Separating Despite of Love
by Rien
Chapter One: Separation of Souls
"I think we need to break up..." he said. I can't believe it. It was the day before valentine's day and we're talking about breaking up. He explained everything about people who would know and degrade us. I just nodded but didn't respond. I kne that I can not trust my voice to respond. Something inside me is breaking and I know it was my heart and my soul. I wanted to cry but my tears are holding back. Why, why, why, WHY, WHY, WHY?! My mind and my heart is asking it over and over again. Why do you want this? Don't you love me anymore? Do you have someone else?! I look at you as you explained your reasons. I only nod as if I were a robot in your command, a dog on a leash that would comply with all your wishes. I guess, I am. My love for you is too much that I'm willing to let you go and be happy.
"...So... I only think that but I'm giving you the decision..."
"Decision of what?" I ask, confused.
"The decision when you want to part..."
I bowed my head and think about it. I honestly want him to be the one who say when it's over. I don't trust my judgment.
"Ok... I'll say it when it's over..." I simply said and stood up. I smiled and said nothing once again. He gave me his smile again. At lease he smiles at me, I said to my heart. I walked towards my classroom with a heavy heart. And the rest of the afternoon dragged on.
It's a good thing that we don't have any practice for today. I can assess everything and make a decision. I went home that day, with tears threatening to fall. I cried that night but I knew I have to let him go. I knew that he would be very sad if i didn't do it. I love him too much to be selfish. Besides, I will never happy if he is not happy as well. I cannot force him into this relationship.
I wrote him a letter that night. Tears spilling as I write what I feel and what I think. I woke up early the next day to buy some flowers, the last flowers I'm going to give him. I laughed as I tied the ring on the ribbon of the flowers. I remembered that I was too coward to give it to him. It's a silver ring that has hearts engraved on it. No stones or anything on it, just the hearts and my name on it. I wrote on the letter that my heart belongs to him whatever happens. Only time would change it. I told him as well that we are still friends whatever happens.
I went to school with a smile. I didn't want people to suspect. I didn't want them to say anything like 'I told you so' or 'you are not meant to be'. I placed the flowers on my locker in the gym. It would be a surprise to him. The usual morning dragged on as well as the afternoon. The practice wenton as usual but without bickering.
"Sakuragi, pass the ball!" Gori said. I passed it without hesitation to Rukawa. We played with a communication that the only two of us comprehend. I guess that's the difference between lov~.. 'ex'-lovers. I smiled at the thought. The practice game ended with us winning over the seniors. I sand my Tensai song to irritate Gori and the others.
"Sakuragi, stop singing alreadY!" Micchy said. I laughed out loud as they gritted their teeth because of my singing.
"Hey, Micchy, don't worry about Sakuragi, he's just happy because it's Valentine's day! A day for lovers!" Ryochin said. I blushed as the word lover came out of his lips.
"At least I have a lover!! Nyahahaha!" I said out loud... 'until today that is...' I whispered to myself. I laughed all the way to the cubicle.
I took my time in washing myself and dressing up. I wanted to talk to Rukawa alone. I saw him dressing as I got out of the showers. I dressed as well, silence defeaning. I opened my locker and grabbed the flowers and thrust it infront of Rukawa. He was obviously surprised with the flowers. Before he could say anything, I grabbed my bag and ran.
"You are are a coward Hanamichi!" I said to myself.
by Rien
Chapter One: Separation of Souls
"I think we need to break up..." he said. I can't believe it. It was the day before valentine's day and we're talking about breaking up. He explained everything about people who would know and degrade us. I just nodded but didn't respond. I kne that I can not trust my voice to respond. Something inside me is breaking and I know it was my heart and my soul. I wanted to cry but my tears are holding back. Why, why, why, WHY, WHY, WHY?! My mind and my heart is asking it over and over again. Why do you want this? Don't you love me anymore? Do you have someone else?! I look at you as you explained your reasons. I only nod as if I were a robot in your command, a dog on a leash that would comply with all your wishes. I guess, I am. My love for you is too much that I'm willing to let you go and be happy.
"...So... I only think that but I'm giving you the decision..."
"Decision of what?" I ask, confused.
"The decision when you want to part..."
I bowed my head and think about it. I honestly want him to be the one who say when it's over. I don't trust my judgment.
"Ok... I'll say it when it's over..." I simply said and stood up. I smiled and said nothing once again. He gave me his smile again. At lease he smiles at me, I said to my heart. I walked towards my classroom with a heavy heart. And the rest of the afternoon dragged on.
It's a good thing that we don't have any practice for today. I can assess everything and make a decision. I went home that day, with tears threatening to fall. I cried that night but I knew I have to let him go. I knew that he would be very sad if i didn't do it. I love him too much to be selfish. Besides, I will never happy if he is not happy as well. I cannot force him into this relationship.
I wrote him a letter that night. Tears spilling as I write what I feel and what I think. I woke up early the next day to buy some flowers, the last flowers I'm going to give him. I laughed as I tied the ring on the ribbon of the flowers. I remembered that I was too coward to give it to him. It's a silver ring that has hearts engraved on it. No stones or anything on it, just the hearts and my name on it. I wrote on the letter that my heart belongs to him whatever happens. Only time would change it. I told him as well that we are still friends whatever happens.
I went to school with a smile. I didn't want people to suspect. I didn't want them to say anything like 'I told you so' or 'you are not meant to be'. I placed the flowers on my locker in the gym. It would be a surprise to him. The usual morning dragged on as well as the afternoon. The practice wenton as usual but without bickering.
"Sakuragi, pass the ball!" Gori said. I passed it without hesitation to Rukawa. We played with a communication that the only two of us comprehend. I guess that's the difference between lov~.. 'ex'-lovers. I smiled at the thought. The practice game ended with us winning over the seniors. I sand my Tensai song to irritate Gori and the others.
"Sakuragi, stop singing alreadY!" Micchy said. I laughed out loud as they gritted their teeth because of my singing.
"Hey, Micchy, don't worry about Sakuragi, he's just happy because it's Valentine's day! A day for lovers!" Ryochin said. I blushed as the word lover came out of his lips.
"At least I have a lover!! Nyahahaha!" I said out loud... 'until today that is...' I whispered to myself. I laughed all the way to the cubicle.
I took my time in washing myself and dressing up. I wanted to talk to Rukawa alone. I saw him dressing as I got out of the showers. I dressed as well, silence defeaning. I opened my locker and grabbed the flowers and thrust it infront of Rukawa. He was obviously surprised with the flowers. Before he could say anything, I grabbed my bag and ran.
"You are are a coward Hanamichi!" I said to myself.