Argh… I don't really have anything so say for this… I hate myself whenever
I don't have a plot inside my head… I totally flip when I started this.
Anyway, enjoy… .
Disclaimers: All hail to those who own RK.
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Finishing up with her dressing, she stepped outside, only to find a glowering Megumi staring at her.
"I picked up the letter." She said, holding out the paper. "You really disgust me." And she went off, the letter floated down to the floor.
Pain filled her. She doesn't want to be alone anymore.
It's time to face the consequences.
She entered the dining room.
--
Yahiko sat quietly in a corner, waiting for his dinner to be served. Wondering why Kaoru had overreacted this way. Was there going to be another attack? Would he be lefted alone once more? His dreams forever diminished?
"Yahiko." A man held out his rice. He accepted quietly and the shoji opened, revealing her. Glancing up, he saw determination and a strong will not to cry in front of him.
"Jou-chan." Greeted Sanosuke nonchantly as he ate his own lunch with the usual exuberance. She nodded absently and accepted Kenshin's offer for her own rice with a bit of blush before settling down.
Lunch went in a complete silence, a stiff air hung as they expected Kaoru to explain.
--
Kaoru put down her untouched lunch later on.
"Minna-san, I have something so say." Everyone stopped. Looking down, she spoke to her hands. "I'm all to blame for this. Let me explain…"
"I was about six, when a new ear was beginning… and Keitaro came to my life." Her eyes glimmered a bit as memories flooded her eyes.
"It was just plain teacher and student, and at that time, I was also beginning my kendo practise… Keitaro was the son of filthy rich man. As cold as he was, he belied a lot more beneath him… I always wanted to break that barrier of ice, to see beyond his looks. Father once told me that Keitaro would not improve even if he has the gift of a swordsman. He needs to feel." Kaoru clenched her fists on her kimono. She would not cry. She MUST not cry… she must not cry. In front of them. And felt a warm hand on her fists. Kenshin…
Looking into his eyes, she felt encouraged and went on in a stronger voice.
"I got along with him pretty well… well.. basically I'm the only one communicating with him. The rest of the dojo students often asked me why. I replied it was only for the sake of his improvement in kendo to feel, and the instructions of my father…" A bittersweet smile came across her. "I was wrong."
"Through our friendship based more on my father… we developed unspoken feelings towards each other… at that time, I was confused. I didn't know of that emotion. I guess I'm just plain stupid." The first tears came out. Blinking back, she fought hard to stay in control. They need to know this. Kenshin's hand gripped more firmly on her fists. Breathing deeply, she continued.
"But at the same time, there is another girl I had known since I was baby. She was the only one in the neighbhood that doesn't mind me going further into kendo studies, ignoring the plain facts that I am a girl. And need the basic skills in order to be a woman. I… didn't had a mother when I was born. It was just me and my father. Who would I consult to for those skills? Only her. Tatsuki was the only one with me, teaching me… she was my only female friend at that time of childhood." A shadow came across her eyes.
"She often came to my house and played with me whenever the lesson ended. Everyday without fail, we were seen together… and her parents even accepted me as one of their family. I was so happy… but… at the age of fourteen… Keitaro was sixteen… she met him for the first time. From the look on her face, I knew she had fallen for him… and she often came back just to look for him. I was jealous. I always we had been together… but now, not only she is ignoring me, the attention's on the cold boy." Biting her lip, she wondered what her friends would think of her… anyway, she still dare not to look up as she once again filled the silence with her story.
"I told Keitaro that. And… on that very day, he told me his feelings towards me. I cried. I didn't know what to do. Either to admit, or hurt another party… or the other way round. And… I don't know what happened, in the end, he made a promise to me, he'll come back to me… he'll come back." And then onwards, I avoided him. I didn't know what he was up to the next few days… Tatsuki also disappeared. I was alone for the days. Ignorant as I was, I continued and pushed myself to improve my kendo… but…"
Taking a deep, shivering breath as she came to the climax, but also the most painful part, she was close to tears.
"I still remember it was night. Tatsuki came round to my house again, in tears. I was concerned and ran up to her. She slapped me… called me all the names in the world she knew. Resentment towards me was openly declared, then she ran home. That's the end of our friendship. I nearly died of crying too hard… but...the worse part was…" She choked. Kaoru could no longer continue. It was too painful…
"Jou-chan…"
"Kaoru-dono… I think… you should rest…" Kenshin said in a quiet voice, holding her shoulder, he made to help her up, but she stayed put.
