04.20.02
Authoress' Note: Ahem -cough- this is just a tester fic-thinger just to see how fanfiction.net works since I'm new to posting fics here. Try to keep flames down, if that is your intent, cuz like I said before, this is just a tester mmkayz? I have decided to put third person POVs into this story cuz it would be more interesting that way. Oh yea, this is the same person as Pyro Nynja/Pyja/Pyro Ninja/whatever other typos I might've made in my reviews ^_^;;;
Dilandau will probably be a bit OOC in here because time has passed and Dilandau has gotten used to being in Celena's head.
Two more things, Dilly/Celena are/is 16 and I modified the meaning of the song a bit(the words are still the same though).
Disclaimer: -__-;; I don't own Escaflowne, Celena, Dilly(::sob::), I Am ~Lara Fabien or anything else which may be mentioned. But I DO own this fic =P
Now, ON WIT THA TESTA!! ::jabs finger into the sky like Hanagata from SMJ::
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= and = is Dilandau
- and - is Celena
~Celena's POV~
Celena sighed. Troubling thoughts swirled around her as she quickly ran through the maze of her mind, searching for a sign, a clue, anything!
:::flashback:::
"Dammit Dilandau!" The frustrated Lady Schezar muttered to herself as she looked over at her elder brother, Allen and sighed. Looks like Dilly-boy had taken over the body that they shared during the night and had struck again.
The room Celena was in, her bedroom, quite literally looked as if a tornado full of laser-sharpened blades had recently struck.
"Celena, have you been practising with the kunai[1] again?" Allen inquired, peering at her as if trying to pry into her thoughts.
"ehh..." The question caught Celena off guard. Then she remembered that that was her excuse last time the same thing happened. "Oh... yea." She hung her head, trying to be the convincing actress that Dilandau was nagging her to be from the back of their shared mind even though she knew she a had a pretty good idea of what had really taken place. She paused then looked up. "I'm sorry Brother, please don't be mad. I just really needed to let off some steam. You know how I get when those stuffy nobles visit." That seemed to satisfy Allen as Celena let out a little sigh of relief. "Well, I'll leave you alone to clean up your little mess now Celena, and remember, we have guests today." He quickly turned his back and strode out the door. Celena sighed again, thinking of how nosy her brother could be.
=You really need practise.= A sneering voice broke her thoughts.
-shut up Dilandau, this is all your fault. YOU were the one who took over my body when I was sleeping!!-
A low chuckle filled her head =What else am I supposed to do? Try and takeover when you're awake and let you pester me?=
-Well, yea. It would be the best thing to do, that way I am more aware of what you're doing to MY body!! And what did you last night anyway? This is probably the worst mess yet. Even the ceiling seems to be slashed and you know how far above our heads it is.-
=Oh, I just had a couple of those bastard soldiers on my tail after I snatched their wine. I led them to your room and... waitaminute... YOUR body?= Dilandau mentally slapped her =Remember, we're in this together Celena.=
-Fiiiiine. And DON'T slap me!! Haven't you learned any manners? Ladies are not to be slapped-
Dilandau snorted and slapped her forcefully once more =No, I haven't. So sue me.=
-DILANDAU ALBATOU!!!- That slap was the last straw. Through the past year, Celena had endured most of Dilandau's mental abuse, striving for the day she would complete her task of taming the wild beast within, the one and only, Dilandau. But THIS. This was the last straw. Lady Celena Schezar was usually a cool and composed woman, but now she couldn't take it any longer. -Dilandau.- The chilling, unfeeling, iciness of that one word pretty much scared the hell out of Dilandau, but he didn't care. No one speaks to Dilandau that way!! =Why you little- =
-Dilandau.- Celena interupted. She knew she had Dilandau's attention because she could feel it. -I don't need you anymore. You are not wanted in this mind nor this body. Get. Out. NOW!!-
:::end flashback::
And that was the last conversation(or closest thing to a converstion) she had had with Dilandau. After that, Dilandau exploded into a stream of cursing and insulting, then it was silent. For a couple days, Celena Schezar felt peace, but now, she was feeling loneliness all over again. She had called to Dilandau over and over again, but there was no response. She had tried everything to get a response. Calling, insulting, pleading, begging, but NOTHING would work. There was only the lonely echo of emptiness where Dilandau once was.
