Elizabeth smiled
to herself when she felt Jason reach under the table and take her hand. His
thumb caressed her knuckles and he gave her hand a squeeze. When she turned to
look at him, he smiled at her. Jason didn't have to say anything, because she
knew what message he was trying to convey. Everything was finally going to be
okay.
Abby sat across from her, beside Jason, at the long dining room table. The boys
had recently helped move Elizabeth
and the girl's into Audrey Hardy's house, after Jason was sure Philip Scarcella
or Ronan Stryker would no longer threaten his family. Jason, however, stayed
behind at Harborview, like him and Elizabeth
had decided before. But there had been more than one morning when Elizabeth,
on her way downstairs to start a pot of coffee, discovered Jason asleep on the
couch with Abby stretched out across his chest.
The emotional reunion in the living room a month ago seemed to be the first of
many emotional reunions. Abby still hadn't gotten the concept of Uncle Sonny,
Francis, and Johnny. Much to Jason's dismay, she seemed to really take to Jax
though. The Australian and his lady lawyer came over often, as well. The nights
were roughest for them, though. Scarcella and Stryker both seemed to visit Abby
in her dreams. While the child understood she wouldn't be seeing her Papa
anymore, she still missed them. For two years, they were all she knew. As much
as she would never admit it, in some ways Elizabeth
was grateful to Scarcella for taking such good care of their daughter. She was
healthy, well taken care of, and loved. She had to believe Scarcella genuinely
loved Abby and that she hadn't been just another part of the job.
These thoughts had been running through Elizabeth's
mind since her little girl had first called her Mommy.
Elizabeth knew she would continue
to have her doubts until Abby slept through the night and stopped looking so
haunted. But for now, Elizabeth
pushed them aside when Sonny stood and gently tapped his fork against the wine
glass. She reached for her own water and turned to her old friend to listen as
he made his Thanksgiving toast.
Sonny gave all of his friends a wide smile when they turned to him. He didn't
know what he was supposed to say to them. Sonny knew he'd never be able to
express to them how much he loved and appreciated them. How empty his life
would be without them in it. He couldn't tell Jason that he was the first
family, outside of his mother, he'd ever had. Couldn't tell Elizabeth
he thought of her as a little sister and that her children lit up his otherwise
dim life.
He knew he might one day admit to Alexis that her friendship had pulled him out
of himself more than once. A phone call or just showing up to talk had saved
him from self-destruction. But Sonny knew he'd never admit he thought Jax was
good for her. The man he had hated for years for stealing away his one true
love had saved the attorney from a life filled with loneliness. For that, Sonny
would always be grateful to the man.
"First of all," he finally spoke, "I'd like to thank Elizabeth
for hosting us." He lifted his wine glass and motioned towards Elizabeth
before taking a drink.
"To Elizabeth," the
others agreed.
She blushed as she took a sip of her water. "There's no need, Sonny. My
home is your home." Elizabeth
paused and looked around the table and then said, "You're all welcome
here. Any time, day or night."
Sonny's eyes were shining with emotion. "Thank you, Elizabeth."
He turned his attention to the other end of the table and smiled at Jason. "And to Jason. I'm glad you've finally regained your
sanity." He lifted his glass to his friend and continued. "Of all the
people sitting around us, you were the first to make me feel like family. It
wasn't that you came to me years ago, needing someone. It wasn't that you needed
someone to see you for yourself, not as someone you used to be."
"Sonny–" Jason interrupted.
"No, let me finish," he insisted, his voice hoarse with emotion.
"This is family Jason, and there's no need to hide from them what they
already know. You are my brother. Your wife—she's my sister. Your children call
me 'Uncle.' When you were away, even though I know you had your reasons… it was
like part of me was gone. I'm glad you're back."
Six pairs of eyes shifted to Jason, waiting to see if he would say anything. Elizabeth
simply took his hand under the table as he had done for her earlier. She locked
their fingers and squeezed to give him the strength she knew he needed.
Jason nodded at his friend and swallowed the sudden lump in his throat. He
looked around to all of his friends, then to Isabelle who was gurgling away,
oblivious to what was going on around her. Finally his eyes settled on Abby who
was smiling at him. With his other hand he reached out and trailed the back of
his hand down her cheek. "Baby girl," he murmured.
