The Liber Severi
Liber I - Severus Snape's True Love
Copyright (c) 2001 by Cassandra Houston
Illustrations by Gabriel (http://www.angelfire.com/art/angelgabriel/)
Author's Notes:
Most of the characters within belong to JK Rowling. Amethyst Rayne Black Snape, Lapis Meaker and some others belong to me, Cassandra Houston. I will not accept money for this book, nor any others made with the wonderful characters JK Rowling has created. I am only putting on paper my interpretation and theory of what the Rowling characters may have been like before the Harry Potter series and what they may be like after. I am not trying to insult or steal from Rowling. I am only having fun here.
If you like what you read (and I certainly hope you do), please feel free to forward a copy of this ebook along to friends, family and anyone else who may enjoy its contents.
I must take the time here to thank Gabriel. Gabriel! You are a saint and I am forever in your debt!
I now give you Severus Snape's True Love, the first in the Liber Severi series.
Cassandra Houston
Chapter Three: Till Death Do Us Part
"Was it bad?" Severus asked, as he stroked Amethysts hair. They were on their usual blanket in the secret grove that Severus considered theirs. Amethyst was curled up n the ground with her head in his lap, crying.
"Sirius told Father and he had a heart attack. Sirius is blaming me for Fathers' death!" she raised her head and looked into Severus' eyes. "But I am not to blame! I didn't kill my father! Hate killed my father!" She sighed. "Do you know what my father said to me before he grabbed his chest and keeled over, Severus? 'Slytherin bitch, just like your mother.' Well, my mother was not a bitch. She must have known not to tell Father she was a Slytherin. She must have known better." she stood and began pacing. "Well bugger them. My brother and my father. I love a Slytherin and if they just don't like it they can just -" and she broke down. Severus stood and held her. He honestly had no idea how to respond. She answered all of his unasked questions when she calmed down enough to speak. "The Sorting Hat must have made a mistake. It considered putting me in Slytherin, but it didn't. It put me with my brother, in Gryffindor. For you, I would leave my house, and my brother. I don't think that's wrong. It's just the way it is." and she kissed him.
The two of them had as fine a summer as two people in love could have, when they were trying not to be found out. They did not see each other as much as they would have liked, because Sirius was keeping an eagle eye on Amethyst and Severus' father was having a very bad summer. Sissy attended Severus many times, for broken ribs, broken arms, and dislocated joints.
The next school year was also relatively uneventful. Sirius and Amethyst had a very long talk one night (they were actually magically locked in a room by James and Remus and told to talk until they reached some sort of understanding) and patched their differences up as well as could be expected, as he knew his sister was still coupled with his archenemy and just could not accept the fact. But he loved his sister and was unwilling to throw away his relationship with her.
His relationship with Severus, however, deteriorated to the point where he was attacking him at every opportunity, threatening to kill him if he didn't stop seeing his sister. Severus took these beatings as he had taken all the beatings all his life, in stride. Although no one at school knew why, everyone knew that Sirius Black and James Potter both despised Severus Snape. Jealousy was suspected, but no one could really see the depth of the hatred. It was obvious that James loved Severus like a brother when compared to the hatred Sirius had. The hatred was almost palpable.
Severus got enough N.E.W.T's to qualify for a position in the Ministry of Magic when he left school, but somehow no one could see him doing that. Severus would not tell Amethyst what he had in mind during the summer. It annoyed her greatly, but she did not press things. She would be going back to Hogwarts alone come September. She still had another two years to go.
"I want to teach you some things. Things that will protect you. From those who might want to do you harm." He told her that summer, in their clearing. It was their first meeting since school ended and the first time she had seen him in about two weeks.
She looked up at him, her face suddenly somber. "Harm me?" she said, incredulous. "What are you talking about, Severus?"
"Do you love me, Amethyst?" he asked, quietly but intensely.
"Yes, of course I do. You know that Severus." She said, confused. She sat up and turned to him.
Severus straightened up and pulled the left sleeve of his robes up his arm. Amethyst saw the Dark Mark. The mark of a Death Eater. She moved her hand towards it, unbelieving.
"Severus," she breathed. She ripped her eyes from the Dark Mark and looked into her lovers' eyes. "When?"
His eyes clouded over. "A few days ago." He said, distantly. He spoke as he did when talking about his fathers' beatings. Like he was a disinterested observer.
"Am I supposed to stop loving you because you are branded with the Dark Mark?" she asked, after several minutes' silence. Severus' eyes cleared when she said this and he seemed to come back to himself.