Now, Celena had ventured into the twisting depths of the mind that Dilandau and she shared, calling for Dilandau as if her life depended on it. -Dilandau!!- she choked back a sob. What had happened to him?? Why couldn't she feel much of a life force anymore?? WHY did she feel so drained?! -Dilandau!! If you can hear me, please answer!!- Alas, no answer came.
-Dilandau....-
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~Dilly's POV~
-Dilandau....-
He had heard it all right. But it didn't mean anything to him anymore.
=cheap harlot, comes crawling back to me just for her own selfish needs.= He spat before he dropped his head into his knees as he sat on the hard cold floor, leaning against a wall that he hadn't noticed before.
-Dilandau!!! Answer me dammit!!-
No, he wouldn't give in to her needs anymore.
Feels like you've built a wall around me
You've tried your best to ground me
Let me explain, that I don't play by any other rules
I won't be nobody's fool, I won't lose this game
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
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~Celena's POV~
She broke down in uncontrollable sobs as her hope slowly started to fade away.
-Dilandau... I....-
waitaminute... I? _I_??? I what??
Think twice before you try to read me
Before you try to lead me into your trap
You've got no right to play with my emotions
Cuz you should know that I'm much deeper that that
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
Celena's defensive emotions kicked in. -No way!! You stupid girl!!- she scolded herself. -You hate him. You only need him because you're afraid to be alone.-
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
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~Dilandau's POV~
The silent Albino clutched the glinting dagger in his hands. He knew there was no running from the inevitable now. He knew Celena only put up with him so she could change him. Change him for the "better". Hah. If she thought that "better" meant that he would be like the elder Schezar, Allen, she was sadly mistaken. Dilandau would rather face those sorcerers again than to become Allen-like. He couldn't believe Celena would do something like that to him!!
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
His counterpart didn't know that he knew of her plans for him, but sometimes, that girl could be so naive. When she wasn't paying attention, she kept her thoughts out in the open where he could feel them. He, on the other hand had been trained well as a soldier and knew how to keep his thoughts and emotions to himself. He smiled wistfully as he remembered how he could get Celena so pissed off when she couldn't get into his thoughts the way he could get into hers. Dilandau's thoughts paused as he leaned back.
=No, I must concentrate on my mission(A/n: Too much gundam wing for me!! sorry!!). She doesn't care for me anyway.=
Slowly, he unbuttoned his jacket, and took off his shirt(a/n ::droooool:::). Finally, the shining dagger he grasped was raised above his chest and poised, ready to strike. What he didn't realize was the surrounding walls of the maze multiplying, and fusing to form a box surrounding him, from all sides.
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~Celena's POV~
The fleet-footed pale-haired woman gasped as the walls of the maze started to surround her and began to close in on her.
-wtf...-
Then it dawned on her.
So... this is what my mind is like. No, Dilandau's and mine. The maze was the jumbled up thoughts of Dilandau and her, and the more confused they were, the more walls there were. But what about the darkness? Celena took a deep breath.
-okay Celena. breath. think about it. What's going on?- she blinked to clear her mind. As she did, the mazes became a little bit less dense. -hmm.. interesting... I guess I was right about that one... then the darkness of their mind must mean that there is a lot of negative energy going around.. meaning Dilandau must still be here... but then... darkness...its way too dark, even for Dilandau....- She gasped as realization hit her.
-DILANDAU YOU STUPID OAF!!!!!!- she yelled with all the volume she could muster, hoping that it was not too late for the Albino boy.
