Disclaimer: Sailor Moon and characters do not belong to me, but since they
ignored Darien so much, I get to play with him.
Reasoning:
I didn't expect to see any of the girls yesterday, and I didn't. They probably took the day off and slept. I went over to the arcade and hung out with Andrew, I'm not going to avoid Serena any more. When Rini didn't come over today, I thought they might be meeting at the temple, so I went by. No one was there except Chad. He told me Raye was at Serena's because Rini was sick.
Rini is sick. I can't visit. I can't even call. Again, I am left in the dark to wait.
'Face your fear', Sensei Caine's words come back to me. It is time to think about my dream. What could it really mean? A dream of marriage could mean fear of commitment, but I'm not afraid of that. It would be a long time before we could get married anyway. Why send warnings now? I want only to be by her side. The other thing marriage means is intimacy. "Stay away." How would being intimate (and I have been sorely tempted, I'll admit) be a danger to her and the world? The danger to me is obvious: her father would kill me, and four Scouts would trash what was left.
In my dream, she is in an explosion. Why does she not transform and protect herself, unless she can't. In legends, one must be a virgin or celibate to wield great magic. Is that it? The Princess didn't seem to be under such restriction, but then what do I really recall? Dreams of dreams? And the Queen had the Crystal. Just as TM stood by so Sailor Moon could learn to fight, do I need to 'stay away' while she learns to control the Crystal? Her powers have increased in the past year, but Queen Serenity had greater. I would accept those conditions just to be by her side again, to hear her laugh, to see her smile and sparkling eyes, if that is the reason. Maybe I should talk to Artemis.
Anyway, who knows what the future holds? Perhaps I should defy my dream, because what has following it got me? Peter is right: I am hurting her, I am losing her. Face your fear, Dare.
AN: I know that in the manga, there are hints that Serena and Darien are lovers, but this is based on the anime where they aren't. The reason presented for the 'Dream' is confusing. (Was it jealousy or a test of their love?) I prefer this.
I was inspired to this reasoning by Marion Zimmer Bradley's Darkover series. In it, the ruling class can control psi power using star-jewels as a focus. Most only use small, personal jewel, but some, mostly young women, have stronger talents and are trained to gather and focus the power of others using a larger matrix jewel. (Much as Sailor Moon does.) The one in control, the Keeper, must be celibate since the channels for both sex and psi energies are the same and they need to remain clear or it causes illness, even death. (If a man is Keeper, he becomes impotent- no accidental crossing of energies.) There has been married Keepers (The Forbidden Tower) but they are the rarity and are very careful.
Using psi powers also takes a great deal of energy that needs to be replenished by eating a lot, especially sweets. (Another Serena trait.) There are no fat Keepers.
Reasoning:
I didn't expect to see any of the girls yesterday, and I didn't. They probably took the day off and slept. I went over to the arcade and hung out with Andrew, I'm not going to avoid Serena any more. When Rini didn't come over today, I thought they might be meeting at the temple, so I went by. No one was there except Chad. He told me Raye was at Serena's because Rini was sick.
Rini is sick. I can't visit. I can't even call. Again, I am left in the dark to wait.
'Face your fear', Sensei Caine's words come back to me. It is time to think about my dream. What could it really mean? A dream of marriage could mean fear of commitment, but I'm not afraid of that. It would be a long time before we could get married anyway. Why send warnings now? I want only to be by her side. The other thing marriage means is intimacy. "Stay away." How would being intimate (and I have been sorely tempted, I'll admit) be a danger to her and the world? The danger to me is obvious: her father would kill me, and four Scouts would trash what was left.
In my dream, she is in an explosion. Why does she not transform and protect herself, unless she can't. In legends, one must be a virgin or celibate to wield great magic. Is that it? The Princess didn't seem to be under such restriction, but then what do I really recall? Dreams of dreams? And the Queen had the Crystal. Just as TM stood by so Sailor Moon could learn to fight, do I need to 'stay away' while she learns to control the Crystal? Her powers have increased in the past year, but Queen Serenity had greater. I would accept those conditions just to be by her side again, to hear her laugh, to see her smile and sparkling eyes, if that is the reason. Maybe I should talk to Artemis.
Anyway, who knows what the future holds? Perhaps I should defy my dream, because what has following it got me? Peter is right: I am hurting her, I am losing her. Face your fear, Dare.
AN: I know that in the manga, there are hints that Serena and Darien are lovers, but this is based on the anime where they aren't. The reason presented for the 'Dream' is confusing. (Was it jealousy or a test of their love?) I prefer this.
I was inspired to this reasoning by Marion Zimmer Bradley's Darkover series. In it, the ruling class can control psi power using star-jewels as a focus. Most only use small, personal jewel, but some, mostly young women, have stronger talents and are trained to gather and focus the power of others using a larger matrix jewel. (Much as Sailor Moon does.) The one in control, the Keeper, must be celibate since the channels for both sex and psi energies are the same and they need to remain clear or it causes illness, even death. (If a man is Keeper, he becomes impotent- no accidental crossing of energies.) There has been married Keepers (The Forbidden Tower) but they are the rarity and are very careful.
Using psi powers also takes a great deal of energy that needs to be replenished by eating a lot, especially sweets. (Another Serena trait.) There are no fat Keepers.