Okay, here's the next part as promised. I'm finally done with papers and exams. Yay!
Unfortunately, I won't be anywhere near a computer for the next couple of days so I probably won't get the next chapter out until at least Sunday.
Thank you so much to everyone who has reviewed and commented so far! I really appreciate it! It makes writing even more fun ^_^
samuraiheart
See first chapter for disclaimer, warnings & such
Chapter Seven: Uncertainties
Yukito couldn't sleep. It wasn't that he wasn't tired. He just couldn't sleep. He lay in the darkness of his room staring up at the blank ceiling in the hopes that he would eventually drift off, but so far it wasn't working.
Reluctantly, Yukito sat up in bed and slipped his glasses back onto his face. If he was going to be awake, he might as well do something productive. He sat on the edge of his bed and tried to figure out what was causing his insomnia.
One fuzzy image kept making its way back to the surface of his thoughts, but he didn't want to see it so he pushed it away as quickly as he could. In truth, he knew that there was only one reason that he hadn't been able to fall asleep. Every time he closed his eyes he saw Touya's dark blue eyes glistening with disappointment. He finally gave up and rested his head in his hands as the thoughts continued.
He hadn't actually seen Touya upset, but he was reasonably sure that he had been and there was no mistaking the sadness that had settled over his gaze since that afternoon. Yukito had hurt him and he knew it. He had hurt the one person he had always sworn to protect no matter what. He had lied to him too and that was even worse.
Yukito shook his head and leaned back against his pillow determined to control the feelings welling up inside of him. He couldn't love Touya. It didn't make any sense. How could a temporary form of anything have the feelings and emotions necessary for love? But if he wasn't capable of love like that then why did it hurt so much to turn it away?
Yukito couldn't come up with a good answer to that question. Vague doubts drifted through his mind, but none of them led to the answer he was seeking. None of it was making any sense and he was finding it difficult to clamp down the emotions swirling within his thoughts.
He clasped the edges of his covers between his fingers and closed his eyes in an attempt to calm himself. He didn't need this now. He was having a hard enough time trying to deal with the fact that he was actually two people. Why did Touya have to go and confess something so life-changing and complicated?
Yukito knew the answer to that. It was the same reason Sakura had announced her love for him only a few weeks earlier and it was the same reason he had turned her down as gently as he possibly could. It was because he cared about her.
Touya cared about him. Yukito shook his head at the thought. He didn't know what to think about that. It was the one major flaw in his plan. If Touya really loved him, then did it really matter what he was?
Yukito started at the sound of the phone ringing. It was after midnight and he couldn't imagine who could possibly be calling at this hour, but he rushed to the phone and answered it as quickly as he could.
"Hello?"
"Yukito-san?" Yukito smiled at the small voice on the other line, but his eyebrows furrowed in worry about why Sakura would be calling him so late. He hoped everything was alright. His heart beat quickly in his chest. What if something had happened to Touya?
"Sakura-chan! Is there something wrong?"
"No. It's just that… Ummm…"
"What is it, Sakura-chan?" Yukito asked hesitantly.
"IneedtotalktoYue." Sakura answered breathlessly trying to get the words out as quickly as possible.
Yukito barely had time to process the words before his eyes closed and he felt darkness sweep over him as his consciousness faded and Yue's form took over. Feathery white wings unfurled to reveal the long-haired guardian looking slightly annoyed at having been woken up.
"I'll be right there." Yue said calmly into the receiver and placed the phone back on its cradle.
He spread his wings wide once he got outside and peered out at the lights of the city sparkling in the evening as he gained height in the air. The light breeze of an early spring night swept across him as he flew blowing his silvery hair behind him in a long trail. Moonlight danced across his features making his grayish blue eyes glimmer in the darkness.
It was only a short way to Sakura's and after a few minutes he caught sight of her house and started to descend towards it. Sakura stood at the open window waiting for him.
Yue folded his wings inward as he stepped into Sakura's room making them disappear completely once he was all the way inside.
Sakura was in her pajamas and she looked like she had been sleeping not too long ago. The covers of her bed were pulled back slightly as if she had pulled them away in a hurry once she had gotten the sudden idea to call him. He found himself smiling slightly at the thought. He liked to think that he was needed.
