Logan heard the heart monitor he heard the doctors shouting instructions as
they worked over him. He was slipping. If he could laugh he would. They
thought it was because of his abrasions but they were wrong. Max had been
torn from him. He got to see her with Alec again and it was more than he
could take. He wanted to die. Hell would be better. But something kept him
hanging on. He didn't know what, but soon after the operations over his
lesions were done with, he was in a hospital room. His eyes were closed but
he could see what was going on around him.
Max, Asha, and Alec were relieved he was going to be ok but Asha somehow doubted it was over. Max was the first to go in to see him.
Logan opened his eyes so the doctors thought he was there but he wasn't. He wasn't gonna take the pain he was feeling. He saw Max enter the room. 'Go away' he had been put through enough of this. He saw her cross over to him 'go back to Alec' after all she didn't love him anymore if she if ever did for that matter. But then he saw her tears. She barely cried. Sure enough crap and depressing stuff went around but she didn't cry in front of other people. 'Maybe she gives a damn' he thought but then of course she left him 'probably sorry her help and back up is damaged.'
Max noticed Logan was not really there 100% with her but she was going to try. Her tears wouldn't stop. Alec and Asha told her. About his habits after she left. About him stop fighting, about him dying inside. She hurt him. She didn't kill him but when she heard about his immunity to what he felt when he was captive. He didn't feel any of it. Her eyes went down his body over every gash and wound and piece of physical hurt. He didn't feel any of it. His hurt was past that. She did it to him. Her tears went down freely now. She couldn't stop them. She managed a choked whisper hoping he could hear her. She stood in front of him. He was looking at her or at least in her direction. His eyes were not the gorgeous blue she loved so much, but a gray stormy color.
"I'm sorry." He could hear her but he couldn't say anything. What would he say? She was with Alec and he was dropped excess baggage. She continued.
"God, Logan I am sorry. I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought it is how it had to be." What now she was apologizing for saving him? He was sorry she did to.
"I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to hurt you. I was trying to keep you safe. I couldn't think of anything else." Logan was coming even more back into his body with her every word. She wasn't sorry she saved him? What did she lie about? He couldn't speak yet.
Max noticed his color started to rise in his face meaning he probably was listening to her. She felt like someone dropped a boulder on her gut. She felt like she was going to lose her breakfast from yesterday. But she managed to go on.
"Logan I am not in love with Alec." He blinked. Well I didn't think that but have a happy life together anyways. She felt guilty about him. He loved Max too much for that and he didn't want her to feel guilty. She isn't going to worry about me because I can take care of myself no matter in what way I do it. He was trying to find his voice and it was hard to talk. His voice came out low and raspy from the lack of use for almost 7 days.
"Don't worry about me. Just move on." It was hard to breathe. She couldn't believe he was talking to her after all of his pain, physical and mental.
"Logan it isn't ok. I can't do this to you." Logan one again was wondering when she would leave for Alec.
"Alec will take care of you and I will take care of myself." Max couldn't believe this. Hadn't he heard her?
"Logan I don't love Alec." She stated firmly. His expression didn't change. He knows all this.
"I know. But I hope you are happy with him." Max looked at him with disbelief. He thought I would still prefer Alec to him? I don't love Alec! But then she realized what he meant. That she did prefer Alec to Logan. After all he never heard her say I Love you. Well it was damn well time.
"No Logan, you don't understand. I don't love him I don't have any interest in him like that. He is my brother. I love *you*." Logan thought he was hallucinating. She was lying. Damn this really is worse than hell. It was pity. To make him feel better. He didn't want it. Logan shut his eyes.
Max would have given anything to know what he was thinking. Suddenly she noticed an irregular pattern on his heart monitor. Her eyes panicked. She almost yelled in his ear.
"Dammit Logan don't die on me!! I can't live without you!!" Her sobs were louder. She couldn't leave to get help because he might die while she was not in the room. Beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeep beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. She was madly confessing.
"Logan I am sorry, I love you I never meant to hurt you! I thought I was protecting you. I was keeping you safe cause I love you!!!" She was uncontrollably sobbing. Beep beep beep beep. Suddenly the heart monitor went back to a normal rate and it was stronger than before. Logan opened his eyes to see Max was griping the bars on his bed and sobbing madly. He was back. He was in his body. He could feel the sudden physical pain course over him. She slowed down her sobbing and those 30 seconds of panic just about killed her. His face was contorted in pain. She knew he was back. He looked up at her.
"What did you say?" Max pulled a tiny weak smile and in a small voice.
"I love you." She said it. He would never go through all he went through EVER again because she would protect him.
"I love you too." He said. He inhaled deeply to be stabbed by a cracked rib. His body doubled over in pain.
