Note : ^^Neri-chan^^ is an OC from my up-coming fic, very childish, very #irritating#, squeals a lot, Hanamichi-like self-proclaimed genius (sort of…), well you get my meaning…
Disclaimers : The SD characters are copyrights of Inoue Takehiko.
Chapter 8 ; Trusting Hearts(Part I)
Somehow, the destination was changed to Quinine's Café, thanks to Fujima, who was meeting 'a few friends' there, and his persuasion and threats (reminding them it was him who 'helped' Ling-Er and Mitsui… hehehe). Exactly as he planned, he met up with his 'friends' there; making Kaori and Mitsui annoyed.
"Brother! Ling-Er-chan prefers privacy, I believe!" she scolded, embarrassed at her brother's behavior. Her mood immediately lightened when she saw his 'friends'. "Neri-chan! Hanagata-san!" she greeted happily, excitedly.
Mitsui was especially annoyed. "Quiet, everyone! Can't you see Ling-Er-chan needs privacy!" he demanded angrily, killing the excitement. Everyone was quiet, except for a certain pretty girl in specs.
"Ling-Er-chan? HI! I'm Kaori's good friend, Neri-chan!" she introduced happily, immune to everyone's murderous looks.
Mitsui quickly pulled her away. "Not another one of your silly pranks, little girl," he hissed dangerously at the girl. She made at face at him, and turned back to Ling-Er with a sweet smile. Ling-Er looked up at Fujima's 'friends'. She saw a pretty, smiling girl in specs and braids, slightly taller than Kaori. There was another boy besides her. A tall one. She tilted up her to see his face…
"Melvin!" She gasped, immediately standing up, stumbling backward. The tall boy with specs (yeah! Specs again!) adjusted his glasses in confusion. Everyone else was equally confused.
*No, it cannot be. He cannot be Melvin. No way. Look, Riyula. Look! He is not Melvin. He is taller; he is fairer… he merely resembles Melvin a little*, Ling-Er assured herself, forcing a reassuring smile at everyone. "Sorry, I thought you're a 'friend' of mine," he apologized sincerely, her voice shaking.
"No problem. My name's Toru. Hanagata
Toru. Nice to meet you," the tall boy introduced himself, still feeling
confused, "who is this *mail-bin* (okay, he has bad English, don't kill
me! :P ) ?" And she told them of her story. The whole story, up to the
incident the previous day.
It is just another one of God's
gift,
yet its divinity is infinity,
so divine and unchanging...
"Ling-Er-chan…" Mitsui whispered, afraid to mention her name louder, as if calling her would hurt her. She had been through so much. She had been in worse conditions than he had. Only 16, yet she was already revealed to the other side, the wicked side of the world. His heart aches for her pains and sufferings, cursing himself for not being there for her when she was in her worst conditions. He did not know what to say. Somehow, after knowing the fact that she was a rape-victim, he found himself lost of words. He could only look at her intensely, longing to reach her, to hold her in his arms… to protect her from the world.
"WHAT! Fujima-san! Poor you! How are your injuries? Do they still hurt?" 'Neri-chan' exclaimed worriedly, as sweatdrops were formed on everyone else's head. Fujima shrugged uncomfortably, still not used to the younger girl's childish behavior.
Its position in man's heart is
high,
higher than anything else,
much too immortal for mortals
to hold on,
yet every living mortal lives
for it,
desiring, thirsting and even
dying for it,
to some, it brings happiness
and joy,
to some, it brings sorrow and
misery,
its mystery is far beyond mortals'
understanding.
"*Now you know. Now you know everything. I know what you are thinking. Yes, I do. I am just a filthy, unworthy girl. Forget me. Forget your childish emotions. It is not love you are feeling. It is just another feeling, which you somehow mis-interpret. A feeling of sympathy, maybe? After all, I am no one, and I NEED no one*," Ling-Er cried suddenly, and ran away. Haruko immediately ran after her. Kaori gave 'Neri-chan' an apologetic look before running after them.
Akagi coughed, "Anyone here brings an English-Japanese dictionary?" The boys were still wearing the dumbfounded looks, with Fujima halfway translating Ling-Er's speech to himself. 'Neri-chan' smiled, adjusting her glasses smugly and translated her lines fluently. Right before she finished… *poof* Mitsui was also gone.
Looking at the remaining 'spectators', Akagi uneasily started a conversation. "Ah, mind to introduce ourselves while waiting for them?" he asked, directly it mainly to 'Neri-chan', who was wearing an interested look on her face. Unfortunately, she was not listening to him.
"Hey! Selfish! You cannot just leave me behind while you've having all the fun!" she yelled and ran after them. The three remaining boys sweatdropped.
"Why don't we go after them to check out what is ACTUALLY happening?" Hanagata suggested uncertainly. The other two shrugged.
"Better stay out of trouble... WAITER!"
