Chapter 48
A couple of weeks past & things were much the same. Gemma threw herself into her work & very rarely saw Jeff, although he saw her! She didnt know he watched her from the sidelines at three houseshows. He saw her from his window every morning as she set off for work. He was devastated! When they did see each other face to face it was difficult, Gemma found herself avoiding him as much as possible rather than go through the agony of trying to think of something to say.
Her relationship with Adam was better than ever! When he was away with the WWF she missed him! Every minute she wasnt working she speant with him! She'd traveled only once with some of the guys but Shane said it would become a more frequant thing which she was happy about as it meant she would get to spend even more time with Adam!
One day she had the job of photographing a pre-show, in-ring training session! It was guys like Big Show, Kurt Angle & a guy called himself Y2J who she'd never heard of before! They were in the ring messing around, going through some moves for the night's show & Gemma was happily taking shots of them. When she focused in on Y2J she almost dropped her camera!
"Chris??!!"
He looked over to her & seemed just as shocked as she was!
"Jesus! Where have you been hiding?!" He came over & leaned on the ropes.
"Oh Ive been around!" She smiled. "Y2J huh!?"
"The very one!" He laughed.
"Good to see you again! You never did call me!"
"Oh god he is such a slut!!" Shouted Big Show! "Get your beach boy ass back over here!"
Gemma laughed. Chris jokingly gave him the finger!
"Well I figured with this boyfriend of yours in the picture it was maybe best to leave it for a while!" He smiled. "He...er....still IN the picture?"
"Oh yeah! Sorry!" She laughed.
"Ah well! Such is life!" He shrugged his shoulders & winked at her.
"Listen fly boy this is no time to be hooking up with chicks! Leave her alone & lets get some work done!" Show laughed.
"Yeah yeah! Im comming big guy!! I'd better get going then! We'll keep in touch yeah?"
"Sure!"
"Oh erm..I dont think your boyfriend is too impressed with me talking to you!" He winked & pointed up to the seats.
Gemma looked up & saw Jeff.
"Oh great!" She muttered & started to head towards him.
"Hey!" She sat down beside Jeff. "Whatcha up to? You ready for the ring yet?"
"Nope." He hung his head. "But Matt is!"
Gemma put her head in one hand & looked at him.
"Cool."
"Yup."
"Maybe I'll get some good pictures!"
"Maybe."
"Is he comming out soon then?"
"Yeah."
"Is Amy with him today?"
"Think so."
There was a long silence. Gemma had had enough.
"THATS IT!" she stood up. "IM FUCKING SICK OF THIS JEFF!!"
"What?"
"You know what!!" She sat back down. "US! This! GOD Jeff this isnt right!!"
He sniggered & shook his head.
"Go on then.....say it!"
"Say what?!"
They were rasing their voices in a virtually empty arena & a few heads were turning. Matt & Amy were headed to the ring. Amy looked up at the voices.
"Shit it's Jeff & Gemma!" She started to head for the stairs but Matt stood in her way.
"Leave it!"
She looked at him, shocked.
"Bu....."
"Leave it I said!" Amy looked at him & knew he wasnt pissing around here! "Im sick & tired of their shit! We have to get to work!"
......
"You know you're just dying to tell me its all my fucking fault!! That I fucked up everything!" Jeff stood up & turned his back to her, ready to walk away!
"Dont you walk away from me Jeff Hardy!" She put her hand on his shoulder & turned him around.
"Yeah well let me tell you something Gemma..." He got right up in her face, "It takes two y'know! It wasnt just me out in the yard that day!" He started to walk away but she grabbed his arm.
"Jeff....dont go!"
He stood still.
"Why not? Whats the fucking point anyway Gemma?!"
"Sit down please! Everyone's looking at us! You were right the day you came here, we need to talk!" He looked at her but still didnt sit down. Gemma knew he was ready to walk out on her. "I miss you Jeff!" She looked into his eyes & his face softened.
"I miss you too Gemma! I need it to be how it was!"
"Me too! Look sit down please!"
They both sat down. She wasnt sure if this was gonna make a blind bit of difference to their situation but if she didnt try she was going to lose her mind! For the first time in several weeks she got hold of his hand. It didnt feel all that bad!
"We can do this Jeff!" She said quietly, "I know we can! We've just both been to fucking stupid to try that's all!"