When he finally looked up at Sonny, he saw that the older man was still
standing. "I…" he began, then stopped. He
turned to face Elizabeth and
smiled. "First, I need to say I'm sorry to you, Elizabeth. You are my
life, my whole world, and I forgot that for awhile." He sighed deeply when
he saw the tears pooling in her eyes. "You are an amazing woman and I know
I don't deserve you. But I want to say thank you for never giving up on me. I
love you, Elizabeth. With all of my heart.
"Sonny, I've said this several times recently, but again I need to say
thank you. For taking care of them, of me, in all the times
when I couldn't do it myself. "His eyes moved from the mobster's to
the rest of the table's occupants, he smiled briefly. "To
all of you, for taking care of Elizabeth. For being there when I couldn't… No, when I wouldn't.
After my accident, my sister told me you don't get to choose who your family,
but she was wrong. I got to choose after all. And I chose you."
After Jason finished speaking, Sonny shifted his eyes to Johnny and Francis.
Both guards were sitting there, trying to blend in so they wouldn't be called
out. Not wanting to embarrass them, Sonny lifted his glass again and said,
"To my guards, who have been there to save me more times than I can count.
My friends, my brothers, my family."
The adults lifted their glasses to his toast and drank. His attention then
turned to Alexis and Jax, who sat to his left. Alexis was paying more attention
to Isabelle who was playing with the snack crackers Elizabeth
had given her. Jax's attention was trained on his wife, his blue eyes glowing
with love as he watched them. "To my attorney," Sonny began. Alexis
looked away from the small child and smiled at him. "Who has put herself
and her reputation on the line more than once to save me.
"Alexis, I can't tell you how much you mean to me. Years ago, when we met,
you were adamant about not helping me. You only helped because of Jason and I
thank you for that. Now, we're more than just attorney and client, we're
friends. In recent years, you've saved me from myself more than I can tell you.
Just a telephone call or dropping by to see if I'm okay, you don't know how
important you were to me. With Jason gone and Elizabeth in Buffalo…you
were all I had," Sonny admitted. His heart warmed at the sight of tears
flowing freely down her cheeks. He could have sworn he saw Jax's eyes soften
towards him, too.
Sonny took a long swallow of his wine, leaving only a small amount in the
glass. He turned to the Australian and smirked. "Years ago, when you
arrived in Port Charles, I knew I hated you immediately. Not much has changed
since then, Jasper."
"Is there a point to this, Corinthos?" Jax asked. He felt Alexis
place a hand on his arm and he bit back his other comments.
"Like so many things, it was about a girl. One we both still remember and
love. And I think in her memory, we should bury this rivalry between us.
Sometimes I think about Brenda and I picture her in heaven. With angels on both
sides of her, surrounded by others we've loved and lost in Port Charles. I like
to think she has a family up there, and that she's not alone. That she's
finally happy.
"I imagine that she peeks in on us once in awhile, Jax. She might just
laugh at what she sees. After all these years, we still have this petty game of
one-upmanship going on. It's time for it to end. We're in each other's lives.
We didn't get to chose that, but that's how it will be." Sonny paused as
he sat his drink on the table and walked to where Jax was seated. He extended
his hand to the man and said, "Can we finally end this war we started all
of those years ago? I'm not saying we'll ever be friends, but we can at least
exist peacefully."
Silence hung in the room as all eyes were on the two men. Alexis held her
breath, hoping the two most important men in her life would finally put their
differences behind them. She couldn't express how proud of Sonny she was at
that moment. Alexis could only hope Jax would take the offered olive branch.
Jax studied the face of the man he'd called 'enemy' to see if he was sincere
before reaching out and shaking his hand. "For Brenda," he said
softly.
"And Alexis," Sonny added.
After Sonny was seated, Elizabeth
stood and began to speak, "Don't think you've been forgotten,
Andrew," she said to her guard. "I purposely asked Sonny to not say
anything to you.
"As hostess of this little get together, I'd like thank you for being here
with us today. I know you're mother passed away recently and I'm sorry for your
loss. I can't imagine what it's been like for you, but please know if you need
anything Jason and I are willing to give you anything you need." Elizabeth
glanced down at her husband and he nodded in agreement. "A few years ago,
I met this young, timid man who my best friend told me was my new guard. You
knew nothing about guarding someone, and I didn't have much more experience in
being guarded. Over the years, you've proved yourself time and again. You've
been there for me and for Isabelle. I'm grateful for the times you've picked
her up when she fell down. And I want to extend to you an invitation to join
our family. Always know that wherever you go, you always have a home."
