He drove me to do this. To sit in the front of my familys car, garage
closed, engine on. He did this to me and my sisters. How could I have
fallen for such a dick? The only good thing that came from me loving
him was the realization that life is worth something, even my sheltered life.
Not anymore, not since we were locked up, locked up from the outside world,
the world i took advantage of when i could still go out and have
a little fun. But no! Not the Lisbon girls, we couldnt have fun anymore.
All because of me, Lux Lisbon... the funny thing is, is that my sisters
never blamed me... not once. It was like they knew it was going to
happen one day, one of us was going to set off the parental alarm
and we'd be locked up. So no one got mad at me, no one said anything.
It was quite ideal actually because they knew what i did and they
wouldnt dare say anything because id been more experianced than
they had. I loved it infact. Mary actually asked me once what it had been
like, sex.... but i wouldnt tell her anything except for she had to experiance
it for herself. I even invited her to the rooftop one time but she said she'd
rather wait. Mary was the only concern i had for this whole Suicide plan...
that she wouldnt do it because she was jelous of me. Not phisically but
emotionally. I knew what it had been like to love someone and she hadnt!
She gave in, it was a battle, but she finally gave in. I think im leaving now.
So To Trip, the guy who ruined me and my sisters life, Thank you.
Lux Lisbon