YumiYa: Again...I'm very busy with school and I'm trying to update and start as many stories as possible!!! Another thing...Sasaki Miyako is mine! Don't take! Don't steal! But...Here's Chapter 5! Hope you like...lots of drama...BEWARE. Okay not really...but...still sad!!! R+R! Thank you! CCS is owned by CLAMP!

=phone conversations
"text"=dialog
'text'=thoughts
(text)=Author's notes


Sakura ran as quick as she could with her baby. 'Syaoran! Syaoran! Answer me, please! Syaoran-kun' Sakura flew up the steps and ran up to the door. Pounding on the door, Sakura screamed, "Syaoran-kun! Syaoran-kun! Please open the door!" After a couple of seconds, Sakura decided to use the Lock Card. She unlocked the door and rushed inside. She looked around frantically. Everything was how it was before, but there was no Syaoran. Sakura ran to his room and screamed at what she found there. Blood was all over his bed and Syaoran lied in the middle of it. Next to him were his sword and two letters. Sakura ran up to him and placed her hands on his face. His eyes were closed and his mouth was in a sad smile.
"Oh my gosh! Syaoran! No, don't do this to me!" She looked down in horror. Syaoran's wrists were slit and blood was pouring from the severe cuts. Grabbing her new cell phone that Tomoyo just gave here, she quickly called 911 (AN: What's the emergency number in Japan?). As calmly as she could, she explained the situation to the operator. She took Syaoran's sword and frantically tried to change it back into a pendant. She didn't want to explain why a weird looking sword was there. Luckily, it did. She hung it around her neck as she looked at the two letters. One was addressed to her and the other to his family or Meilin. (ANL Basically, whoever got it first!) A little later, paramedics and policeman raced in. They marked off Syaoran's room. The paramedics quickly, but gently, placed Syaoran in an ambulance.
"Excuse me, miss, but would you come to the hospital too?" On of the paramedics, a lady, said kindly. Sakura, in a state of shock, nodded and climbed in the ambulance, holding her baby in one of her arms. The whole ride, she just stared at the pale Syaoran in front of her.
'Oh my gosh! This is all my fault! I shouldn't have treated him so terribly!'
Once they reached the hospital, the paramedics rushed Syaoran into an emergency room. Sakura just stood and watched their retreating forms. The lady, who asked her to come along, came up beside Sakura. She placed on hand on Sakura's shoulder.
"Don't worry! He'll be fine! We'll try our best to bring him back!" The lady said. Sakura only nodded. She wanted to cry, but somehow she just couldn't.
"It's okay! Do you want to call your parents or something?"
"...Hai..." Sakura took out her cell phone and walked to a quiet corner in the waiting room. The lady just stayed behind.
"Otou-san, this is Sakura!" "Aa...demo...Syaoran-kun...oh otou-san!" "I went to Syaoran-kun's place for a visit, but he wouldn't answer, so I kind of busted through! I found him...I...I found him in a pool of his own blood on his bed! Otou-san! He committed suicide!" 'I can't tell him that I felt his pain through the thought bond then busted through with Lock.' (AN: Apparently, she didn't tell him about the Sakura cards yet!) "Hai!" "The hospital." "Arigato otou-san!" "Hai...ja!" Sakura hung up, then dialed Tomoyo and Eriol. Both had the same reactions as her dad. When Sakura was done, she walked back to the lady, who stood there patiently for her to finish.
"Better?"
"A little!"
"By the way, what's your name? I need to ask you some questions," The lady said, holding up a form. Sakura nodded, "Kinomoto Sakura" The lady took it down.
"My name is Sasaki Miyako! You can talk to me if you need anything, okay?"
"Hai, Sasaki-san!"
"Just Miyako-chan will be fine! Is Sakura-chan okay for you?" Miyako asked. Sakura nodded again. Around twenty minutes later, Miyako was done questioning Sakura. She got up, thanked Sakura, and gave her another reassuring smile before leaving. Sakura collapsed into her chair.
Soon after, Fujitaka, Touya, Tomoyo, and Eriol showed up.