Fujima told his best friend before starting to order ice cream without
taking further concern of what were to happen. "It's Tuesday! Special price
for Mega Sundae!" More sweatdrops.
It...
What is it?
So unique and complex,
Only God could design,
Needed by all living souls…
She was running, as fast as she could. She could hear Haruko and Kaori calling after her, but she could not stop running.
Running from what?
From everything.
From the world.
From my friends.
From people who care about me...
From reality…
From him…
She knew Haruko and Kaori could never catch up with her. Not with their physical abilities. She could feel tears coming out of her eyes. She was crying, again. Merely a wimpy girl underneath her mask, her armor. A girl who seemed as though she has everything, and yet lacking of the most important thing in life – love. Something everyone else took for granted.
to some, it brings happiness and
joy,
to some, it brings sorrow and
misery...
She could never trust again. She
was tricked once. She was once fooled by the significance of love. Once,
but there will never be a second time. She was destined to live a life
of loneliness, and she had long accepted the fact. She mentally scolded
herself, for even thinking that Mitsui would really like her. Her, a girl
who would never be worthy of anyone's love…
It is just another one of God's
gift,
yet its divinity is infinity,
so divine and unchanging...
He saw Haruko and Kaori running after her. She was not far from him. He had to catch up with her. He just had to. Soon he realized he was running in front of the two girls, who had stopped running. They were breathing heavily, looking at him with trusting eyes. They trusted him. They knew he would bring her back. And they stopped, allowing him the responsibilities. Thanks…he mentally whispered, giving them thumb-up sign, which they returned with a "We're counting on you!" shout.
For a few moments or so, he had been bothered by her past, and he was furious at himself for it. She had suffered enough. It was not she who chose such a life. She was a victim, and he condemned her for that. After how she treated him, knowing he was a former 'gangster'. After how she had been encouraging him and helping him sort his burdens deep within. He knew he love her, he was positive of his feelings. He knew he needed to reveal his feelings to her. He just had to. To be true to himself. To be true to her.
"Ling-Er-chan! Wait!" he gasped, grabbing her shoulder. She continued running, but he held on tight to her. She turned back, and looked at him.
Their eyes met.
And the time stopped.
"Ling-Er-chan, listen to me! I don't care what happened to you in the past. I don't care anything about your past, your family, or anything! I just know that my feelings are genuine. I love you, for you are Riyula Ling-Er. For who you are, not what you are. I love you for always being there for me, for just being… you. Trust me…" he said it rapidly, bursting out everything inside of him. He did not know how to phrase it, for no words can ever phrase his feelings.
I love you,
Not only for what you are,
But for what I am
When I am with you.
I love you,
Not only for what
You have made of yourself,
But for what
You are making of me.
Ling-Er looked at him blankly, hardly understanding a word he said. She understood a few words, mainly 'love'. Her heart softened as she saw Mitsui's eyes. Filled with passion and sincerity. Stop deceiving yourself, Riyula… "Let me go," she told him firmly. He refused.
"Ling-Er-chan… give me a chance. I'll prove to you that I mean what I say. That I really love you," he whispered, holding even tighter, with both hands, as if afraid she would be gone anytime.
I love you
For the part of me
That you bring out;
I love you
For putting my heaped-up heart
And passing over
All the foolish, weak things
That you can't help
Dimly seeing there,
And for drawing out
Into the light
All the beautiful belongings
That no one else had looked
Quite far enough to find.
"No, let go," Ling-Er repeated. "What do you know of love? You're just a little kid. Hardly even entering adulthood. Love, you said. Do you even know what does 'love' means?"
It...
What is it?
So unique and complex,
Only God could design.
"There are so many things to life you do not know of. Stop being such a brat. It's not love you feel for me. It's not! Do you understand?"
It...
Is nothing else
Just a simple feeling called
'love'.
"Let me go," Ling-Er whispered. He released her, reluctantly, lost for words. She ran off, closing her eyes, refusing to shed anymore tears. He could only look. Silently, painfully, as she ran out his sight.
Do I know what does 'love' really means?
Silence.
And then…
Yes. I do.
I love Riyula Ling-Er.
It is just another one of God's
gift,
Yet its divinity is infinity,
So divine and unchanging...
Its position in man's heart is
high,
Higher than anything else,
Much to immortal for mortals
to hold on,
Yet every living mortal lives
for it,
Desiring, thirsting and even
dying for it,
To some, it brings happiness
and joy,
To some, it brings sorrow and
misery,
Its mystery is far beyond mortals'
understanding.
It...
What is it?
So unique and complex,
Only God could design,
Needed by all living souls,
It...
Is nothing else,
Just a simple feeling called
'love'.
Author's Note : Chapter too long, separate them into 2. Well...that's just an excuse. Real reason---> still not done with my translating, lazy to type them out.
Note 2 : Due to unpopular demand, this chapter will probably the be last... I'll not put up the whole story :P Unless there are still some readers out there who are interested. :)
Note 3 : Sorry for not updating for such a long time.