Chapter 53
The day of the funeral went much the way Gemma had expected. The only thing none of them had planned for was their mother turning up! They were all very polite to her, but Gemma felt like it wasnt her mother at all. She couldnt deal with her, she had enough shit of her own to figure out & so she said 'Hello' & 'goodbye' & that was about as much as she could handle.
Jack had been totally distraught & had to be virtually held up by Michael & Pat the entire time. Gemma didnt know what was more upsetting, burrying her brother or seeing her Dad like that. But they got through it all the same.
2 days later they were all leaving again. Jack seemed better, not much, but there was a definate improvement! Gemma was torn. Shane told her to take as much time as she needed & on one hand she felt like she needed to be with her Dad! Greg & Michael were both staying on another week & she didnt know what was the right thing to do. After talking it over with Michael she decided she needed her work & she needed her friends. She was going to leave with the others just to get some normality back into her life, even if she did feel guilty for leaving her Dad so soon.
When they got back to work Gemma found it hard to concentrate. She was constantly staring into space & her work was rapidly going down hill for a while. Shane had a heart-to-heart with her & told her to take some time off, maybe go see a doctor, which she did.
The doctor gave her anti-depressants, but she didnt take them. The thought of popping any kind of pills scared the life out of her, so she flushed them down the toilet. She was gonna get through this on her own. No drugs, no therapy, just Gemma.
She took a week off & relaxed. She went to training sessions to watch the guys & never once took her camera, although she had been temepted once or twice to sneak it in with her! It was after one of those training sessions that her & Adam were curled up on her couch.
"Im comming back to work tomorrow."
"You sure you're ready?" Adam asked a little concerned.
"Yeah, Im sure! Ive had a nice week but now Im starting to get bored!!" She smiled.
"Hmm....I was kinda hoping to keep you busy myself!"
"Oh yeah? I know your kind of busy pal!" She playfully slapped his leg.
"Not like that....although now that you mention it....." He kissed her neck & she giggled.
"Well....what then?"
"I was thinking maybe....wedding arrangements?" He grinned.
Gemma sat up & stared at him.
"So soon?"
"Hey listen if you wanna wait then thats fine by me! Anything you want is fine by me! I dont wanna rush you into anything babe!"
Gemma sat & thought about it. Was it too soon? Did she want to be Mrs Copeland in 3 or 4 months? Did she want to be Mrs Copeland in 3 or 4 years for that matter? Did he love her unconditionally? She knew the answer to that question was yes. Without a doubt. Did she love him? She knew that was a yes too....but unconditionally? She wasnt so sure. She opened her mouth to say, 'let's not rush anything!' 'Let me think it over for a while!' 'Maybe wait a year!' When she looked at his face what she heard comming out of her mouth surprised even her!
"How about July then?"
'Did I just say that out loud?' she thought to herself.
"As in 2 months away?" Adam smiled. He looked like a kid who just saw Santa comming down his chimney.........on his birthday!!!
Gemma shook herself back to reality.
"Um....yeah! 2 months huh? why not.......sure thing!"
Adam threw his arms around her.
"Man! Im so excited! I love you so much! This is gonna be the best!"
"I love you too!" She said over his shoulder, while her mind screamed 'WAY TO GO GEMMA!!'
The day of the funeral went much the way Gemma had expected. The only thing none of them had planned for was their mother turning up! They were all very polite to her, but Gemma felt like it wasnt her mother at all. She couldnt deal with her, she had enough shit of her own to figure out & so she said 'Hello' & 'goodbye' & that was about as much as she could handle.
Jack had been totally distraught & had to be virtually held up by Michael & Pat the entire time. Gemma didnt know what was more upsetting, burrying her brother or seeing her Dad like that. But they got through it all the same.
2 days later they were all leaving again. Jack seemed better, not much, but there was a definate improvement! Gemma was torn. Shane told her to take as much time as she needed & on one hand she felt like she needed to be with her Dad! Greg & Michael were both staying on another week & she didnt know what was the right thing to do. After talking it over with Michael she decided she needed her work & she needed her friends. She was going to leave with the others just to get some normality back into her life, even if she did feel guilty for leaving her Dad so soon.
When they got back to work Gemma found it hard to concentrate. She was constantly staring into space & her work was rapidly going down hill for a while. Shane had a heart-to-heart with her & told her to take some time off, maybe go see a doctor, which she did.
The doctor gave her anti-depressants, but she didnt take them. The thought of popping any kind of pills scared the life out of her, so she flushed them down the toilet. She was gonna get through this on her own. No drugs, no therapy, just Gemma.
She took a week off & relaxed. She went to training sessions to watch the guys & never once took her camera, although she had been temepted once or twice to sneak it in with her! It was after one of those training sessions that her & Adam were curled up on her couch.
"Im comming back to work tomorrow."
"You sure you're ready?" Adam asked a little concerned.
"Yeah, Im sure! Ive had a nice week but now Im starting to get bored!!" She smiled.
"Hmm....I was kinda hoping to keep you busy myself!"
"Oh yeah? I know your kind of busy pal!" She playfully slapped his leg.
"Not like that....although now that you mention it....." He kissed her neck & she giggled.
"Well....what then?"
"I was thinking maybe....wedding arrangements?" He grinned.
Gemma sat up & stared at him.
"So soon?"
"Hey listen if you wanna wait then thats fine by me! Anything you want is fine by me! I dont wanna rush you into anything babe!"
Gemma sat & thought about it. Was it too soon? Did she want to be Mrs Copeland in 3 or 4 months? Did she want to be Mrs Copeland in 3 or 4 years for that matter? Did he love her unconditionally? She knew the answer to that question was yes. Without a doubt. Did she love him? She knew that was a yes too....but unconditionally? She wasnt so sure. She opened her mouth to say, 'let's not rush anything!' 'Let me think it over for a while!' 'Maybe wait a year!' When she looked at his face what she heard comming out of her mouth surprised even her!
"How about July then?"
'Did I just say that out loud?' she thought to herself.
"As in 2 months away?" Adam smiled. He looked like a kid who just saw Santa comming down his chimney.........on his birthday!!!
Gemma shook herself back to reality.
"Um....yeah! 2 months huh? why not.......sure thing!"
Adam threw his arms around her.
"Man! Im so excited! I love you so much! This is gonna be the best!"
"I love you too!" She said over his shoulder, while her mind screamed 'WAY TO GO GEMMA!!'