The Wait
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 9: Jealousy of a Blue-eyed Boy
So, Micchy is really in love with Megane-kun. I saw them while we were practicing. Megane-kun, Micchy, Gori visited the team to ensure that we are really practicing, like we need to be visited. Micchy is trying really hard to be noticed my Megane-kun but apparently, Megane-kun is doing something else.
*flashback*
"Ne, Kimi-chan, 1 on 1?" Micchy asked.
I heard him say then Megane-kun's eyes sparked. I guess it was the wrong to say. after that, I only saw blurred vision of them running around. Megane-kun is holding Ayako's paper fan and trying to land a perfect hit on Micchy's head.
"Nani Kimi-chan? What's your problem?" I heard Micchy screamed as they an.
"I told you not to call me Kimi-chan!" the other wailed.
That went on until Gori stepped in and landed a punch on Micchy's head. I smirked since I was not the only recipient of that punch anymore.
*end flashback*
As I walked out of the gum, I saw Kaede waiting for me. He was leaning on a tree trunk and apparently fast asleep again. I tapped him on the shoulder to wake him up. He slowly opened his eyelids and smiled.
"What took you so long?" he asked groggily and yawned. He was so cute when he yawned. I blushed at the thought.
"Gomen.." I scratched my head as always. "Gori wanted to talk to me about something..."
He nodded and started walking towards my house. As I walked towards the door I turned around.
"Ne, Kaede... here.." I said giving him the letter. He looked at it and raised an eyebrow. "Take it.." I said and put it in his hand. I opened the door and left him there standing. I think my heart skipped several beats before I calmed myself up. God, that was so embarassing! My face felt hot. I walked towards the kitchen and prepared me something to eat.
I was waiting for his answer the next day but he didn't seem remember the letter. He just played like he played always, the ace of shohoku. Cold and distant eyes bore through me when he looked at me. Nothing srange there though. I didn't push him to say anything, he will say it if he's ready. But for once, he didn't wait for me. I walked out of the gym and never saw him there.
"Sakuragi, are you alright?" Micchy asked.
I nodded. That was the only answer I can give.
"Where is Rukawa anyway?"
"I don't know..."
"What happened?"
"Well, I did what you told hme and I asked. I've written a letter..."
"Then, what did he say about the letter?"
"Nothing... he didn't say anything..." I shrugged.
The next day, I got the answer I needed. He wrote it in a letter as well. I practiced and I didn't bother him about it. He still didn't wait for me though. I was in the locker room when I read the letter..
I'M SORRY BUT I CAN'T ACCEPT IT. I LOVE YOU BUT I CAN'T STAKE MY IDENTITY FOR IT. I'M AFRAID THAT IF EVERYBODY KNOWS, OUR SITUATION WOULD BE CRITICIZED AND I DON'T LIKE THAT. AGAIN I'M SORRY AND I LOVE YOU...
KAEDE
I was heartbroken. I felt a tear roll down my cheeks. I brushed it away. I didn't know what to say. I smiled to myself and folded the letter. I knew in my heart that he didn't mean to break my heart. I understand him, I really do and will respect his decision for it. He loves me but he doesn't want to take the risk. I don't know what to do. I walked out of the gym and someone called me.
"Oi, Sakuragi, over here!" someone called me. I looked and saw Sendoh there, waving his hands and grinning like an idiot. I walked towards him and smiled.
"What are you doing here?" I asked politely, hiding my disappointment that it was Sendoh with me, not Kaede.
"We play everyday, right? Hey, where's Rukawa?"
"Oh, he went home already... I think he doesn't feel like playing"
After we played a tiring game, we both slumped on the ground, catching our breaths. After minutes of panting, I stood up and grabbed my things. I was going to leave when Sendoh called me.
"Nani? I'm going home, it's getting late!" I wailed.
"I'll walk you home, I need tostop by somewhere in that area to greet my bestfriend anyway..." he said while arranging his things.
I agreed, what would happen anyway? We walked towards the house of his bestfriend while talking about him all the way. The only thing I gathered was his name was Koshino Hiroaki and he was his bestfriend since his elementary years. Toda was his birthday and he wanted to greet him and leave.
"Do you want to come with me to Koshino's place?" he asked casually.
I nodded. Why not? Sendoh's my friend anyway and besides, having more friends or acquaintances would be fun. We reached the place and he pressed on the doorbell. A guy came out and grinned at him.
