The Wait
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 14: Blinded by Passion, Broken by Loneliness
I went to school the next day feeling nothing. I felt empty inside. I still play basketball though and I still played very well. I still cooperated with the others. The only difference is that I'm reserved to myself. I didn't say anything to anybody, even Kaede for that matter. They thought that we had a big fight that ended everything, but it's not true, I just don't want to talk. What's their problem anyway? What if I don't talk? Sheesh, people are so stupid sometimes!
I walked out of the gym after practice when I saw Sendoh by the park dribbling the ball. I walked up to him. He saw me and his smile is glued to his face again. Boy, can't he stop smiling for a second?!
"Sakuragi, do you want to play?"
I nodded and dropped my bag. We played until I can not move anymore. My muscles are protesting from too much playing. I welcomed the pain and it suddenly stopped the the aching inside my heart for a while. I closed my eyes to accept the pain.
"Sakuragi, daijoubu?"
"I'm fine..." I lied. I stood up and grabbed my bag. I walked home with every pain I received from practicing but I don't care. I don't care anymore. Everything is nothing. Everything I dreamt about me and Kaede is nothing but mere fantasies of a child. I reached my abode and sat on the couch. I've never felt tired in my life. The memories draind me of my emotions, while basketball drained me of my stamina.
*ring ring*
I looked at the phone ringing it's receiver off its bod. I tried to ignore it but the ringing is disturbing the peacefulness in my house. I stood up and picked the offending thing.
"Moshi, moshi?" I answered.
"Ne, Sakuragi-kun... It's me, Koshino..."
"What do you want?" I asked, hint of irritation visible in my voice. I really don't want to talk to anybody especially this guy.
"Are you alright? Sendoh said that you might be feeling lonely..."
"Sendoh? What would a smiley clown know about these anyway?" anger flaring in my voice. How dare that clown meddle withmy affairs?!?!?! I slammed the phone in anger and went back to the couch. I hugged myself and let my tears flow.
I don't know what happen next but when I woke up, I was in the hospital. Everything was white. I sat up when the door opened. I saw my team mates enter with smiles on their faces. I'm still trying to figure out why I was in this place.
"How are you, Sakuragi-kun?" Ayako asked.
"What am I doing here?" I asked scratching my head. I squinted in pain when my wrist came in contact of my head. I saw it has bandages. My eyes widened with the realization that I slashed myself again but this time, I did it a little too deep for convenience. I scowled at the thought.
"Does it hurt, Sakuragi-kun?...." Ayako said, her voice full of worry. "...You shouldn't have done that! It's a stupid thing to do! You can't solve your problems with that kind of action. You...."
"Shut up and get out of my room..." I whispered. Everyone was taken back with my action. I looked at them and smirked. They thought I was crazy.
"Sakuragi, are you really alright?" Miyagi asked.
"Did you think ths was the first time I did it? I just miscalculated the depth of the slash I was giving myself AGAIN, I'm sorry to have worried you, I can take care of myself..." I said. They looked so shocked that I wished I had my camera with me to take pictures. I smirked again wishing them to just disappear. Then my luck changed when the doctor came and pushed everyone out of the room. He said the patient needs a lots of rest.
I idn't know how long I was in that room but everytime I opened my eyes, Kaede was there sleeping on the chair or sometimes on the sofa nearby. But one day, I saw a different person looking at me. He was smiling when I woke up.
"Are you alright Sakuragi-kun?" he asked, his voice full of concern.
"What are you doing here Koshino?"
I turned to the door and saw Kaede glaring at Koshino. I saw his eyes shouting "murder" in them. Kaede walked towards us. I didn't care what will happen to them. I don't care anymore. I just turned away from either of them and put the blanket above my head. I slept again. I just sleep and sleep until I was discharged of the hospital. I looked at the stiched on my wrist. It still fresh so I have to put some bandages on it.
*ring ring*
I grabbed the receiver and spoke to Koshino for a while. I felt nothing and he's the one who usually talks about himself.
"Ne, Sakuragi-kun, have you decided about my proposition?" Koshino asked.
"What proposition?" I asked.
"If I can court you and be your boyfriend..."
I haven't thought about it. I didn't want to think about it and yet here he was thinking that he has a chance. I really don't care what happened, hat would happen anyway?
"Yes, yes you can..."
I dropped the receiver to its place and still felt empty, lonely, nothing. A void has been formed in my heart. Then I regretted that I said yes to Koshino that time. I regretted it as my dreams of me and Kaede came to me like it was yesterday.