"Dame. I need to finish this…" Calming herself down, she continued. "The next day, I found out she had committed suicide in her room, hanging herself with a rope… and the reason behind this… Keitaro had tricked her into believing that he had fallen for her, and in the end, told her that he had no feelings for her, but only me. And left her in a trailing dust by the road… disappeared. But on that day, he appeared again, and told me and my father he was going overseas. I was reluctant and too angry to meet him, but was forced by my father. He said, 'You can't escape from life's cruel fate…' I'll never forget that. And so, Keitaro quit his kendo practise, and at his own father's request, he moved to Europe and was never seen… until now." Tears flowed out.
"I never… knew… I never…" Kaoru cried as she collapsed against Kenshin.
The room was filled with only her pained sobs.
And inside each of them, who heard her story, was a turbulence of reflections…
--
Sanosuke lounged outside, watching the sun go down. It was a long day.
"Che…"
Spitting out his fishbones, he headed out to relief his confused mind.
"Hope Katsu have some time to spare."
And went away without a goodbye.
--
Megumi saw the paper still there. And the books tanuki dug out that morning on the ground. No one had touched it since so much things happened.
Shaking her head, she thought that might as well be a saint sometimes to help that girl. She went around and picked the fallen things up and headed to her room. Opening the shoji quietly, she placed them at a corner. Seeing Tanuki's troubled sleep, she frowned, and left, shutting the shoji with a light shuffle of wood against wood.
--
Yahiko walked around the dojo.
I didn't know till now busu had so much in her…
The Genki spirit is finally falling down…
--
Kenshin washed the dishes in an automatic way, peace in his eyes, trouble lies ahead…
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Okay, I suck at this kind of things… HELP!! Shucks shucks… I really hate myself… WHY HAVE I WRITTEN THIS KIND OF THINGS? This is not a very good chtr… so don't flame me!! I Promise I will work harder in the nxt one… I really promise!! Gomen for this lousy chptr!
Saiki-chan
Disclaimers: All hail to those who own RK.
--
Finishing up with her dressing, she stepped outside, only to find a glowering Megumi staring at her.
"I picked up the letter." She said, holding out the paper. "You really disgust me." And she went off, the letter floated down to the floor.
Pain filled her. She doesn't want to be alone anymore.
It's time to face the consequences.
She entered the dining room.
--
Yahiko sat quietly in a corner, waiting for his dinner to be served. Wondering why Kaoru had overreacted this way. Was there going to be another attack? Would he be lefted alone once more? His dreams forever diminished?
"Yahiko." A man held out his rice. He accepted quietly and the shoji opened, revealing her. Glancing up, he saw determination and a strong will not to cry in front of him.
"Jou-chan." Greeted Sanosuke nonchantly as he ate his own lunch with the usual exuberance. She nodded absently and accepted Kenshin's offer for her own rice with a bit of blush before settling down.
Lunch went in a complete silence, a stiff air hung as they expected Kaoru to explain.
--
Kaoru put down her untouched lunch later on.
"Minna-san, I have something so say." Everyone stopped. Looking down, she spoke to her hands. "I'm all to blame for this. Let me explain…"
"I was about six, when a new ear was beginning… and Keitaro came to my life." Her eyes glimmered a bit as memories flooded her eyes.
"It was just plain teacher and student, and at that time, I was also beginning my kendo practise… Keitaro was the son of filthy rich man. As cold as he was, he belied a lot more beneath him… I always wanted to break that barrier of ice, to see beyond his looks. Father once told me that Keitaro would not improve even if he has the gift of a swordsman. He needs to feel." Kaoru clenched her fists on her kimono. She would not cry. She MUST not cry… she must not cry. In front of them. And felt a warm hand on her fists. Kenshin…
Looking into his eyes, she felt encouraged and went on in a stronger voice.
"I got along with him pretty well… well.. basically I'm the only one communicating with him. The rest of the dojo students often asked me why. I replied it was only for the sake of his improvement in kendo to feel, and the instructions of my father…" A bittersweet smile came across her. "I was wrong."