"I am a Death Eater now." He said, covering his arm. Amethyst noticed that the mark was fading fast. In a few minutes it would not be visible at all.
Amethyst said. "What does that mean, Severus?"
Severus looked out over the brook and sighed a huge sigh. "I cannot tell you that, my love. I am sorry, but it would place you in a position of great danger. As it is I have told you too much." He ran his fingers through his hair. "Please let it be enough to know that if you love me, if you stay with me as my girlfriend, you are putting your very life in danger. Your brother is a lot of hot air, really. But the Death Eaters must never find out about you, because they would then know my greatest weakness, bar none. They would use that weakness, use you, to control me, if they ever thought me untrustworthy or felt they needed leverage over me. Right now, I am the perfect Death Eater. Angry and arrogant and spiteful. Full of hate and violence. Incapable of emotion. But if they were to find out about you." He broke off. "They would -" He didn't seem to be able to finish the thought.
"And you are planning on teaching me things to help me protect myself." She said, quietly. "You are talking about teaching me the Dark Arts, aren't you?"
"Defense would not be enough." He said, still looking across the brook. He lowered his head into his hand. "Am I mad?" he asked himself. "I should just modify your memory and have done."
Amethyst grabbed his arm as he reached for his wand. "Severus," she said sharply, causing him to look at her. "You asked me if I love you and now I must ask you the same thing. Do you love me, Severus?"
He nodded. "More than life." He said.
"Then teach me whatever you have to in order to keep me safe, if that's what you have to do." She said, her eyes burning with intensity he'd never seen there before. "Do not rob me of my memory of you. Kill me first."
Severus stared at her for a long time before he nodded.
He taught her first the spell to hide your magic from detection. He went on to teach her the Breaking Curse, the Wounding Curse and the Unforgivable Curses. He taught her to apparate as well. By the time she was preparing to return to Hogwarts, Severus had taught Amethyst everything he knew about the Dark Arts.
Amethyst was in very low spirits on the Hogwarts Express. She cheered herself up by chatting with a few girls from her house. They had never been friends, thinking her snobbish. More than one of them had also had involvement with her brother and avoided getting close because of it.
Amethyst walked into the Great Hall for the Sorting and the feast in slightly higher spirits. She loved getting lost in the memories of her own sorting all those years ago. She sat down and looked towards the staff table, where she was hoping to get a good look at the new Potions teacher, as last year Professor Liquimin had decided to retire at last.
It was a very good thing that she sat down before she looked up at the staff table. For when she looked towards the staff table she almost fainted. Severus Snape was standing with Dumbledore. They shook hands and he sat in the seat usually reserved for the Potions Instructor.
She did not lose herself at the Sorting this year. She concentrated on it as she had never concentrated on anything in order to keep her eyes from the staff table and Severus.
Dumbledore had begun his speech. Amethyst caught parts of it, like Severus being the youngest Potions teacher the school had ever had and some other things. A girl in her dormitory leaned over and whispered. "Isn't that the greasy, slimy Slytherin the one your brother and James Potter hated so much? How did he ever become a teacher?"
Amethyst resisted the urge so curse the girl, and simply showed as much shock as everyone else who'd ever known Severus Snape as a student. The shock was no act, actually. She barely touched her food during the Feast and was badgered by the girls in her dormitory into visiting Madame Pomfrey, who gave her some stomach powders and made her lie down for an hour before sending her back to Gryffindor Tower.
Severus caught up with her and took her into the empty Transfiguration classroom. "Are you all right?" He asked.
Amethyst hit him hard on the arm and raged. "Why didn't you tell me?" She paced the room. "The shock almost killed me."
Severus was a bit taken aback by her anger. "I'm sorry, really." He said. "Dumbledore offered the job to me at the last minute and told me not to tell anyone. I almost turned it down for two years of living off of Fathers money. It's going to be hard enough being a teacher to people who used to be classmates, but having to teach you?" He shook his head.
Severus had liked hardly any of the students when he was a student. Now he was Professor Snape and a lot of the students were having a hard time adjusting. Severus did not change his personality, however, and he was just a rough on his former classmates as he was on the poor First years that had never heard of him before.
Amethyst did her level best not to do anything that might bring Severus' eyes on her without reason. She was suddenly glad of the three years of practice they'd had pretending to not notice each other. She was elated when he took ten points from Gryffindor because she and another girl were whispering, and not paying attention.
As Severus was a teacher now, he had rooms to himself. They still had to be very careful, perhaps even more careful than when Severus was just a student. But they still saw each other alone as much as they could.