"Hey, Sendoh!!! I thought you didn't remember!" said the man while trying to rumple the clowns hair. I wonder how does his hair stand like that?
"Hey, Kosh, this is Sakuragi..." I waved at him and smiled. They talked a while and I just listened. As we said our goodyes, Koshino called Sendoh to talk to him alone. I looked at them and just waited. I'm in no mood to eavesdrop. After the short talk between friends, we walked towards my home.
"Sakuragi..."
"Nani, Sendoh?" I asked looking ar him questioningly. He smiled. God, is his smile always glued to his face and never fades away? I wonder if he has jaw ache with all those smiles that he gives...
"Is is alright if I give Koshino your number? He asked it..."
"Sure... whatever..." I said as I turned to the corner. I didn't mind at all, and I don't care. All I care about is the rejection which Kaede gave me this day. The rejection is slowly seeping through my soul and drowning it with all the venom it held. I looked at him and waved goodbye then I ran towards my house. Tears are threatening to spill any moment.
I took a shower and punched the walls until my hands are sore. I shut the water then toweled myself to dry. I dropped to the bed and stared at the ceiling.
*Ring... Ring....*
"Moshi... moshi..."
"Hey, Sakuragi-kun, it's me, Koshino, Sendoh's friend..."
"Oh, it's you, what do you want?" I asked impatiently. I really don't want to talk to anybody right now. I know I sounded grumpy but I don't care. He was busy talking with himself while looked at the wall and remembering the letter.
"Can I court you, Sakuragi-kun?" I snapped from my reverie. Did I heard it right?
"Nani?"
"I said, can I court you...?"
Silence. All I can see is Kaede. His hands on mine. His lips, his icy eyes. No, I don't want.. No, no, no, no....
"No.."
"Pardon...?"
"No..., I love another.."
"I understand..."
"Sayonara.... Koshino-san...." I dropped the receiver. A tear rolled down my cheek. I brushed it away but it seems more and more are falling.
I cried that night. The rejection was too much to take. I wanted to hurt myself again and again, again and again. I looked myself in the mirror and hated myself more. Why did it have to be like this? Why does it have to be like this? My sadness became hate and my hate became the fuel for my depression. I hated myself more. I punched the glass not feeling anyuthing. My hands were dripping with blodd, my blood. I looked at it and shruged. I grabbed my jacket and went to the hospital.
The next day, my right hand was in bandages. Imagine them all wide eyed with surprise written on their faces. I smiled at them and excused myself from playing basketball. I just sat there and watched them play. Akagi and the others are there as well, monitoring our progress.
"Hey, Sakuragi, what happend to your hand...?" Micchy asked. He sat beside me, smiling. I looked at Megane-kun. I wondered why was Micchy here while Megane-kun is on the other side of the gym, talking with Gori. He did noticed that I was looking at Gori and Megane-kun.
"Are those two...." I asked curiously.
"I don't know, but I wish they would tell me and the others if they are dating so I would not expect too much any more. He knows my feeling for him..."
I smiled sadly. I guess we're just the same in terms of lovelife. we can't have what we truly love. We just accept, never question. Just accept everything even if it hurts too much to begin with.
"So, your hand..." he asked again.
"I accidentally punched the mirror...instead the wall...." I said smiling, trying to make a humor out of it. Of course, i'm not going to tell the truth in what happened. I don't want people to worry about me. I don't want them to worry at all.
"How are you, anyway... Did Rukawa replied yet....?"
I nodded and relayed everything in the letter. I told also Koshino and what he said to me. He was surprise. I grinned and walked away. I grabbed a ball and started dribbling with my left hand.
"Sakuragi!" I turned around and saw Ayako calling me. I walked towards her and smiled. She grabbed the ball and point at the bench. I sighed and sat there, looking at Kaede. HIs strides, his jumps, his shoots and defence are all graceful.
The practice went smoothly. As the practice came to an end, everyone ran towards the locker room to change. I remained there seated and staring at the hoop. a hand waved in front of my face. I looked up and saw Micchy smiling at me. He sat beside me. We sat there quietly. He broke the silence which was probabaly defeaning him.
"Why don't you give Koshino a chance?" he said.
"I..." that was all I can say as a angry fox stormed out of the locker room looking grim. He faced us with his glare. His eyes were blazing with liquid fire.
"What do you mean ive him a chance?" he asked with venom. I looked at him and sighed. I stood up and walked away. Nothing seemed to go right for me anymore. Nothing at all....
