It seemed
like hours since Elizabeth had left Kelly's, but in reality
it had been only ten minutes. And in that time, Alexis and Jax had arrived at
penthouse 3 to keep Elizabeth company. But the only thing Elizabeth had in mind was pacing. From one
side of the bullet-proof picture window to the other, waiting for a glimpse of
Sonny's sleek, black limo as it slid into the parking garage.
Alexis, knowing how Elizabeth could get, brought her attaché case with so she
could review a few contracts for the Corinthos-Morgan Coffee Warehouse as well
as scan her briefs to make sure everything was in order for Monday morning. She
looked up when Jax walked in from the kitchen with a tray of chamomile tea.
Alexis fixed one cup for herself, then another for Elizabeth.
The hand on Elizabeth's shoulder ceased her pacing, but her eyes remained on
the tableau below her. Couples taking leisurely walks through the park. A near
accident at the entrance of the parking garage. A young couple walking, their
child linking them together. Tears welled up, a lump formed in her throat. She
pictured herself and Jason with Abby singing between them, her musical laugh
lighting up her bright blue eyes. Elizabeth turned to face Alexis, her eyes
shining, her tears subsiding. Her hands took the cup of tea that was offered to
her, but she made no move to drink it.
"I can't possibly know what you're going through, but you should drink this
anyway. Jax made it, so it's not toxic." The attorney's dimples flashed, which
caused Elizabeth to offer up a small grin of her own.
Taking an obligatory sip of the tea, her eyes focused on the young couple as
they disappeared under the canopy of trees. "Three years, Alexis. Three years
she's been gone and I've had to get used to living without her. For three years
she's lived with people who've lied to her. Who knows what they told her? I
wonder, did she ever ask for me, cry out at night for me? Wish I was there to
kiss her pain away?"
Absently, she placed the cup of tea on the art deco table, a housewarming gift
from Sonny back when she moved into the house in Buffalo. Her arms wrapped
around her chest and she shivered, her mind racing with all the lies Stryker
could've told her daughter.
"She has no idea who I am. No memories, no feelings. Will she be frightened of
me? Wary? She certainly won't trust me. Nor love me. What if- oh God, Alexis.
What if she cries out for him? What do I tell her? What can I possibly say to
her to help her understand? She loved him. His was the only family she ever
knew. I can't tell her the truth, she's too young. All she'll know is, we took
her from him, from her father."
The tears were falling now, from Elizabeth's eyes as well as Alexis' and Jax's.
The young woman turned from the window, her eyes volleying back and forth
between the couple. They couldn't give her the answers she so desperately
sought, nor take away the pain of three years of emptiness, but they knew they
would gladly die a thousand deaths, if only to ease the heartache of seeing her
so broken.
A tiny cry from the infant monitor alerted them all to a hungry Isabelle.
Wiping away the last of his tears, Jax wordlessly crossed the penthouse to wrap
his arms around Elizabeth. Her own arms wrapped around his waist, clenching as
tight as she could to let him know how much his presence in her life meant to
her. After placing a gentle kiss on her forehead, he left to tend to the waking
infant, and to give the two women their own time.
"Every time I imagine Abby coming home, I imagine myself running to her, arms
wide open, and scooping her up and never letting go. She blindly accepts that I
am who she should be with, that Jason and I are where she belongs." Elizabeth
shook her head in disgust. "I can't imagine what she must be thinking right
now. I mean, four strange men just come in and take her away? I'd be kicking
and screaming all the way, wanting to go back to everything that's familiar to
me, all the people who've taken care of me. Loved me."
"She'll know you love her, Elizabeth. There's no way she won't know that you
love her. Jason, too." Alexis guided her friend towards the sofa, grabbing a
box of Kleenex on the way. "You two are so full of love, for each other as well
as Abby. There's no way she won't feel it."
"You're right," Elizabeth agreed. "I'm just… I'm scared. These happy endings
are new territory for me, Alexis. I guess if I just imagine the worst things
that could happen, whatever does happen will seem better."
Just below the sound of Elizabeth's sniffling came the damped ding of the
elevator outside the door. If Elizabeth heard it, she gave no indication.
Excusing herself, Alexis retreated to Isabelle's room to retrieve her husband
and her goddaughter.
When she returned to the living room, she handed a freshly changed, and raring
to go Isabelle to her mother. "I need to discuss something with Jax out in the
hall for a minute," she lied. "We'll be right back." Leaning over, she kissed
Elizabeth on the temple and Isabelle on the forehead.
"Thank you for being here," Elizabeth offered. "You friendship is sometimes
more than I deserve." Without waiting for a reply, Elizabeth headed for the
kitchen to get Isabelle a cup of juice. She didn't even notice Alexis gather up
her papers and slip quietly out.