"Why do you care anyway?" a voice questioned. "Its not like he means anything to you. All these years, he's been a nusence and nothing more. You hate him. You know you do. You know....."
-NO!!! I DON'T HATE HIM!! I..- Celena blinked. -I-I-I.... I...-
A silent "no...." broke the total stillness of maze within the shared mind. Surely she was mistaken!! She couldn't... there was no way... NO!!
And that, was when she gave in to her emotions.
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~Dilandau's POV~
-DILANDAU YOU STUPID OAF!!!!- the voice echoed through stillness of his mind trap.
=Pheh. So, she thinks I'm stupid. Well thats okay because "stupid Dilandau" won't be around anymore. Not around to let her criticize him. Not around to let her change him. Not around for anything!!=
Dilandau glared at the dagger gripped right above his exposed chest.
He was not going to give in to her calls. Not now, not ever. He was ready to plunge the gleaming blade into his chest.
-....Dilandau.... I love you....-
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[1]Kunai- these little dagger-type thingers that ninjas use as throwing weapons. Sort of like shuriken(throwing stars), cept their knives. Makimachi Misao from Rurouni Kenshin uses them.
A/N: soooooooo how was my first Esca fic hmmm? Not too shabby? Sucked? Great? Ass wipe material? hmmmm? I originally thought this would just be a one-poster, but I have to figure out how to add chapters too, so I guess its going to be a two-bit thing ^_^ Also, if there were little spelling mistakes or grammer errors, keep in mind that I'm writing this at 11:PM. ooh, btw, did I mention that I HATE cliffhangers, but LOVE putting them in my ficcies? Can you say HYPOCRITE? LoL, anyway, PLEASE REVIEW!!! or flame(constructively of course), or complain, moan, groan, cheer, laugh, yell, rant, anything! Just tell me what you think ^^;;
Authoress' Note: Ahem -cough- this is just a tester fic-thinger just to see how fanfiction.net works since I'm new to posting fics here. Try to keep flames down, if that is your intent, cuz like I said before, this is just a tester mmkayz? I have decided to put third person POVs into this story cuz it would be more interesting that way. Oh yea, this is the same person as Pyro Nynja/Pyja/Pyro Ninja/whatever other typos I might've made in my reviews ^_^;;;
Dilandau will probably be a bit OOC in here because time has passed and Dilandau has gotten used to being in Celena's head.
Two more things, Dilly/Celena are/is 16 and I modified the meaning of the song a bit(the words are still the same though).
Disclaimer: -__-;; I don't own Escaflowne, Celena, Dilly(::sob::), I Am ~Lara Fabien or anything else which may be mentioned. But I DO own this fic =P
Now, ON WIT THA TESTA!! ::jabs finger into the sky like Hanagata from SMJ::
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
= and = is Dilandau
- and - is Celena
~Celena's POV~
Celena sighed. Troubling thoughts swirled around her as she quickly ran through the maze of her mind, searching for a sign, a clue, anything!
:::flashback:::
"Dammit Dilandau!" The frustrated Lady Schezar muttered to herself as she looked over at her elder brother, Allen and sighed. Looks like Dilly-boy had taken over the body that they shared during the night and had struck again.
The room Celena was in, her bedroom, quite literally looked as if a tornado full of laser-sharpened blades had recently struck.
"Celena, have you been practising with the kunai[1] again?" Allen inquired, peering at her as if trying to pry into her thoughts.
"ehh..." The question caught Celena off guard. Then she remembered that that was her excuse last time the same thing happened. "Oh... yea." She hung her head, trying to be the convincing actress that Dilandau was nagging her to be from the back of their shared mind even though she knew she a had a pretty good idea of what had really taken place. She paused then looked up. "I'm sorry Brother, please don't be mad. I just really needed to let off some steam. You know how I get when those stuffy nobles visit." That seemed to satisfy Allen as Celena let out a little sigh of relief. "Well, I'll leave you alone to clean up your little mess now Celena, and remember, we have guests today." He quickly turned his back and strode out the door. Celena sighed again, thinking of how nosy her brother could be.