"Through our friendship based more on my father… we developed unspoken feelings towards each other… at that time, I was confused. I didn't know of that emotion. I guess I'm just plain stupid." The first tears came out. Blinking back, she fought hard to stay in control. They need to know this. Kenshin's hand gripped more firmly on her fists. Breathing deeply, she continued.
"But at the same time, there is another girl I had known since I was baby. She was the only one in the neighbhood that doesn't mind me going further into kendo studies, ignoring the plain facts that I am a girl. And need the basic skills in order to be a woman. I… didn't had a mother when I was born. It was just me and my father. Who would I consult to for those skills? Only her. Tatsuki was the only one with me, teaching me… she was my only female friend at that time of childhood." A shadow came across her eyes.
"She often came to my house and played with me whenever the lesson ended. Everyday without fail, we were seen together… and her parents even accepted me as one of their family. I was so happy… but… at the age of fourteen… Keitaro was sixteen… she met him for the first time. From the look on her face, I knew she had fallen for him… and she often came back just to look for him. I was jealous. I always we had been together… but now, not only she is ignoring me, the attention's on the cold boy." Biting her lip, she wondered what her friends would think of her… anyway, she still dare not to look up as she once again filled the silence with her story.
"I told Keitaro that. And… on that very day, he told me his feelings towards me. I cried. I didn't know what to do. Either to admit, or hurt another party… or the other way round. And… I don't know what happened, in the end, he made a promise to me, he'll come back to me… he'll come back." And then onwards, I avoided him. I didn't know what he was up to the next few days… Tatsuki also disappeared. I was alone for the days. Ignorant as I was, I continued and pushed myself to improve my kendo… but…"
Taking a deep, shivering breath as she came to the climax, but also the most painful part, she was close to tears.
"I still remember it was night. Tatsuki came round to my house again, in tears. I was concerned and ran up to her. She slapped me… called me all the names in the world she knew. Resentment towards me was openly declared, then she ran home. That's the end of our friendship. I nearly died of crying too hard… but...the worse part was…" She choked. Kaoru could no longer continue. It was too painful…
"Jou-chan…"
"Kaoru-dono… I think… you should rest…" Kenshin said in a quiet voice, holding her shoulder, he made to help her up, but she stayed put.
"Dame. I need to finish this…" Calming herself down, she continued. "The next day, I found out she had committed suicide in her room, hanging herself with a rope… and the reason behind this… Keitaro had tricked her into believing that he had fallen for her, and in the end, told her that he had no feelings for her, but only me. And left her in a trailing dust by the road… disappeared. But on that day, he appeared again, and told me and my father he was going overseas. I was reluctant and too angry to meet him, but was forced by my father. He said, 'You can't escape from life's cruel fate…' I'll never forget that. And so, Keitaro quit his kendo practise, and at his own father's request, he moved to Europe and was never seen… until now." Tears flowed out.
"I never… knew… I never…" Kaoru cried as she collapsed against Kenshin.
The room was filled with only her pained sobs.
And inside each of them, who heard her story, was a turbulence of reflections…
--
Sanosuke lounged outside, watching the sun go down. It was a long day.
"Che…"
Spitting out his fishbones, he headed out to relief his confused mind.
"Hope Katsu have some time to spare."
And went away without a goodbye.
--
Megumi saw the paper still there. And the books tanuki dug out that morning on the ground. No one had touched it since so much things happened.
Shaking her head, she thought that might as well be a saint sometimes to help that girl. She went around and picked the fallen things up and headed to her room. Opening the shoji quietly, she placed them at a corner. Seeing Tanuki's troubled sleep, she frowned, and left, shutting the shoji with a light shuffle of wood against wood.
--
Yahiko walked around the dojo.
I didn't know till now busu had so much in her…
The Genki spirit is finally falling down…
--
Kenshin washed the dishes in an automatic way, peace in his eyes, trouble lies ahead…
--
Okay, I suck at this kind of things… HELP!! Shucks shucks… I really hate myself… WHY HAVE I WRITTEN THIS KIND OF THINGS? This is not a very good chtr… so don't flame me!! I Promise I will work harder in the nxt one… I really promise!! Gomen for this lousy chptr!
Saiki-chan