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 9: Jealousy of a Blue-eyed Boy
So, Micchy is really in love with Megane-kun. I saw them while we were practicing. Megane-kun, Micchy, Gori visited the team to ensure that we are really practicing, like we need to be visited. Micchy is trying really hard to be noticed my Megane-kun but apparently, Megane-kun is doing something else.
*flashback*
"Ne, Kimi-chan, 1 on 1?" Micchy asked.
I heard him say then Megane-kun's eyes sparked. I guess it was the wrong to say. after that, I only saw blurred vision of them running around. Megane-kun is holding Ayako's paper fan and trying to land a perfect hit on Micchy's head.
"Nani Kimi-chan? What's your problem?" I heard Micchy screamed as they an.
"I told you not to call me Kimi-chan!" the other wailed.
That went on until Gori stepped in and landed a punch on Micchy's head. I smirked since I was not the only recipient of that punch anymore.
*end flashback*
As I walked out of the gum, I saw Kaede waiting for me. He was leaning on a tree trunk and apparently fast asleep again. I tapped him on the shoulder to wake him up. He slowly opened his eyelids and smiled.
"What took you so long?" he asked groggily and yawned. He was so cute when he yawned. I blushed at the thought.
"Gomen.." I scratched my head as always. "Gori wanted to talk to me about something..."
He nodded and started walking towards my house. As I walked towards the door I turned around.
"Ne, Kaede... here.." I said giving him the letter. He looked at it and raised an eyebrow. "Take it.." I said and put it in his hand. I opened the door and left him there standing. I think my heart skipped several beats before I calmed myself up. God, that was so embarassing! My face felt hot. I walked towards the kitchen and prepared me something to eat.
I was waiting for his answer the next day but he didn't seem remember the letter. He just played like he played always, the ace of shohoku. Cold and distant eyes bore through me when he looked at me. Nothing srange there though. I didn't push him to say anything, he will say it if he's ready. But for once, he didn't wait for me. I walked out of the gym and never saw him there.
"Sakuragi, are you alright?" Micchy asked.
I nodded. That was the only answer I can give.
"Where is Rukawa anyway?"
"I don't know..."
"What happened?"
"Well, I did what you told hme and I asked. I've written a letter..."
"Then, what did he say about the letter?"
"Nothing... he didn't say anything..." I shrugged.
The next day, I got the answer I needed. He wrote it in a letter as well. I practiced and I didn't bother him about it. He still didn't wait for me though. I was in the locker room when I read the letter..
I'M SORRY BUT I CAN'T ACCEPT IT. I LOVE YOU BUT I CAN'T STAKE MY IDENTITY FOR IT. I'M AFRAID THAT IF EVERYBODY KNOWS, OUR SITUATION WOULD BE CRITICIZED AND I DON'T LIKE THAT. AGAIN I'M SORRY AND I LOVE YOU...
KAEDE
I was heartbroken. I felt a tear roll down my cheeks. I brushed it away. I didn't know what to say. I smiled to myself and folded the letter. I knew in my heart that he didn't mean to break my heart. I understand him, I really do and will respect his decision for it. He loves me but he doesn't want to take the risk. I don't know what to do. I walked out of the gym and someone called me.
"Oi, Sakuragi, over here!" someone called me. I looked and saw Sendoh there, waving his hands and grinning like an idiot. I walked towards him and smiled.
"What are you doing here?" I asked politely, hiding my disappointment that it was Sendoh with me, not Kaede.
"We play everyday, right? Hey, where's Rukawa?"
"Oh, he went home already... I think he doesn't feel like playing"
After we played a tiring game, we both slumped on the ground, catching our breaths. After minutes of panting, I stood up and grabbed my things. I was going to leave when Sendoh called me.
"Nani? I'm going home, it's getting late!" I wailed.
"I'll walk you home, I need tostop by somewhere in that area to greet my bestfriend anyway..." he said while arranging his things.
I agreed, what would happen anyway? We walked towards the house of his bestfriend while talking about him all the way. The only thing I gathered was his name was Koshino Hiroaki and he was his bestfriend since his elementary years. Toda was his birthday and he wanted to greet him and leave.
"Do you want to come with me to Koshino's place?" he asked casually.
I nodded. Why not? Sendoh's my friend anyway and besides, having more friends or acquaintances would be fun. We reached the place and he pressed on the doorbell. A guy came out and grinned at him.
