PART 6 Aeka's Point of View



Those two nights were...undescribable. I could not imagine what

was happening. Last night and my dream night. I have so many

emotions inside of me. It is all so hard to decide.

Last night, Tenchi and I talked. I told him about Asahi and...

Vegeta. I have never told anyone about him except my father. I

would like to keep Vegeta and me a secret because I really don't

think it's right. No matter how much I love him, I must hide it.

No one will understand me. But I believe that Tenchi does. I

feel like I can tell him anything without any worries. And that

night, I felt like I was falling in love with him again. I cannot

help it. I just feel that way. Although I am not certain, I really

feel that we belong together. I am so comfortable with him. I

don't know why.

That night with Vegeta was so wonderful but yet, there is guilt

inside me for letting that night happen. It is just wrong. But

I couldn't stop it and neither could he. If only we hadn't listened

to temtation... But we did. And I feel so low, although I am the

princess of the most powerful empire in the universe, I felt like

nothing. I cannot believe myself. We are two royals and yet we let

ourselves stoop so low. I should be killed for doing something so

intolerable as that but it was only a dream...wasn't it? He said

that it was only a dream when we both knew that it wasn't. It

wasn't a dream, it was real. It happened before our eyes and none

of us even tried to stop it. I knew he wanted me and I felt the same

so I let it unwravel. I let it happen and I hadn't cared how

disgraceful it was. I wanted to stop but there were so many

confessions. I knew that they were all true. That he loved me and

Asahi. I just couldn't stop because I cared about my Asahi and I

would go through this whole thing a million times just to hear from

Vegeta that he cared about Asahi, his son.

I hate this! Why does my mind have to mess so much with me. If I

had stayed in Jurai, if I never wanted to search for Yosho, if I

never met Tenchi, if I had never let myself fall in love with that

Saiyajin prince, then I would be content. I would be happy. Father

would probably choose a fiance' for me and I would be Queen of

Jurai. I would have had a life with no worries. But those all

happened. I DID leave Jurai to seek out my half brother and fiance',

Yosho. I DID meet Tenchi. And I DID fall in love with that stubborn

Saiyajin prince. But yet...I am still content. If I had never done

all those things, I would never know what would make me happy. I

would have never felt real love. And I would have never had my

Asahi.

I named my dear child Asahi, meaning 'morning sun'. And he is.

He is my morning sun. Vanquishing the envious moon and breaking

the chains of deep, dark sleep. I did feel that. When I had a son,

I was freed from my troubles. He is my most special treasure. I

would give up everything, the throne, my jewels, my royalty, just

for him. I love him so much. I now know why my mother, Lady Misaki

cares about me and Sasami so much. I love Asahi so much because he

is mine and Vegeta. I love Vegeta with all my heart and Asahi is

the one that truly belongs to both of us. I care about Asahi so

much but I cannot tell him about his father. I can't. I don't

know if Vegeta's words of confession are true or...just a dream.

I don't know what to do anymore. I have no idea. None at all.

I don't know if I should go back to Jurai and fulfill my royal

duties. I don't want to go there, though. I know father wouldn't

dare give me a fiance' while Vegeta is still alive. It is just

wrong. But I would feel as if I were leaving something very valuable.

I know it's my one true joy. I just don't know what my joy is.

I was very certain that it was Vegeta but after last night, I

feel that Tenchi is starting to grow fonder of me. I think that

if I go to Vegeta, I might leave Tenchi heartbroken. And I can

still remember how much I loved him. I cared about him so much. At

first, it probably started out as a slight liking to Tenchi but

then, when I saw him and Sakuya...it felt as if I was stabbed on

my back. Unexpected and painful. I even remember telling him about

it. And I knew that he wasn't listening. But now, we know that

Sakuya was just a mere shadow of Yugi. But I don't know if he is

really falling in love or it is just like Sakuya? A mere shadow.

An illusion.

I am Aeka, First Crown Princess of the powerful empire of the

planet Jurai...but I am so confused. I never seem to ever find true

love. I see them so much on television. Why can't I have one?!

I see the princesses, running away from their fancy palaces and

finding love with lowly peasant boys. Poor yet very handsome. Why

can't I find anyone? I can't even find a peasant boy. I can only

find love in dreams and illusions. None of them are real. How will

I ever find anything real? But I remember something... Now I

wonder. Why is the person who loves someone so much be forgotten

just like that? Now I remember Yamucha. He seemed to care for me

so much. I accuse Vegeta about forgetting me, when I am forgetting

about dear Yamucha. He's so caring and gentle and yet, very

masculine. How do I know if he still cares about me? Maybe I'll

just see and find out. At least I know something isn't confusing

my mind and I know that there's something that cares about me

and is not a dream or illusion.