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"Your tutors are going to start coming next week." Mia tells Cristina at dinner four days later.
Cristina nods and continues to eat her Chinese food.
"When are you going to stop ignoring Dom?"
"I'm not, I asked him how he was this morning." Cristina replies, changing the subject, she asks "How are you guys doing?" Referring to the rest of the team.
"We're doing all right, with all the paperwork and ordering supplies." Mia replies "It's hard, but we're doing all right, I think. We're behind a little."
"That's good." Cristina nods
"Yea, Letty took charge. I'm just worried about the bills." Mia continues
"So race, that's where the real money comes in right?" Cristina asks with a hint of sarcasm in her voice
"Cris, would you stop? We're doing fine."
"You're cutting it close, I saw the numbers." Cristina replies
"We're fine." Mia insists
"So why is everyone still at work? Dom's not going to keep buying that they're trying to get as much work done as possible in one night."
"I don't know, we're working on it." Mia says getting up.
Cristina sighs and pushes her dish away as Mia leaves. Cristina goes upstairs and into her room.
"Did you eat?" Dom asks stopping in her doorway a few minutes later
"Yes."
"Everything check out?"
"Yep, just checked." Cristina smiles a fake smile
"All right." Dom replies and goes downstairs.
Cristina wakes up that night at 2:00 in the morning, feel nauseous she slowly makes her way down the stairs. A figure sitting on the couch watching t.v. scares her on her way back from the kitchen
"Dom?" She moves closer.
"How come you're up?" Dom asks
"I felt sick, I took something for my stomach." Cristina explains
"You all right?"
"Yea, I'm fine." Cristina hesitates with her hand on the banister. She realizes how hard this must be for Dom to sit around not being able to do anything, except get better, he always thought of himself last. His only concern was his family, the team.
"Dom?" Cristina goes over to him.
"Yea?" Dom glances at Cristina as she stands uncomfortably by the couch.
"I'm sorry for being such a bitch and so difficult."
"I know, it's been hard."
"That's always my excuse. I've been able to use that as a cop-out since we were-- on our own." Cristina says and Dom winces slightly
"I didn't know how to raise a kid, I did what I thought was right."
"I know." Cristina wrings her hands "I keep wondering, like what if mama hadn't died? Or if daddy didn't race that last race?…. would I still be this screwed up? Or worse or maybe better?" Cristina pauses then rushes on. "It was easy to just say oh because I have no parents I have a reason for being such a screw up. I have an excuse and I didn't care because I have no one to prove myself to. Nothing I do matters."
"You really think that?" Dom asks
Cristina nods after thinking for a moment "Yea." Her voice falters.
"Cris-"
"Dom! You screwed up once, and it was because of dad, if I had been in your position I'd have done the same, maybe worse. Mia never got into any trouble, I don't even have any friends, just people I chill with. Why did I have to be the screw up?"
"You're not a screw up."
"Dom I've heard you and Mia talking, she's worried I wont even make it to graduation or that I'll do something stupid, and so are you. I've already proven the things I'm willing to chance everything."
"You don't seem like the same girl in the hospital that didn't care she drove drunk or smoked whenever and didn't give a shit." Dom points out.
"I don't know, I don't care about anything. Nothing matters, I don't matter. I just get in the way." Cristina sits on the couch trying not to cry.
"I wish I could make you believe that isn't true, none of it. Mia and I both love you and so does everyone else. Cristina you do matter, no one would work this hard to keep you on track if you didn't." Dom pulls her over to him.
"Dom, honestly how many times have I disappointed you?" Cristina looks at him, her eyes glistening.
Dom sighs, thinking back to all the times she'd gotten into trouble. "That's not the point."
"Yes it is. Dom, I know what keeps you up at night worrying."
Dom bows his head, she was right. He spent too many nights up worrying about her and where she was headed. "Cris-"
"Good-night Dom." Cristina gets up abruptly and goes upstairs.
**************
"Morning." Jesse knocks on Cristina's door and walks in. "You got some visitors."
"I don't want to see anybody." Cristina replies changing the channel on the television.
"Vanessa and Andy are here." Jesse presses
"Jesse." Cristina looks at him.
"All right, I'll tell them to leave." Jesse leaves but leaves her door open.
"Get up." Letty walks brusquely into Cristina's room
"Why?" Cristina asks as Letty throws a pair of jeans and a tank top on her bed. "I'm not going out with my friends."
"No shit, you're coming with me." Letty goes to the door "Be dressed when I get back."
"Fuck." Cristina mutters as she stands up and grabs at the clothes. She glances at herself in the mirror and looks for a pair of shoes to wear.
"Come on." Letty reappears in the doorway a couple of minutes later. "Let's go."
