by: tlgirl
Rating: PG
Category: other
Disclaimer: blah blah blah . . . I don't own anything . . . you know the drill.
Author's Notes: I'm so sorry! I've been neglecting this fic forever. How long has it been since I wrote the prologue? Five months? Yeah I know. I apologize. The inspiration just wasn't there anymore. Season 5 is a huge disappointment. The writers wont even acknowledge that Pacey and Joey had a relationship at all. I'm this close to giving of on the show. I now realize how much Dawson's Creek really sucks. *sigh* Season 3 - now that was a worthwhile season. So I guess I dedicate this chapter to the glory that was Season 3. Don't give up PJers! The writers are stupid and blind idiots but keep the Pacey and Joey Pride Alive!
Summary: Ok, here's the deal. I don't feel like writing a million chapters for each of the characters on the show. So now all the goodbyes you'll read are from: Jen, Jack, Mr. Witter, Andie, Dawson, Joey, and an Epilogue. So that means seven more chapters of this baby and that's it.
Do you know how stupid you are, Pacey? What a stupid thing you did? You've done your share of outrageous and foolish decisions but never would I have thought that you would . . . you would do what you did.
I was so happy when I saw you at my doorstep. We were all so worried. I was afraid that we might never see you again. And when I saw you there, tanned and all muscled up, it gave me hope that things could work out between you and Joey.
I just didn't think that you were so eager to see her. There you were talking excitedly about your big adventure out at sea. You told me all the beautiful places you visited. And you told me how all those places didn't compare to Joey. You looked so happy to finally realize how much she meant to you. You looked like an anxious little boy on Christmas morning. How could I tell you that Dawson was in town visiting her? How could I crush your hopes? I couldn't. At the time, I thought that it wasn't my place. Joey should be the one to tell you. I had already caused damage when I accidentally spilled the beans about you and Joey to Dawson a year ago. What a mess that turned out to be. It wasn't my place, or so I thought at the time. Maybe if I had made an excuse about the storm or something, anything to prevent you from going out there and killing yourself.
And before I could think twice about telling you, you asked to borrow my car and and you sped off without even saying goodbye. I don't even want to think about what happened after that.
You were always the strong one in our group of friends. You always stayed true to yourself and you didn't take shit from anybody. You were the one who was the most grounded and we always depended on you.
What I am grateful for though, is my last memory of you. Your eyes lit up and were dancing. There was laughter in your voice and life in your soul. That's how I want to remember you. Not as some cold, lifeless corpse in a coffin.
But just know Pacey that you'll forever be in my heart. And I promise that I'll always remember you.
by: Sarah McLachlan
I will remember you, will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories
Remember the good times that we had?
I let them slip away from us when things got bad
how clearly I first saw you smilin' in the sun
wanna feel your warmth upon me, I wanna be the one
I will remember you, will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories
I'm so tired but I can't sleep
standin' on the edge of something much too deep
it's funny how we feel so much but we cannot say a word
we are screaming inside, but we can't be heard
but I will remember you, will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories
I'm so afraid to love you, but more afraid to lose
clinging to a past that doesn't let me choose
once there was a darkness, deep and endless night
you gave me everything you had, oh you gave me light
And I will remember you, will you remember me?
don't let your life pass you by, weep not for the memories
And I will remember you...
Weep not for the memories