The Morning After
Rating: R due to language
Disclaimer: These Characters are not mine. I wish they were, but I am not that lucky, nor am I that rich
Beta'd by Sajinn
Feedback is desperately needed. If not, I will keep writing badly and keep posting them.
Set Season 6. After "Hell's Bells" Willow and Tara are together, though.
This is written in Xander's POV.
Chapter 5
A couple of months later, I walked into the shop. Spike's there just looking at me with this mixture of hatred and mirth. He just looks at me and smirks, "Hey Daddio, what's shakin?"
"Not you, oh Chipped One. And how are my favorite women today?" Willow and Tara laughed. Dawn gave me a hug, Anya even smiled. I hope she has gotten over the worst of her hurt. I explained why I had to do what I did. She said she understood, and would not try to get all Vengeance Demony on me…at least not any more. Buffy, though, she hung back like she has been ever since we slept together. I've tried to act normally, but she's still been distant, and I noticed that she's looking paler than usual.
I need to talk to someone about this. The guys at work are out because of the whole Slayer/Demon thing. I can't talk to Willow because she'll just be 'oh poor, stupid Xander, it's all your fault. Dawn is out, and Spike, well I would but I really don't want to be subject of ridicule. Maybe Tara. I'll ask her sometime today.
I finally got the chance. She agreed, and we set a meeting at the coffee shop for later in the day.
I arrived before Tara, and snagged a table near the back of the place. Mmm, coffee. These are definitely the moments of our lives. There she is, and I wave her over.
"Thanks for meeting me."
"No problem Xander. I'm here to help, but I just have one question: Why me and not Willow? I mean, she's known you forever and all." She questioned softly, and seemed unsure about our meeting.
"Well Tara, it's got something to do with Buffy. I'm sure Wills has told you about my little, well, major crush on her in High School. I'm afraid she'll just see it as an extension of that." My explanation relieved her worries, and relaxed a bit.
I think Tara had some clue about my situation, and sipped her coffee, waiting for me to explain. "It goes sorta like this, Do you remember the night I got drunk with the guys and Buffy had to take me home?" She nodded. "I didn't. At least not until later the next day." I didn't want to mention how.
"See she took me home, and all the while I'm blubbering about Anya, and why I couldn't marry her. We finally get to my apartment, and that's where drunken Xander made his big mistake. I told Buffy I didn't love Anya as much as I love her. One thing led to another and we slept together." I looked at her through the top of my mug, trying not to make eye contact. I try to keep my sex life out of conversation.
I saw a spark of recognition from Tara. "So that's why she started avoiding you. I wondered what happened."
"Yup, I finally talked to her about that night and first she denied the whole thing. Then I got angry and she admitted it, wanted to forget, and pretend the night never happened. I tried to do that, acting as usual, but she's still been distant. I didn't mean to hurt her at all, I just want my friend back."
"This admission, did you ever want to act on it since you left Anya?" Good ole Tara, getting to the heart of the matter.
"I didn't even realize it, until I was too drunk to stop myself. I thought it was over, I mean, I thought I had accepted the friends only clause. But now, I can't help but think I've been in love with her all this time. But I never even thought of cheating on Anya the whole time we were together."
Tara and I talked for over two hours. She listened to me pour my heart out, helping me put things in perspective.
Rating: R due to language
Disclaimer: These Characters are not mine. I wish they were, but I am not that lucky, nor am I that rich
Beta'd by Sajinn
Feedback is desperately needed. If not, I will keep writing badly and keep posting them.
Set Season 6. After "Hell's Bells" Willow and Tara are together, though.
This is written in Xander's POV.
Chapter 5
A couple of months later, I walked into the shop. Spike's there just looking at me with this mixture of hatred and mirth. He just looks at me and smirks, "Hey Daddio, what's shakin?"
"Not you, oh Chipped One. And how are my favorite women today?" Willow and Tara laughed. Dawn gave me a hug, Anya even smiled. I hope she has gotten over the worst of her hurt. I explained why I had to do what I did. She said she understood, and would not try to get all Vengeance Demony on me…at least not any more. Buffy, though, she hung back like she has been ever since we slept together. I've tried to act normally, but she's still been distant, and I noticed that she's looking paler than usual.
I need to talk to someone about this. The guys at work are out because of the whole Slayer/Demon thing. I can't talk to Willow because she'll just be 'oh poor, stupid Xander, it's all your fault. Dawn is out, and Spike, well I would but I really don't want to be subject of ridicule. Maybe Tara. I'll ask her sometime today.
I finally got the chance. She agreed, and we set a meeting at the coffee shop for later in the day.
I arrived before Tara, and snagged a table near the back of the place. Mmm, coffee. These are definitely the moments of our lives. There she is, and I wave her over.
"Thanks for meeting me."
"No problem Xander. I'm here to help, but I just have one question: Why me and not Willow? I mean, she's known you forever and all." She questioned softly, and seemed unsure about our meeting.
"Well Tara, it's got something to do with Buffy. I'm sure Wills has told you about my little, well, major crush on her in High School. I'm afraid she'll just see it as an extension of that." My explanation relieved her worries, and relaxed a bit.
I think Tara had some clue about my situation, and sipped her coffee, waiting for me to explain. "It goes sorta like this, Do you remember the night I got drunk with the guys and Buffy had to take me home?" She nodded. "I didn't. At least not until later the next day." I didn't want to mention how.
"See she took me home, and all the while I'm blubbering about Anya, and why I couldn't marry her. We finally get to my apartment, and that's where drunken Xander made his big mistake. I told Buffy I didn't love Anya as much as I love her. One thing led to another and we slept together." I looked at her through the top of my mug, trying not to make eye contact. I try to keep my sex life out of conversation.
I saw a spark of recognition from Tara. "So that's why she started avoiding you. I wondered what happened."
"Yup, I finally talked to her about that night and first she denied the whole thing. Then I got angry and she admitted it, wanted to forget, and pretend the night never happened. I tried to do that, acting as usual, but she's still been distant. I didn't mean to hurt her at all, I just want my friend back."
"This admission, did you ever want to act on it since you left Anya?" Good ole Tara, getting to the heart of the matter.
"I didn't even realize it, until I was too drunk to stop myself. I thought it was over, I mean, I thought I had accepted the friends only clause. But now, I can't help but think I've been in love with her all this time. But I never even thought of cheating on Anya the whole time we were together."
Tara and I talked for over two hours. She listened to me pour my heart out, helping me put things in perspective.