Chapter 1: Rukawa's State of Mind
Author: Mitsui no Miko
Rating: Hmm?!
Date Finished: 04/24/02
Rukawa sighed as he lay on his bed. Images of someone he was obsessed with kept floating in his head. Stark, vivid scenes played over and over in his mind.
"Sendoh… Why did it have to be you?", he thought to himself.
It wasn't always like this. Before, he didn't give a damn about anything. The whole world could bounce off its axis, yet he wouldn't care.
But now…
He didn't know when it happened exactly. Sure, they knew each other, though not very well. They've had quite a few one-on-one sessions at the park court. They've conversed with each other often enough to know the bits and pieces of each other's lives. Somehow, in the course of such events, Rukawa realized that he was getting attached to Sendoh.
And recently, he discovered that there was a name for his attachment: LOVE.
In his angst-ridden mind, he kept replaying his memories of Sendoh from the first time that they met, all the way into the Kanagawa eliminations, and lately, their conversations with each other.
"Ironic, isn't it?", he asked himself. "Rukawa Kaede, with girls literally falling to his feet, has fallen in love with a man. And what a man… Sendoh Akira, no less…"
He didn't want to believe it at first. He came to terms with how he felt, eventually. This sudden burst of emotion was totally new to him.
He went to the radio, and turned it on in the hope of being lulled to sleep by the blaring rock music. But tonight, all he could hear were the familiar lyrics of an old song and the faint strumming of a guitar in the background.
Every time I think of you
I get a shock right through into a bolt of blue
It's no problem of mine, but it's a problem I find
Living a life that I can't leave behind…
Closing his eyes in frustration, he turned on his side and slept.
Author's notes: The song is "Bizarre Love Triangle" sung by Frente, way back in 1994. I'm not sure if this would turn out to be a songfic, coz I'm just making this up as I go along. =