologetic. "I'm ss... sso... ssorry, Rei-chan."
"Why?" Rei shivered, feeling her knees going weak. "Why did
you do it, Azusa-chan?" For a second, Rei wanted to run up to the
girl and throw her arms around her.
"I'm ssorry. It had nothing to do with you."
"But we were FRIENDS. Or so I had thought. Don't friends
tell each other their most private thoughts and feelings, sometimes
even more than they'd tell their own families?" A little voice in
Rei's mind was screaming out at her to not take part in this
charade, for charade it was. But... she just couldn't help herself.
It seemed to MEAN so MUCH.
"I tried to tell..." Azusa began, before she was piled back
into the others by something just short of a high-velocity medicine
ball. Rei watched as they collapsed to the ground, like semi-
autonomous puppets, their strings now broken, floundering in their
newly-found freedom. The spell was broken, and she spun to the
figure, standing to one side of the yard.
"Fuckin' Kami-shit!" The girl in the long coat with the
backpack shook her head, gobbing on the yard's otherwise sacred
grounds with a measure of contempt. "You're buying this crap,
girl?" She stared at Rei. "Pathetic little bitch, you're all the
same."
"Who..." Rei began, but wasn't given even the courtesy of
thinking about the rest of the question forming in her mind.
"Who the fuckin' shit am I and what the hell am I doin' here?
Yeah yeah yeah, thought of the fuckin' question before ya, girl.
Fuck, you're so utterly predictable."
I wish this morning had turned out to be as predictable, Rei
thought to herself.
The End of Part Ten
=^.^= niya
Sievert Anathea Dienar sievertd@start.com.au