Potions was her easiest class, and not because of any favoritism from Severus. As a matter of fact, he was harder on her than any of the other Gryffindors, and everyone, Gryffindors, Hufflepuffs, Ravenclaws and Slytherins as well as the entire staff of Hogwarts put it down to his hatred of Sirius. They assumed Severus was taking his hatred of Sirius out on his sister. They both knew everyone would think this way and did nothing to change the opinion of the whole school. Potions was her easiest class because she had been so close to Severus these last three years. He'd taught her everything he knew about Potions. She barely needed take the class at all.
She excelled in all of her classes and got as many O.W.L's as she could walk away with. At home, during the holidays, Sirius, who couldn't have been angrier with Severus teaching at Hogwarts if she'd announced she was going to have his baby, grilled her half to death. When he threatened to go to Dumbledore, she was forced to use a spell to hide the detection of magic (lest she get an owl from the Ministry of Magic) and then put a Memory Charm on her brother. She only erased the part of his memory that related to Severus as a teacher at Hogwarts. Severus said, dryly, that she ought to have erased Sirius' entire memory of him. But it was enough that Sirius had no idea that Severus Snape was a teacher at Hogwarts.
That summer she and Severus didn't see very much of each other. Her brother kept a very close watch on her and she was hard pressed to get away. Severus was quite busy anyway, doing something he refused to tell her about.
That second year of Severus teaching was tense. Voldemort was gaining power at an alarming rate. People were more and more afraid, but Amethyst felt safe at Hogwarts. But the tension filled the air. It did not help when Severus was forced to take a leave of absence in the middle of the year because the Dark Mark was spotted over his house. His father was dead. Killed by the Death Eaters. So Amethyst finished out her last year at Hogwarts without the comfort of her lover.
On the last day of July, Amethyst went with Sirius to the first birthday party of Lily and James son, Harry. Amethyst saw him and yearned for one of her own. She thought how best to bring it up with Severus. He beat her to it.
"Will you marry me?" Severus asked on bended knee on September the first.
Amethyst was struck speechless with joy. She accepted the proposal with a nod.
They saw each other last on October the 28th, three days before Lily and James Potter were killed. They spent the next eighteen years with an ocean between them; each thinking the other was dead.
Liber I - Severus Snape's True Love
Copyright (c) 2001 by Cassandra Houston
Illustrations by Gabriel (http://www.angelfire.com/art/angelgabriel/)
Author's Notes:
Most of the characters within belong to JK Rowling. Amethyst Rayne Black Snape, Lapis Meaker and some others belong to me, Cassandra Houston. I will not accept money for this book, nor any others made with the wonderful characters JK Rowling has created. I am only putting on paper my interpretation and theory of what the Rowling characters may have been like before the Harry Potter series and what they may be like after. I am not trying to insult or steal from Rowling. I am only having fun here.
If you like what you read (and I certainly hope you do), please feel free to forward a copy of this ebook along to friends, family and anyone else who may enjoy its contents.
I must take the time here to thank Gabriel. Gabriel! You are a saint and I am forever in your debt!
I now give you Severus Snape's True Love, the first in the Liber Severi series.
Cassandra Houston
Chapter Three: Till Death Do Us Part
"Was it bad?" Severus asked, as he stroked Amethysts hair. They were on their usual blanket in the secret grove that Severus considered theirs. Amethyst was curled up n the ground with her head in his lap, crying.
"Sirius told Father and he had a heart attack. Sirius is blaming me for Fathers' death!" she raised her head and looked into Severus' eyes. "But I am not to blame! I didn't kill my father! Hate killed my father!" She sighed. "Do you know what my father said to me before he grabbed his chest and keeled over, Severus? 'Slytherin bitch, just like your mother.' Well, my mother was not a bitch. She must have known not to tell Father she was a Slytherin. She must have known better." she stood and began pacing. "Well bugger them. My brother and my father. I love a Slytherin and if they just don't like it they can just -" and she broke down. Severus stood and held her. He honestly had no idea how to respond. She answered all of his unasked questions when she calmed down enough to speak. "The Sorting Hat must have made a mistake. It considered putting me in Slytherin, but it didn't. It put me with my brother, in Gryffindor. For you, I would leave my house, and my brother. I don't think that's wrong. It's just the way it is." and she kissed him.
The two of them had as fine a summer as two people in love could have, when they were trying not to be found out. They did not see each other as much as they would have liked, because Sirius was keeping an eagle eye on Amethyst and Severus' father was having a very bad summer. Sissy attended Severus many times, for broken ribs, broken arms, and dislocated joints.
