The Wait
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 6: Mistake Made by Fear
By the end of the school year, I was not not looking at the blue-eyed kitsune. I can't face rejection. It's easy to just keep quiet and stay away from his gaze for a while. Yes, I'm a coward in this blasted situation. When the next school year started, everything should be alright in order to keep it all inside. My thoughts about the whole situation can wait. It's a good thing something offered me a distraction. I practice with the Ryonan top ace everyday. That spiky haired guy with a clown's smile plastered all over his face. It's a good thing that he came that very day when I was thinking about what to do with the kitsune.
*flashback*
I was sitting on a swing in the park, thinking and minding my own business.
"Sakuragi, what's up?" someone said. I raised my bowed head and saw the spiky haired boy from Ryonan Team. His smile is obviously plastered on his face.
"What do you want, Sendoh?"
"Is anyone sitting there?" he pointed the swing beside me.
"No."
He sat beside me and we just stayed there for a few minutes. I returned to my musings. I was so into my thinking about the kitsune that I didn't heard a question that Sendoh asked. He tapped my shoulder to get my attention.
"Nani?"
"Are you alright. You looked bothered."
"I'm fine.. I'm just thinking... about things..."
"You *think*?" he said with a mischievous gleam in his eye.
"Nani?!?! Are you saying that the Tensai doesn't think!"
*end flashback*
That started our friendship with each other. He's not as bad as I thought and he gives me a few pointers in basketball as well. I never got the chance to say that to Rukawa though. I do hang out with him as well but not that frequently anymore. Everytime I thought about the Kitsune sleeping and seeing his blue eyes and smiling at me, I can't help but blush.
As I looked at him while playing, he seems fine and nothing wrong at the moment. I continued practicing and doing wHat I usually do. The practice went on normally in my point of view, which is receiving few fan slaps and "Gori Punches".
After sowering and changing my clothes, I was ready to play once again with the spiky haired clown. As soon as I left the locker room, there stood from the door of the gym is the clown himself, Sendoh, grining as usual. Everyone in the team who was walking towards the exit halted and looked at him.
"What are you doing here Sendoh?" Akagi asked.
"Picking someone up..." and looked at me.
I walked towards him and gestured him to move on. He followed me and I looked back. Most of the members of the basketball club had their mouths agape, the others had those questioning eyes, but the face I was looking for was not there. He was nowhere to be found. I just sighed and looked towards my destination once again.
*Ring*
"Moshi moshi, Sakuragi residence.."
"Hey, Hanamichi!"
"Oh, it's you Sendoh, what's up?" I asked nonchalantly.
"Nothing, I just want to talk something..."
Nice answer but my simple brain accepted it. We talked and talked about all things. Only half of myself is listening while the other half was thinking about a blue-eyed boy. Then I heard something from the Ryonan clown that caught my attention. I think it was the name of the kitsune.
"What was that again, Sendoh?" I asked.
"I said I like Rukawa..." So I was right, he did mention his name in between the conversations. Then, all I can see is red. Jealousy took over.
"He's mine!" I said, not thinking of the consenquences.
"Take it easy, I'm not going to kidnap him and he's all yours, I just said that I like him..."
"Gomen, I guess I act impulsively..."
Then the conversations shifted to another topic. I was relieved that he didn't mention his name again. I guess he got the message.
That night, I was thinking things through again. I guess he's not interested, I said to myself. I sighed again and slept, not noticing that a teardrop escaped my eye.
Everyday Sendoh came to Shohoku to pick me up and we will play 1 on 1 on the court near my house. If the kitsune felt any anger towards me, he didn't let it show. His mask of coldness was there once again and I couldn't reach to him anymore. I guess I was wrong in doing that but I didn't know that he would react strongly about it. I didn't know what to do anymore.
Then one day it finally came, his anger lashing out. He walked towards me with deadly ccuracy. I was talking to Yohei about something when he came unannounced. I looked at him and I saw fire of anger.
"If you don't want me, tell me!" he said with coldness he can then turned and walk away as if nothing happened.
Right then and there, I broke down and cried in front of Yohei. I didn't care if he saw me or what. He didn't asked any questions, just comforted me and telling me its ok, he understands.
I got home with a sad face. The rain poured but I didn't care if I was soaked. I took out my key and got inside the house. I ran towards my bedroom and cried again and again. I slept for a moment. I thought I can have my peace in my sleep but I was wrong. His face full of anger came and haunt me. His eyes full of blazing fire looked to me. I screamed and cried again.
That's when my depression took over. I went inside the bathroom again and grabbed the razor. It hurt but I needed the pain. I need something to cover the pain that's inside my heart...