"Sakura-chan! Are you okay? Where's Li-kun? Will he be okay? What happened to him? How is he?" They bombarded her with questions. Sakura looked down at the floor and sighed. They all stopped, and Fujitaka came up and hugged her. When they pulled apart, Sakura replied in a shaky voice, "I'm fine, but Syaoran-kun is still in the emergency room. They're trying to stabilize him and stop the bleeding, but nobody knows if he'll survive or not. I was just going to visit him and I found him unconscious on his bed with his wrists slit open." Sakura finally broke down and Fujitaka gathered her in his arms again. Eriol looked at Sakura carefully. 'She's lying' Probing Sakura's mind, he gently asked if it was okay if he searched through her mind so that she wouldn't have to tell him. Sakura agreed and continued weeping. A minute later, Eriol looked at Tomoyo sadly, and whispered, "She's partially lying. She felt his pain through the thought bond I placed on them and ran over to his place, used the lock, and found him." Before Tomoyo asked how he knew, he added, "I probed her mind WITH her permission!" Tomoyo burst into tears and hugged Eriol. Eriol returned her hug allowing her to cry on his shirt.
"Eriol...*sniff* don't leave me! Please don't! I love you!" Tomoyo whispered to him. Eriol held her tighter. "I'd never leave you! Trust me! I love you too!" The two hugging groups (Eriol and Tomoyo, Fujitaka, Sakura, and Touya) were broke apart when Meilin appeared with Wei.
"What going on? Where's Syaoran?" Sakura told Meilin everything and she burst into tears. Wei just stood there, stunned.
"I was so scared when I found blood all over his bed! Oh my god! Why'd he do that?" Meilin sobbed Sakura went up to her and embraced her. Together, the two friends cried. In between, you could hear Sakura said over and over again, "I'm sorry, Meilin-chan! It's all fault!" and Meilin say, "No it isn't!". When the two calmed down, they pulled apart from each other and joined the rest of the group who just stood silently watching them. Feeling something in her pockets beside her usual cards, Sakura placed her hand in one of them and found the two letters she had placed there earlier. 'Oh...I forgot about this.' Walking up to Meilin, she handed her one of the letters.
"Meilin-chan...this was next to him...it's for you." Meilin accepted the letter quietly.
"Excuse me for a bit, onegai," Meilin walked across the room to a deserted spot with Wei. Together they sat down and read the letter. Tears began to flow from both of them. Sakura watched them and felt even worse then before. Touya came up to her.
"Hey squirt...it's not your fault k? So stop blaming yourself! You did your best!" Sakura looked up to her brother and smiled. "Arigato Onii-chan." Touya nodded and left. Miyako came up to Sakura.
"Sakura-chan...we were able to stop the bleeding and stabilize him. He's in intensive care at the moment. You can go see him right now. Are these his friends?"
"...Hai..."
"They can go in too, if they want. He's still unconscious though."
"Wakatta...arigato Miyako-chan!"
"Anytime!" Miyako smiled then left. Sakura repeated what Miyako had said to her to the rest of the groups. They smiled happily and went to Syaoran's room. They quietly entered and gasped when the saw the pale Syaoran in the room. He was hooked up to a lot of machines and looked almost ghostly. They just stood there and watched him. Each of them went up to him and whispered in his ear, except for Sakura, who just stood there staring at him. Tomoyo and Eriol whispered to each other and nodded.
"Sakura-chan...do you want some privacy with Li-kun?" Tomoyo asked quietly.
"Hai..." Gently taking her baby from her arms, Tomoyo and Eriol shooed the rest of the group out of the room and left her alone. Sakura went up to Syaoran's bedside and held one of his hands. 'Gomen...Syaoran-kun. I made you suffer didn't I? I'm sorry...I truly am...this is all my fault.' Letting go, she pulled up a chair and sat next to him, watching. Pulling out the other letter that addressed to her, she decided to read it. Carefully opening up the envelope and pulling out the letter, she began to read.

