Why me? chapter two: Beng There For Me
I smiled up at Landon. He sat with me for a long time until I finally fell asleep. My whole body felt as if it were on fire and I kept having flash backs of my stay in the hospitals almost five years ealier when I'd battled Cancer. I heard voices as they entered the room but i couldn't make out who they were. My head was fuzzy and I couldn't think straight. I only knew that I couldn't feel the left side of my body.
"Jamie the nurse has to draw your blood," Landon said quietly.
I winced and grabbed Landon's hand. I've always hated needles it reminds me of my days when I'd be so sick I couldn't move. I buried my head in his chest and he stroked my back.
"Almost done Jamie," the nurse said. I felt tears come to my eyes as the needle went through me. "All done."
I must have been holding my breath for when she said those words I felt as if a great weight had been lifted off of me. I opened my eys and looked up at Landon his face full of concern and worry.
"I know it hurts Jamie," Landon said. He put his arms around me and we laid there like that for a long time. Finally I broke the silence.
'Thank you," I whispered. "For not giving up on me."
"You're as stubburn as they come," Landon said. We kissed for a long moment.
"I guess I didn't want to face that I had another thing wrong with me," I said. I began to feel sleepy again.
Landon kissed me. "Jamie why don't you rest and I'll go see if Jenna is OK."
I nodded. I didn't want him to leave but I also didn't want our daughter to feel abandoned. I soon fell into a dreamless sleep.
I felt as if the world were turning. I couldn't see and my body wouldn't stop shaking. I felt someone calling my name but I couldn't make out who it was. Landon? I guessed. I hoped with all my heart it was him. I tried to call out to him but couldn't. My mind felt frozen in place and I couldn't break free. Finally after what seemed like years the shakng stopped and the spinning i my head began to decrease. I felt another needle in me but this time I couldn't do anything about it. I heard voices lots of voices andi wanted to call out to them that I was OK but I couldn't. Finally everthing seemed to be in focus and opened my eyes to find Landon, my beloved Landon standing over me.
"Hi," he said. He took my hand. "You had us worried for a moment there."
"What happened?" I whispered.
"You had a seizure," Landon explained. "But you're OK now."
I nodded. "Landon I'm sorry our vacation was ruined."
He stroked my hair. "Shh you don't worry about anything but getting better. That's all that matters now."
I nodded as sleep overtook me once more. Would I be able to survie long enough for the doctors to make me better?
Two weeks went by and the feeling in my left side was starting to return. Landon had called back to Providence to let the Hansen's know what had happened and Syd had flown and driven here to be with me.She stood beside my bed now talking quietly to Landon. I kept my eyes closed not wanting to see the sun that shown in my room.
"I'll stay with her," I heard Syd say.
"OK," Landon replied. He bent down and kissed me on the forehead. I opened my eyes. "I'll be right back OK?"
"OK," I answered tiredly.
"Jamie how are you feeling?" Syd asked me once Landon left the room. She sat down beside me in a chair.
"Well the feeling in my arm and leg is back," I said. "Is that a good sign?"
"Yes," Syd said. "In a few weeks you'll be able to start physical therapy."
"Weeks?" I asked, narrowing my eyes. "But it only effected my left side I'll be fine in weeks it won't take that long."
"A stroke is very serious Jamie," Syd said.
I looked at her. "Syd what is going,to happen to me?"
Syd looked at me. "I wish I knew Jamie I really wish I knew."
Then Landon came back a few minutes later holding Hannah. She ran over to me.
"Are you better Jamie?" She asked.
"Yes," I answered. The medication they were giving me was making me very sleepy and I did my best to keep my eyes open.
Hannah climbed up on the bed beside me. "Don't worry I'll make you better." Hannah gave me a hug and I smiled. I couldn't wait until Jenna was old enough to say that to me.
"Hannah why don't we let Jamie rest," Syd said.
"NO I WANT To STAY WITH HER!!" Hannah yelled.
"OK OK keep your voice down," Syd scolded. She turned to Landon. "I need to go get checked in at a hotel. Could you watch her?"
"Sure," Landon said.
Syd waved and walked out of the room. Hannah laid down beside me and I put my arm around her.
"Jamie I'll be right back," Landon said. "I've got to go use the restroom."
I nodded sleepily and he walked out of the room. I felt my eyes begin to close and suddenly it felt liek I was spinning in a world pool.
"Jamie," somone was calling. It sounded a lot like Hannah. I tried to respond but couldn't. Finally I settled into a welcoming darkness.