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 6: Mistake Made by Fear
By the end of the school year, I was not not looking at the blue-eyed kitsune. I can't face rejection. It's easy to just keep quiet and stay away from his gaze for a while. Yes, I'm a coward in this blasted situation. When the next school year started, everything should be alright in order to keep it all inside. My thoughts about the whole situation can wait. It's a good thing something offered me a distraction. I practice with the Ryonan top ace everyday. That spiky haired guy with a clown's smile plastered all over his face. It's a good thing that he came that very day when I was thinking about what to do with the kitsune.
*flashback*
I was sitting on a swing in the park, thinking and minding my own business.
"Sakuragi, what's up?" someone said. I raised my bowed head and saw the spiky haired boy from Ryonan Team. His smile is obviously plastered on his face.
"What do you want, Sendoh?"
"Is anyone sitting there?" he pointed the swing beside me.
"No."
He sat beside me and we just stayed there for a few minutes. I returned to my musings. I was so into my thinking about the kitsune that I didn't heard a question that Sendoh asked. He tapped my shoulder to get my attention.
"Nani?"
"Are you alright. You looked bothered."
"I'm fine.. I'm just thinking... about things..."
"You *think*?" he said with a mischievous gleam in his eye.
"Nani?!?! Are you saying that the Tensai doesn't think!"
*end flashback*
That started our friendship with each other. He's not as bad as I thought and he gives me a few pointers in basketball as well. I never got the chance to say that to Rukawa though. I do hang out with him as well but not that frequently anymore. Everytime I thought about the Kitsune sleeping and seeing his blue eyes and smiling at me, I can't help but blush.
As I looked at him while playing, he seems fine and nothing wrong at the moment. I continued practicing and doing wHat I usually do. The practice went on normally in my point of view, which is receiving few fan slaps and "Gori Punches".
After sowering and changing my clothes, I was ready to play once again with the spiky haired clown. As soon as I left the locker room, there stood from the door of the gym is the clown himself, Sendoh, grining as usual. Everyone in the team who was walking towards the exit halted and looked at him.
"What are you doing here Sendoh?" Akagi asked.
"Picking someone up..." and looked at me.
I walked towards him and gestured him to move on. He followed me and I looked back. Most of the members of the basketball club had their mouths agape, the others had those questioning eyes, but the face I was looking for was not there. He was nowhere to be found. I just sighed and looked towards my destination once again.
*Ring*
"Moshi moshi, Sakuragi residence.."
"Hey, Hanamichi!"
"Oh, it's you Sendoh, what's up?" I asked nonchalantly.
"Nothing, I just want to talk something..."
Nice answer but my simple brain accepted it. We talked and talked about all things. Only half of myself is listening while the other half was thinking about a blue-eyed boy. Then I heard something from the Ryonan clown that caught my attention. I think it was the name of the kitsune.
"What was that again, Sendoh?" I asked.
"I said I like Rukawa..." So I was right, he did mention his name in between the conversations. Then, all I can see is red. Jealousy took over.
"He's mine!" I said, not thinking of the consenquences.
"Take it easy, I'm not going to kidnap him and he's all yours, I just said that I like him..."
"Gomen, I guess I act impulsively..."
Then the conversations shifted to another topic. I was relieved that he didn't mention his name again. I guess he got the message.
That night, I was thinking things through again. I guess he's not interested, I said to myself. I sighed again and slept, not noticing that a teardrop escaped my eye.
Everyday Sendoh came to Shohoku to pick me up and we will play 1 on 1 on the court near my house. If the kitsune felt any anger towards me, he didn't let it show. His mask of coldness was there once again and I couldn't reach to him anymore. I guess I was wrong in doing that but I didn't know that he would react strongly about it. I didn't know what to do anymore.
Then one day it finally came, his anger lashing out. He walked towards me with deadly ccuracy. I was talking to Yohei about something when he came unannounced. I looked at him and I saw fire of anger.
"If you don't want me, tell me!" he said with coldness he can then turned and walk away as if nothing happened.
Right then and there, I broke down and cried in front of Yohei. I didn't care if he saw me or what. He didn't asked any questions, just comforted me and telling me its ok, he understands.
I got home with a sad face. The rain poured but I didn't care if I was soaked. I took out my key and got inside the house. I ran towards my bedroom and cried again and again. I slept for a moment. I thought I can have my peace in my sleep but I was wrong. His face full of anger came and haunt me. His eyes full of blazing fire looked to me. I screamed and cried again.
That's when my depression took over. I went inside the bathroom again and grabbed the razor. It hurt but I needed the pain. I need something to cover the pain that's inside my heart...