The Wait
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 8: Understanding Between Two Friends
I felt giddy and my sadness totally disappeared as I looked at the letter once again. I never felt anything like this before. Everything seems beautiful in my sight. I walked towards the gym to practice and to talk to the blue-eyed kitsune. everthing wa going smoothly until I felt he was avoidng me at all costs. He didn't even muttered the famous "Do'ao".
"What's the matter with you?" Mitsui asked all of a sudden. I looked at him but I didn't reply at all. I just stared at the floor and walked away. I don't what o do now. He didn't want to talk to me and I can't seem to find a good time to talk with him, alone.
The practice ended sudden;y and everyone is scrambling up to go to the locker room to change. I was left alone, pondering on how would approach the Kitsune.
"Hanamichi!" someone called me from behind. I whirled around and saw Sendoh there, grinning like an idiot. I scowled at him in return.
"I.... uhm... I'm the cleaning duty for the day... I can't come"
"Sure, ja..." he said as he walked away. I didn't realize that I held my breath for a while. I breathe a sigh of relief. went to the locker room and asked to see who was going to be the cleaning monitor. Gori said that it was me and Rukawa. Perfect!
I grabbed the mop that was in the cabinet and started moppping the gym. As I expected, Rukawa came and mopped as well. He didn't looked at me, just mopped and mopped. This is going to be harder than I thought. We mopped in silence until we were done. I turned to see Rukawa walking towards the locker room.
"A..no, kitsune..." I started. He turned. That's a good sign... His eyes bore into my mask and it instantly cracked. My heartbeat quickened its pace and cold sweat run over my body. I opened my mouth but nothing came out.
"What is it, Do'aho?"
"A..no... uhm... are you mad at me?" I asked, stammering. His eyes registered surprise than it came back to the cold, unfeeling gaze. I shifted my eyes to the floor as to not look at his eyes. I felt drowning in those cold depths.
"No.."
I was relieved when he said that. I didn't know what to do if he said that he was mad at me. His eyes were no longer icy, only liquid fire that is filled with sadness. I don't kno what to say anymore. Everything in my mind went blank as I stare to those saphire eyes. Few seconds of silence gave me time to reconstruct what I need to say.
"I didn't mean to do it... I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." A tear escaped my eyes then another, then another until I can't stop crying anymore. I sank to my knees and bowed my head. I don't know what to say anymore. Everything is a huge mistake, everything I do is a mistake! They were right, I should not have lived! Everything in my life is a huge mistake! Then I felt someone embracing me, stroking my back, soothing my pain like a child.
"Shh.. It's alright, I'm here.." he whispered into my ear. I just cried and cried on his chest until I could not cry no more. His scent is intoxicating my senses. I slip away from his embrace and looked at him.
"Thank you.. Rukawa..."
"Kaede"
"Kaede.." I blushed as I tried his name.
"Let's go home Hana-kun.."
"Hai.." He walked me home and bid me goodnight. I slept peacefully that night, no nightmares, just his face that smiled at me always. I felt that I was on the top of the world.
We've became good friends. I didn't mind if the basketball team teased me endlessly about being close to Kaede. I just blush in response and walk away. Kaede didn't mind it as well. His cold expression doesn't give anything but I know he was embarrassed. I still kept playing with Sendoh after practices but Kaede accompanies me to our 1 on 1 and sometimes join in. He still doesn't trust the clown but he didn't show it, I just feel it.
But then, something is tugging inside my heart, longing for something else. I know that we love each other but I want us to be more than friends. It triggered when Micchy asked me a question that I didn't want to answer. He said that if answered it then he will tell something to me. Yup, he's in love with a guy too but apparently, that guy is not noticing his advances and just shrugs in reply, like Kaede I guess.
*flashback*
That day was cloudy and Sendoh and I decided that we are not going to play. He said that it might rain and we might get ourselves sick playing in the rain. I was walking towards my home after I walked Kaede home when someone called me from behind.
"Oi, Sakuragi, matte yo!" I turned and saw that Micchy was running towards me.
"Nani, Micchy?"
He scowled as he heard the nickname I gave to him. He catched his breath and tried to shout at me for not calling him like that. His name is itsui not Micchy as I usually call him.