"Hey, Sendoh!!! I thought you didn't remember!" said the man while trying to rumple the clowns hair. I wonder how does his hair stand like that?
"Hey, Kosh, this is Sakuragi..." I waved at him and smiled. They talked a while and I just listened. As we said our goodyes, Koshino called Sendoh to talk to him alone. I looked at them and just waited. I'm in no mood to eavesdrop. After the short talk between friends, we walked towards my home.
"Sakuragi..."
"Nani, Sendoh?" I asked looking ar him questioningly. He smiled. God, is his smile always glued to his face and never fades away? I wonder if he has jaw ache with all those smiles that he gives...
"Is is alright if I give Koshino your number? He asked it..."
"Sure... whatever..." I said as I turned to the corner. I didn't mind at all, and I don't care. All I care about is the rejection which Kaede gave me this day. The rejection is slowly seeping through my soul and drowning it with all the venom it held. I looked at him and waved goodbye then I ran towards my house. Tears are threatening to spill any moment.
I took a shower and punched the walls until my hands are sore. I shut the water then toweled myself to dry. I dropped to the bed and stared at the ceiling.
*Ring... Ring....*
"Moshi... moshi..."
"Hey, Sakuragi-kun, it's me, Koshino, Sendoh's friend..."
"Oh, it's you, what do you want?" I asked impatiently. I really don't want to talk to anybody right now. I know I sounded grumpy but I don't care. He was busy talking with himself while looked at the wall and remembering the letter.
"Can I court you, Sakuragi-kun?" I snapped from my reverie. Did I heard it right?
"Nani?"
"I said, can I court you...?"
Silence. All I can see is Kaede. His hands on mine. His lips, his icy eyes. No, I don't want.. No, no, no, no....
"No.."
"Pardon...?"
"No..., I love another.."
"I understand..."
"Sayonara.... Koshino-san...." I dropped the receiver. A tear rolled down my cheek. I brushed it away but it seems more and more are falling.
I cried that night. The rejection was too much to take. I wanted to hurt myself again and again, again and again. I looked myself in the mirror and hated myself more. Why did it have to be like this? Why does it have to be like this? My sadness became hate and my hate became the fuel for my depression. I hated myself more. I punched the glass not feeling anyuthing. My hands were dripping with blodd, my blood. I looked at it and shruged. I grabbed my jacket and went to the hospital.
The next day, my right hand was in bandages. Imagine them all wide eyed with surprise written on their faces. I smiled at them and excused myself from playing basketball. I just sat there and watched them play. Akagi and the others are there as well, monitoring our progress.
"Hey, Sakuragi, what happend to your hand...?" Micchy asked. He sat beside me, smiling. I looked at Megane-kun. I wondered why was Micchy here while Megane-kun is on the other side of the gym, talking with Gori. He did noticed that I was looking at Gori and Megane-kun.
"Are those two...." I asked curiously.
"I don't know, but I wish they would tell me and the others if they are dating so I would not expect too much any more. He knows my feeling for him..."
I smiled sadly. I guess we're just the same in terms of lovelife. we can't have what we truly love. We just accept, never question. Just accept everything even if it hurts too much to begin with.
"So, your hand..." he asked again.
"I accidentally punched the mirror...instead the wall...." I said smiling, trying to make a humor out of it. Of course, i'm not going to tell the truth in what happened. I don't want people to worry about me. I don't want them to worry at all.
"How are you, anyway... Did Rukawa replied yet....?"
I nodded and relayed everything in the letter. I told also Koshino and what he said to me. He was surprise. I grinned and walked away. I grabbed a ball and started dribbling with my left hand.
"Sakuragi!" I turned around and saw Ayako calling me. I walked towards her and smiled. She grabbed the ball and point at the bench. I sighed and sat there, looking at Kaede. HIs strides, his jumps, his shoots and defence are all graceful.
The practice went smoothly. As the practice came to an end, everyone ran towards the locker room to change. I remained there seated and staring at the hoop. a hand waved in front of my face. I looked up and saw Micchy smiling at me. He sat beside me. We sat there quietly. He broke the silence which was probabaly defeaning him.
"Why don't you give Koshino a chance?" he said.
"I..." that was all I can say as a angry fox stormed out of the locker room looking grim. He faced us with his glare. His eyes were blazing with liquid fire.
"What do you mean ive him a chance?" he asked with venom. I looked at him and sighed. I stood up and walked away. Nothing seemed to go right for me anymore. Nothing at all....