Title: Walking Away
category: JC/JMC
summary: Carter leaves.
song: Walking Away - Craig David
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
***********************
His defense, he decided, was ignorance.
He knew all about having his heart broken. He'd heard stories
about falling out of love, but it was something he couldn't
even really fathom.
That was until Carter fell out of love.
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I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
***************************
She was still beautiful.
He stood at the foot of the bed, watching her sleep. Sleep was
the only time she ever looked at peace.
He had tried so hard, he told himself over and over as he
threw a couple of folded shirts into the leather bag he had
chosen.
He didn't mean to hurt her. Hell, he didn't want to break her
more than she was already broken.
That's why he couldn't say goodbye.
**************************
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
**************************
He'd given up a year. Focused everything in his world on her,
because he'd finally won. He had wanted her so badly, he'd been
blinded to the possibility of someone else loving him.
Everything glittered,until it turned tarnished. He realized she
didn't smile. She rarely laughed. And that was more painful
than realizing he had been blinded.
Blind and ignorant.
Carter lay the final pair of pants on the top of the bag,
and zipped it shut. He didn't touch anything else. He had given
up on her, and those things. They weren't his anymore.
******************************
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
*******************************
He left the bedroom door open a crack, trying so hard
not to make any other noises.
He knew that if she had woken up, it might be the one time
she let him watch her cry.
He held the keys so hard in his hand, the metal
dug into the pale skin.
Any harder and he would have drawn blood.
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some people don't wanna cpomromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady
********************************
"John?" her voice was scratchy from sleep."Hey"
It was out of panic he called her. Panic because he knew
that leaving would mean he was alone. He never knew how
to be alone. There was always someone to listen to him,
someone to comfort him.
"Did I wake you?"
She cleared her throat. By the rustling coming from
the other side of the phone,he could picture her wrestling
with her sheets, yawning, and rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
"No..no, I was awake. I'm on call, in like 15 minutes"
She never lied to him. Except when she was afarid of him.
"Is everything alright John?"
"I'm leaving" Carter spat out,"Tomorrow"
There was silence on her side of the phone. He could have sworn
then he could hear his heart racing in his ears.It wasn't supposed
to feel this scary.
"You want me to come with you?"
He never had to really say what he wanted. She just seemed to
know.
"Come get me after work"
****************************
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
*****************************
He avoided her at dinner. He listened to her chattering, smiled
at her cues. There was no way he could pretend everything was
alright. It was all he could do to not cause a scene.
He had fallen out of love. It was all one sided now. She initated
every touch, every kiss.
Carter rested his head in his hands and watched her.
****************************
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
*****************************
He left the television on while she got ready for bed.
He listened as she left the bathroom door open, and
had the shower running. There was just no more stirring
deep inside. Nothing drawing him to follow her.
Dark would be his salvation.
Carter focused on the many silent mouths in front of him.
*****************************
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
******************************
It had to be one time the wind didn't send chills down his
spine, he figured, racing down the near empty streets.
He liked taking deep breaths, letting the heavy wind
take his breath.
He didn't need to breath on his own, he decided, as he kept
driving. Maybe that would make this easier.
The lights of the hospital loomed ahead. More than ever..
He didn't want to breath on his own anymore.
*******************************
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady
*******************************
She had a perputual sad look in her eyes. "Hi"
He forced a smile. A smile that showed just how uneasy he
was about this. He could see by her eyes, she felt the same
way.
Jing Mei threw her things in the back of the car, then
slid into the passangers seat.
"Okay?"
She nodded,reaching over to hold his hand.
Carter gave her hand a squeeze, waiting for the dark
to swallow them as he drove towards the highway.
"This is it"
"This is it" he replied.
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I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
category: JC/JMC
summary: Carter leaves.
song: Walking Away - Craig David
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
***********************
His defense, he decided, was ignorance.
He knew all about having his heart broken. He'd heard stories
about falling out of love, but it was something he couldn't
even really fathom.
That was until Carter fell out of love.