"Yeah that about sums it up!" He let out a laugh.
"Jeff.......I....I need you man! I need our friendship! Im going outs my mind here dude!"
He looked up at her. "Yeah, I know the feeling!"
Gemma got an uncontrolable urge to hug him. She threw her arms around his neck & they held each other. For Gemma it almost like it had been weeks ago! She was finally somewhere near to holding her best friend in her arms again & it felt so good!
For Jeff it felt good for other reasons. He inhaled her perfume, ran his fingers through her hair & hated himself for it! Hated himself for the feelings he was trying to hide. Hated himself because he wanted her so much & knew it was wrong. He closed his eyes, lost in the scent of her hair & the touch of her face against his.
"Listen, how about I finish up here & we go for a walk yeah?"
Jeff was shaken from his thoughts.
"Oh erm sure! yeah!" He smiled at her.
"Ok, wont be long!" She smiled, leaned over & kissed his cheek. Jeff caught his breath. He watched her descend the steps & go back down to the ring, not taking his eyes off her.
"What was that all about?"
It was Matt! Jeff jumped, he hadnt realised he was there.
"Trying to scrape together whats left of our friendship!"
Matt raised his eyebrows.
"Can you handle it?"
Jeff sighed & rested his chin in his hands.
"It's this way or no way Matt! Id rather have her as a friend than not have her at all!"
"Jeff.........you're in love with her....Im right arent I?"
Jeff just sat back in his seat & said nothing. Matt sighed.
"All this time Jeff! All this fucking time & you wait til she has a boyfriend to decide you love her!? Jesus!" he shook his head.
"I didnt know Matt!" Jeff said pleadingly, "Not for sure anyway! Not until....."
"Until the day you two almost ate each other alive in her back yard?!"
Jeff laughed.
"Yeah......something like that!"
"So, can you handle it?"
"Yeah. No worries!"
The two brothers hugged each other.
"Jeff....Im here bro....if you need me ok?"
"Sure, I know! thanks Matt! Now go make an ass of yourself in that ring so I can laugh at you!"
"Hey for my baby brother I'll make an ass of myself!!"
They both laughed.
A couple of weeks past & things were much the same. Gemma threw herself into her work & very rarely saw Jeff, although he saw her! She didnt know he watched her from the sidelines at three houseshows. He saw her from his window every morning as she set off for work. He was devastated! When they did see each other face to face it was difficult, Gemma found herself avoiding him as much as possible rather than go through the agony of trying to think of something to say.
Her relationship with Adam was better than ever! When he was away with the WWF she missed him! Every minute she wasnt working she speant with him! She'd traveled only once with some of the guys but Shane said it would become a more frequant thing which she was happy about as it meant she would get to spend even more time with Adam!
One day she had the job of photographing a pre-show, in-ring training session! It was guys like Big Show, Kurt Angle & a guy called himself Y2J who she'd never heard of before! They were in the ring messing around, going through some moves for the night's show & Gemma was happily taking shots of them. When she focused in on Y2J she almost dropped her camera!
"Chris??!!"
He looked over to her & seemed just as shocked as she was!
"Jesus! Where have you been hiding?!" He came over & leaned on the ropes.
"Oh Ive been around!" She smiled. "Y2J huh!?"
"The very one!" He laughed.
"Good to see you again! You never did call me!"
"Oh god he is such a slut!!" Shouted Big Show! "Get your beach boy ass back over here!"
Gemma laughed. Chris jokingly gave him the finger!
"Well I figured with this boyfriend of yours in the picture it was maybe best to leave it for a while!" He smiled. "He...er....still IN the picture?"
"Oh yeah! Sorry!" She laughed.
"Ah well! Such is life!" He shrugged his shoulders & winked at her.
"Listen fly boy this is no time to be hooking up with chicks! Leave her alone & lets get some work done!" Show laughed.
"Yeah yeah! Im comming big guy!! I'd better get going then! We'll keep in touch yeah?"
"Sure!"
"Oh erm..I dont think your boyfriend is too impressed with me talking to you!" He winked & pointed up to the seats.
Gemma looked up & saw Jeff.
"Oh great!" She muttered & started to head towards him.
"Hey!" She sat down beside Jeff. "Whatcha up to? You ready for the ring yet?"
