Separating Despite of Love
by Rien
Chapter Five: Reason of Loving You
I love him still and he loves me in return. What a weird thing to happen between friends, don't you agree? And yes, we are still firends. We still play one-on-one with each other and he still teaches me how to play better. I'm contented with the feeling of closeness with the man I love even if we are only friends. I do understand him when he said that we must separate. I think he's afraid of the experience of falling for someone. To experience the drowning feeling of love. I know there is still the hope of getting back together and I'm waiting for that time to come.
After practice, we walk home together as always and sometimes we stop by the court to play a little game. And the game would be either tie or Rukawa would win.
"That's unfair Kitsune! ou cheated! Nobody can beat the Tensai!"
"Do'aho.." I smiled at the old joke and we continue our way home.
Those are the usual things we do. We usually hangout together even if the Sakuragi Gundan are there. Sometimes I go to his house, sometimes the other way around.
An extra training was given to me by Gori. Like the Tensai needs it! The training is composed of three pointers and defence. He said that I would impove a lot if I master these techniques.
"Kitsune, you can go home now, you don't have to wait for me..." I said while grabbing the ball once again to practice two pointers.
"Hn. I'll wait for you in the locker room.."
I wanted to retort something about kitsune and their stubborness when he smiled and walkd towards the locker room. Time like these I wanted to kiss those lips again like the time when we were together. I shook my head and concentrated on the task at hand: shooting three pointers.
"99.... 100... DONE!" I said smiling to myself. I mastered the three pointers. Maybe tomorrow I can show off to Gori that his silly training is just easy as pie for the Tensai!
I grabbed the ball and placed it in the basket where the balls supposed to go then proceed to the locker room where Rukawa is waiting for me. Before I opened the door, I heard shouting voices that sounded like arguing. I opened a crack and saw that Rukawa was seating on the bench and someone is shouting at him.
"I thought I had a chance!" someone said. It's a voice of a girl. The girl walked towards Rukawa and I saw that it was Haruko in a very bad mood.
"Hn"
"You aprove to that date! You can have feelings for me!!!" she rambled. Obviously, Rukawa was not listening.
"I know you can love me too! Give me a chance!"
I sat beside the door while listening to the rambling of the girl inside, persuading Rukawa that he really loves him and she can make him forget about us. I hugged my knees and placed my head on it.
"I know you don't love him! I know you just pity him because no one wants to accept him! Because no one wants him! How can you be in love with a loud, insensitive, violent jerk!?!?!"
My head snapped up as I heard those comments. Am I really like that? Does Rukawa only felt pity for me not love? Tears started to form in my eyes.
"What the hell are you talking about? Don't you think I know the difference between love and pity?!? Do you know why I love him? I love him because he's the only one that can understand me and I love him because he's the only one that makes me laugh. I love him because despite the insults we gave each other and the punches that we receive from each other, we still are together."
His anger was clearly in his voice. I stood up and blink away the tears. I wanted to end this thing before someone might say something that they would both regret. I braced myself and opened the door. Both of them looked at me with surprise.
"Ne, Rukawa, I'm finished with the training..." I said and looked at Haruko. I smiled with my warmest smile.
Rukawa stood up and grabbed my wrist and dragged me towards the gate of the school. He released me and smiled.
"Let's go home Do'aho..."
by Rien
Chapter Five: Reason of Loving You
I love him still and he loves me in return. What a weird thing to happen between friends, don't you agree? And yes, we are still firends. We still play one-on-one with each other and he still teaches me how to play better. I'm contented with the feeling of closeness with the man I love even if we are only friends. I do understand him when he said that we must separate. I think he's afraid of the experience of falling for someone. To experience the drowning feeling of love. I know there is still the hope of getting back together and I'm waiting for that time to come.
After practice, we walk home together as always and sometimes we stop by the court to play a little game. And the game would be either tie or Rukawa would win.
"That's unfair Kitsune! ou cheated! Nobody can beat the Tensai!"
"Do'aho.." I smiled at the old joke and we continue our way home.
Those are the usual things we do. We usually hangout together even if the Sakuragi Gundan are there. Sometimes I go to his house, sometimes the other way around.
An extra training was given to me by Gori. Like the Tensai needs it! The training is composed of three pointers and defence. He said that I would impove a lot if I master these techniques.
"Kitsune, you can go home now, you don't have to wait for me..." I said while grabbing the ball once again to practice two pointers.
"Hn. I'll wait for you in the locker room.."
I wanted to retort something about kitsune and their stubborness when he smiled and walkd towards the locker room. Time like these I wanted to kiss those lips again like the time when we were together. I shook my head and concentrated on the task at hand: shooting three pointers.
"99.... 100... DONE!" I said smiling to myself. I mastered the three pointers. Maybe tomorrow I can show off to Gori that his silly training is just easy as pie for the Tensai!
I grabbed the ball and placed it in the basket where the balls supposed to go then proceed to the locker room where Rukawa is waiting for me. Before I opened the door, I heard shouting voices that sounded like arguing. I opened a crack and saw that Rukawa was seating on the bench and someone is shouting at him.
"I thought I had a chance!" someone said. It's a voice of a girl. The girl walked towards Rukawa and I saw that it was Haruko in a very bad mood.
"Hn"
"You aprove to that date! You can have feelings for me!!!" she rambled. Obviously, Rukawa was not listening.
"I know you can love me too! Give me a chance!"
I sat beside the door while listening to the rambling of the girl inside, persuading Rukawa that he really loves him and she can make him forget about us. I hugged my knees and placed my head on it.
"I know you don't love him! I know you just pity him because no one wants to accept him! Because no one wants him! How can you be in love with a loud, insensitive, violent jerk!?!?!"
My head snapped up as I heard those comments. Am I really like that? Does Rukawa only felt pity for me not love? Tears started to form in my eyes.
"What the hell are you talking about? Don't you think I know the difference between love and pity?!? Do you know why I love him? I love him because he's the only one that can understand me and I love him because he's the only one that makes me laugh. I love him because despite the insults we gave each other and the punches that we receive from each other, we still are together."
His anger was clearly in his voice. I stood up and blink away the tears. I wanted to end this thing before someone might say something that they would both regret. I braced myself and opened the door. Both of them looked at me with surprise.
"Ne, Rukawa, I'm finished with the training..." I said and looked at Haruko. I smiled with my warmest smile.
Rukawa stood up and grabbed my wrist and dragged me towards the gate of the school. He released me and smiled.
"Let's go home Do'aho..."