Elizabeth sipped her water and then
slipped back into her seat. The bodyguard nodded towards her, but didn't say
anything. Andrew didn't know the words he could say that would express to his
'assignment' how much he cared for her and her daughters, how much her
friendship meant to him.
Alexis circled her finger around her water and sighed. She turned towards Jax,
and he nodded at her. Taking his hand in one of hers, she squeezed it softly.
"Since we're all sort of saying something here…" she shot a look at
Johnny and Francis, "Well most of us are saying something, Jax and
I have an announcement. We've known for over a month now, but first we wanted
to be sure—the doctors tell you that the first three months…" she trailed
off. She noticed Elizabeth's grin
and she nodded her head. "We're pregnant."
The table erupted in the mandatory congratulations, instantly thrusting Alexis
and Jax into the spotlight. Suddenly everyone wanted to know everything. Elizabeth
watched as her friends glowed at the news of their expanding family. She felt
Jason's fingers wrap around hers again and she turned to face him.
"I love you," he said softly.
Elizabeth smiled weakly at him, her
tears resurfacing. "I know." She turned in her chair so that he was
all she could see. Releasing her hand from his, she cupped his cheek. "I
love you, too."
Jason leaned forward and kissed her softly. He was glad they had a moment to
themselves and was grateful for Alexis' announcement. "I was thinking…that
maybe, in a week or so, you and I could have dinner together. If that's
okay."
"Jason," Elizabeth
teased. "Are you asking me out on a date?"
His hand covered hers on his face as he absently began to tug on her engagement
ring. It slipped off her finger easily and he held it between his thumb and
forefinger. "I love you, Elizabeth. So much that it scares me. I lost
sight of that once and I'll never forgive myself. I want another chance. So
yes, I'm asking you on a date. What do you say?"
The tears began to fall as she studied his face. Elizabeth
felt her heart expand with love for the amazing man sitting in front of her.
"Yes," she choked out. Joining her hands with his, she leaned forward
to kiss him. "Yes," she whispered against his lips.
Jason's hands came up to frame her face as he kissed her. His lips moved softly
over hers in a caress. He tasted the salt from her tears and it made him love
her all the more. How many tears had she cried for him, he wondered. How much
sleep had she lost, how many times had she wondered where he was? How many
times had she looked out into the night, remembering the way they were
together?
He knew he didn't deserve her, or her love, but he felt empty without her.
Elizabeth sighed under his mouth
and opened to him. When his tongue touched hers, she completely forgot where
she was. It didn't matter that their daughters were watching, their friends
were looking on, she even ignored the whistles from Johnny, Francis, and
Andrew. Finally, it was her daughter's voice that broke through.
"Mommy's kissing Daddy!" Abby cried
out. "Mommy's kissing Daddy!"
Elizabeth pulled back and smiled
against Jason's lips. "We have an audience."
"So we do," he said before he kissed her softly again. "I love
you," he said in a fierce whisper.
Elizabeth pulled back, looking
thoroughly loved. Her cheeks were stained crimson as she turned in her seat to
face Abby. The child's wide grin made Elizabeth
smile, too. "Mommy loves Abby, too,"
she told her softly.
Abby nodded in agreement. "I love Mommy
and Daddy, too."
"Sissy too!" Isabelle exclaimed. "Love sissy too!" Isabelle
turned to her mother and began pulling on her sleeve wanting her attention.
"Mommy," she tried.
Elizabeth looked down at her blond
child and smiled. "Yes honey?"
All eyes were on her as she spoke. "Isa hungry, Mommy. Want
food."
As if coordinated, Alexis' stomach growled and the table exploded in laughter.
Jax said, "My child has spoken, so let's eat!"
As Sonny began to carve the Thanksgiving turkey, Elizabeth
leaned over to Jason and whispered in his ear, so no one else could hear what
she had to say. When she pulled back, he stared down into her beautiful face
and was taken back in time two years. For as long as he lived, he knew he'd
never forget what she'd just told him.
"I'm glad neither of us are still angry all the time, Jason."
FINIS
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Now I'd like to share a few things about this story.
I started 'Angry' because of an inkling of an idea, and well, if not for the support I received from my readers, it would have remained what I posted as the 'prologue.' It has been a true emotional roller coaster for me. While I could continue telling the story of this Jason & Elizabeth, I do believe it's time to give them a break. I plan on coming back with more, but at this time… since I'm going away soon, I want to put it on the shelf and let myself rest.
Thank you all, for everyone who has read this story. I hope it's touched you like it touched me. – Calla, khala@vnet.net
