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If You Could See
Chapter Three: The Only One for Me
"John, what are you doing?" she asked hoarsely.
Jing Mei finally managed to bring herself to speak.
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And you would know that you have my heart, If you could see what I see. That a treasure's what you are, If you could see what I see. Created to be the only one for me, If you could see what I see.
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John felt the dampness of the park grass seep into his jeans as he knelt before her. "Deb, I love you," he blurted out. "I want you to marry me."
John once again felt his heart pounding against his chest.
She had to say yes. She just had to.
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Never before had Jing Mei felt such a cacophony of mixed emotions flooding her mind and heart. 'Yes!' was her first reaction, but something had held her back.
Jing Mei had never felt this way about another person in her life. She thought she might actually die if John ever left her now. They had been dating for almost 10 months now. It had been the longest relationship either one of them had ever sustained. And each day Jing Mei fell deeper and deeper in love with this man.
How could she have allowed herself to get so deep, so fast?
Jing Mei shook her head. There was a list of reasons she had compiled in her head of why she loved this man. His eyes, his crooked smile; these were just a few of the reasons. John loved people, he loved helping them and he tore himself up daily over some of the patients. There were a hundred more reasons why she loved him and Jing Mei wanted to John all of them.
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John stared at his beautiful and speechless girlfriend. Girlfriend. He'd never liked the word. She'd always been his girl-friend. But now, Deb was much more to him. John hadn't quite prepared to propose to her, but as they walked through the dimly lit park, the stars shining brightly above them, John had an epiphany.
John had been thinking about Deb during the past few weeks, not that he didn't already. But much more, now that Mark had died. Their former colleague succumbed to his cancer two weeks earlier. It had devastated the employees of County General. John and Deb had managed to get away for the burial.
As he watched Dr. Corday crumble before his eyes, John began to reevaluate how he lived his life. John realized life was too short to waste precious moments together, of being together. He wanted Deb to know how much he loved her.
To this night, John still felt Deb had this nagging feeling it was just one of his hit-and-run romances, even after 10 months.
"Deb, say something," he laughed worriedly. John stood up to look her straight in the eye. "Or…did I just get my answer?"