"Fuck." He gasped. Max panicked.
"What do I do?"
"Stay here." He managed to get out. She nodded and she did.
Max, Asha, and Alec were relieved he was going to be ok but Asha somehow doubted it was over. Max was the first to go in to see him.
Logan opened his eyes so the doctors thought he was there but he wasn't. He wasn't gonna take the pain he was feeling. He saw Max enter the room. 'Go away' he had been put through enough of this. He saw her cross over to him 'go back to Alec' after all she didn't love him anymore if she if ever did for that matter. But then he saw her tears. She barely cried. Sure enough crap and depressing stuff went around but she didn't cry in front of other people. 'Maybe she gives a damn' he thought but then of course she left him 'probably sorry her help and back up is damaged.'
Max noticed Logan was not really there 100% with her but she was going to try. Her tears wouldn't stop. Alec and Asha told her. About his habits after she left. About him stop fighting, about him dying inside. She hurt him. She didn't kill him but when she heard about his immunity to what he felt when he was captive. He didn't feel any of it. Her eyes went down his body over every gash and wound and piece of physical hurt. He didn't feel any of it. His hurt was past that. She did it to him. Her tears went down freely now. She couldn't stop them. She managed a choked whisper hoping he could hear her. She stood in front of him. He was looking at her or at least in her direction. His eyes were not the gorgeous blue she loved so much, but a gray stormy color.
"I'm sorry." He could hear her but he couldn't say anything. What would he say? She was with Alec and he was dropped excess baggage. She continued.
"God, Logan I am sorry. I thought I was doing the right thing. I thought it is how it had to be." What now she was apologizing for saving him? He was sorry she did to.
"I didn't want to lie. I didn't want to hurt you. I was trying to keep you safe. I couldn't think of anything else." Logan was coming even more back into his body with her every word. She wasn't sorry she saved him? What did she lie about? He couldn't speak yet.
Max noticed his color started to rise in his face meaning he probably was listening to her. She felt like someone dropped a boulder on her gut. She felt like she was going to lose her breakfast from yesterday. But she managed to go on.
"Logan I am not in love with Alec." He blinked. Well I didn't think that but have a happy life together anyways. She felt guilty about him. He loved Max too much for that and he didn't want her to feel guilty. She isn't going to worry about me because I can take care of myself no matter in what way I do it. He was trying to find his voice and it was hard to talk. His voice came out low and raspy from the lack of use for almost 7 days.
"Don't worry about me. Just move on." It was hard to breathe. She couldn't believe he was talking to her after all of his pain, physical and mental.
"Logan it isn't ok. I can't do this to you." Logan one again was wondering when she would leave for Alec.
"Alec will take care of you and I will take care of myself." Max couldn't believe this. Hadn't he heard her?
"Logan I don't love Alec." She stated firmly. His expression didn't change. He knows all this.
"I know. But I hope you are happy with him." Max looked at him with disbelief. He thought I would still prefer Alec to him? I don't love Alec! But then she realized what he meant. That she did prefer Alec to Logan. After all he never heard her say I Love you. Well it was damn well time.
"No Logan, you don't understand. I don't love him I don't have any interest in him like that. He is my brother. I love *you*." Logan thought he was hallucinating. She was lying. Damn this really is worse than hell. It was pity. To make him feel better. He didn't want it. Logan shut his eyes.
Max would have given anything to know what he was thinking. Suddenly she noticed an irregular pattern on his heart monitor. Her eyes panicked. She almost yelled in his ear.
"Dammit Logan don't die on me!! I can't live without you!!" Her sobs were louder. She couldn't leave to get help because he might die while she was not in the room. Beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeep beep beep beep beeeeeeeeeeeeeeep. She was madly confessing.
"Logan I am sorry, I love you I never meant to hurt you! I thought I was protecting you. I was keeping you safe cause I love you!!!" She was uncontrollably sobbing. Beep beep beep beep. Suddenly the heart monitor went back to a normal rate and it was stronger than before. Logan opened his eyes to see Max was griping the bars on his bed and sobbing madly. He was back. He was in his body. He could feel the sudden physical pain course over him. She slowed down her sobbing and those 30 seconds of panic just about killed her. His face was contorted in pain. She knew he was back. He looked up at her.
"What did you say?" Max pulled a tiny weak smile and in a small voice.
"I love you." She said it. He would never go through all he went through EVER again because she would protect him.
"I love you too." He said. He inhaled deeply to be stabbed by a cracked rib. His body doubled over in pain.
"Fuck." He gasped. Max panicked.
"What do I do?"
"Stay here." He managed to get out. She nodded and she did.