Sunday January 1st 1978

New Years Day.

Dreadful day.

After Dumbledors lovely fireworks last night, we went back to the boys dorm for irresponsible underage teenage binge drinking. Sirius had a couple of bottles of whisky, and had somehow managed to get hold of some vodka (nasty stuff), and we started doing shots. My memory of anything that happpened after Sirius handed me my first vodka shot is pretty hazy.

I woke up this morning in James's bed, drooling into his pillow. He was sprawled on the floor with his head on Peters foot, while Sirius was wide awake noisily trying to find something to ease his hangover. A bit later, at his mad suggestion that we should all go down to the hall and eat a proper breakfast of bacon and eggs, I threw up on James shoes. Fortunatly, it's impossible to disgust the boys, but after that it was just too humiliating to stay.

I was just heading through the common room to my dorm for a nap when McGonogal came in and hurried over.

'Miss Evans! Where have you been? Have you forgotten that you are suposed to tutor Miss Milton every morning this week? She's been waiting for over ten minutes!'

Actually, I had forgotten that I'd agreed to tutor Sally (who's hopeless at charms) as a favour to Professor McGonogal. I managed a weak 'I'll be there in a minute, Professor,' (why must she talk so loud?) while she looked me over critically.

'My Goodness! What happened to you, girl? You're a mess!'

I hadn't had a chance to look in the mirror yet, but if the boys are anything to go by, I would have been displaying definite signs of party wear-and-tear.

'All night study session.' I lied, while thinking 'Oh god that's so transparent. I'm going to be suspended!'

I wouldn't have beleived what happened next if I hadn't seen it with my own eyes. Maybe it was a late christmas miracle? She gave me a knowing look, opened her mouth to start telling me off, and then appeared to change her mind.

'I see,' she said, 'Well, studying is no excuse to forget your responsibilities. Get cleaned up. I expect you to be in the transfiguration classroom with miss Milton in ten minutes. And I don't want you studying all night again. It's not good for you, and next time I will have to take action. Do I make myself clear?'

Completely astonished, I said, 'Yes, professor,' while she swept away out of the common room.

What followed this was two painful hours of trying to teach Sally how to do a summoning charm, with most of her objects dropping halfway through their flight, except for the blackboard eraser that managed to hit me in the back of my already throbbing head.

When we entered the great hall for lunch, the boys were deep in conversation, and I swear I'm not being paranoid, but they all stopped talking the second they saw me. This sort of thing continued for the rest of the day, with James beeing unually quiet, Sirius giving him knowing looks that made James blush, and Peter obviously trying not to laugh. I got increasingly worried and nervous, and eventually cornerd Sirius when the other two went off to the library.

'Sirius, what on earth is going on with you three today?'

He started to grin at me. Sirius loves to be the bearer of bad news.

'Lily, I'm sure I have no idea what you're talking about.'

'Come off it, Sirius. Just tell me. Then I won't have to throttle you.'

'You are grumpy when you're hungover, aren't you?' Seeing the murderous look on my face, he went on, 'I wouldn't like to make you any angrier. I'll tell you, but I don't think you're going to like it. You don't remember anything that happened last night at all, do you? So you don't remember snogging James for about five minutes in the corner?'

'I - What?'

'Yup. I thought we'd have to prise you two apart with a crow bar, but you actually stopped because you had to puke on the carpet, and then pass out.'

I sat down, buried my head in my hands, and said 'Sirius, if you are lying about this, I am going to rip your head off and stuff it up your arse.'

He laughed at me and said, 'Don't worry, Lily. James doesn't remember it either.' at which point I was no longer able to stomach the embarrassment, and fled up here again. Oh god. Cannot believe it.

I have had my first kiss and I do not remember it.

I have kissed James and I do not remember it.

I have thrown up in front of James twice in one day.

James doesn't even remember kissing me! I am forgettable! And also, probably a tramp.

Cannot believe it. I will write my new years resolutions, and then write to Jo.



New Years Resolutions.

I will not drink ever ever ever again in my life.

If I do, I will not snog anyone.

I will not get annoyed with any of the following people, no matter how irritating they are sometimes: Becca, Sirius, Petunia, Sally Milton, Lisa in Hufflepuff, Angus Jones, Snape, Peter.

I will do all homework early, and not leave it to the last minute and have to stay up all of the night before it's due, and burst into tears at three in the morning because I'm so tired.

I will do better in potions, and as a head girl.

I will learn to be patient.

I will find all the library books I've lost and return them.

I will not obsess over boys in general, and James in particular.





Authors notes.

Sorry this took so long! I've had writers block again.

I'm thinking of changing the chapters system, so I put more than one day in a chapter. What do you think?

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