"Where?" Cristina asks stubbornly
"Don't give me your shit Cristina, let's go." Letty grabs her arm. "Get in." She opens the door to her car.
"Letty, where are we going?"
Letty starts the car and puts the car into drive. "Don't worry about it."
"Is this about last night?"
"What happened last night?" Letty peers over her sunglasses
"Dom and I talked." Cristina mumbles
"What happened?"
"I told him I was sorry for all the shit I give him and for being such a pain in the ass."
"Are you?"
"Yea I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything."
"That's a change, but you're feeling sorry for yourself."
"Don't I have good reason to?"
Letty shrugs "To a point, but Cris you need to talk to Dom and work this out, not keep going in circles."
"Letty." Cristina looks around "Why are we at a cemetery?"
"You know which one this is?" Letty asks parking the car.
Cristina nods and swallows deeply, feeling nervous.
"You know who comes here at least once a week?" Letty asks
Cristina nods and gets out of the car slowly, understanding Letty's point. She walks up the small grassy hill and slowly walks down the other side. She passes by rows and rows of tombstones, knowing exactly where she is headed. Cristina could find her way in her sleep. She freezes at the sight of Dom, on one knee, his eyes closed looking as though he was saying a prayer.
Dom opens his eyes and kisses his hand, then presses it to the cold stone. He sees Cristina standing a few feet away but acknowledge her presence.
Cristina takes a deep breath and walks over to him slowly. "I haven't been here in a long time." She says honestly, looking at the words engraved. Her mama's name stood out more than any other word but Cristina knew them by heart.
~Beloved mother, sister and friend.~
~Live on in our hearts and minds forever. ~
Right next to her mother lay her father, his tombstone read:
~Moved onto the great big race track in the sky.~
~Forever shall you rest in peace.~
A chill runs up Cristina's spine as she reads the words. She drops to her knees and says a silent prayer in her heart.
Dom watches Cristina drop to her knees, she soon began to shake from her sobs. He kneels down next to her and puts his arms around her allowing her to her cry. He looks up when he senses another presence nearby, Letty is standing a few feet away, her arms folded across her chest, a look of approval on her face. Dom smiles and mouths a silent
-thank you-. Letty smiles and Dom kisses Cristina softly on her head, smoothing down her hair, as she continues to cry.
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"Your tutors are going to start coming next week." Mia tells Cristina at dinner four days later.
Cristina nods and continues to eat her Chinese food.
"When are you going to stop ignoring Dom?"
"I'm not, I asked him how he was this morning." Cristina replies, changing the subject, she asks "How are you guys doing?" Referring to the rest of the team.
"We're doing all right, with all the paperwork and ordering supplies." Mia replies "It's hard, but we're doing all right, I think. We're behind a little."
"That's good." Cristina nods
"Yea, Letty took charge. I'm just worried about the bills." Mia continues
"So race, that's where the real money comes in right?" Cristina asks with a hint of sarcasm in her voice
"Cris, would you stop? We're doing fine."
"You're cutting it close, I saw the numbers." Cristina replies
"We're fine." Mia insists
"So why is everyone still at work? Dom's not going to keep buying that they're trying to get as much work done as possible in one night."
"I don't know, we're working on it." Mia says getting up.
Cristina sighs and pushes her dish away as Mia leaves. Cristina goes upstairs and into her room.
"Did you eat?" Dom asks stopping in her doorway a few minutes later
"Yes."
"Everything check out?"
"Yep, just checked." Cristina smiles a fake smile
"All right." Dom replies and goes downstairs.
Cristina wakes up that night at 2:00 in the morning, feel nauseous she slowly makes her way down the stairs. A figure sitting on the couch watching t.v. scares her on her way back from the kitchen
"Dom?" She moves closer.
"How come you're up?" Dom asks
"I felt sick, I took something for my stomach." Cristina explains
"You all right?"
"Yea, I'm fine." Cristina hesitates with her hand on the banister. She realizes how hard this must be for Dom to sit around not being able to do anything, except get better, he always thought of himself last. His only concern was his family, the team.
"Dom?" Cristina goes over to him.
"Yea?" Dom glances at Cristina as she stands uncomfortably by the couch.
"I'm sorry for being such a bitch and so difficult."
"I know, it's been hard."
"That's always my excuse. I've been able to use that as a cop-out since we were-- on our own." Cristina says and Dom winces slightly
"I didn't know how to raise a kid, I did what I thought was right."
"I know." Cristina wrings her hands "I keep wondering, like what if mama hadn't died? Or if daddy didn't race that last race?…. would I still be this screwed up? Or worse or maybe better?" Cristina pauses then rushes on. "It was easy to just say oh because I have no parents I have a reason for being such a screw up. I have an excuse and I didn't care because I have no one to prove myself to. Nothing I do matters."
