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AN: Thanks for the reviews. Ok originally I hadn't planed on continuing this but I couldn't write a second sad one so I needed to fix this one to be happy and this is how I did that. Btw anything that is written in a note will have this ********* before and after it.
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I lied to you I am sorry. I know you must hate me for what I did, and I don't blame you. I shouldn't have hurt you like that. I was just protecting you.
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Max crumpled the note and threw it away. "That's not right." she mumbled to herself frustrated. "It's not even true." 'Ok Max you can do this just write from the heart.' Max thought trying to calm down so she could get this right.
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Logan,
I am sorry for all of the pain that I have caused you. You are the last person I ever wanted to hurt. I got so frustrated with being near you and not being able to touch you. Then when you were in the hospital that was the last straw. I zoned out and had this day dream while Joshua was transfusing you. In it the transfusion didn't work and you died. We had to say goodbye, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, watch you die, even if it wasn't real. And then that feeling that you told me about when I died, I knew what you were really talking about. For the first time I understood. But for me staying around you I risked really loosing you forever. If I said goodbye and we stopped seeing each other, you would be okay. And you would still be there if we ever worked this out and then I could still hope that maybe someday it would work out. And this way it was just goodbye for a while. I thought that it was necessary to keep from hurting you. But sitting here I thought if you had been the one to say goodbye that would have been more painful then anything else I have ever endured. And for you it must be worse. Because I let you think that I didn't love you and I was with Alec. It's not true Logan I could never be with Alec or anyone else, because I am in love with you. I should have told you a long time ago. And I really shouldn't have said goodbye without telling you. I shouldn't have said goodbye at all. And I know you have no reason to forgive me, but I was kind of hoping you would anyway. I love you Logan and I need to be with you. And no matter what you decide I will love you always.
Love,
Max
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'I think I said everything I needed to, yeah it will do.' Max thought as she folded it and put it in an envelope. She thought back to that daydream she had at the hospital. She knew it wasn't real but still it made her almost cry thinking of it. Max rode to Logan's the letter in her pocket. She got there and was about to slip it under the door. Instead she just gripped it tight for a minute staring at it. 'Please like it Logan, please be what you need to hear' She thought as she slipped it under his door. In that one instant she immediately gave all the control away. She laid her heart out to him, and now it was up to him what happened. She was completely powerless.
AN: I know it is lame and I have done it before, but I just couldn't have another sad story. Let me know what you think of me doing this and what you think of the story in general. As soon as I get 8 or more reviews i will post the next chapter.
AN: Thanks for the reviews. Ok originally I hadn't planed on continuing this but I couldn't write a second sad one so I needed to fix this one to be happy and this is how I did that. Btw anything that is written in a note will have this ********* before and after it.
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I lied to you I am sorry. I know you must hate me for what I did, and I don't blame you. I shouldn't have hurt you like that. I was just protecting you.
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Max crumpled the note and threw it away. "That's not right." she mumbled to herself frustrated. "It's not even true." 'Ok Max you can do this just write from the heart.' Max thought trying to calm down so she could get this right.
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Logan,
I am sorry for all of the pain that I have caused you. You are the last person I ever wanted to hurt. I got so frustrated with being near you and not being able to touch you. Then when you were in the hospital that was the last straw. I zoned out and had this day dream while Joshua was transfusing you. In it the transfusion didn't work and you died. We had to say goodbye, it was the hardest thing I ever had to do, watch you die, even if it wasn't real. And then that feeling that you told me about when I died, I knew what you were really talking about. For the first time I understood. But for me staying around you I risked really loosing you forever. If I said goodbye and we stopped seeing each other, you would be okay. And you would still be there if we ever worked this out and then I could still hope that maybe someday it would work out. And this way it was just goodbye for a while. I thought that it was necessary to keep from hurting you. But sitting here I thought if you had been the one to say goodbye that would have been more painful then anything else I have ever endured. And for you it must be worse. Because I let you think that I didn't love you and I was with Alec. It's not true Logan I could never be with Alec or anyone else, because I am in love with you. I should have told you a long time ago. And I really shouldn't have said goodbye without telling you. I shouldn't have said goodbye at all. And I know you have no reason to forgive me, but I was kind of hoping you would anyway. I love you Logan and I need to be with you. And no matter what you decide I will love you always.
Love,
Max
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'I think I said everything I needed to, yeah it will do.' Max thought as she folded it and put it in an envelope. She thought back to that daydream she had at the hospital. She knew it wasn't real but still it made her almost cry thinking of it. Max rode to Logan's the letter in her pocket. She got there and was about to slip it under the door. Instead she just gripped it tight for a minute staring at it. 'Please like it Logan, please be what you need to hear' She thought as she slipped it under his door. In that one instant she immediately gave all the control away. She laid her heart out to him, and now it was up to him what happened. She was completely powerless.
AN: I know it is lame and I have done it before, but I just couldn't have another sad story. Let me know what you think of me doing this and what you think of the story in general. As soon as I get 8 or more reviews i will post the next chapter.