She sat down on the edge of her bed and gestured for him to do the same. "Where's Keroberus?" Yue asked solemnly glancing around the room for some sign of the other guardian.
Sakura clasped her hands in her lap and bent her head slightly. She was trying her best not to be flustered around Yue, but there was just something about him she found intimidating. "Ummm… I sent him to Tomoyo's house a little while ago. He won't be back until the morning. I wanted to talk to you alone."
"Oh?" Yue turned towards his mistress in confusion. He couldn't think of any reason she would need his advice.
"Yeah, it's about Yukito."
"Oh." Yue nodded and frowned.
"Do you know what happened with oniichan?"
"Of course." Yue answered matter of factly crossing his arms in front of him and trying his best to appear as nonchalant as possible.
"Right, of course." Sakura fidgeted nervously. "Why did Yukito lie?"
Yue's eyes widened at the statement. He hadn't expected his mistress to be so straightforward. He paused for a moment thinking of the best way to phrase his next statement. It was a delicate issue and one he had to be very careful about. "My other form seems to think he is incapable of love." Yue shook his head and pursed his lips in disapproval.
Sakura turned to him in disbelief. "But, that's not true! I know it isn't true!"
Yue nodded slowly and let out a slow deep breath. "I know, but he just needs some time to realize it."
Sakura nodded in response. "So there's nothing we can do?"
"I don't think so. We have to let Yukito figure this out on his own."
"I guess so."
"Don't worry. If your brother really loves him as much as he seems to, Yukito will figure it out soon enough."
"I hope so. I know oniichan loves him very much."
A long moment of silence went by as Sakura bit her lip and stared at her hands and Yue mulled over the situation trying to figure out why he still felt so uneasy.
"Sakura-chan?" Yue asked hesitantly.
"Yes?" Sakura looked up at the guardian with wide emerald eyes surprised to see the uncertainty in his gaze.
"Do you think your brother could love two people?"
Sakura's eyes widened at the statement, but her expression quickly melted into a sincere smile. "I'm sure he could Yue. I'm sure."
TBC
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Unfortunately, I won't be anywhere near a computer for the next couple of days so I probably won't get the next chapter out until at least Sunday.
Thank you so much to everyone who has reviewed and commented so far! I really appreciate it! It makes writing even more fun ^_^
samuraiheart
See first chapter for disclaimer, warnings & such
Chapter Seven: Uncertainties
Yukito couldn't sleep. It wasn't that he wasn't tired. He just couldn't sleep. He lay in the darkness of his room staring up at the blank ceiling in the hopes that he would eventually drift off, but so far it wasn't working.
Reluctantly, Yukito sat up in bed and slipped his glasses back onto his face. If he was going to be awake, he might as well do something productive. He sat on the edge of his bed and tried to figure out what was causing his insomnia.
One fuzzy image kept making its way back to the surface of his thoughts, but he didn't want to see it so he pushed it away as quickly as he could. In truth, he knew that there was only one reason that he hadn't been able to fall asleep. Every time he closed his eyes he saw Touya's dark blue eyes glistening with disappointment. He finally gave up and rested his head in his hands as the thoughts continued.
He hadn't actually seen Touya upset, but he was reasonably sure that he had been and there was no mistaking the sadness that had settled over his gaze since that afternoon. Yukito had hurt him and he knew it. He had hurt the one person he had always sworn to protect no matter what. He had lied to him too and that was even worse.
Yukito shook his head and leaned back against his pillow determined to control the feelings welling up inside of him. He couldn't love Touya. It didn't make any sense. How could a temporary form of anything have the feelings and emotions necessary for love? But if he wasn't capable of love like that then why did it hurt so much to turn it away?
Yukito couldn't come up with a good answer to that question. Vague doubts drifted through his mind, but none of them led to the answer he was seeking. None of it was making any sense and he was finding it difficult to clamp down the emotions swirling within his thoughts.
He clasped the edges of his covers between his fingers and closed his eyes in an attempt to calm himself. He didn't need this now. He was having a hard enough time trying to deal with the fact that he was actually two people. Why did Touya have to go and confess something so life-changing and complicated?