=You really need practise.= A sneering voice broke her thoughts.
-shut up Dilandau, this is all your fault. YOU were the one who took over my body when I was sleeping!!-
A low chuckle filled her head =What else am I supposed to do? Try and takeover when you're awake and let you pester me?=
-Well, yea. It would be the best thing to do, that way I am more aware of what you're doing to MY body!! And what did you last night anyway? This is probably the worst mess yet. Even the ceiling seems to be slashed and you know how far above our heads it is.-
=Oh, I just had a couple of those bastard soldiers on my tail after I snatched their wine. I led them to your room and... waitaminute... YOUR body?= Dilandau mentally slapped her =Remember, we're in this together Celena.=
-Fiiiiine. And DON'T slap me!! Haven't you learned any manners? Ladies are not to be slapped-
Dilandau snorted and slapped her forcefully once more =No, I haven't. So sue me.=
-DILANDAU ALBATOU!!!- That slap was the last straw. Through the past year, Celena had endured most of Dilandau's mental abuse, striving for the day she would complete her task of taming the wild beast within, the one and only, Dilandau. But THIS. This was the last straw. Lady Celena Schezar was usually a cool and composed woman, but now she couldn't take it any longer. -Dilandau.- The chilling, unfeeling, iciness of that one word pretty much scared the hell out of Dilandau, but he didn't care. No one speaks to Dilandau that way!! =Why you little- =
-Dilandau.- Celena interupted. She knew she had Dilandau's attention because she could feel it. -I don't need you anymore. You are not wanted in this mind nor this body. Get. Out. NOW!!-
:::end flashback::
And that was the last conversation(or closest thing to a converstion) she had had with Dilandau. After that, Dilandau exploded into a stream of cursing and insulting, then it was silent. For a couple days, Celena Schezar felt peace, but now, she was feeling loneliness all over again. She had called to Dilandau over and over again, but there was no response. She had tried everything to get a response. Calling, insulting, pleading, begging, but NOTHING would work. There was only the lonely echo of emptiness where Dilandau once was.
Now, Celena had ventured into the twisting depths of the mind that Dilandau and she shared, calling for Dilandau as if her life depended on it. -Dilandau!!- she choked back a sob. What had happened to him?? Why couldn't she feel much of a life force anymore?? WHY did she feel so drained?! -Dilandau!! If you can hear me, please answer!!- Alas, no answer came.
-Dilandau....-
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~Dilly's POV~
-Dilandau....-
He had heard it all right. But it didn't mean anything to him anymore.
=cheap harlot, comes crawling back to me just for her own selfish needs.= He spat before he dropped his head into his knees as he sat on the hard cold floor, leaning against a wall that he hadn't noticed before.
-Dilandau!!! Answer me dammit!!-
No, he wouldn't give in to her needs anymore.
Feels like you've built a wall around me
You've tried your best to ground me
Let me explain, that I don't play by any other rules
I won't be nobody's fool, I won't lose this game
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
___________________________________________________
~Celena's POV~
She broke down in uncontrollable sobs as her hope slowly started to fade away.
-Dilandau... I....-
waitaminute... I? _I_??? I what??
Think twice before you try to read me
Before you try to lead me into your trap
You've got no right to play with my emotions
Cuz you should know that I'm much deeper that that
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
Celena's defensive emotions kicked in. -No way!! You stupid girl!!- she scolded herself. -You hate him. You only need him because you're afraid to be alone.-
There is no way
I can love you with half of my heart
It would tear me apart
_________________________________________________
~Dilandau's POV~
The silent Albino clutched the glinting dagger in his hands. He knew there was no running from the inevitable now. He knew Celena only put up with him so she could change him. Change him for the "better". Hah. If she thought that "better" meant that he would be like the elder Schezar, Allen, she was sadly mistaken. Dilandau would rather face those sorcerers again than to become Allen-like. He couldn't believe Celena would do something like that to him!!