"I'm Mitsui, got it, Sakuragi?"
"Whatever you say, Micchy" I grinned as I see his scowl again. we walked quietly side by side.
"Ne, Sakuragi, can I ask you something?"
"Yah, sure, Micchy, shoot..."
"Do you love him?"
I was stunned with the question. I didn't know that he would ask me that question. I blushed with embarassment and kept quiet. My strides became longer, wanting to walk faster and leave the scarred man behind but he was fast and grabbed my wrist.
"Let go, Micchy, i don't need to tell you anything...."
"If you love each other, why aren't you dating?"
"I..." I started to say but he didn't pause.
"You should be lucky that he returnsyour feelings. You two should be happy!" I noted a little tinge of pain in his voice as he spoke. Obiously, he has someone in mind but apparently he dind't reciprocate his feelings.
"Who is it Micchy?" I dared to ask.
"Who do you think?"
I looked at the possibilities of his little love. Gori.... nah, he's too damn scary, Ryota... nope, they are very alike, Kaede... I don't think so, but maybe... "Kaede?"
He was shock at my answer then laughed out loud.
"No, he's not the one... tell you something, if I told you who is it, will you answer my question?"
I nodded in response. My curiosity got he best of me but curiosity killed the cat, right? I really don't care that time. I'm dying to know who was the scarred man's secret love.
"It's Kogure..." he smiled as he said his name. I little tint of red came to his cheeks.
"Megane-kun?"
He only nodded in response. His blush became a bright red. I guess I left out Megane-kun behind. Come to think of it, Micchy usually teases Megane-kun when they were together.
"So, are you in love with Rukawa?" he asked. I blushed once again. I wondered how many times do I need to blush until my cheeks are permanently red.
"Yes, I'm in love with him but I don't think he wants a relationship with me, are you satisfied Micchy?"
"No, have you asked him if he wants to or not?"
*end of flashback*
Yes, did I asked him yet? No.... I should ask him, I shouldn't jump into conclusions. With my mind made up in asking Kaede if he wanted a relationship, I grabbed a pen and paper and started a writing a letter, asking him...
I just hope he wouldn't say no...
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 8: Understanding Between Two Friends
I felt giddy and my sadness totally disappeared as I looked at the letter once again. I never felt anything like this before. Everything seems beautiful in my sight. I walked towards the gym to practice and to talk to the blue-eyed kitsune. everthing wa going smoothly until I felt he was avoidng me at all costs. He didn't even muttered the famous "Do'ao".
"What's the matter with you?" Mitsui asked all of a sudden. I looked at him but I didn't reply at all. I just stared at the floor and walked away. I don't what o do now. He didn't want to talk to me and I can't seem to find a good time to talk with him, alone.
The practice ended sudden;y and everyone is scrambling up to go to the locker room to change. I was left alone, pondering on how would approach the Kitsune.
"Hanamichi!" someone called me from behind. I whirled around and saw Sendoh there, grinning like an idiot. I scowled at him in return.
"I.... uhm... I'm the cleaning duty for the day... I can't come"
"Sure, ja..." he said as he walked away. I didn't realize that I held my breath for a while. I breathe a sigh of relief. went to the locker room and asked to see who was going to be the cleaning monitor. Gori said that it was me and Rukawa. Perfect!
I grabbed the mop that was in the cabinet and started moppping the gym. As I expected, Rukawa came and mopped as well. He didn't looked at me, just mopped and mopped. This is going to be harder than I thought. We mopped in silence until we were done. I turned to see Rukawa walking towards the locker room.
"A..no, kitsune..." I started. He turned. That's a good sign... His eyes bore into my mask and it instantly cracked. My heartbeat quickened its pace and cold sweat run over my body. I opened my mouth but nothing came out.
"What is it, Do'aho?"
"A..no... uhm... are you mad at me?" I asked, stammering. His eyes registered surprise than it came back to the cold, unfeeling gaze. I shifted my eyes to the floor as to not look at his eyes. I felt drowning in those cold depths.
"No.."
I was relieved when he said that. I didn't know what to do if he said that he was mad at me. His eyes were no longer icy, only liquid fire that is filled with sadness. I don't kno what to say anymore. Everything in my mind went blank as I stare to those saphire eyes. Few seconds of silence gave me time to reconstruct what I need to say.