~*~
The elevator ride to the top of Harborview Towers was probably the longest of his
life. Jason cradled his sleeping daughter in his arms as Sonny stood beside
him. Johnny and Francis stood in front of them, as if they were fully expecting
trouble. When the elevator finally stopped, the two bodyguards exited quickly.
Jason turned to Sonny and said, "I never said thank you for helping
me."
Sonny waved off his friend's speech. "You don't have to, Jason. You'd do
the same for me in a heartbeat."
"I would. I still need to say thank you."
The older man's gaze shifted to the now awake child in his partner's arms.
"She's up," he said softly. He studied Abby's face as her eyes
opened. "She does have your eyes."
"That's what everyone keeps saying." Jason stepped out of the
elevator first and Sonny followed. He tipped his head towards Penthouse 3.
"You wanna come in?"
"You need to be with Elizabeth, Jason. Be with your family."
"You're part of that family too," Jason told him again.
"I know I am. But right now," he said in a soft voice, "you need
your wife and your wife needs you. I'll make some dinner and bring it over…just
go to her, Jason."
Jason pivoted to enter the penthouse, and nearly ran into Alexis and Jax
walking out. The pair just smiled, understanding that now was not the time nor
the place for a re-introduction. Jason watched them, waiting for the elevator
doors to close. He could see the mob boss standing where he left him and Jason
was sure tears were shining in Sonny's eyes. "Thank you Sonny," he
whispered.
The door to the penthouse remained open, and Jason waited a moment, watched
Abby as she watched Elizabeth playing with Isabelle on the
floor. A pile of blocks surrounded their feet, and the blonde child was
giggling incessantly. Jason could tell Elizabeth had been crying not long ago and
was grateful that Alexis was there to help comfort his wife.
He looked down when Abby started wriggling in his arms, silently working her
way out of his grasp. He carefully closed the door behind them before squatting
down, to let her go. He remained crouched when she took two tentative steps
towards an oblivious Elizabeth. The curious child pushed back a
stubborn lock of her chestnut hair to tuck it behind her ear, and Jason
imagined that, much like Elizabeth would do, Abby was chewing on her lower lip,
debating whether or not to join the fun.
The blonde child shrieked when her tower of blocks collapsed and she looked up
at her mother, her smile a mile wide. Out of the corner of her eye, Isabelle
noticed the shadow, and her sparkling eyes focused on Jason first. "Daddy!" she
cried before catapulting herself up from the floor and running straight into
Jason's waiting embrace.
He hugged her tightly, but his attention remained on Elizabeth. He'd heard her
gasp, saw her body tense. She didn't make any indication of turning around, and
Jason was about to go to her when he noticed Abby carefully making her way to
where Elizabeth was sitting. The toddler stopped just short of touching her
mother, and that's when Elizabeth slowly turned around.
Her gasp startled Abby, and the child's eyes widened in a mixture of fear and
fascination. And Jason had been right. Her tiny teeth were nibbling on her
lower lip in the very same way Elizabeth's did. Abby took stock of Elizabeth,
from the color of her hair, to the bare toes that peeked out from the cuffs of
her jeans. When her eyes settled back on her mother's face, she frowned, and
closed the distance. Her slim finger traced the salt trail left by the fresh
tears Elizabeth had shed, from right under her eye, to the point where the
drops skydived from her chin to the carpet below.
Elizabeth refused to move, for fear that her daughter would skitter away like a
shy fawn. The feeling of her touch, though, was the water that quenched a dying
man's thirst. Her eyes slipped shut and two more tears escaped, blessing the
child's fingers as it brushed the rogue tears away.
"Don't cry," she whispered, which only caused Elizabeth to cry more. To see her
daughter and feel her daughter were one thing. To have this child whom she'd
known all her life, yet didn't know at all, comfort her was beyond the scope of
understanding.
Feeling tears come to her own eyes, Abby could no more understand what she was
feeling than accept it. Yet she felt a compelling need to feel this woman's
arms around her, to bury her face in the woman's neck and drink in her scent.
"Can I- can I hug you?" she whispered. Her lower lip, now released from her
torturous teeth, trembled. Her arms twitched, not knowing whether to cross over
her chest in protection, or wrap around Elizabeth's slender neck, which seemed
so instinctual to her.
Elizabeth's eyelids flew open, her arms opening slowly, then folding themselves
around the child's tiny body. The emotions came rolling out; relief, sadness,
grief, hate, loneliness, despair, joy, heartache. The dam had been broken the
second Abby's cool arms wrapped around Elizabeth's neck. Her attention switched
from Abby to Jason, and she mouthed a 'thank you' to him before burying her
face in the silken hair of her daughter.
