I'm so scared. Not for myself but for Julie. I've never heard such sad and
disturbing words be spoken by anybody in my entire life. Well, maybe for
myself.
I hate thinking about my childhood because it brings up all of these bad memories of how my father used to hit my mother. He would come home after a hard day of work and sternly ask for his 2 beers. But 2 beers turned into 4 beers which eventually turned to 8 beers. By that time, my father would be ranting and raving. Talking like a stupid fool and his anger was…unimaginable.
I hate to think of my father when he is angry. He has this look in his eyes which seems like, if you get in his way, he will knock you all the way to kingdom come.
He first began hitting my mother after I first began playing hockey. It only used to happen once in a while but soon his drinking became heavier and heavier and his anger grew even more deeply than it ever had before.
I wish that I had superpowers than to protect my mother from him because it seemed like no one else would. He was just so strong. Now I think about those bad times, and I just think I was a wuss. A complete wuss.
But now, I have the chance to protect someone I truly care about and I am going to make sure that I don't screw up that chance.
Julie had her head down in her hands and she was crying uncontrollably. I looked up at her and my heart broke. Not just because I felt bad for her, but because I, even if it was just a little bit, understood what she had gone through.
And it made me mad. It made me really mad.
"I'm sorry. I know I probably sound like some stupid teenage girl but…" Julie began.
"No, no, no. Don't say that. You are not some stupid teenage girl. You are an unbelievably gorgeous teenage girl. You are the most beautiful person that I have ever met and anyone that tries to make you feel like you're less of that is just an ass." I responded.
I can't believe those words actually came out of my mouth. Now that they have come out, it somehow feels like some heavy cloud has been lifted off of my shoulders and I'm so happy.
Julie looked up at me and smiled. It was the first time that I had seen her smile in a long time.
"Can I tell you something?" Julie asked.
"Sure." I answered.
"If I told you that I have had feelings for you for as long as I could remember, how would you feel?"
"Well, I'm not quite sure. I mean, the only person that has said anything like that to me has been Connie."
"I know, I know that you love Connie and are dating her but I can't ignore my feelings any longer. You are the nicest, sweetest, most handsome guy I have ever met and I like you so much. I like you more than I could have ever like Chris but I could never admit it to myself. But then, when you came and saved me from Chris's attack and I held you, it felt so right. What I told you, I've never told anybody but I knew you were the right person to tell it to because I like you so much and I can trust you."
I was truly speechless.
Julie had the exact same feelings for me that I have been feeling for her over these few days.
I didn't know what to say or what to think.
"Guy?" She asked.
"I'm sorry. I was just thinking about what you just told me.
"Did I make you nervous or something because if I did I will…?"
"No, no, it's not that. It's just that it's a lot to take in right now. But you didn't make me nervous. Actually, you kinda put me at ease over what you told me. When I first saw you enter the banquet, my heart nearly jumped out of my chest with all of the crazy emotions I was feeling for you. I didn't know what to do because I was with Connie. And then, when Chris came, I knew something was wrong and I had to protect you because I wanted to. And now, that you've told me all of these things about Chris it just reminded me of my mother and how I couldn't protect her but by how I can protect you."
Julie released a small sigh and smiled up at me.
I moved closer to her body.
I gently placed my hand on her cheek and lifted her face up. Julie still had a few tears in her eyes but she did look happier. I pulled her in for a sweet kiss and she clearly obliged as I could feel the pressure from her lips.
Julie pulled away slightly after what seemed like hours kissing.
"I am so attracted to you Julie. When I'm around you, I feel like I should be with you. I feel like I'm connected to you and that when I'm with you, everything will be all right. I don't know what I'm going to do about me and Connie, but all I do know is that I wanna keep on kissing you because it feels so right."
I placed my lips harder and more passionately on Julie's lips and we began to embrace in each other.
I hate thinking about my childhood because it brings up all of these bad memories of how my father used to hit my mother. He would come home after a hard day of work and sternly ask for his 2 beers. But 2 beers turned into 4 beers which eventually turned to 8 beers. By that time, my father would be ranting and raving. Talking like a stupid fool and his anger was…unimaginable.
I hate to think of my father when he is angry. He has this look in his eyes which seems like, if you get in his way, he will knock you all the way to kingdom come.
He first began hitting my mother after I first began playing hockey. It only used to happen once in a while but soon his drinking became heavier and heavier and his anger grew even more deeply than it ever had before.
I wish that I had superpowers than to protect my mother from him because it seemed like no one else would. He was just so strong. Now I think about those bad times, and I just think I was a wuss. A complete wuss.
But now, I have the chance to protect someone I truly care about and I am going to make sure that I don't screw up that chance.
Julie had her head down in her hands and she was crying uncontrollably. I looked up at her and my heart broke. Not just because I felt bad for her, but because I, even if it was just a little bit, understood what she had gone through.
And it made me mad. It made me really mad.
"I'm sorry. I know I probably sound like some stupid teenage girl but…" Julie began.
"No, no, no. Don't say that. You are not some stupid teenage girl. You are an unbelievably gorgeous teenage girl. You are the most beautiful person that I have ever met and anyone that tries to make you feel like you're less of that is just an ass." I responded.
I can't believe those words actually came out of my mouth. Now that they have come out, it somehow feels like some heavy cloud has been lifted off of my shoulders and I'm so happy.
Julie looked up at me and smiled. It was the first time that I had seen her smile in a long time.
"Can I tell you something?" Julie asked.
"Sure." I answered.
"If I told you that I have had feelings for you for as long as I could remember, how would you feel?"
"Well, I'm not quite sure. I mean, the only person that has said anything like that to me has been Connie."
"I know, I know that you love Connie and are dating her but I can't ignore my feelings any longer. You are the nicest, sweetest, most handsome guy I have ever met and I like you so much. I like you more than I could have ever like Chris but I could never admit it to myself. But then, when you came and saved me from Chris's attack and I held you, it felt so right. What I told you, I've never told anybody but I knew you were the right person to tell it to because I like you so much and I can trust you."
I was truly speechless.
Julie had the exact same feelings for me that I have been feeling for her over these few days.
I didn't know what to say or what to think.
"Guy?" She asked.
"I'm sorry. I was just thinking about what you just told me.
"Did I make you nervous or something because if I did I will…?"
"No, no, it's not that. It's just that it's a lot to take in right now. But you didn't make me nervous. Actually, you kinda put me at ease over what you told me. When I first saw you enter the banquet, my heart nearly jumped out of my chest with all of the crazy emotions I was feeling for you. I didn't know what to do because I was with Connie. And then, when Chris came, I knew something was wrong and I had to protect you because I wanted to. And now, that you've told me all of these things about Chris it just reminded me of my mother and how I couldn't protect her but by how I can protect you."
Julie released a small sigh and smiled up at me.
I moved closer to her body.
I gently placed my hand on her cheek and lifted her face up. Julie still had a few tears in her eyes but she did look happier. I pulled her in for a sweet kiss and she clearly obliged as I could feel the pressure from her lips.
Julie pulled away slightly after what seemed like hours kissing.
"I am so attracted to you Julie. When I'm around you, I feel like I should be with you. I feel like I'm connected to you and that when I'm with you, everything will be all right. I don't know what I'm going to do about me and Connie, but all I do know is that I wanna keep on kissing you because it feels so right."
I placed my lips harder and more passionately on Julie's lips and we began to embrace in each other.