Title: Somewhat Damaged

Author: Raven (spirit_raven_willow@hotmail.com)
Contents: Yaoi!!! Semi-AU (set after endless waltz), slightly OOC, future lemons

Rating: NC-17
Pairings: 1x2, 3x4, 6x5
Notes: I have no real idea where this is gonna go so C&C VERY welcome. Duo, Heero and Wufei work for the Preventers, Trowa is a Journalist, Quatre works for Winner Inc and Zechs owns a gay/Bi bar (this may or may not have *any* significance to the plot I haven't decided) anyway it's after endless waltz and everyone it trying to have normal lives and forget the war but old scars don't always fade.

Italics denote flashbacks
Archive: Anywhere but ask please

Fanfiction.net: http://www.fanfiction.net/read.php?storyid=444812

A little piece of Gundam Wing:

http://raygunworks.net/singles2/somewhat/somewhat.html

Disclaimer: Don't own, don't sue… All you'll get is a purple bunny named Duo and coursework.

Chapter 4 – The games move on.

"Let's see who goes next…" I said looking around at the others. Quatre was kissing Trowa's neck, his pupils dilated and glazed in pleasure. I spun the bottle, and it finished its run on Wu.

"Hey, Wu-man whatcha pick?" I grinned.

"It's Wufei; I will not have you dishonour my family in an attempt to make a cute pet name and spin." He said taking the bottle from my stunned form. He placed the bottle in the tabletop and let it spin; it revolved slowly until it finally ended on… me.

"So Maxwell let's see if you are as good a kisser as you say." He leaned over to my still shocked form, and cupped my face gently in one hand steadying himself against my chest with the other. I closed my eyes and parted my lips slightly; we kissed, he tasted me softly, lightly pressing his lips against mine. I was surprised at the slow pace but imitated it, gently suckling at his bottom lip. My tongue moved across the now wet surface of his bottom lip as I pulled it further into my mouth; I released him placing one more lingering in kiss on his mouth.

"Nice Maxwell, very nice."

"Well I am the best ya know? And in more ways than one…" I wiggled my eyebrows suggestively trailing off, though all I could really think about was how much I wished it were Heero that I had kissed. I sighed as Wu picked up the bottle again, this time it landed on Quatre.

"Um, Q? Not wanting to disturb you or anything but it's your go." I said poking him slightly on the thigh.

"Mmm… what?" he moaned.

"Your go, Little One." Trowa said pushing Quatre off him slightly. He unwillingly sat up and looked around at all of us, then at Trowa.

"Well I choose truth, I am only for Trowa." He said with a smile, kissing Trowa on the nose.

"Well then… um… where is the weirdest place you've ever had sex?" asked Zechs sitting up looking a little too eager to know the answer.

Quatre blushed heavily, "Disney World, the 'it's a small world' ride."

"Yeah, the ride broke down," Trowa said with a slight wistful smile, "and we went behind a bunch of those mechanical Dutch children…"

"Of course then the ride was fixed and we were asked to never return to the magic kingdom." Quatre finished.

"Wow! Dude never though you had it in you," I replied duly impressed.

"Yes… well… what else were we going to do? And I swear they were looking at me" he said blushing further, spinning the bottle. "So Zechs, what do you pick?"

He looked a bit like a deer caught in headlights, "Um, Truth."

"Well then," Wu started, "where and who did you loose you virginity to?" My blood ran cold; he was raped and beaten in high school for being gay – despite the hypocrisy of that - and being the son of the glorious Lord Peacecraft. That's who he lost his virginity to, his innocence and purity, not to someone he loved in a beautiful moment, but to some thug in the basement of the building head banging against the heating pipes. I knew how he felt; I lost mine to some nameless Joe on the street who threw me a few rumpled bills after he fucked my eleven-year-old body like a blow up doll, so I could feed those younger than me.

"Zechs you don't have to answer that." I said quickly, he looked like he was ready to bolt; he never wanted anyone to know that about himself, especially Wufei who would probably give him a justice rant.

"Why not? The rest of us had to play this stupid game." Wu asked accusingly across the table.

"He doesn't have to answer!" I ground out glaring at Wu. I leaned over and asked him quietly, "Do you want to go?"

"It's ok; I'll answer him," He said quietly. "I lost my virginity to some guy I can't even remember the name of when he raped me. Happy? I was raped; I have no honour! Wanna disown me now?" He looked on the verge of tears. Wu looked like he had been slapped in the face. No one else spoke. He got up and walked over to Zechs and sat next to him on the couch, pulling him into an uncharacteristic hug.

"Your honour was taken from you, but you are not honourless. I think… I think…" looked him in the eyes, "I think I love you even more" wow. Did not see that coming. Wu looked in his eyes for a second searching for acceptance and obviously it was there as he leaned down and captured Zechs' mouth in a kiss. They kissed slowly like golden syrup but did not loose any intensity. Their tongues stroked each other in a sexual dance; Wu brought one of his hands up behind Zechs burring it in his long platinum blonde hair. They slowly pulled away resting their foreheads against each other.

"I've wanted you to do that for so long," Zechs whispered.

"Me too," he replied, they looked a little startled as they realised they weren't alone but did not pull away, Wu just moved so he was sitting in his lap, Zechs' arm wrapped round his waist.

Although I was happy for Zechs, I was sad, Zechs was my best friend and now I'm all alone again, he wouldn't want to bother with me anymore; he had someone else who cares deeply for him. He doesn't need me.

"Congratulations Wu and Zechs, I hope…" I felt my voice cracking as tears pricked my eyes, "you both have great times together. Excuse me" I grabbed my coat and quickly left, I didn't want them to see me cry again.

It was raining when I stepped out of the coffee house. I pulled the coat over my head and started to head back to the apartment then thought better of it: I didn't feel like facing Heero now. So I turned in the other direction, tears mixing with the rain, and ran towards an old friend's apartment.

Tbc…