"Nope." He hung his head. "But Matt is!"
Gemma put her head in one hand & looked at him.
"Cool."
"Yup."
"Maybe I'll get some good pictures!"
"Maybe."
"Is he comming out soon then?"
"Yeah."
"Is Amy with him today?"
"Think so."
There was a long silence. Gemma had had enough.
"THATS IT!" she stood up. "IM FUCKING SICK OF THIS JEFF!!"
"What?"
"You know what!!" She sat back down. "US! This! GOD Jeff this isnt right!!"
He sniggered & shook his head.
"Go on then.....say it!"
"Say what?!"
They were rasing their voices in a virtually empty arena & a few heads were turning. Matt & Amy were headed to the ring. Amy looked up at the voices.
"Shit it's Jeff & Gemma!" She started to head for the stairs but Matt stood in her way.
"Leave it!"
She looked at him, shocked.
"Bu....."
"Leave it I said!" Amy looked at him & knew he wasnt pissing around here! "Im sick & tired of their shit! We have to get to work!"
......
"You know you're just dying to tell me its all my fucking fault!! That I fucked up everything!" Jeff stood up & turned his back to her, ready to walk away!
"Dont you walk away from me Jeff Hardy!" She put her hand on his shoulder & turned him around.
"Yeah well let me tell you something Gemma..." He got right up in her face, "It takes two y'know! It wasnt just me out in the yard that day!" He started to walk away but she grabbed his arm.
"Jeff....dont go!"
He stood still.
"Why not? Whats the fucking point anyway Gemma?!"
"Sit down please! Everyone's looking at us! You were right the day you came here, we need to talk!" He looked at her but still didnt sit down. Gemma knew he was ready to walk out on her. "I miss you Jeff!" She looked into his eyes & his face softened.
"I miss you too Gemma! I need it to be how it was!"
"Me too! Look sit down please!"
They both sat down. She wasnt sure if this was gonna make a blind bit of difference to their situation but if she didnt try she was going to lose her mind! For the first time in several weeks she got hold of his hand. It didnt feel all that bad!
"We can do this Jeff!" She said quietly, "I know we can! We've just both been to fucking stupid to try that's all!"
"Yeah that about sums it up!" He let out a laugh.
"Jeff.......I....I need you man! I need our friendship! Im going outs my mind here dude!"
He looked up at her. "Yeah, I know the feeling!"
Gemma got an uncontrolable urge to hug him. She threw her arms around his neck & they held each other. For Gemma it almost like it had been weeks ago! She was finally somewhere near to holding her best friend in her arms again & it felt so good!
For Jeff it felt good for other reasons. He inhaled her perfume, ran his fingers through her hair & hated himself for it! Hated himself for the feelings he was trying to hide. Hated himself because he wanted her so much & knew it was wrong. He closed his eyes, lost in the scent of her hair & the touch of her face against his.
"Listen, how about I finish up here & we go for a walk yeah?"
Jeff was shaken from his thoughts.
"Oh erm sure! yeah!" He smiled at her.
"Ok, wont be long!" She smiled, leaned over & kissed his cheek. Jeff caught his breath. He watched her descend the steps & go back down to the ring, not taking his eyes off her.
"What was that all about?"
It was Matt! Jeff jumped, he hadnt realised he was there.
"Trying to scrape together whats left of our friendship!"
Matt raised his eyebrows.
"Can you handle it?"
Jeff sighed & rested his chin in his hands.
"It's this way or no way Matt! Id rather have her as a friend than not have her at all!"
"Jeff.........you're in love with her....Im right arent I?"
Jeff just sat back in his seat & said nothing. Matt sighed.
"All this time Jeff! All this fucking time & you wait til she has a boyfriend to decide you love her!? Jesus!" he shook his head.
"I didnt know Matt!" Jeff said pleadingly, "Not for sure anyway! Not until....."
"Until the day you two almost ate each other alive in her back yard?!"
Jeff laughed.
"Yeah......something like that!"
"So, can you handle it?"
"Yeah. No worries!"
The two brothers hugged each other.
"Jeff....Im here bro....if you need me ok?"
"Sure, I know! thanks Matt! Now go make an ass of yourself in that ring so I can laugh at you!"
"Hey for my baby brother I'll make an ass of myself!!"
They both laughed.