**************************
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
***************************
She was still beautiful.
He stood at the foot of the bed, watching her sleep. Sleep was
the only time she ever looked at peace.
He had tried so hard, he told himself over and over as he
threw a couple of folded shirts into the leather bag he had
chosen.
He didn't mean to hurt her. Hell, he didn't want to break her
more than she was already broken.
That's why he couldn't say goodbye.
**************************
sometimes some people get me wrong
when it's something I've said or done
**************************
He'd given up a year. Focused everything in his world on her,
because he'd finally won. He had wanted her so badly, he'd been
blinded to the possibility of someone else loving him.
Everything glittered,until it turned tarnished. He realized she
didn't smile. She rarely laughed. And that was more painful
than realizing he had been blinded.
Blind and ignorant.
Carter lay the final pair of pants on the top of the bag,
and zipped it shut. He didn't touch anything else. He had given
up on her, and those things. They weren't his anymore.
******************************
sometimes you feel there is no fun
that's why you turn and run
but now I truly realise
*******************************
He left the bedroom door open a crack, trying so hard
not to make any other noises.
He knew that if she had woken up, it might be the one time
she let him watch her cry.
He held the keys so hard in his hand, the metal
dug into the pale skin.
Any harder and he would have drawn blood.
********************************
some people don't wanna cpomromise
well I saw them with my own eyes spreading those lies
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights i'm sorry to say lady
********************************
"John?" her voice was scratchy from sleep."Hey"
It was out of panic he called her. Panic because he knew
that leaving would mean he was alone. He never knew how
to be alone. There was always someone to listen to him,
someone to comfort him.
"Did I wake you?"
She cleared her throat. By the rustling coming from
the other side of the phone,he could picture her wrestling
with her sheets, yawning, and rubbing the sleep from her eyes.
"No..no, I was awake. I'm on call, in like 15 minutes"
She never lied to him. Except when she was afarid of him.
"Is everything alright John?"
"I'm leaving" Carter spat out,"Tomorrow"
There was silence on her side of the phone. He could have sworn
then he could hear his heart racing in his ears.It wasn't supposed
to feel this scary.
"You want me to come with you?"
He never had to really say what he wanted. She just seemed to
know.
"Come get me after work"
****************************
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away
*****************************
He avoided her at dinner. He listened to her chattering, smiled
at her cues. There was no way he could pretend everything was
alright. It was all he could do to not cause a scene.
He had fallen out of love. It was all one sided now. She initated
every touch, every kiss.
Carter rested his head in his hands and watched her.
****************************
Well I'm so tired baby
things you say you're driving me away
whispers in the powder room baby
don't listen to the games they play
*****************************
He left the television on while she got ready for bed.
He listened as she left the bathroom door open, and
had the shower running. There was just no more stirring
deep inside. Nothing drawing him to follow her.
Dark would be his salvation.
Carter focused on the many silent mouths in front of him.
*****************************
girl I thought you'd realise
I'm not like them other guys
coz I saw them with my own eyes
you should've been more wise
******************************
It had to be one time the wind didn't send chills down his
spine, he figured, racing down the near empty streets.
He liked taking deep breaths, letting the heavy wind
take his breath.
He didn't need to breath on his own, he decided, as he kept
driving. Maybe that would make this easier.
The lights of the hospital loomed ahead. More than ever..
He didn't want to breath on his own anymore.
*******************************
and well I don't wanna live my life too many sleepless nights
not mentioning the fights I'm sorry to say lady
*******************************
She had a perputual sad look in her eyes. "Hi"
He forced a smile. A smile that showed just how uneasy he
was about this. He could see by her eyes, she felt the same
way.
Jing Mei threw her things in the back of the car, then
slid into the passangers seat.
"Okay?"
She nodded,reaching over to hold his hand.
Carter gave her hand a squeeze, waiting for the dark
to swallow them as he drove towards the highway.
"This is it"
"This is it" he replied.
**********************************
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away from the troubles in my life
I'm walking away oh to find a better day
I'm walking away