Yukito knew the answer to that. It was the same reason Sakura had announced her love for him only a few weeks earlier and it was the same reason he had turned her down as gently as he possibly could. It was because he cared about her.
Touya cared about him. Yukito shook his head at the thought. He didn't know what to think about that. It was the one major flaw in his plan. If Touya really loved him, then did it really matter what he was?
Yukito started at the sound of the phone ringing. It was after midnight and he couldn't imagine who could possibly be calling at this hour, but he rushed to the phone and answered it as quickly as he could.
"Hello?"
"Yukito-san?" Yukito smiled at the small voice on the other line, but his eyebrows furrowed in worry about why Sakura would be calling him so late. He hoped everything was alright. His heart beat quickly in his chest. What if something had happened to Touya?
"Sakura-chan! Is there something wrong?"
"No. It's just that… Ummm…"
"What is it, Sakura-chan?" Yukito asked hesitantly.
"IneedtotalktoYue." Sakura answered breathlessly trying to get the words out as quickly as possible.
Yukito barely had time to process the words before his eyes closed and he felt darkness sweep over him as his consciousness faded and Yue's form took over. Feathery white wings unfurled to reveal the long-haired guardian looking slightly annoyed at having been woken up.
"I'll be right there." Yue said calmly into the receiver and placed the phone back on its cradle.
He spread his wings wide once he got outside and peered out at the lights of the city sparkling in the evening as he gained height in the air. The light breeze of an early spring night swept across him as he flew blowing his silvery hair behind him in a long trail. Moonlight danced across his features making his grayish blue eyes glimmer in the darkness.
It was only a short way to Sakura's and after a few minutes he caught sight of her house and started to descend towards it. Sakura stood at the open window waiting for him.
Yue folded his wings inward as he stepped into Sakura's room making them disappear completely once he was all the way inside.
Sakura was in her pajamas and she looked like she had been sleeping not too long ago. The covers of her bed were pulled back slightly as if she had pulled them away in a hurry once she had gotten the sudden idea to call him. He found himself smiling slightly at the thought. He liked to think that he was needed.
She sat down on the edge of her bed and gestured for him to do the same. "Where's Keroberus?" Yue asked solemnly glancing around the room for some sign of the other guardian.
Sakura clasped her hands in her lap and bent her head slightly. She was trying her best not to be flustered around Yue, but there was just something about him she found intimidating. "Ummm… I sent him to Tomoyo's house a little while ago. He won't be back until the morning. I wanted to talk to you alone."
"Oh?" Yue turned towards his mistress in confusion. He couldn't think of any reason she would need his advice.
"Yeah, it's about Yukito."
"Oh." Yue nodded and frowned.
"Do you know what happened with oniichan?"
"Of course." Yue answered matter of factly crossing his arms in front of him and trying his best to appear as nonchalant as possible.
"Right, of course." Sakura fidgeted nervously. "Why did Yukito lie?"
Yue's eyes widened at the statement. He hadn't expected his mistress to be so straightforward. He paused for a moment thinking of the best way to phrase his next statement. It was a delicate issue and one he had to be very careful about. "My other form seems to think he is incapable of love." Yue shook his head and pursed his lips in disapproval.
Sakura turned to him in disbelief. "But, that's not true! I know it isn't true!"
Yue nodded slowly and let out a slow deep breath. "I know, but he just needs some time to realize it."
Sakura nodded in response. "So there's nothing we can do?"
"I don't think so. We have to let Yukito figure this out on his own."
"I guess so."
"Don't worry. If your brother really loves him as much as he seems to, Yukito will figure it out soon enough."
"I hope so. I know oniichan loves him very much."
A long moment of silence went by as Sakura bit her lip and stared at her hands and Yue mulled over the situation trying to figure out why he still felt so uneasy.
"Sakura-chan?" Yue asked hesitantly.
"Yes?" Sakura looked up at the guardian with wide emerald eyes surprised to see the uncertainty in his gaze.
"Do you think your brother could love two people?"
Sakura's eyes widened at the statement, but her expression quickly melted into a sincere smile. "I'm sure he could Yue. I'm sure."
TBC
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