"You really think that?" Dom asks
Cristina nods after thinking for a moment "Yea." Her voice falters.
"Cris-"
"Dom! You screwed up once, and it was because of dad, if I had been in your position I'd have done the same, maybe worse. Mia never got into any trouble, I don't even have any friends, just people I chill with. Why did I have to be the screw up?"
"You're not a screw up."
"Dom I've heard you and Mia talking, she's worried I wont even make it to graduation or that I'll do something stupid, and so are you. I've already proven the things I'm willing to chance everything."
"You don't seem like the same girl in the hospital that didn't care she drove drunk or smoked whenever and didn't give a shit." Dom points out.
"I don't know, I don't care about anything. Nothing matters, I don't matter. I just get in the way." Cristina sits on the couch trying not to cry.
"I wish I could make you believe that isn't true, none of it. Mia and I both love you and so does everyone else. Cristina you do matter, no one would work this hard to keep you on track if you didn't." Dom pulls her over to him.
"Dom, honestly how many times have I disappointed you?" Cristina looks at him, her eyes glistening.
Dom sighs, thinking back to all the times she'd gotten into trouble. "That's not the point."
"Yes it is. Dom, I know what keeps you up at night worrying."
Dom bows his head, she was right. He spent too many nights up worrying about her and where she was headed. "Cris-"
"Good-night Dom." Cristina gets up abruptly and goes upstairs.
**************
"Morning." Jesse knocks on Cristina's door and walks in. "You got some visitors."
"I don't want to see anybody." Cristina replies changing the channel on the television.
"Vanessa and Andy are here." Jesse presses
"Jesse." Cristina looks at him.
"All right, I'll tell them to leave." Jesse leaves but leaves her door open.
"Get up." Letty walks brusquely into Cristina's room
"Why?" Cristina asks as Letty throws a pair of jeans and a tank top on her bed. "I'm not going out with my friends."
"No shit, you're coming with me." Letty goes to the door "Be dressed when I get back."
"Fuck." Cristina mutters as she stands up and grabs at the clothes. She glances at herself in the mirror and looks for a pair of shoes to wear.
"Come on." Letty reappears in the doorway a couple of minutes later. "Let's go."
"Where?" Cristina asks stubbornly
"Don't give me your shit Cristina, let's go." Letty grabs her arm. "Get in." She opens the door to her car.
"Letty, where are we going?"
Letty starts the car and puts the car into drive. "Don't worry about it."
"Is this about last night?"
"What happened last night?" Letty peers over her sunglasses
"Dom and I talked." Cristina mumbles
"What happened?"
"I told him I was sorry for all the shit I give him and for being such a pain in the ass."
"Are you?"
"Yea I'm sorry. I'm sorry for everything."
"That's a change, but you're feeling sorry for yourself."
"Don't I have good reason to?"
Letty shrugs "To a point, but Cris you need to talk to Dom and work this out, not keep going in circles."
"Letty." Cristina looks around "Why are we at a cemetery?"
"You know which one this is?" Letty asks parking the car.
Cristina nods and swallows deeply, feeling nervous.
"You know who comes here at least once a week?" Letty asks
Cristina nods and gets out of the car slowly, understanding Letty's point. She walks up the small grassy hill and slowly walks down the other side. She passes by rows and rows of tombstones, knowing exactly where she is headed. Cristina could find her way in her sleep. She freezes at the sight of Dom, on one knee, his eyes closed looking as though he was saying a prayer.
Dom opens his eyes and kisses his hand, then presses it to the cold stone. He sees Cristina standing a few feet away but acknowledge her presence.
Cristina takes a deep breath and walks over to him slowly. "I haven't been here in a long time." She says honestly, looking at the words engraved. Her mama's name stood out more than any other word but Cristina knew them by heart.
~Beloved mother, sister and friend.~
~Live on in our hearts and minds forever. ~
Right next to her mother lay her father, his tombstone read:
~Moved onto the great big race track in the sky.~
~Forever shall you rest in peace.~
A chill runs up Cristina's spine as she reads the words. She drops to her knees and says a silent prayer in her heart.
Dom watches Cristina drop to her knees, she soon began to shake from her sobs. He kneels down next to her and puts his arms around her allowing her to her cry. He looks up when he senses another presence nearby, Letty is standing a few feet away, her arms folded across her chest, a look of approval on her face. Dom smiles and mouths a silent
-thank you-. Letty smiles and Dom kisses Cristina softly on her head, smoothing down her hair, as she continues to cry.
To be continued….please read & review thanks!