Abby remembered back to the times when she woke up in the middle of the night,
the remains of a nightmare slowly fading behind her eyes. Her father and Papa
always came rushing into the room to calm her, hugging her and smoothing her
hair, whispering words of comfort into her tiny shell ears. The words and
caresses served their purpose, but Abby always felt empty once they left her
room. She knew, even then, that something wasn't right.
Yet here, in the arms of a woman she'd never met, she felt safe and loved and
protected. Their bodies rocked back and forth, and Abby felt warmth grow inside
of her, filling her with a sense of peace. This woman, with her skin smelling
of lavender, did nothing, said nothing, but rock. Her body shook with three
years of pain being released, but Abby knew, somehow, that this was where she
was meant to be.
"Who's 'at?" a curious and non-emotional Isabelle asked her silently weeping
father.
"That's your sis-" Jason had to choke back a fresh wave of tears before looking
straight into Isabelle's eyes. "That's your sister."
"Sissy?" she repeated, looking back at her mother holding a strange child.
Jason nodded. "Her name's Abby."
"I go say hi," Isabelle decided. And before Jason could refuse, Isabelle marched
over to the pair and tapped Abby on the shoulder. Reluctantly, Abby extricated
herself from Elizabeth's embrace and faced the pint-sized blonde. "You Sissy,
me Isa."
Both Elizabeth and Jason chuckled at their daughters, and Abby's gaze shifted
between the three, and then back to Isabelle. She was about to say something
when Isabelle threw her arms around Abby's waist and squeezed tightly. She
grunted softly before letting her sister free, and offered Abby a smile.
Now that she felt a little better, Abby took a moment to look around the
penthouse. She noticed the pictures on the mantel and walked over to them. When
Jason realized what she was after, he stood up and followed her, picking her up
when she reached the fireplace. She studied each one thoroughly, especially one
of Jason and herself.
Elizabeth had taken it not quite a month after she was born. It had been an
especially long night for her with Jason gone, and Abby absolutely refusing to
go to sleep. Finally, at three in the morning, Jason crept in. An exhausted
Elizabeth nearly collapsed in his arms, and he noticed Abby gurgling away in
her swing. After he collected Elizabeth and brought her upstairs to get some
much needed sleep, he returned to the first floor and retrieved Abby from her swing.
Her eyes shined with a mixture of glee and exhaustion and she let out a sigh,
as if to say, "Finally, Daddy's home. Everything's ok." After a warm
bottle of breast milk, Abby's eyes could no longer stay open, and Jason found
his eyes playing the same game. Instead of taking his daughter up to her crib
to sleep, he stretched out on the sofa, leather jacket, motorcycles boots, and
all, and fell asleep, with Abby curled up under his chin.
Creeping down the stairs, Elizabeth felt this urge inside her to capture this
moment, as if it would never happen again. The picture, though, had been
forgotten about during the abduction of Abby and the aftermath. It wasn't until
Isabelle was born and Elizabeth began taking pictures of her that the picture
was recovered. Elizabeth's pain resurfaced that night, pain for her lost child,
her estranged husband, her hopes and dreams.
Jason took the picture from the mantle so Abby could get a closer look. The
child's fingers traced the tiny fist in the picture, continued up Jason's chin
to his nose, then his closed eyes, finally fluttering over his hair.
"That's you." It wasn't a question, but a statement.
Jason nodded, "And that baby is you, when you were barely a month old."
Elizabeth spoke next, a rapt Isabelle in her arms. She stood next to Jason and
Abby and told the story of how the photograph came to be, and how much it meant
to her. As she explained, the family crossed over to the couch and sat down.
Abby unconsciously wiggled her way over to her mother's lap where she rested
her again against Elizabeth's chest and closed her eyes, focusing more on the
sound of her voice and the beat of her heart than on what she was saying.
When Elizabeth was through, Abby took a second to collect her thoughts.
Elizabeth's fingers were combing through her hair, lulling her into a moment of
quiet reflection. "Mommy?" she questioned, making sure she understood the way
that things were going to be.
"Yes honey, this is your mommy."
Abby turned at the sound of Jason's voice, and her tiny hand cupped his angled
cheek. "Daddy?" Her eyes were wide, uncertainty darkening the clear blue orbs.
Jason merely nodded, he didn't trust his voice enough to answer her.
Isabelle, impatient for her turn, tugged on Abby's dress. "Sissy!" she cried,
making sure Abby wouldn't forget that.
Abby frowned, looked around the penthouse as she tried to think of a word for
it. She turned back to Elizabeth when she couldn't, hoping that her mother
could help her.
Jason knew exactly the word she was looking for.
Home.