The next school year was also relatively uneventful. Sirius and Amethyst had a very long talk one night (they were actually magically locked in a room by James and Remus and told to talk until they reached some sort of understanding) and patched their differences up as well as could be expected, as he knew his sister was still coupled with his archenemy and just could not accept the fact. But he loved his sister and was unwilling to throw away his relationship with her.
His relationship with Severus, however, deteriorated to the point where he was attacking him at every opportunity, threatening to kill him if he didn't stop seeing his sister. Severus took these beatings as he had taken all the beatings all his life, in stride. Although no one at school knew why, everyone knew that Sirius Black and James Potter both despised Severus Snape. Jealousy was suspected, but no one could really see the depth of the hatred. It was obvious that James loved Severus like a brother when compared to the hatred Sirius had. The hatred was almost palpable.
Severus got enough N.E.W.T's to qualify for a position in the Ministry of Magic when he left school, but somehow no one could see him doing that. Severus would not tell Amethyst what he had in mind during the summer. It annoyed her greatly, but she did not press things. She would be going back to Hogwarts alone come September. She still had another two years to go.
"I want to teach you some things. Things that will protect you. From those who might want to do you harm." He told her that summer, in their clearing. It was their first meeting since school ended and the first time she had seen him in about two weeks.
She looked up at him, her face suddenly somber. "Harm me?" she said, incredulous. "What are you talking about, Severus?"
"Do you love me, Amethyst?" he asked, quietly but intensely.
"Yes, of course I do. You know that Severus." She said, confused. She sat up and turned to him.
Severus straightened up and pulled the left sleeve of his robes up his arm. Amethyst saw the Dark Mark. The mark of a Death Eater. She moved her hand towards it, unbelieving.
"Severus," she breathed. She ripped her eyes from the Dark Mark and looked into her lovers' eyes. "When?"
His eyes clouded over. "A few days ago." He said, distantly. He spoke as he did when talking about his fathers' beatings. Like he was a disinterested observer.
"Am I supposed to stop loving you because you are branded with the Dark Mark?" she asked, after several minutes' silence. Severus' eyes cleared when she said this and he seemed to come back to himself.
"I am a Death Eater now." He said, covering his arm. Amethyst noticed that the mark was fading fast. In a few minutes it would not be visible at all.
Amethyst said. "What does that mean, Severus?"
Severus looked out over the brook and sighed a huge sigh. "I cannot tell you that, my love. I am sorry, but it would place you in a position of great danger. As it is I have told you too much." He ran his fingers through his hair. "Please let it be enough to know that if you love me, if you stay with me as my girlfriend, you are putting your very life in danger. Your brother is a lot of hot air, really. But the Death Eaters must never find out about you, because they would then know my greatest weakness, bar none. They would use that weakness, use you, to control me, if they ever thought me untrustworthy or felt they needed leverage over me. Right now, I am the perfect Death Eater. Angry and arrogant and spiteful. Full of hate and violence. Incapable of emotion. But if they were to find out about you." He broke off. "They would -" He didn't seem to be able to finish the thought.
"And you are planning on teaching me things to help me protect myself." She said, quietly. "You are talking about teaching me the Dark Arts, aren't you?"
"Defense would not be enough." He said, still looking across the brook. He lowered his head into his hand. "Am I mad?" he asked himself. "I should just modify your memory and have done."
Amethyst grabbed his arm as he reached for his wand. "Severus," she said sharply, causing him to look at her. "You asked me if I love you and now I must ask you the same thing. Do you love me, Severus?"
He nodded. "More than life." He said.
"Then teach me whatever you have to in order to keep me safe, if that's what you have to do." She said, her eyes burning with intensity he'd never seen there before. "Do not rob me of my memory of you. Kill me first."
Severus stared at her for a long time before he nodded.
He taught her first the spell to hide your magic from detection. He went on to teach her the Breaking Curse, the Wounding Curse and the Unforgivable Curses. He taught her to apparate as well. By the time she was preparing to return to Hogwarts, Severus had taught Amethyst everything he knew about the Dark Arts.
Amethyst was in very low spirits on the Hogwarts Express. She cheered herself up by chatting with a few girls from her house. They had never been friends, thinking her snobbish. More than one of them had also had involvement with her brother and avoided getting close because of it.