"I didn't mean to do it... I'm sorry, I'm so sorry..." A tear escaped my eyes then another, then another until I can't stop crying anymore. I sank to my knees and bowed my head. I don't know what to say anymore. Everything is a huge mistake, everything I do is a mistake! They were right, I should not have lived! Everything in my life is a huge mistake! Then I felt someone embracing me, stroking my back, soothing my pain like a child.
"Shh.. It's alright, I'm here.." he whispered into my ear. I just cried and cried on his chest until I could not cry no more. His scent is intoxicating my senses. I slip away from his embrace and looked at him.
"Thank you.. Rukawa..."
"Kaede"
"Kaede.." I blushed as I tried his name.
"Let's go home Hana-kun.."
"Hai.." He walked me home and bid me goodnight. I slept peacefully that night, no nightmares, just his face that smiled at me always. I felt that I was on the top of the world.
We've became good friends. I didn't mind if the basketball team teased me endlessly about being close to Kaede. I just blush in response and walk away. Kaede didn't mind it as well. His cold expression doesn't give anything but I know he was embarrassed. I still kept playing with Sendoh after practices but Kaede accompanies me to our 1 on 1 and sometimes join in. He still doesn't trust the clown but he didn't show it, I just feel it.
But then, something is tugging inside my heart, longing for something else. I know that we love each other but I want us to be more than friends. It triggered when Micchy asked me a question that I didn't want to answer. He said that if answered it then he will tell something to me. Yup, he's in love with a guy too but apparently, that guy is not noticing his advances and just shrugs in reply, like Kaede I guess.
*flashback*
That day was cloudy and Sendoh and I decided that we are not going to play. He said that it might rain and we might get ourselves sick playing in the rain. I was walking towards my home after I walked Kaede home when someone called me from behind.
"Oi, Sakuragi, matte yo!" I turned and saw that Micchy was running towards me.
"Nani, Micchy?"
He scowled as he heard the nickname I gave to him. He catched his breath and tried to shout at me for not calling him like that. His name is itsui not Micchy as I usually call him.
"I'm Mitsui, got it, Sakuragi?"
"Whatever you say, Micchy" I grinned as I see his scowl again. we walked quietly side by side.
"Ne, Sakuragi, can I ask you something?"
"Yah, sure, Micchy, shoot..."
"Do you love him?"
I was stunned with the question. I didn't know that he would ask me that question. I blushed with embarassment and kept quiet. My strides became longer, wanting to walk faster and leave the scarred man behind but he was fast and grabbed my wrist.
"Let go, Micchy, i don't need to tell you anything...."
"If you love each other, why aren't you dating?"
"I..." I started to say but he didn't pause.
"You should be lucky that he returnsyour feelings. You two should be happy!" I noted a little tinge of pain in his voice as he spoke. Obiously, he has someone in mind but apparently he dind't reciprocate his feelings.
"Who is it Micchy?" I dared to ask.
"Who do you think?"
I looked at the possibilities of his little love. Gori.... nah, he's too damn scary, Ryota... nope, they are very alike, Kaede... I don't think so, but maybe... "Kaede?"
He was shock at my answer then laughed out loud.
"No, he's not the one... tell you something, if I told you who is it, will you answer my question?"
I nodded in response. My curiosity got he best of me but curiosity killed the cat, right? I really don't care that time. I'm dying to know who was the scarred man's secret love.
"It's Kogure..." he smiled as he said his name. I little tint of red came to his cheeks.
"Megane-kun?"
He only nodded in response. His blush became a bright red. I guess I left out Megane-kun behind. Come to think of it, Micchy usually teases Megane-kun when they were together.
"So, are you in love with Rukawa?" he asked. I blushed once again. I wondered how many times do I need to blush until my cheeks are permanently red.
"Yes, I'm in love with him but I don't think he wants a relationship with me, are you satisfied Micchy?"
"No, have you asked him if he wants to or not?"
*end of flashback*
Yes, did I asked him yet? No.... I should ask him, I shouldn't jump into conclusions. With my mind made up in asking Kaede if he wanted a relationship, I grabbed a pen and paper and started a writing a letter, asking him...
I just hope he wouldn't say no...