I am who I am
What else could I be
And I stand where I stand
I choose to be me
When you look in my eyes
You get what you see
Understand if you can
That I am who I am, who I am
His counterpart didn't know that he knew of her plans for him, but sometimes, that girl could be so naive. When she wasn't paying attention, she kept her thoughts out in the open where he could feel them. He, on the other hand had been trained well as a soldier and knew how to keep his thoughts and emotions to himself. He smiled wistfully as he remembered how he could get Celena so pissed off when she couldn't get into his thoughts the way he could get into hers. Dilandau's thoughts paused as he leaned back.
=No, I must concentrate on my mission(A/n: Too much gundam wing for me!! sorry!!). She doesn't care for me anyway.=
Slowly, he unbuttoned his jacket, and took off his shirt(a/n ::droooool:::). Finally, the shining dagger he grasped was raised above his chest and poised, ready to strike. What he didn't realize was the surrounding walls of the maze multiplying, and fusing to form a box surrounding him, from all sides.
___________________________________________________
~Celena's POV~
The fleet-footed pale-haired woman gasped as the walls of the maze started to surround her and began to close in on her.
-wtf...-
Then it dawned on her.
So... this is what my mind is like. No, Dilandau's and mine. The maze was the jumbled up thoughts of Dilandau and her, and the more confused they were, the more walls there were. But what about the darkness? Celena took a deep breath.
-okay Celena. breath. think about it. What's going on?- she blinked to clear her mind. As she did, the mazes became a little bit less dense. -hmm.. interesting... I guess I was right about that one... then the darkness of their mind must mean that there is a lot of negative energy going around.. meaning Dilandau must still be here... but then... darkness...its way too dark, even for Dilandau....- She gasped as realization hit her.
-DILANDAU YOU STUPID OAF!!!!!!- she yelled with all the volume she could muster, hoping that it was not too late for the Albino boy.
"Why do you care anyway?" a voice questioned. "Its not like he means anything to you. All these years, he's been a nusence and nothing more. You hate him. You know you do. You know....."
-NO!!! I DON'T HATE HIM!! I..- Celena blinked. -I-I-I.... I...-
A silent "no...." broke the total stillness of maze within the shared mind. Surely she was mistaken!! She couldn't... there was no way... NO!!
And that, was when she gave in to her emotions.
_____________________________________________
~Dilandau's POV~
-DILANDAU YOU STUPID OAF!!!!- the voice echoed through stillness of his mind trap.
=Pheh. So, she thinks I'm stupid. Well thats okay because "stupid Dilandau" won't be around anymore. Not around to let her criticize him. Not around to let her change him. Not around for anything!!=
Dilandau glared at the dagger gripped right above his exposed chest.
He was not going to give in to her calls. Not now, not ever. He was ready to plunge the gleaming blade into his chest.
-....Dilandau.... I love you....-
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[1]Kunai- these little dagger-type thingers that ninjas use as throwing weapons. Sort of like shuriken(throwing stars), cept their knives. Makimachi Misao from Rurouni Kenshin uses them.
A/N: soooooooo how was my first Esca fic hmmm? Not too shabby? Sucked? Great? Ass wipe material? hmmmm? I originally thought this would just be a one-poster, but I have to figure out how to add chapters too, so I guess its going to be a two-bit thing ^_^ Also, if there were little spelling mistakes or grammer errors, keep in mind that I'm writing this at 11:PM. ooh, btw, did I mention that I HATE cliffhangers, but LOVE putting them in my ficcies? Can you say HYPOCRITE? LoL, anyway, PLEASE REVIEW!!! or flame(constructively of course), or complain, moan, groan, cheer, laugh, yell, rant, anything! Just tell me what you think ^^;;