"I'm stupid, I'm nothing," I rant and rant things like over and over again until I slept on couch, tears flowed like water.
by Rien
Standard disclaimers apply
Chapter 14: Blinded by Passion, Broken by Loneliness
I went to school the next day feeling nothing. I felt empty inside. I still play basketball though and I still played very well. I still cooperated with the others. The only difference is that I'm reserved to myself. I didn't say anything to anybody, even Kaede for that matter. They thought that we had a big fight that ended everything, but it's not true, I just don't want to talk. What's their problem anyway? What if I don't talk? Sheesh, people are so stupid sometimes!
I walked out of the gym after practice when I saw Sendoh by the park dribbling the ball. I walked up to him. He saw me and his smile is glued to his face again. Boy, can't he stop smiling for a second?!
"Sakuragi, do you want to play?"
I nodded and dropped my bag. We played until I can not move anymore. My muscles are protesting from too much playing. I welcomed the pain and it suddenly stopped the the aching inside my heart for a while. I closed my eyes to accept the pain.
"Sakuragi, daijoubu?"
"I'm fine..." I lied. I stood up and grabbed my bag. I walked home with every pain I received from practicing but I don't care. I don't care anymore. Everything is nothing. Everything I dreamt about me and Kaede is nothing but mere fantasies of a child. I reached my abode and sat on the couch. I've never felt tired in my life. The memories draind me of my emotions, while basketball drained me of my stamina.
*ring ring*
I looked at the phone ringing it's receiver off its bod. I tried to ignore it but the ringing is disturbing the peacefulness in my house. I stood up and picked the offending thing.
"Moshi, moshi?" I answered.
"Ne, Sakuragi-kun... It's me, Koshino..."
"What do you want?" I asked, hint of irritation visible in my voice. I really don't want to talk to anybody especially this guy.
"Are you alright? Sendoh said that you might be feeling lonely..."
"Sendoh? What would a smiley clown know about these anyway?" anger flaring in my voice. How dare that clown meddle withmy affairs?!?!?! I slammed the phone in anger and went back to the couch. I hugged myself and let my tears flow.
I don't know what happen next but when I woke up, I was in the hospital. Everything was white. I sat up when the door opened. I saw my team mates enter with smiles on their faces. I'm still trying to figure out why I was in this place.
"How are you, Sakuragi-kun?" Ayako asked.
"What am I doing here?" I asked scratching my head. I squinted in pain when my wrist came in contact of my head. I saw it has bandages. My eyes widened with the realization that I slashed myself again but this time, I did it a little too deep for convenience. I scowled at the thought.
"Does it hurt, Sakuragi-kun?...." Ayako said, her voice full of worry. "...You shouldn't have done that! It's a stupid thing to do! You can't solve your problems with that kind of action. You...."
"Shut up and get out of my room..." I whispered. Everyone was taken back with my action. I looked at them and smirked. They thought I was crazy.
"Sakuragi, are you really alright?" Miyagi asked.
"Did you think ths was the first time I did it? I just miscalculated the depth of the slash I was giving myself AGAIN, I'm sorry to have worried you, I can take care of myself..." I said. They looked so shocked that I wished I had my camera with me to take pictures. I smirked again wishing them to just disappear. Then my luck changed when the doctor came and pushed everyone out of the room. He said the patient needs a lots of rest.
I idn't know how long I was in that room but everytime I opened my eyes, Kaede was there sleeping on the chair or sometimes on the sofa nearby. But one day, I saw a different person looking at me. He was smiling when I woke up.
"Are you alright Sakuragi-kun?" he asked, his voice full of concern.
"What are you doing here Koshino?"
I turned to the door and saw Kaede glaring at Koshino. I saw his eyes shouting "murder" in them. Kaede walked towards us. I didn't care what will happen to them. I don't care anymore. I just turned away from either of them and put the blanket above my head. I slept again. I just sleep and sleep until I was discharged of the hospital. I looked at the stiched on my wrist. It still fresh so I have to put some bandages on it.
*ring ring*
I grabbed the receiver and spoke to Koshino for a while. I felt nothing and he's the one who usually talks about himself.
"Ne, Sakuragi-kun, have you decided about my proposition?" Koshino asked.
"What proposition?" I asked.
"If I can court you and be your boyfriend..."
I haven't thought about it. I didn't want to think about it and yet here he was thinking that he has a chance. I really don't care what happened, hat would happen anyway?
"Yes, yes you can..."
I dropped the receiver to its place and still felt empty, lonely, nothing. A void has been formed in my heart. Then I regretted that I said yes to Koshino that time. I regretted it as my dreams of me and Kaede came to me like it was yesterday.
"I'm stupid, I'm nothing," I rant and rant things like over and over again until I slept on couch, tears flowed like water.