Dear Sakura-chan,

I'm sorry for all the pain I've caused you. I'm sorry for leaving you all alone for six years without contacting you or anything like that. I'm also sorry for leaving you with the burden of my feelings. By the time you read this, I'm already dead. I just want you to know that I love you and I always have. You were the one who was able to warm my heart. You gave my life back to me. You cared for me even though I tried to steal the cards away from you when we were in fourth grade. I'm sorry for coming back and placing so much pressure on you again. You're probably wondering why I killed myself. I'm sorry, though I suppose you're glad now that I'm finally out of your life once and for all. I just couldn't bear the pain. I can't live without you. I love you so much that without you, I'd die anyway. Ironic, isn't it? I just wanted to end the pain. Even if I'm dead, I'll be watching over you and protecting you. Goodbye, my sakura.

Love,
Li Syaoran

Sakura felt tears well up again and she whispered quietly, "...hoe..." Putting the letter aside and curling into a ball, she cried. Once she felt like she could cry no more, she stopped and held one of Syaoran's hands again. It felt warm, but hardly.
"I'm sorry, Syaoran-kun! I didn't mean for it to go this far. I was mad at you for not contacting me in the past six years. I love you! I still do! I guess I have since fourth grade. When you came back, I was mad and happy at the same time. I knew that eventually I would start falling more in love for you, but I couldn't let you off so easily for what you did. So, I decided that I should show you the pain I felt when you left me. I ignored you. Honestly, I didn't want it to go this far. I was going to tell you today...that I still loved you! I'm so, so sorry Syaoran-kun!" Sakura said to the unconscious Syaoran. "I know you can hear me somewhere Syaoran-kun! Please get better and wake up!" She held his hand up to her face.
'Sa...ku...ra-...chan?'
"Syaoran-kun?" Sakura looked at him, frantically. His eyes were still closed and he hadn't moved at all.
'Sa...kura..-chan? Where am I?'
'Syaoran-kun? Is that you?' Sakura asked in her mind.
'Hai...where am I? My body...I can't move...what happened to me?'
'Syaoran-kun...you're in the hospital...in intensive care...you tried to commit suicide but I found you before you died.'
'...oh...' Sakura could tell by his tone that he was disappointed that his plan didn't work.
'Syaoran-kun...I read your letter to me...I'm sorry...for what I did...'
'Sakura-chan...it's okay! I heard what you said to me. Was that the truth?'
'Hai Syaoran-kun...I still love you.'
'...'
'You're probably really mad at me now aren't you?'
'I'm not Sakura-chan! You did that for a reason...I believe you!'
'Arigato Syaoran-kun!'
'Anytime...'
'Ne...Syaoran-kun...'
'Hmm?'
Sakura blushed at what she was about to say. 'Please try to wake up! As soon as you wake up and get better, I...I...I was wondering if you wanted to go to the park with me.'
'Sakura-chan...'
'It's okay if you don't, I'm fine with that.'
'I'd be happy to! At least when I wake up!' Sakura smiled and hugged Syaoran, gently. Pulling back, she saw a smile appear on his pale face.
'Did you feel that?'
'Yeah...how'd you tell?'
'You're smiling!'
'Oh...'
'Baka!'
'Hey!'
'You are! You tried to kill yourself without even thinking about what Tomoyo-chan, Eriol-kun, Touya-kun, Meilin-chan, Otou-san, and Wei-san, and especially me, feel!'
'Gomen.'
'Hurry up and wake up! You can do it! I'm right here! Y'know...you don't have to be afraid to wake up!' Sakura didn't hear a reply. Worried, she watched Syaoran.
"Syaoran-kun...I miss you!" Suddenly, she saw him move.
"Syaoran?" He slowly opened his eyes. He saw two bright emeralds staring at him and a lot of white. (AN: The room.) Raspy, he said, "Oh? Now...we...are...on...first...na...me...basis?" Sakura smiled happily, "Syaoran!"
"I'll...take...that...as...a...yes...then..." He smiled. She let go of him and said, "I'll be right back!" Sakura ran out to the waiting room where everyone was. Tomoyo ran up to her. "Sakura! Are you okay? You were in there for a really long time!" Sakura just smiled and said, "Syaoran-kun's awake!" Tomoyo's jaw dropped.
"What?!"
"Syaoran-kun's awake!"
"Oh my gosh!" Turning, Tomoyo yelled out loud enough so that everybody heard. "Li-kun's awake!" They all got up and went into the room talking. Sakura watched them happily.
'Waaah! There are a lot of people! AAACK! Meilin!' Sakura giggled. She went up to the desk and asked for Miyako. Miyako came up to her.
"What is it Sakura-chan?"
"Syaoran-kun's awake!"
"Really?" Miyako asked. She was assured by Sakura's nod. She smiled and ran to go get a doctor. Soon, five doctors went into Syaoran's room, shooed the rest of the group out, and closed the door.
'Oh no...not more doctors!'
'He, he!'
'Hey! That's not fair!'
'It is too!' Sakura walked to the rest of the group and everyone started to hug each other and crying. Soon, the doctors came back out with Syaoran on the bed. Miyako came up to them and said, "Li-kun's okay so we're moving him to a different room upstairs. You can come too." They all nodded and followed the doctors. Once everything was settled in Syaoran's new room, Sakura turned to Miyako and hugged her, which surprised Miyako greatly.
"Arigato Miyako-chan!"
"No problem Sakura-chan! Now you should go back to your boyfriend before he starts to miss you!" Miyako winked. Blushing, Sakura nodded and thanked Miyako again before entering the room.
'What did that lady say? BOYFRIEND?'
'Syaoran-kun! You were eavesdropping?!'
'Oh...now we're on -kun again! Oh boy!' Sakura giggled. She joined in the conversation, taking place at the moment between Tomoyo and Eriol.
"Oh yeah...Eriol-kun! About this thought bond..." Sakura grinned evilly.
"Uh-oh! Tomoyo-chan! Let's get out of here!" Eriol grabbed Tomoyo's hand and the two hightailed it out of there. Fujitaka pulled Sakura aside.
"Sakura-chan...Touya-kun and I are going to go home now to make dinner! You can stay here as long as you like but if you're going to spend the night here or feel like coming home, call me okay?"
"Otou-san! You're the best!" Sakura hugged him and Fujitaka smiled. Soon everybody left and it was only Syaoran and Sakura.
"You go, girl!"
Sakura blushed. They talked about what was happened to them in the past six years, before saying goodbye. Syaoran sighed and thought, 'I'm so lucky! She's the best!'
'You bet I am, buster! I just saved your life!' Syaoran chuckled and fell asleep.

The End.

YumiYa: Woah! That was a really long chapter! I think that was the longest I ever wrote! Cool! Anyway, wasn't that dramatic and romantic? Please R+R and tell me what you think! I could use some good comments! I think I'm just going to add 2 to 4 more chapters than that's the end! Well...I hope you liked it! Ja ne, minna-san!