A/N:song is 'destroyed by you' by MxPx
Part 5
---Can someone tell me why I'm feeling this way?
Can someone tell me why this world is so grey?
It's never just black and white
So much went on tonight
was I wrong or was I right?---
Piper was realised from the hospital a few hours previous and was now wrapped up
in a blanket on the sofa. Prue was in the kitchen attempting to make some soup for
them both.
'Why is this happening to me? What did I do to deserve this? I never hurt anyone,
not really. I hurt myself though. But that can't count, it doesn't matter about me. I
hurt Prue.. But she broke her promise.' Piper sighed, irritated at her own thoughts.
'Did I have the right to choose whether I live or die? Its so hard to live when so much
is gone but I shouldn't give up Prue and Phoebe haven't. Phoebe doesn't want to
even know us anymore. I miss her so much. I hope she's ok she's still only a baby.
She's stronger than me though. Everyone is. I just don't know any more.'
---You think the whole world revolves around your head
You are ignoring me, you haven't heard a word I've just said
Why can't I just pull myself together?
What's done is done, never say never---
Prue sat across from Piper eating her soup. She looked at Piper, 'She's probably
planning a way to drown herself in that soup.' Prue then mentally kicked herself. Her
little sister was sitting starring into the soup as if hoping it held every answer to
every question. The problem is it didn't. Nothing and no one did.
"Is the soup ok? You know it's about all my skills stretch to."
Prue said hoping to get any kind of reply, a laugh, a smurk, a smile, hell even a dirty
look. Anything to let her know Piper wasn't blocking her out completely. After the not
so surprising silence something in Prue snapped.
"Piper?! What is wrong with you! Talk to me goddamn it! I need to hear you! How
Can I help you when you want even look at me! Huh?! Why are you doing this?!
WHY?!" Prue said breathing heavily and turning red in anger.
Piper immediately bolted upstairs. She was terrified and guilty. Prue had never
shouted at her like that before. Not even when she took the wrap for Phoebe
destroying Prue's leather jacket. She knew things were coming to a head now and
this was it.
Downstairs Prue threw herself onto the couch and pounded into the cousins. She
quickly tried to calm down asking herself one question, "what did I just do?"
---Always look for good in the bad
learn from the mistakes that I have had
I re and re-learn
to let it go
talk is easy
but it's so hard to show---
Piper sat against her bedroom door with her head in her hands. Something
surprised her: she wasn't crying. She kept hearing Prue's words, her tone, the
frustration and hurt in her voice.
'I'm still hurting her. I'm not helping by closing off. Why can't I stop hurting her! I
don't want to hurt anyone...'
Prue came upstairs and looked down the hall; Only one door was shut - Piper's. She
went to the door and knocked softly.
"Piper? Honey, can I come in?" Prue asked through the door.
After waiting a few moments and getting no answer, Prue was starting to get very
worried. 'What if she tries to..' Prue couldn't even finish that sentence in her head.
"Piper?! Piper? Are you ok?! Can you hear me?!" Prue started knocking harder on
the door. "Please Piper, I'm so sorry." Tears began to stream down Prue's face as
she leaned against the door.
Piper sat against the door still hugging her knee's. 'Do I say something? She sounds
scared. She shouldn't be saying sorry I should.' Piper took a deep breath and then
whispered I small "I'm sorry" then the tears did come back.
Prue shut up when she thought she heard something, then she realised it was Piper
crying.
"Piper? I'm so sorry I said what I did. I just... I can't take seeing you going through so
much pain and not talking to me. I miss you so much. I miss seeing your smile, your
voice, getting one of your hugs, most of all just seeing the little glint in your eyes. I
want you to get better but I don't know how to help you when you won't tell me what
you need." Prue listened with her ear at the door, she could hear Piper's uneasy
breathing from crying but she could tell she was listening.
"I love you Piper. You and Phoebe are all I have and I've already screwed things up
with Phoebe, I can't lose you too." Prue voice cracked towards the end as she tried
to keep herself together.
"I was scared, I never wanted to hurt you. I didn't know what else to do. I didn't know
if you cared at first. Then I realised it is all my fault. I hurt you." Piper said with her
voice still pretty hoarse.
Prue felt the guilt weigh her down, "none of this is your fault. I should have noticed
more. I shouldn't have left you alone when I did. If it's anyone's fault, it's mine." Prue
took a shaky breath. "I had issue's that I didn't know how to deal with, and I put that
before you. That was so wrong of me. You know you matter the most to me but I
screwed up. Not you, ok? You need to believe Piper cause I need you back I can't
go much longer without you." Prue tried to convince her.
Piper knew Prue was guilty for putting herself first for once in her life but she didn't
know whether to believe what Prue said. She had been telling herself for a long time
it was all her fault. Why would she think different now?
"Pipe.. Stop thinking about it and just trust what I say: none of this is your fault."
Prue said gently.
Prue heard the lock on Piper's door click, then the door opened to show Piper still
sitting on the floor with tear trails down her cheeks. She crawled in and carefully
took Piper in her arms and let her cry and just feel safe. There bond as strong as
ever.