Amethyst walked into the Great Hall for the Sorting and the feast in slightly higher spirits. She loved getting lost in the memories of her own sorting all those years ago. She sat down and looked towards the staff table, where she was hoping to get a good look at the new Potions teacher, as last year Professor Liquimin had decided to retire at last.
It was a very good thing that she sat down before she looked up at the staff table. For when she looked towards the staff table she almost fainted. Severus Snape was standing with Dumbledore. They shook hands and he sat in the seat usually reserved for the Potions Instructor.
She did not lose herself at the Sorting this year. She concentrated on it as she had never concentrated on anything in order to keep her eyes from the staff table and Severus.
Dumbledore had begun his speech. Amethyst caught parts of it, like Severus being the youngest Potions teacher the school had ever had and some other things. A girl in her dormitory leaned over and whispered. "Isn't that the greasy, slimy Slytherin the one your brother and James Potter hated so much? How did he ever become a teacher?"
Amethyst resisted the urge so curse the girl, and simply showed as much shock as everyone else who'd ever known Severus Snape as a student. The shock was no act, actually. She barely touched her food during the Feast and was badgered by the girls in her dormitory into visiting Madame Pomfrey, who gave her some stomach powders and made her lie down for an hour before sending her back to Gryffindor Tower.
Severus caught up with her and took her into the empty Transfiguration classroom. "Are you all right?" He asked.
Amethyst hit him hard on the arm and raged. "Why didn't you tell me?" She paced the room. "The shock almost killed me."
Severus was a bit taken aback by her anger. "I'm sorry, really." He said. "Dumbledore offered the job to me at the last minute and told me not to tell anyone. I almost turned it down for two years of living off of Fathers money. It's going to be hard enough being a teacher to people who used to be classmates, but having to teach you?" He shook his head.
Severus had liked hardly any of the students when he was a student. Now he was Professor Snape and a lot of the students were having a hard time adjusting. Severus did not change his personality, however, and he was just a rough on his former classmates as he was on the poor First years that had never heard of him before.
Amethyst did her level best not to do anything that might bring Severus' eyes on her without reason. She was suddenly glad of the three years of practice they'd had pretending to not notice each other. She was elated when he took ten points from Gryffindor because she and another girl were whispering, and not paying attention.
As Severus was a teacher now, he had rooms to himself. They still had to be very careful, perhaps even more careful than when Severus was just a student. But they still saw each other alone as much as they could.
Potions was her easiest class, and not because of any favoritism from Severus. As a matter of fact, he was harder on her than any of the other Gryffindors, and everyone, Gryffindors, Hufflepuffs, Ravenclaws and Slytherins as well as the entire staff of Hogwarts put it down to his hatred of Sirius. They assumed Severus was taking his hatred of Sirius out on his sister. They both knew everyone would think this way and did nothing to change the opinion of the whole school. Potions was her easiest class because she had been so close to Severus these last three years. He'd taught her everything he knew about Potions. She barely needed take the class at all.
She excelled in all of her classes and got as many O.W.L's as she could walk away with. At home, during the holidays, Sirius, who couldn't have been angrier with Severus teaching at Hogwarts if she'd announced she was going to have his baby, grilled her half to death. When he threatened to go to Dumbledore, she was forced to use a spell to hide the detection of magic (lest she get an owl from the Ministry of Magic) and then put a Memory Charm on her brother. She only erased the part of his memory that related to Severus as a teacher at Hogwarts. Severus said, dryly, that she ought to have erased Sirius' entire memory of him. But it was enough that Sirius had no idea that Severus Snape was a teacher at Hogwarts.
That summer she and Severus didn't see very much of each other. Her brother kept a very close watch on her and she was hard pressed to get away. Severus was quite busy anyway, doing something he refused to tell her about.
That second year of Severus teaching was tense. Voldemort was gaining power at an alarming rate. People were more and more afraid, but Amethyst felt safe at Hogwarts. But the tension filled the air. It did not help when Severus was forced to take a leave of absence in the middle of the year because the Dark Mark was spotted over his house. His father was dead. Killed by the Death Eaters. So Amethyst finished out her last year at Hogwarts without the comfort of her lover.
On the last day of July, Amethyst went with Sirius to the first birthday party of Lily and James son, Harry. Amethyst saw him and yearned for one of her own. She thought how best to bring it up with Severus. He beat her to it.
"Will you marry me?" Severus asked on bended knee on September the first.
Amethyst was struck speechless with joy. She accepted the proposal with a nod.
They saw each other last on October the 28th, three days before Lily and James Potter were killed. They spent the next eighteen years with an ocean between them; each thinking the other was dead.