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***Felt like writing this. This is my version of what Vash was thinking in episode 25 before Meryl joined him up there. When stuff starts happening in my brain I write it down. If you don`t like it fine. Please don`t give me a review saying that I suck. I just wrote this down and plopped it in.
I am a Killer
I killed him, Rem. I killed him.
Yeah. I know that he was evil but did I really have to kill him? I could have fought him longer. I could have….I could have done anything besides pulling that trigger.
I am just like Knives. I am a killer. I killed someone. I always told myself that I would live by your philosophy that all killing is wrong.
Was this the only way, Rem? Will you forgive me?
Of course you will forgive me. You are a forgiving person…but am I worthy of your forgiveness? Am I worthy….Rem?
Knives killed many people. Isn`t one just as bad as the other? We both have blood on our hands now, Rem. I can feel it. No matter how many times I wash my hands the blood is still there. Maybe it`s true that you cannot wash your hands of blood once you`ve killed someone.
I hate the sight of blood. I hate it. Why did you like the color red, Rem? It`s the color of blood. I don`t understand. You told me about the red flowers but it doesn`t make sense anymore. Red is the color of blood and I hate blood.
Knives would laugh at me right now, Rem. He would laugh at me. He would beat it into my skull until I admitted that he and I are the same.
I don`t want him to be right, Rem. I don`t want that. I don`t want to be a killer. I don`t want the blood to be on my hands anymore…but it`s still there.
They are in danger because of me, Rem. Meryl and Millie. They keep following me. I don`t want them to get hurt. I don`t want that. I can`t bear the thought of one of them dying. Just another notch for Knives and another way that he knows he can hurt me.
I hate him, Rem. I hate him. Hate is wrong but I feel it. I want to kill him. I want him dead…but can I really bring myself to kill him? Can I bring myself to kill him?
It won`t be so hard. I killed before.
Why am I thinking this, Rem? I don`t want to think this. I can`t get it out of my head. I don`t want to see blood. I hate blood.
I can`t talk anymore, Rem. I think that one of the girls is coming. Farewell, Rem. I`m sorry that I turned out like him. I`m sorry that I killed that man. I have to do this. I will find Knives and I will stop him for good.
I am a killer.
***Yes. I realize that this is really short. I don`t really know what to say about this. I just thought of it in a few minutes. Anyways…here it is and I hope that somebody found it intriguing if not a bit frightening and a little morbid but that part in the anime was sad.
***Felt like writing this. This is my version of what Vash was thinking in episode 25 before Meryl joined him up there. When stuff starts happening in my brain I write it down. If you don`t like it fine. Please don`t give me a review saying that I suck. I just wrote this down and plopped it in.
I am a Killer
I killed him, Rem. I killed him.
Yeah. I know that he was evil but did I really have to kill him? I could have fought him longer. I could have….I could have done anything besides pulling that trigger.
I am just like Knives. I am a killer. I killed someone. I always told myself that I would live by your philosophy that all killing is wrong.
Was this the only way, Rem? Will you forgive me?
Of course you will forgive me. You are a forgiving person…but am I worthy of your forgiveness? Am I worthy….Rem?
Knives killed many people. Isn`t one just as bad as the other? We both have blood on our hands now, Rem. I can feel it. No matter how many times I wash my hands the blood is still there. Maybe it`s true that you cannot wash your hands of blood once you`ve killed someone.
I hate the sight of blood. I hate it. Why did you like the color red, Rem? It`s the color of blood. I don`t understand. You told me about the red flowers but it doesn`t make sense anymore. Red is the color of blood and I hate blood.
Knives would laugh at me right now, Rem. He would laugh at me. He would beat it into my skull until I admitted that he and I are the same.
I don`t want him to be right, Rem. I don`t want that. I don`t want to be a killer. I don`t want the blood to be on my hands anymore…but it`s still there.
They are in danger because of me, Rem. Meryl and Millie. They keep following me. I don`t want them to get hurt. I don`t want that. I can`t bear the thought of one of them dying. Just another notch for Knives and another way that he knows he can hurt me.
I hate him, Rem. I hate him. Hate is wrong but I feel it. I want to kill him. I want him dead…but can I really bring myself to kill him? Can I bring myself to kill him?
It won`t be so hard. I killed before.
Why am I thinking this, Rem? I don`t want to think this. I can`t get it out of my head. I don`t want to see blood. I hate blood.
I can`t talk anymore, Rem. I think that one of the girls is coming. Farewell, Rem. I`m sorry that I turned out like him. I`m sorry that I killed that man. I have to do this. I will find Knives and I will stop him for good.
I am a killer.
***Yes. I realize that this is really short. I don`t really know what to say about this. I just thought of it in a few minutes. Anyways…here it is and I hope that somebody found it intriguing if not a bit frightening and a little morbid but that part in the anime was sad.