Part 5
---Can someone tell me why I'm feeling this way?
Can someone tell me why this world is so grey?
It's never just black and white
So much went on tonight
was I wrong or was I right?---
Piper was realised from the hospital a few hours previous and was now wrapped up
in a blanket on the sofa. Prue was in the kitchen attempting to make some soup for
them both.
'Why is this happening to me? What did I do to deserve this? I never hurt anyone,
not really. I hurt myself though. But that can't count, it doesn't matter about me. I
hurt Prue.. But she broke her promise.' Piper sighed, irritated at her own thoughts.
'Did I have the right to choose whether I live or die? Its so hard to live when so much
is gone but I shouldn't give up Prue and Phoebe haven't. Phoebe doesn't want to
even know us anymore. I miss her so much. I hope she's ok she's still only a baby.
She's stronger than me though. Everyone is. I just don't know any more.'
---You think the whole world revolves around your head
You are ignoring me, you haven't heard a word I've just said
Why can't I just pull myself together?
What's done is done, never say never---
Prue sat across from Piper eating her soup. She looked at Piper, 'She's probably
planning a way to drown herself in that soup.' Prue then mentally kicked herself. Her
little sister was sitting starring into the soup as if hoping it held every answer to
every question. The problem is it didn't. Nothing and no one did.
"Is the soup ok? You know it's about all my skills stretch to."
Prue said hoping to get any kind of reply, a laugh, a smurk, a smile, hell even a dirty
look. Anything to let her know Piper wasn't blocking her out completely. After the not
so surprising silence something in Prue snapped.
"Piper?! What is wrong with you! Talk to me goddamn it! I need to hear you! How
Can I help you when you want even look at me! Huh?! Why are you doing this?!
WHY?!" Prue said breathing heavily and turning red in anger.
Piper immediately bolted upstairs. She was terrified and guilty. Prue had never
shouted at her like that before. Not even when she took the wrap for Phoebe
destroying Prue's leather jacket. She knew things were coming to a head now and
this was it.
Downstairs Prue threw herself onto the couch and pounded into the cousins. She
quickly tried to calm down asking herself one question, "what did I just do?"
---Always look for good in the bad
learn from the mistakes that I have had
I re and re-learn
to let it go
talk is easy
but it's so hard to show---
Piper sat against her bedroom door with her head in her hands. Something
surprised her: she wasn't crying. She kept hearing Prue's words, her tone, the
frustration and hurt in her voice.
'I'm still hurting her. I'm not helping by closing off. Why can't I stop hurting her! I
don't want to hurt anyone...'
Prue came upstairs and looked down the hall; Only one door was shut - Piper's. She
went to the door and knocked softly.
"Piper? Honey, can I come in?" Prue asked through the door.
After waiting a few moments and getting no answer, Prue was starting to get very
worried. 'What if she tries to..' Prue couldn't even finish that sentence in her head.
"Piper?! Piper? Are you ok?! Can you hear me?!" Prue started knocking harder on
the door. "Please Piper, I'm so sorry." Tears began to stream down Prue's face as
she leaned against the door.
Piper sat against the door still hugging her knee's. 'Do I say something? She sounds
scared. She shouldn't be saying sorry I should.' Piper took a deep breath and then
whispered I small "I'm sorry" then the tears did come back.
Prue shut up when she thought she heard something, then she realised it was Piper
crying.
"Piper? I'm so sorry I said what I did. I just... I can't take seeing you going through so
much pain and not talking to me. I miss you so much. I miss seeing your smile, your
voice, getting one of your hugs, most of all just seeing the little glint in your eyes. I
want you to get better but I don't know how to help you when you won't tell me what
you need." Prue listened with her ear at the door, she could hear Piper's uneasy
breathing from crying but she could tell she was listening.
"I love you Piper. You and Phoebe are all I have and I've already screwed things up
with Phoebe, I can't lose you too." Prue voice cracked towards the end as she tried
to keep herself together.
"I was scared, I never wanted to hurt you. I didn't know what else to do. I didn't know
if you cared at first. Then I realised it is all my fault. I hurt you." Piper said with her
voice still pretty hoarse.
Prue felt the guilt weigh her down, "none of this is your fault. I should have noticed
more. I shouldn't have left you alone when I did. If it's anyone's fault, it's mine." Prue
took a shaky breath. "I had issue's that I didn't know how to deal with, and I put that
before you. That was so wrong of me. You know you matter the most to me but I
screwed up. Not you, ok? You need to believe Piper cause I need you back I can't
go much longer without you." Prue tried to convince her.
Piper knew Prue was guilty for putting herself first for once in her life but she didn't
know whether to believe what Prue said. She had been telling herself for a long time
it was all her fault. Why would she think different now?
"Pipe.. Stop thinking about it and just trust what I say: none of this is your fault."
Prue said gently.
Prue heard the lock on Piper's door click, then the door opened to show Piper still
sitting on the floor with tear trails down her cheeks. She crawled in and carefully
took Piper in her arms and let her cry and just feel safe. There bond as strong as
ever.