I smiled up at Landon. He sat with me for a long time until I finally fell asleep. My whole body felt as if it were on fire and I kept having flash backs of my stay in the hospitals almost five years ealier when I'd battled Cancer. I heard voices as they entered the room but i couldn't make out who they were. My head was fuzzy and I couldn't think straight. I only knew that I couldn't feel the left side of my body.
"Jamie the nurse has to draw your blood," Landon said quietly.
I winced and grabbed Landon's hand. I've always hated needles it reminds me of my days when I'd be so sick I couldn't move. I buried my head in his chest and he stroked my back.
"Almost done Jamie," the nurse said. I felt tears come to my eyes as the needle went through me. "All done."
I must have been holding my breath for when she said those words I felt as if a great weight had been lifted off of me. I opened my eys and looked up at Landon his face full of concern and worry.
"I know it hurts Jamie," Landon said. He put his arms around me and we laid there like that for a long time. Finally I broke the silence.
'Thank you," I whispered. "For not giving up on me."
"You're as stubburn as they come," Landon said. We kissed for a long moment.
"I guess I didn't want to face that I had another thing wrong with me," I said. I began to feel sleepy again.
Landon kissed me. "Jamie why don't you rest and I'll go see if Jenna is OK."
I nodded. I didn't want him to leave but I also didn't want our daughter to feel abandoned. I soon fell into a dreamless sleep.
I felt as if the world were turning. I couldn't see and my body wouldn't stop shaking. I felt someone calling my name but I couldn't make out who it was. Landon? I guessed. I hoped with all my heart it was him. I tried to call out to him but couldn't. My mind felt frozen in place and I couldn't break free. Finally after what seemed like years the shakng stopped and the spinning i my head began to decrease. I felt another needle in me but this time I couldn't do anything about it. I heard voices lots of voices andi wanted to call out to them that I was OK but I couldn't. Finally everthing seemed to be in focus and opened my eyes to find Landon, my beloved Landon standing over me.
"Hi," he said. He took my hand. "You had us worried for a moment there."
"What happened?" I whispered.
"You had a seizure," Landon explained. "But you're OK now."
I nodded. "Landon I'm sorry our vacation was ruined."
He stroked my hair. "Shh you don't worry about anything but getting better. That's all that matters now."
I nodded as sleep overtook me once more. Would I be able to survie long enough for the doctors to make me better?
Two weeks went by and the feeling in my left side was starting to return. Landon had called back to Providence to let the Hansen's know what had happened and Syd had flown and driven here to be with me.She stood beside my bed now talking quietly to Landon. I kept my eyes closed not wanting to see the sun that shown in my room.
"I'll stay with her," I heard Syd say.
"OK," Landon replied. He bent down and kissed me on the forehead. I opened my eyes. "I'll be right back OK?"
"OK," I answered tiredly.
"Jamie how are you feeling?" Syd asked me once Landon left the room. She sat down beside me in a chair.
"Well the feeling in my arm and leg is back," I said. "Is that a good sign?"
"Yes," Syd said. "In a few weeks you'll be able to start physical therapy."
"Weeks?" I asked, narrowing my eyes. "But it only effected my left side I'll be fine in weeks it won't take that long."
"A stroke is very serious Jamie," Syd said.
I looked at her. "Syd what is going,to happen to me?"
Syd looked at me. "I wish I knew Jamie I really wish I knew."
Then Landon came back a few minutes later holding Hannah. She ran over to me.
"Are you better Jamie?" She asked.
"Yes," I answered. The medication they were giving me was making me very sleepy and I did my best to keep my eyes open.
Hannah climbed up on the bed beside me. "Don't worry I'll make you better." Hannah gave me a hug and I smiled. I couldn't wait until Jenna was old enough to say that to me.
"Hannah why don't we let Jamie rest," Syd said.
"NO I WANT To STAY WITH HER!!" Hannah yelled.
"OK OK keep your voice down," Syd scolded. She turned to Landon. "I need to go get checked in at a hotel. Could you watch her?"
"Sure," Landon said.
Syd waved and walked out of the room. Hannah laid down beside me and I put my arm around her.
"Jamie I'll be right back," Landon said. "I've got to go use the restroom."
I nodded sleepily and he walked out of the room. I felt my eyes begin to close and suddenly it felt liek I was spinning in a world pool.
"Jamie," somone was calling. It sounded a lot like Hannah. I tried to respond but couldn't. Finally I settled into a welcoming darkness.