Unfaithful

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Chapter 3:: The Encounter

" I was such a fool

I couldn't see how good you were to me

You confessed your love

Undying devotion

I confessed my need to be free

And now I'm left with all this pain

I've only got myself to blame"

Squall sighed walking into the Garden building, it hand been exactly 4 months, and 3 days since he left the garden, left Rinoa, left his future. Squall cleared his throat and headed down the hallways toward Cid's office. There were a lot of gasps and a lot of pointing at Squall , he tried to ignore this. Then he saw a familiar figure he did not want to see. Zell was bouncing toward him, shock on his face. He stopped right in front of Squall looking at him hard.

"Dude.." Was all Zell could manage. Squall pushed past Zell and walked forward. He wasn't trying to be mean to Zell, Squall just wasn't in the mood for him, or his gaping. Squall turned to corner and ran straight into Irivine and Selphie who were making out. Squall quickly moved past the couple, he almost made it down the hallway when he heard their footsteps behind him.

"Squall!" Irivine yelled, Squall slowly turned and looked at Irivine.

"Yes?" He said emotionless. Irivine blinked then shook his head.

"Where, what, and why?" He said nodding, deciding to put all the questions together. Squall crossed his arms across his chest and looked the other way. Then looked back at Irivine.

"Where:: Here I am, I use to be in Timber. Why:: because I have come back. And What:: I don't understand that question so I won't answer it." Squall nodded and turned walking away. Irivine stood there speechless. Selphie walked after Squall.

"Don't be like this Squall, tell us why you walked out on -" Selphie stopped in the middle of the sentence, Squall had whirled around and pointed a finger right in her face.

"Don't.... start.." He growled, then kept walking.

"I will start! Now tell me what happened? Why DID you walk out on Rinoa!" Selphie screamed Rinoa's name before Squall would stop her. Squall turned once more looking furious.

'I don't want to talk about it.." He snapped.

"Well I do!" Selphie snapped backed.

"Why do you want to talk about it? It had nothing to do with you!" Squall growled. Selphie looked puzzled.

"You hurt Rinoa you know. And that is my problem." She snapped , she was now in Squall's face.

"Whatever." He muttered turning to walk away. Irivine grabbed Squall by the jacket shoulder.

"Squall, we're your friends.." He started, but Squall had flung Irivine's hand off his shoulder.

"Whatever!" He growled again and walked away. Irivine and Selphie stood there dumbstruck.

After leaving Cid's office and explaining the fact he left because he needed a break, after hearing Cid explain to him how Rinoa was doing, even though Squall had never brought that subject up to him. Squall just nodded a few times and left the office. Squall was to return to his duties, starting in 1 week. Squall had asked why so long, but Cid had stated that most of the squads were on leave, or out at missions already. So Squall decided it was time to return to his room and sleep. He walked down the familiar hallway, immune now to all the gasping and pointing. He turned his key and opened the door, and stepped in. Squall gasped slightly looking around the room, almost everything was smashed or destroyed. A garbage bag was near him, it was full of some broken things that belonged to Squall. Rinoa must have done this, but this doesn't seem like something she would do. Something moved in his unmade bed that made Squall jump. Squall quickly drew his gun blade from the wall and pointed it down at the bundle. Suddenly the covers were flung up and a figure appeared. Squall dropped his gun blade down and jumped back slightly. Rinoa, but what is she doing in my bed. Rinoa blinked a few times, Squall thought she was as surprised as he was to see the other one so near, and so soon. Rinoa and Squall just stared at each other, the silence was killing Squall.

"What are you doing here?" Squall asked, rather coldly. Rinoa stood up slowly, grabbing some of her clothes.

'This was my room too Squall, ok.." Rinoa said grabbing the last bit of clothing that belonged to her. Squall watched her, she dropped some of her clothes while she was hurrying to leave. He sighed bent down and picked some stuff up for her. He nodded slightly and handed her some of the clothes, she grabbed it from him quickly.

"Rinoa I'm--" Rinoa rose her fingers to Squall's lip and looked at him pleading.

"Please, just leave me alone Squall. You have done enough.." Rinoa slowly rose to her feet and walked toward the door. Squall was kneeling, his eyes tighter closed. He felt like a dagger had just gone straight through his heart. He opened his eyes slowly, and stood up turning.

"Don't you want to know why I did ..did it.." Squall exclaimed watching her back. Rinoa stopped and turned around, her eyes full of tries.

"Why?" She asked her voice cracking. Squall blinked and looked away. He didn't want to say, he didn't have the courage to look her in the eyes and tell her the truth, that it wasn't her it was him. Yeah, like that isn't the oldest line in the book, Squall. Why to go, you hurt her. You hurt her. I hurt Rinoa. Squall looked up at Rinoa clearing his throat. When he spoke his voice was very shaky.

"I....I..." He started, cleared his throat again.

"I'm...not ready..I don't trust myself yet." Squall said lamely, Rinoa's eyes seemed to burst with angry.

"Then why did you propose?!" She screamed dropping the clothes. Squall stood there dumbfound, why had he proposed.

"I...don't know.." He shrugged, knowing yet again that was stupid. Rinoa just shook her head.

"Whatever Squall.." She picked up her clothes again, walked out of the door, and slammed it shut so hard, Squall was afraid it would break. Squall stood there for a few moments just looking at the door.

"...I'm a idiot.." He muttered, sitting down on the bed, putting his head in his hands.